I have a deep love for Zhenjun

130.

Whether I live as the young sheath of the companion branch, or live as the Qi Guang Xianjun of Langfeng Palace, this moment may be the most sober moment in my ten years of muddleheaded life.

I'm going to find A Sheng.

I didn't see her body, so I don't believe she just died like this.

good.She must be seriously injured at this time, hiding in the dry mulberry to recuperate, and then she laughed triumphantly while watching me cry for her.

This can be regarded as revenge.

In the past, she was the only one who shed tears for me, but now Feng Shui has changed, and I have also tasted the feeling of grief.

——This taste is indeed not very pleasant. If I had known it before, I would have made her less sad and sad a few times.

I don't know if I haven't seen her for ten years, has she listened to me and practiced seriously?What expression will you make when you see me?Is there more joy, or more anger?Or he got into the bed in a hurry, pulled the quilt over his head, and was angry and didn't want to look at me.

Her anger is always quick to get angry and go away quickly, as long as I give in, she will never be willing to blame me.It's a pity that I was completely wrong this time. Even if she didn't blame me, I couldn't forgive myself.

By the time the pain subsided, I had pulled out countless folds from the quilt beneath me, and it was so messed up that it was out of shape.

Sadly, when I saw this situation, the first thought in my heart was about Fu Qing—he never liked the mess in the house, and he would definitely lose his temper when the time came.

I closed my eyes and remained silent for a long time before I managed to calm down my thoughts, propped myself up, and carefully laid out the quilt, and folded it again.

Fang Lie had a big thing in mind.

Before stepping out of the door, I adjusted my outer robe casually, and then I couldn't keep looking down, and found a gilt token tied around my waist.

This is the token of the East Pole.Last time I used this token to infiltrate Lang Feng, and after that... I never had a chance to return it to Fu Qing.

At that time, I didn't expect that he and I would get to where we are today.It's just that since many words have been spoken, there is no room for turning back, and I can't turn back.

Of course, why should I look back?After today, he probably doesn't want to see me anymore.

I touched the edge of the token with my fingertips, and I wanted to tear it off, but I couldn't do anything.Half of it is due to hesitation, and the other half is due to my hidden thoughts that cannot be explained to outsiders.

With this token representing the identity of the owner of Dongji, it will be much easier to go to Qiansang later.Moreover, if the token is returned at that time, I may be able to take one last look at Fu Qing from a distance.

There is no one in this world more despicable and hateful than me.

Even though I understand that I can't be tempted by him, but thinking of the imminent parting, I still... can't really make up my mind.

131.

Lanyue branches are not used for rushing all the way.Therefore, although the journey to Gansang is not far away, it still took me a lot of time.

At this time, the sun was about to sink, and the sea of ​​flowers in front of my eyes was full of bright golden light, but the figure with the small yellow flowers on the hairpin was gone.In their place were two tall, stern-faced guards.

I was a little bit lost, but I quickly cheered up, took off the waist card, put it in the palm of my hand, and said in a deep voice: "I am here under the order of Master Dongji, please let me go."

I thought that the trip would go much smoother if I took the name of Fu Qing, but unexpectedly, after seeing my face, the two guards winked at each other, and they both attacked me.The attack came suddenly, I didn't notice it for a while, but they restrained my wrist with a golden rope.

Surprised, he tried to use his strength to resist, but his spiritual power was gone.

This money is a scam!

I couldn't show my timidity, raised my face, and reprimanded in a low voice: "What does this mean? How dare you disrespect Dongji?"

"Of course I don't dare." They said in unison, "But you are not from Dongji."

I tried to calm down: "What do you mean? Can the token be fake?"

"The token is really good, and you—" the guard on the left squinted his eyes and looked at me slightly closer, "You can't be wrong. I have seen that portrait more than a hundred times, and there is no way I can admit it wrong. You are what Di Ji is looking for." people."

"Is it Jingshu?" I was stunned.

Why is it her again?

The man didn't answer, but picked up flowers to summon the wind.Riding on the wind, the pure white petals drifted away tremblingly.It's over, he turned his head, saw that I was still struggling, and glared at me: "Only Diji can solve this golden rope, you can't do any tricks, just wait for me obediently!"

I panted slightly, knowing that struggling was useless, and I didn't want to waste my efforts.Not long after, countless fireflies came, accompanied by the crisp ringing of the silver bell, the woman walked out slowly, with a red dress and black hair, and a graceful figure.

She glanced sideways, an inexplicable smile appeared on her face, her red lips parted slightly, her voice seemed to be soaked in honey, and she picked up the final sound: "Brother Shaohe."

Hearing these four words, my whole body turned cold and I was speechless.

However, the guard beside him changed his arrogance, bent slightly, drew a circle on his chest, and said loudly: "Welcome Diji."

She nodded, answered casually, set her eyes on me, frowned and whispered, as if she had been wronged in every possible way: "Brother won't say hello when he sees me?"

"Call Di Ji!" the guard urged sharply.

I moved my lips, but no matter what, I couldn't make a sound.Perhaps in my heart, at this moment, I still prefer to believe... the person in front of me is Jing Shu who accompanied me to watch the stars and flowers on Lin Lang Tian Que, rather than some dry Sang Di Ji.

"It seems that my brother really doesn't want to see me. I'm so sad." She waved her hand to push back the guards, and walked up to me.

Compared with ordinary women, she is tall, even at eye level with me.At this time, she raised her eyes slightly, and looked at me with the dignified gesture of a superior, "Brother's face is so pale, is he still recovering?"

I had no intention of greeting her: "Why do they have my portrait? Is it your order to tie me up like this?"

She smiled noncommittally, and answered irrelevantly: "Of course I know everything about my brother."

Saying that, the tender white fingertips landed on my wrist, rubbed it a few times, and said in a soft voice: "Brother, by now, you should know the pain? If you can't stand it, please ask me, and I will remove the golden cord." .”

The golden rope is really tightly wrapped, I can tell without looking, there should be deep bloodstains.But I didn't feel any pain, I just felt that my body was very cold and my heart was also very cold.

Shrinking my hands back, I avoided her touch.

"That day in Xunfang Palace, I always wanted to ask you a question, but I didn't dare to ask it out."

Jingshu was avoided by me, she looked a little surprised, her hand was in the air, and she didn't let it go for a long time.

"The Jingshu I know can teach me to watch the stars and the moon, and also accompany me to grow flowers and plants. She is pure in nature, straightforward and cheerful. She never smiles like this, and she never talks to me like this."

After a pause, I said, "Are you Jingshu who has accompanied me to watch the stars and serve flowers for ten years? Or, whether in Linlang Tianque or Qiansang, there is no such person as Jingshu?"

Her eyes dimmed when she heard it.After a long while, he sneered, but his tone was completely different: "You are so boring. Others treat you as a show, but you always do the fake show. Well, since you haven't been bound enough by this golden rope, if you want to suffer more, I will Is there any reason not to fulfill you?"

After saying that, a piece of red silk suddenly stretched out from the floor-length sleeves, wrapped around my waist, tied a knot back and forth, and pulled me forward a few steps.

"You..." I didn't care about the embarrassment, my eyes fell on the red silk, and my expression became dazed.

Jing Shu suddenly changed her tone, and said very timidly: "My brother is getting married today, I always want to give my brother a big gift."

Hearing these words, my heart became colder, and I looked at her in disbelief: "The person who pretended to be Ah Sheng that day...was you?"

"Brother is so smart." Jing Shu licked her lips, with a smile in her eyes, "Let me guess. You came today because you remembered the past, and you want to catch up with old friends?"

I felt speechless, not knowing whether to say yes or no.

Seeing that I was silent, she raised her eyebrows and said to herself: "Since you have met me, it is time to meet Ah Sheng."

Along the way, she walked leisurely, stopping in the sea of ​​flowers from time to time, picking off a few flowers and holding them in her hands.After walking in silence for a long time, I followed her through the winding path and headed up the slope.

There is no verdant greenness on this hillside, no delicate spring scenery, only messy weeds growing wantonly.

In addition, there is still an unnamed stone tablet standing abruptly.

I watched Jingshu place the bouquet in front of the stele, and my breath suddenly became short of breath. I was vaguely aware of something, but I didn't want to believe it, so I insisted on asking, "Where is Ah Sheng?"

She raised her hand and pointed to the nameless stone tablet.

"Brother, you don't seem to like the two surprises I gave you earlier. I wonder if the third surprise suits you?"

I didn't dare to look at the stele again, stared at Jing Shu, and hissed: "You are talking nonsense! I didn't see A Sheng's body, I don't believe she just died like this."

Jing Shu sneered: "Now that things are going on, you still have to deceive yourself? If the real body is destroyed, the soul will be scattered, and the body will be destroyed. Where can there be any corpses?"

After the words fell, I fell silent, as if I had become a skeleton that had been weathered for many years.There is no flesh, no facial features, no thinking, and even the sound of the heartbeat can't be found everywhere.

Yes, I was just kidding myself.

I know, I have always known, the destruction of the real body means the destruction of both god and form.

That's why I don't even want to believe that she would leave so simply like Yun Min, leaving me without even a single thought.

"After you ascended, you completely forgot about her. I saw her alone in the Crown God Clan, so I took her back to Qiansang to take care of her. You shouldn't know? Ah Sheng heard that you are not dead. In the past ten years, not a day has passed I wanted to see you. That day, when she learned that you were coming, she was so excited that she couldn't sleep at night, she picked out the best clothes, took over the guard's duty, and waited for you at the barrier early."

No wonder... she will be the one who will lead the way that day.

"It's a pity that at that time, you only pretended to be Qingying Zhenjun in your eyes. She wanted to talk to you more, but you refused."

Why did I have to leave in such a hurry that day?

The red silk on the waist and the gold cord on the wrist were all removed by Jingshu.I lost the restraint, and stumbled a few steps forward, stroking the stone tablet, feeling heartbroken and almost untenable.

"A Sheng, I..."

He obviously wanted to say a lot to her, but he could only utter a few broken syllables intermittently.

Because whether it is "I'm back" or "I miss you very much", it seems too late and too hypocritical to say it now.

After a long time, I managed to calm down and asked softly, "Did she...have anything left for me?"

"Something?" Jing Shu spread out her palms, a blue light flashed, and a smiling wooden sculpture came into view.

"Do you remember this brother?"

"Remember." There was light in my eyes, and I wanted to take it from her hand, but she refused, and took a few steps back holding the wood carving.

"Ten years ago, you knew that the dead end could be broken, but you refused to take Yan Bing, and only left it as a gift to A Sheng, right? Coincidentally, I passed by that day, and I fell in love with it, so I kept it for myself. Yes. Will my brother blame me?"

"How could you—" know that the dead end can be broken?

"I would also like to thank this wood carving." She interrupted me in a cold voice, "That day in the dark layer, when you heard Fu Qing say that he had never been attracted to you, was it sad? But I think...maybe Is he more sad?"

I was stunned: "Why is he sad?"

"I said at the time, this woodcarving, you are not the only one who gave him. You gave me, Yun Mo, and finally he."

"What he regards as treasure is nothing but what you don't want."

"As for the one in my hand, it was a token of love that you gave me before you lost your memory, and you and I were about to get married——I say this, do you think he believes it or not?"

No wonder he... acted so abnormally that day.

"And I told him, if you remember the past, according to your temperament, you will definitely give up on him without hesitation, just like back then. His face at that time was so ugly that I was worried for him. "

Jing Shu paused for a moment, her eyes were slightly cold.

"Even so, when I asked him to choose between the two, he was still hesitant. But for ten years, you let him be so devoted to you. Brother really is a good trick."

How could it be without hesitation?I hesitated.

However, now that I have remembered the past, I can no longer convince myself to be with Fu Qing with peace of mind.

I can not do it.

Thinking of this, my heart twitched and ached again, and my thoughts became clearer.

"Why on earth did Diji do this?" I held back my anger and listed her crimes word by word, "You first took away the wooden figure I gave to A Sheng without authorization, and then you sow discord in front of Fu Qing. Tell me, you What exactly is it for?"

"Why?" Jing Shu repeated my words softly, with a frightening smile on her face.

"Seeing you in pain makes me happy. I have to destroy all the people you cherish in order to be at ease. So, you want A Sheng to live, but I want her to die in your hands. You planted four Offending cinnabar and wanting to form an eternal bond with Fu Qing, I just want you to be unable to be with him forever."

What a big breath.

I laughed back in anger: "Why are you so sure that I will accept Yan Bing?"

She said: "If it was an ordinary time, I would not be sure. But you have been poisoned, haven't you?"

that needle...

I couldn't help changing my face: "Didn't it mean that it will only make people temporarily weak in limbs and unable to speak? After half a stick of incense, the poison will dissipate by itself?"

"After the poison is gone, the main show will begin." Jing Shu pointed to her heart, "All your desires will be infinitely magnified at that moment."

"That's why I told you on purpose that Lihuo is extremely dangerous. You care so much about Fu Qing, so naturally you won't let him go into danger alone. If someone told you at this time that she can help you, would you reject her? "

"So..." I thought for a while, and finally sorted out the context of the matter, "You have been using A Sheng?"

"How to use it?" Jing Shu didn't care, "She voluntarily. It was ten years ago, and it is the same now."

"How on earth did you know that she was ten years ago—" I closed my voice, and the coldness rose from the soles of my feet to the top of my head, "The person who told her that Yan Bing could break the deadlock was you. Since then, you have been Using her?"

"It was originally to exchange her life for yours, so as to save Brother Yun Bai Xiajie from going through such a situation." She sighed, "Who knows that you are so stubborn, and you don't want to appreciate it at all."

"...Why did you treat her like this?" It turned out that everything that happened to Ah Sheng was caused by me.Thinking of this, I felt so guilty, and the eyes I looked at Jing Shu became more and more cold.

"You hate me and want to take revenge on me, so you can do it against me. What's wrong with A Sheng? Why, exactly, did you do this to her?"

Jing Shu shook her head: "There are many things in this world that are much more interesting than simply taking your life. How about killing someone who cares about you, isn't this wonderful feeling?"

I gritted my teeth and said, "Crazy!"

Seeing my furious expression, she smiled even more.

"Wonderful, wonderful. Asheng is indeed my good Asheng. To let me see you like this is a worthy death. I will send someone to renovate this place tomorrow. treat her badly."

For a moment, there seemed to be a nameless hostility all over his body.

I tightened my fingertips, wishing I could take her life on the spot, and use her blood to worship Ah Sheng's monument.This thought was like a flash in the pan, showing its head a little, but I tried my best to restrain it.

As for the uncontrollable anger, they all turned into wind blades at their fingertips and attacked her.It's a pity that my spiritual power is no longer comparable to that of the heyday. With her ability, if I want to hide, it is obviously extremely easy.

Unexpectedly, she had no intention of avoiding it, and let the wind blade slash across her bright and fair face, leaving a deep bloodstain.The fingers painted with Kodan lingered on the bloodstain, and the expression was complicated and difficult to distinguish.

I succeeded in one blow, but I didn't feel satisfied.

"Ten years, even the flowers, plants and trees should have developed some feelings? Don't you feel uneasy when you use her like this?"

"...She is just a half-demon, and she was not born to be tolerated by the law of heaven. I let her die for her own good."

She raised her eyes, and her pupils were full of autumn water.

"How dare you accuse me so righteously and sternly? Didn't you cause all this yourself?"

"What did you say?" I really admire her ability to open her eyes and tell nonsense.

"If you had died in the spiritual fire back then, wouldn't this farce not have happened? Take a step back. On the day of crossing the catastrophe, you might as well be more selfish and choose to abandon A Sheng. To fulfill you, I will pour many years of hard work into water."

"Or, when you leave the Fire Realm, if you don't have to worry about Yu Xin's life and death, you won't accept Yan Bing, and Ah Sheng won't die. No matter what the result is, it's much better than now, isn't it?"

I knew that she was being unreasonable, but I couldn't say a word of rebuttal.

"God has given you many chances, but you are still as stupid and naive as before. You want to save everyone except yourself, so you can't save anyone. It's your own fault that you have come to this point. "

She paused, and then said: "By the way, there is one more thing I forgot to tell you. There is no need for you to use medicine for the punishment of Lihuo. I made it up."

I froze in place, in disbelief: "What?"

"Since there is no record in the ancient books, why do you think that I will know about Yao Yin? It is because you are concerned that you will be confused, so you will not even ask for proof. However, if you have not died once, how can you remember the past? How do you know what pain feels like?"

"Now, can you tell me... how does it feel like to feel the pain?"

"..."

I can't speak.

I only hate that I am too stupid, thinking that I have made the best arrangement, but in fact, I fall into the trap calculated by others every step of the way.Full of anger, he could only swallow it, his throat was burning hot and dripping with blood, and he couldn't make a sound.

Whether it's A Sheng or Yun Min, every life that weighs on me makes me breathless and I can't straighten my back.

Then he took a few steps back, holding on to the stele, and managed to support it.

"I see." I murmured, "If you only want to see me in pain, then you have won, completely. In this situation, should I congratulate you?"

"No." Jing Shu smiled, "I only won half of you now, as for the other half..."

She hesitated to speak, and suddenly looked back.

On the path when I came here, two figures walked over at some unknown time.

One person is holding an exquisite and transparent bamboo bone umbrella to cover the afterglow of the setting sun for the people next to him.Both sides of the umbrella are rolled up with tulle and white silk, and there is a hidden golden light flowing between them.

The man under the umbrella was wearing luxurious clothes, and his hair was as flawless as frost and snow. Half of his face was hidden under the sapphire lotus pattern mask, leaving only a pair of azure phoenix eyes that were naturally affectionate, shining brightly in the twilight.