I have a deep love for Zhenjun

162.

What else was said by that person afterwards, I didn't listen to a single word in my heart, and I didn't dare to distract myself from listening. I staggered forward and groped for a long time before I found a gap in the formation.

Because of Yun Man's real body, I was able to come in and out of this place without hindrance, stepping forward, and raising my eyes again, the surroundings were completely different from the decadent scene just now.

Zhanran bamboo sea, green shadows whirling, full of vitality.

Seeing the long-lost bright light, I just want to run forward, leaving all the darkness and embarrassment behind.

However, every time I took a step forward, my steps became heavier. In the end, I was so exhausted that I couldn't move any more. I leaned against the edge of a tall and straight bamboo, lost in thought.

I am afraid of the dark, and I hope to be with the light forever, but I don't want to fall into the abyss forever.But now the light is only one step away from me, why do I feel like it is separated by thousands of rivers and mountains.No matter how hard I try, I can never get there?

Lanyuezhi communicated with my spiritual consciousness, and made a weak buzzing uneasily. When I heard the sound, I was a little relieved and wanted to stretch out my hand to comfort it.

He raised his hand, only to realize that he was trembling uncontrollably.

I lowered my eyes, not knowing what expression to put on my face, and after a long while, I laughed at myself.

In fact, I know very well that my will is not as indestructible as I imagined.It's not the first time that hostility enters the body.

However, the previous few times, the incoming force was weak, like a stone hitting a deep pool, without causing even the slightest ripple.

Naturally, I didn't take this matter to heart.

But everything that happened today made me tremble with fear and fear.That person only said a few words, and I almost lost control and was about to become a prisoner of evil thoughts. Fortunately, I woke up in time, so I didn't make a big mistake.

This time it was a fluke, but what about the second, third time?

I silently looked at the stretched palm.At this time, the illusion of blood rain was gone, and the palm was pure white without any trace of blood. It seemed that there was still room for redemption.

The breeze blows by, rolling up a piece of tender green bamboo leaf, from top to bottom, swirling with the wind, it just lands on my palm, causing a slight but not negligible shudder.

I don't know why, but I suddenly thought of the words 'I am born to stand up to the Lingyun Festival, and still hold on to my precariousness'.It's really strange, it's clearly the first time I think of it, but I have an illusion in a trance.

It seems like many years ago, I have said this sentence thousands of times, until it is firmly engraved in my flesh and blood.

It is said that everything will come true.If I was born in an ordinary family with a gentle and gracious mother, would it be because she chose this name for me because she was looking forward to me... Even if I am like a duckweed and have no one to rely on, I can still stick to my heart and be forever Unwavering?

I put my five fingers together, held the bamboo leaf tightly, and called out tentatively: "Mother?"

Ears hoping for some response, yet knowing in my heart that I will never get any response.

After a long silence, I raised my head, looked ahead, and told myself that there was no one in front of me, and there was a woman standing there, my mother whom I had never met before.

Although I don't know what she looks like, when she sees me, she will definitely smile at me gently, and maybe say some greetings.

For example: "All these years, how has Heer been? Although mother can't accompany you for a walk, she misses you all the time."

Thinking of this, I felt that I should be content, so I smiled slightly, and answered my own question: "I am fine, you don't have to worry about it."

163.

I don't know how much time I wasted in that formation before, but now I just stood there for a while, and looking at the sky, it is already dark, it seems to be nightfall.

...Wait, is it getting dark?

There was a thump in my heart, and I secretly thought something was wrong.I have encountered too much today, I completely forgot about the matter of decocting the medicine, even at nightfall, I still haven't returned, I'm afraid Fu Qing will have to worry about this again.

Without thinking too much about it, I drove towards Langfeng Palace on Lanyue Branch.Fortunately, the journey was not too far away, and it would not take half a stick of incense to do the calculation.

Zhenxiu parted the sea of ​​clouds, looked from a distance, the outline of Langfeng Palace was already indistinct, and there were a few bright spots on the side, which must be the two glazed sky lanterns that are often hung at the door.

In addition, there seemed to be a black figure.

I rubbed my eyes and took a closer look. It turned out to be Fu Qing. He stood there without moving, as if he had turned into a clay sculpture.

Is he waiting for me to come back?

It turns out that there will be someone waiting for me to come back.

"Zhenjun!" I collected my emotions, smiled just right, and waved my hand at him.

When he heard the sound, he turned his head, looked at me quietly, and said nothing.

While I was happy, I was also a little worried.

Langfeng Palace is located at the mouth of the fairy garden, and the cold wind is even worse at night, he only wears a big black cloak, will he catch a cold?As soon as this idea popped up, I couldn't help laughing at myself for thinking too much.

He is a fairy, not a mortal, how could he catch a cold?

After jumping off Lanyue Branch in one fell swoop, Fu Qing was only a few steps away from me, and only then was I able to take a closer look at his expression.

There was no trace of a smile on that white jade-like face, and a pair of gray eyes were icy cold, as if dark clouds were about to break down, and black clouds were overwhelming the city.

I knew he was angry, and I was unavoidably anxious and panicked. I wanted to throw myself into his arms, hug him, kiss and coax him. It can be seen that there are still two guards behind him, I just wanted to The steps that went out were suddenly stopped, and then slowly retracted.

Although these guards are very knowledgeable and know that they should not pry into the master's secrets, they all keep their eyes on their noses, their noses, their noses, their noses and their hearts, pretending to be blind.

But they're not really blind after all, and I can't be too risqué.

"Zhenjun." I pretended to be reserved, stepped forward step by step, held his hand, and asked cautiously: "Your injury is not healed, so you can't stand there for long, shall we go back to the house?"

Fu Qing let me lead me, neither speaking nor moving.

I couldn't move him, I had no choice but to look back at him and ask softly, "Why don't you leave?"

He looked at me for a moment, then suddenly asked, "Where have you been?"

"I told you earlier, I will go to Suihan Pavilion to find some books." There is nothing to hide, I answered very simply.

"There is no you there." His eyes became colder, and he held my hand with surprising strength, "There is no Fanqiuzhai, nor Xinghuatian. Where did you go?"

I cried out in pain, trying not to push his hand away: "I... strayed into the depths of Tianque, where there is a bamboo forest, which is extremely evil. I spent a whole day wandering around before I found the way out."

Fearing that he would not believe it, he took out the bamboo leaf that was left just now, and waved it in front of his eyes: "Look."

He didn't look at the bamboo leaf, but fell heavily on my face, and didn't leave it for a moment, as if he was exploring, hesitating, and uneasy, and finally returned to nothingness.

The strength in the hand is slowly released.

He looked away, snorted lightly, "You're so stupid." Then he moved forward with his hands behind his back, and went straight into the door.

I trotted to catch up with him and asked, "Is Zhenjun waiting for me? How long have you been waiting?"

"..."

"Is Zhenjun afraid that I won't come back?"

"..."

"If I really leave and never return, Zhenjun—"

Fu Qing stopped suddenly, his back was staring at the night, looking a little lonely.

The center of my brow twitched suddenly, knowing that I had made a slip of the tongue, I immediately changed my words: "What is Zhenjun worried about? As long as I am still hanging on my breath, even if I crawl, I will crawl back to see you."

"I will remember what you said today." He said, "Since you promised not to betray me again, if you break the promise..."

"I will never let you go."

His tone was cold, as if he was threatening me, but I was not too scared. Instead, I followed a few steps forward and hugged his arms firmly: "Beauty Township, Hero Tomb. I am willing to die by your hands."

"You—" Fu Qing was ashamed and angry, and his phoenix eyes gouged me fiercely, "You are not serious!"

I smiled, leaned my head on his shoulder, and mercilessly exposed him: "Don't you just like that I am not serious?"

He snorted noncommittally, and after walking with me for a while, he suddenly spoke and warned me coldly: "You must not do this to others."

I smiled deeper, blinked my eyes, and said, "Okay."

Without the guidance of the bright light of glazed sky lanterns, only stars and moonlight are unintentionally in my arms.The twilight is deep in front of me, but I rarely ignite the fire at my fingertips, and I look forward, and I no longer feel afraid of the dark, and my mood is rare and peaceful.

Instead of always thinking about evasion and patience, it is better to try to calmly face all the suffering and blessings bestowed on me by God, so as to stick to my heart and not be confused by evil thoughts.

The world is vast and boundless, and all living beings are like dust.

But even if you are as small as me, you are no longer alone.

164.

Back in the inner room, I closed the door, pressed Fu Qing in front of the vanity mirror, picked up a wooden comb, put it close to his ear and said, "Don't be angry, I'll comb your hair for you, okay?"

With a pretty face, Fu Qing ordered me in a blunt tone: "Take off the hair crown first." After thinking for a while, he added, "Be gentle."

In the past ten years, I haven't often arranged hair crowns for others, and the movements are inevitably a lot rusty.The last time I was careless, I tore off a few strands of Fu Qing's hair.

He looked at those strands of hair, and although he didn't say a word, I knew that he was so distressed that he was about to shed a few tears, and he must still hate that matter in his heart today.

squeamish.I smiled slightly, agreed with all my mouth, and tried to be as gentle as possible.Perhaps it was because of the previous failures as a lesson, it was much easier to remove the hair crown this time than before.

During this period, although I lowered my eyes, I could feel Fu Qing's eyes staring at me all the time.

Just as I was about to ask him if he had something to tell me, he opened the mouth first and said, "You don't want to go to Suihan Pavilion tonight."

I really don't plan to go to Suihan Pavilion tonight.To be precise, I will not go again in the future, because there is only one way before my eyes, and I have no other choice, and I don't want to make another escape.

"Okay." I put the silver hair crown in my hand away properly, and said in a tender tone, "I will accompany you tonight."

The conscience of heaven and earth, when I said this sentence, I didn't have the slightest thought. I just wanted to spend more time with him before I went to get married.

But Fu Qing didn't know where he thought of, and his face was slightly red.

He lifted his phoenix eyes, and stared at me several times in shame and annoyance. He scolded me harshly at first, and then said over and over again: "You and me are not married yet... No, you can't break the rules."

Is the number of times he violated the rules less?I clicked my tongue secretly, and couldn't help but speak to him a few words: "Before in Fuyu Mountain, when Zhenjun treated me like that, why didn't he think of the word "transcendence?"

Fu Qing was startled, speechless for a moment.

In fact, I know that he is bewitched by a demon, so he has lust|longing for me, and now I bring up the old matter again, just to appreciate his embarrassment.

I've had enough appreciation and was about to change the topic, but he held my hand tightly, hesitant to speak.

I turned around and thought of the plot in the storybook, and my thoughts suddenly turned back and forth.

If he followed those plots, his next sentence would definitely be: "We choose a date to get married." At worst, it would have to be: "I will be responsible for you." Words like that.

I was overjoyed, and the word "good" was already hidden between my lips, just waiting for his order.

Unexpectedly, he hesitated for a long while before saying: "That time at Fuyu Mountain, you have to be responsible to me."

"...I am responsible for you?" I felt a little absurd, and asked him dumbfounded, "Is Zhenjun serious?"

His eyelashes were trembling, and he said in an inaudible voice: "That day, it was... my first time."

This time I will be silent.

Because I really don't understand, the person who was ruined is clearly me, why now it seems that he is more like the spoiled young girl?

But when it comes to him, even if it is an unreasonable request, I will subconsciously compromise.

"Okay, I will be responsible for you."

After getting a positive response, he was satisfied, and urged: "Come on quickly."

I didn't move.

Thinking of what happened to Fuyu Mountain, I felt a little unspeakable restlessness in my heart, and said in a rare and tough tone: "You are not allowed to go to Fuyu Mountain again. Even if you want to go, you can't bring anyone else with you, you can only be with me."

Hearing this, Fu Qing raised his eyes and stared at me from the makeup mirror. After a while, he shook his head slightly: "There will be no next time."

This sentence is unclear, and I haven't realized the deep meaning of it, so he continued: "That formation... is called 'questioning the heart'. In order to find a daughter, Mrs. Xiang made a bet with me. All kinds of causes and conditions, greed, anger, ignorance and arrogance Doubt, she bet that I would not accept it calmly, nor would I live from my heart."

"I couldn't figure it out at that time, so I was born with demons in vain."

"Have you figured it out now?" I asked softly.

Fu Qing didn't say yes or no, but said: "There is no substitute for suffering and happiness. You live and die alone, and you go and come alone, so you can accept it calmly without fear, and live from your heart without fear."

165.

There is no substitute for suffering and happiness?

No, I would like to take over all the sufferings imposed on him on his behalf.

I just hope that in his eyes there will no longer be cold wind, cold rain, and scorching sky, but spring and bright scenery, and a vast expanse of green.

I only hope that one day his wish will be fulfilled, and he will roam the world without any restraint.

Live or die, go or come, I will accompany him, he will never be alone.

I looked at him and moved my lips. There were many things I wanted to say, but the last thing I could say was only one sentence: "Zhenjun, I have no fear."