I have a deep love for Zhenjun

129.

"That day, I didn't prepare a congratulatory gift. The wood carving just happened to fall down, but you saw it... that's all."

Having said that, I closed my voice, and the scene in front of me seemed to have changed, going back to the East Pole thousands of years ago.

That day, thousands of river lanterns flickered on the water, and the bright lights overlapped.

Beside the unknown river bank, under the fiery trees and silver flowers all over the sky, Fu Qing picked up my simple and shabby congratulatory gift, and said with disgust: "It's all in your heart. Forget it."

I really thought it was so difficult for him to accept this gift, but he actually kept it properly until now.

Does it mean...he treats me...

I suddenly didn't dare to think about it any more.

I'm afraid that if I continue thinking about it, I will become his defeated general again, and even without him sending out a single soldier, I would be willing to kneel down and beg for mercy, and let him rub me round and flatten me, without the slightest thought of resisting. .

I'd be really mean.

He treated me like this before, how can there be any affection at all?

In the past at the East Pole banquet, he made it clear that he didn't want to see me, humiliated me in every possible way, and treated me coldly, but now I fell into his hands again, allowing him to take whatever he wanted and trample on me wantonly.

Fortunately, I have remembered everything in the past, and remembered all the things Yun Man has done for me, and I also know that I have sincerely made mistakes all these years.

Shouldn't... make any more mistakes?

I opened my eyes, my throat couldn't stop tightening, but I continued in a cold voice: "You already accepted it at that time, so naturally I can't ask you for it back."

"You said you didn't give it to me, why—" Fu Qing gripped the wooden carving's knuckles harder, "Why are the eyes carved on it exactly like mine?"

exactly the same?How could it not be exactly the same?

When I thought about this, I just felt that this matter was really absurd, and I couldn't help but chuckled in a low voice: "Didn't you meet Yun Mo at the succession ceremony? No one told you that you gave birth to twins and he was very close." Similar eyes?"

Fu Qing's voice was so soft that it was almost inaudible: "So, this wood carving, you originally... wanted to give it to him?"

I am too familiar with his posture of crying like crying and smiling like laughing.

In the past, every time Yun Min was hurt by me, it was like this.I didn't understand it at the time, and now I regret it, but I have no chance to make up for it.

"Not bad." I nodded.

When the words fell, the look in his eyes disappeared.

My heart was almost softened, and I quickly looked away: "Speaking of this, I remembered it. When I first met you, I mentioned to Yun Min... that the eyes of the two of you are very similar. His After listening to it, I asked me, who is better looking, you or him?"

"How do you think I answered?"

"Don't tell me." Fu Qing said, "I don't want to know."

I clenched my cuffs tightly, and with this support, I was able to calm down: "I told him that you are not as good as him."

Boom.The wood carving rolled to the ground.

Fu Qing sat in front of the bed, his figure blending into the splashed ink night.It seems that there is a bit of loneliness and coldness of being alone.

After a long time, he said, "I said it. Whether it's Di Ji or Yun Man, I don't want to care about who you have in mind."

"I can hardly tell. On a whim back then, I obeyed Songxia's words and kept you by my side. In the past ten years, have I been torturing you or myself?"

Hearing this, my heart felt inexplicable pain.

wrong……

I am absolutely sure that I never feel pain.Even when I was gouging out my heart and taking blood, I didn't change my face.

Why at this time, I suddenly recovered my five senses. Every time he uttered a word, I felt a needle in my heart, and there was a slight but sharp pain.

In the end, it was devastated.

Where no one can see, the dilapidated and bloody inside is exposed.

"I'm not too greedy anymore, and all I want is a place in your heart. So... it's not too much, is it?"

With trembling teeth, I managed to squeeze out two words: "Too many."

Not just too much, but too much.

This heart belongs to Yun Man, but I am in Qingdutai, and I have been united with him forever.Every penny and centimeter of this heart is engraved with his mark, and it is absolutely impossible to distribute it to others.

"I don't believe you don't have a place for me in your heart." Fu Qing's cold hand fell on my cheek, telling me to turn to look at him.

It is rare for him to lower his figure, and even his eyes are embellished with affection.

"Li Fire Realm is dangerous and unpredictable. Even if I stepped into it, I was ready to die. If you didn't have me in your heart, how could you be willing to take risks with me? Speaking of which, you actually... saved I die."

Saved his life?

Yes.

On Zhu Zhao's back that day, Fu Qing was seriously injured.In order to save him, I personally crushed the inkstone that Asheng gave me...to pieces.

My teeth were chattering, and my throat made an inexplicable sound, which seemed to be whining.

Ten years ago, she wanted to die for me, and I told her that if there was a glimmer of hope, it would be better to live.

Ten years later, she was still willing to die for me, but I no longer remember her, nor what I said to her.He took her things with peace of mind, and then cut off her life... with his own hands.

I was the one who made her live, and I was the one who made her die.

Even the last person in this world who truly treated me well is gone.

How could I do this to her?

How could I do this to her!

I burst into tears, knowing that I was responsible for this incident, and I shouldn't blame others, but I couldn't stop thinking, if Linlang Tianque didn't have that glimpse, I wouldn't have made a big mistake , and will not be as regretful as today!

The person in front of him, no matter how he looked at it, looked like an evil ghost found from hell, he was hateful and hateful.

I suddenly became short of breath, pushed Fu Qing away with all my strength, and shouted sharply: "Get out!"

In the past, my meager strength couldn't shake him at all.I never thought that today he would actually be pushed staggeringly by me, he took several steps back and leaned against the table to barely stabilize his figure.

Fu Qing clenched his fist to his lips, and restrained himself from coughing a few times.

Only then did I realize that his complexion was morbidly pale, his lips were paper-like, and he looked as if he was about to run out of fuel.

"You—" Are you okay?

I bit my tongue until my mouth was filled with the bloody smell of rust, so that this word of concern did not leak out.

Maybe it's because I've only pretended to be him for the past ten years, so as long as he is sad, I feel the same, and as long as he is injured, I can't wait to replace him.

This habit has been deeply rooted in the bone marrow, and it cannot be changed overnight, but as long as I am given enough time, I will definitely forget him.

"I'm too stupid." Fu Qing coughed anxiously, with occasional laughter, "I know you've always been lying to me. It's not enough for me to stumble once on you, and it's not enough to hit my head badly." Lesson learned."

His eyes were slightly red, but his face was expressionless.

"What do you think of me? A plaything? A plaything that happens to look somewhat similar to Yun Mo?"

"When you forget him, you come to me. When you remember him, you abandon me. What Di Ji said is true. It's ridiculous that I persuaded myself at the time... as long as you come to Lihuo to find me, I'm still willing to come to you again." Give you a chance."

"But what on earth do you—" At the end of his speech, his voice was no longer slow, and he hissed, "What do you think of me?!"

It was as if a prairie fire had ignited in the chest, and the needles and the heart were all burned away, leaving only a handful of ashes scattered.

The overwhelming pain swept over me endlessly, and I couldn't stand the pain, and I couldn't help bending my back a little.

This is what A Sheng told me... It's a pain in the heart.

She hurts because she has no relatives, and hurts because she is looked down upon by others, and now I see Fu Qing sad, it hurts here.

There was cold sweat on my forehead, and my ears were buzzing. It was actually an auditory hallucination. The words that Yun Man told me came faintly——

"This heart is really restless. Every time I see you, it beats very fast, and sometimes it hurts a little, which makes me feel very uncomfortable."

He hurts because he is moved by me.

And I hurt because I was moved by Fu Qing?

I used Yun Man's heart, but fell in love with someone else?Is there anything more ridiculous than this in this world?

Is there anyone more despicable than me?

Hope only hope, it's not too late to take back my heart now.

"...a plaything? Of course not." I said shyly and told him, "Because you are not worthy to be compared with him."

These words should really break his heart.Fu Qing was full of aura, and stood there very tiredly, staring at me blankly for a long time.

When he spoke again, his tone was already indifferent, and he could no longer find a trace of tenderness just now: "If I had been able to kill you that day, I wouldn't have fallen to where I am today."

I lowered my head, not daring to look at him again.It wasn't until the sound of footsteps gradually faded away that he collapsed on the bed and curled his body into his arms.

Fortunately... Fortunately, Fu Qing didn't find out that I was really moved by him.If the moved heart is destined to be taken back, it is better not to tell him forever.

But no one taught me.So I don't know, I really don't know.If the heart is moved, can it be said to take it back... just take it back?