I have a deep love for Zhenjun

153.

Fu Qing couldn't wait for my next words for a long time, and his tone suddenly became cold: "Why don't you speak? Are you dumb? Are you—"

I cut off his words and said softly: "You asked me to be sincere, how could I be willing not to give it to you?"

As he spoke, after pondering for a while, he knew that he was beginning to worry about gains and losses at this time.It's also my fault that I had bad deeds in the past, and I didn't do a good enough job on weekdays, which made him think wildly, which was really not what I wanted.

Stretching out her fingertips, she gently rubbed the back of his hand to comfort him.

"I will definitely give it to you, it's just..."

"Just what?" Fu Qing's attitude softened slightly.

But I hesitated for a long time and didn't say why.

If you want to talk about the past with him, you must mention Yun Man.Indeed, it is the best policy to tell the truth about the change of heart. Since I have decided to stay with Fu Qing, I should not hide anything from him, but when it comes to my mouth, I feel very hard to say it.

He is different from Shi Xin.

He has always cared about the relationship between me and Yun Mo, if I teach him that there is an intangible thin thread between me and Yun Mo as a link——

To be united forever is no child's play.Fu Qing already doubted the truth of what I said, this move is like adding insult to injury, I'm afraid it will push him further away from me.

It's hard... It's hard to connect with him.This is the end of the matter, I really don't want to have another accident.

Thinking of this, I chose to keep my mouth shut and said instead: "It's just not now, but I swear, I won't make you wait too long this time. Zhenjun, are you willing to wait for me?"

After these words were spoken, the atmosphere froze instantly.

He whispered, "waiting for you?"

After the words fell, Fu Qing had already withdrawn his hand, and pushed me away from him again.I felt his resistance, panicked in my heart, and hurriedly raised my eyes to see that he was standing by the bed, his face extremely ugly.

The knuckles holding the sleeves were faintly white, and it seemed that they had exerted great restraint to prevent my body from being torn into pieces.

"No need."

"Zhenjun?" I didn't know which sentence I said wrong, and I was panicked for a moment, and I didn't care about the tears in the corners of my eyes, so I got up and wanted to grab his hand.

But he was indifferent to this, and even stepped back, teaching me to catch an empty space.

"Why do I give you the chance again and again, and humiliate myself again and again?"

He seemed to be talking to himself, and after a while, he sneered again: "If someone else dared to abuse me like this, I would never let him feel better. But when it comes to you, I have tolerated too much, to the point that— —I don’t even know who I am.”

"First, in order to keep you, even if you pretend to be someone else in your heart, I am willing to give up. Then you abandon me like nothing, but as long as you come back to me, I will try to convince myself countless times."

"Give you another chance?"

"What if, this time you really turn around?"

"At this point, I'm actually reduced to the point where I want to come and beg you to love me?" He lowered his head slightly, and his black hair fell down like a waterfall, covering most of his face, and his voice was extremely tired.

"Young She, do you really think that I have to be with you? Forget it, why do you force yourself to stay by my side just because you sympathize with me?"

"Even if I get the sincerity I asked for, I don't care too much."

Not sympathy, how could it be sympathy?How can you be reluctant?

I was annoyed, and my voice couldn't help raising my voice a little: "I stayed by your side, never because of sympathy. Sometimes I am indeed too slow, but at least I can tell what is liking and what is sympathy."

Fu Qing still stood like that, with lowered eyebrows, not even wanting to look at me again.

"I know you care about Yun Mo. I really don't have any love for him. I just feel that I owe him a lot, so I feel very guilty, so when I think of him that day, I force myself to tell you a lot Unpleasant words."

"The past..." I paused, and my tone was difficult, "I don't know how to talk to you, but I really like you. The word "sincerity" doesn't require you to waste words or deeds, and you don't need to be bitter. Please, if I can give it, I may have offered it with both hands a thousand years ago."

"Trust me again, okay? Have you forgotten? I swore it. I would rather die than betray you a third time."

The eye sockets were slightly sore, and looking through the tears, the clear figure was somewhat blurred by the water vapor.

"True monarch?"

Fu Qing remained silent.But I didn't give up, I still called him over and over again, hoping to get his attention for a moment.

If he is willing to look at me, he will understand that my sincere heart has long been hidden in my eyes along with the tears that have not yet shed.

"Look at me."

I don't know how long it has passed, his figure moved slightly, and he slowly raised his face, his hair fell lightly to the sides, revealing a pair of extremely beautiful slightly raised phoenix eyes, the color of which was light and pale.

If you take it out and look at it alone, others will think that the person who can give birth to these eyes must be a hard-hearted, heartless generation.

I don't think so.

If he hadn't been bound by responsibilities and obligations, he would have been a gentle person, and he would never have come to where he is today.

"True monarch..."

After meeting my eyes this time, he finally didn't avoid it in a hurry, and he didn't rush to hide all his expressed affection as usual, so as not to let others find any clues.

The thin layer of floating ice in those light-colored eyes seemed to melt at this moment, releasing countless sparkling water lights.

"In the past, my father and mother often told me that I am the next owner of Dongji, and I should restrain myself and follow the rules in everything, and learn to be patient with myself and not show my emotions."

"I just ignore it, and forget it when I hear it. They want me to follow the rules, so I will commit a few more prohibitions in the East Pole. They want me to restrain myself and return to the rules, so I just don't obey the rules."

"Actually, I am not stubborn by nature, but I just don't like being influenced by others, so every time I see them unhappy, I am happy."

I don't know why Fu Qing suddenly mentioned this to me, but it is rare for him to open his heart to me, and I am reluctant to say every word.

"Everyone has his own aspirations. I don't want to be imprisoned in the East Pole, I don't want to hold a lot of power, and I don't want this good opportunity given by God."

"Everyone is wrong, I shouldn't be like this, but how should I do it." He was silent for a moment, and suddenly said every word, "But you are different from others."

It's not the first time I've heard the love words from Fu Qing's mouth, but considering that he is not drunk now, but sober, the love words are hundreds of times more beautiful than before.

I asked, "What's the difference?"

"I don't know." He looked at me and answered frankly, without even the slightest hesitation.

My throat choked, and the emotions I had already brewed were thrown out of the sky, and even the tears were held back.Sure enough, Fu Qing is still the same Fu Qing, I should never have too high expectations for him.

Sighing softly, she was about to take the conversation, but heard him speak again.

"But you are the only one who looks at me like this. So as long as you speak, no matter what you say, I... want to believe it."

"Obviously I don't like being influenced by people since I was a child, and I really hate this kind of feeling. But if that person is you, being imprisoned in a cage doesn't seem too unbearable."

I was fascinated by what I heard, and felt like falling clouds and mist at this moment, and I couldn't tell what night it was.When he came back to his senses, he had forgotten all the rhetoric, and his mind went blank. Finally, he opened his mouth and called dryly: "True Monarch?"

He and I looked at each other for a moment, and then he seemed to realize what he just said, his porcelain-white face suddenly smeared red, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and his brows furrowed tightly again.

"Shaohe, don't be too complacent. I won't spend another thousand years with you."

"well……"

Just now I thought he was like a piece of wood, unable to bloom. I didn't realize it, but in the end, it was me who was defeated, and I couldn't even speak a complete sentence.

154.

It seems that Fu Qing is really my destined nemesis, as long as I meet him, I will always be helpless, I don't know what to do with him.

In all honesty, this feeling of being controlled by others is really hard to bear.

I clearly don't like it at all, but I don't have the slightest idea of ​​resistance.He even felt that as long as he was with him, even if he was trapped in layers of nets and could no longer find a way out, it would be okay to lose his freedom forever.

Seeing him every day seems to be a good thing.

155.

After that, in the blink of an eye, another half a month passed.

I never slacked off on decocting the medicine, and I was on time every day, personally urging Fu Qing to drink up the medicine, not allowing him to leave even the dregs of the medicine.

He doesn't like to drink medicine, probably because he finds it too bitter.

Seeing this, I begged for candied fruit to feed him, but he refused to eat it.If I was tougher and tried to stuff the candied fruit into his mouth, he would get angry again inexplicably, asking me in a cold voice if I was coaxing him into a woman.

Every time I hear this sentence, I can't help being a little bit ridiculous, so I can only curse in my heart that I will suffer for my face, raise my hand and throw the candied fruit into my mouth, and eat it all in front of him.

Seeing me eating well, he couldn't help but relax a bit, but when he met my gaze, he quickly turned away, his chin almost raised to the sky, just like Zhu Zhao.

Sure enough, what kind of master there is, there will be what kind of mount.

This day, it was already night, and after keeping watch until Fuqing fell asleep, I took the Dongji token on the side and went straight into the Suihan Pavilion. I found several ancient books and read them carefully under the bright light.

After returning the heart to Yun Mo, it shouldn't be fatal.But if I lost my heart, I would turn back into the crown tree that was ignorant of love and ignorant of five senses thousands of years ago.

There must be something in this world that can replace the heart.

However, these days, I have read nearly a thousand books without sleep, but I am still at a loss.

I was hiding something in my heart, I didn't look at the road, and I walked forward in a daze, but when I just got out of Suihan Pavilion, I bumped into someone.

The man exclaimed, and the things he held in his hands rolled to the ground. When he looked closely, they turned out to be many red candles.

I apologized repeatedly, and raised my foot to chase a candle that had rolled away. After finally chasing it, I picked it up, and was about to turn around and hand it to the person——

"why you!"

I was stunned, and then I saw the person's appearance clearly, with a delicate aura, it turned out to be the attendant who followed Yun Mo earlier, who seemed to be called Linggui.

Linggui glared at me, didn't even want to take the candle, turned around and left, and said: "You have touched this candle before, so I won't give it to the master again."

His hostility towards me was obvious, and had been since our first meeting.

I thought a lot, and stretched out my hand to block his way: "I know you, your name is Linggui, isn't it? May I take the liberty to ask, why do you hate me so much?"

Linggui poohed: "Get out of the way, I will feel disgusted if I say one more word with you."

"If you don't speak clearly, I won't let you go."

"Okay." Seeing that he couldn't leave, he simply stopped struggling, stared at me coldly, with a sarcasm on his face, "I hate you, naturally because you are not good to the master. Let me ask you, after you died once, You have clearly remembered everything, why are you still entangled with that Qingying Zhenjun? You are so promiscuous, where will you put the master?"

I was a little puzzled and asked: "He has forgotten his past, and he has a chance to do many things again. Naturally, I should be happy for him. In your opinion, should I still cling to him?"

"Who told you that the master forgot—"

Linggui suddenly stopped talking, and hastily changed her words: "So what if you forget, aren't you the best at stalking? What kind of gentleman are you pretending to be at this time?"

"If I really cling to Yun Mo, I'm not good to him." I sighed and said softly, "Indeed, when the Qiansang tribe reunited with him, I wanted to stay by his side for a moment. Thoughts, but when I looked at him, I only thought of the word 'redemption'."

"If I really stayed by Yun Min's side because of guilt, but I couldn't promise him anything, it wouldn't be fair to him."

"As for Fu Qing, I tried to break up with him, and I also tried to take back my moved heart."

"However, after trying it, I will know that if you are moved, it doesn't mean that you can take it back..."

Hearing this, Linggui looked annoyed, and raised her hand a little higher, as if she wanted to throw all the candles in my face, but she held back herself.

"You're so embarrassed to say it! Isn't this heart given to you by the master? If there is no master, you still count on becoming a fairy? Go and make your dream of a thousand years! It is just to make your wish come true. You can give up even the chance to become a god through the catastrophe, you are really, really shameless!"

As he spoke, he had a nasal voice, as if he was about to cry the next moment.

I was dazed when I heard that, and quickly asked: "Clarify clearly, what is the chance to become a god after the catastrophe?"

Linggui should not.Rubbing his red eyes, he accuses me in a muffled voice: "Master treats you so well! Yet you are still messing around outside! What are you, you are not a heartless person? You were the one who chased after Master back then, and the one who doesn't want Master is still You, has no one taught you to recognize the four characters of beginning and end?"

"...When will I chase Yun Mo and not let go?" Doubts abounded in my heart.But after thinking about it for a while, I vaguely realized something.

It doesn't matter if it's Yun Man or Jing Shu.What the two of them have done to me, if they really want to understand the truth and find the source, I am afraid they will go back to my untraceable past life.

Since I have been reincarnated, I should have nothing to do with my previous life.

What love debts, evil debts, why should they be placed on my head?I am no longer the person I used to be, whether it is compensation or seeking revenge, it is all futile.

"Should you just treat me as someone else? I don't remember all those past lives, and I don't want to remember."

Thinking that everything I am experiencing now is due to the causes of my previous life, I feel irritable and inexplicable, and I can no longer put on a good face.

"The reason why Yun Min did so many things for me is to make up for me in my previous life, right? But I really don't want to accept this kind of love. Logically speaking, he doesn't owe me anything. He shouldn't have said it to me."

"Reincarnation is already a new beginning. Even if they have similar looks, personalities, and voices, so what?"

Speaking of which, I fixedly looked at him, and said in a deep voice, "You are right, this heart was given to me by him. This is a great kindness, and I can't repay it. Since I can't think of how to repay it, then I have no choice but to return this heart to him. From now on, all love, debts and fate will be written off."

"At that time, I hope you will send him a sentence on my behalf—"

"I wish him a happy wedding."

"Ridiculous!" Linggui's expression changed, "The master gave you something, and you can return it if you say it? You are in a hurry to cut off all the ties with the master. You are so cruel and heartless. Do you really think that the master will not be sad?" ?"

"Then what should I do?" I really felt physically and mentally exhausted at this moment, with all kinds of melancholy stuck in my heart, and I didn't know how to relieve it.

"He is very good to me, I am very grateful, and only grateful, nothing else. If he needs my love, I can lie to myself, but do you think... I can really fool him?"

When I was in the Crown God Clan, Yun Mo was connected to my spiritual consciousness, but never peeped into my thoughts.Because he knows me so well that he can see through my mind with just one glance.

Linggui was at a loss for words, her face flushed from holding back.After a while, he threw the wooden plank in his hand at me, took advantage of my distraction, and slipped away.

I hurriedly picked up the scattered red candles on the ground and held them in my arms. When I raised my eyes again, the figure had gradually disappeared into the depths of the sky.

He left so hastily, is there something he is deliberately hiding from me?

After pondering for a moment, I still called Lanyuezhi, intending to catch up with Linggui.But he is Yun Mo's attendant after all, he has figured out this place long ago, but within a short time, I lost him.

156.

When I came back to my senses, I looked around and saw a place I had never set foot before.

If Linlang Tianque was called light, then there would be darkness born from the backlight before his eyes.

Overgrown with weeds and thorns, the old tree branched out with countless dead vines, as if turning into a huge chrysalis, wrapping the dilapidated mansion in front of it.It was originally a desolate scene and a dilapidated image, but red lanterns hung one after another abruptly, as if to show celebration.

The glaring red light reflected in his eyes, and there was only indescribable treachery.

I retreated subconsciously, thinking that I couldn't stay here for long, so I wanted to leave.However, at this moment, there was a subtle voice, sweeping from the wind.

I followed the sound and saw that the voice came from the mansion, and it seemed to be repeating a word over and over again.

"cloud……"

"..."

"cloud……"

Suddenly, there were bursts of sharp laughter, which made my heart tremble and my fingers curled up.

"You are finally willing to come to see me? Quick, quick! Please kill me! Kill me!"

It appears that someone is being held here.

I don't know the situation, so I'd better not meddle in my own business.

Just when I made up my mind, I heard another sentence: "I was wrong before. You see, I am a teacher for one day and a father for the rest of my life. Since I have admitted my mistakes, please show me mercy and give me a happy treat." ?”

The owner of the voice showed weakness at first, but at the end, because he waited for a long time for no response, he cursed angrily: "Speak up! How long are you going to torture me? Respecting the teacher, respecting the way, and the principles of ethics are all swallowed up by you." Into the stomach of a dog? You will have retribution, you will have retribution!"

"Yunmo? Yunmo!"

Hearing the word "cloud end", I froze, called to stop and embrace the moon branch, jumped to the ground, avoided the bushes, and walked to the gate of the mansion.

The owner of that voice seemed to be aware of my aura, and said softly again, over and over again: "Mu'er, I was the one talking nonsense just now, show mercy and kill me."

"I can't live anymore, I don't want to live anymore."

"You won't have retribution, and I should be the one who has retribution. Over the years, I have been praying for you every day, hoping that you will enjoy a prosperous life forever, and that your wish will be fulfilled."

"For the sake of my consideration for you, why don't you give me a good time? Mo'er, Master is begging you."

His tone was mournful and mournful, and his posture was as low as dust.I couldn't listen anymore, so I interrupted him: "I'm not Yun Mo, I just passed by here by chance. Don't beg me anymore, I can't help you."