Sentimental charm

He only took two extra steps, and Xi Chuan regretted why he couldn't resist the temptation of curiosity to get closer to these two steps, or why he shouldn't have come to the playground at all.Guan Lu actually likes Xue Zihan, so the two came to the playground for a date, Xi Chuan suddenly felt disgusted, why should he listen to other people's love words, but it was more of an uncontrollable suffocation.

"Guan Lu is so courageous!" Xi Chuan was stunned the moment Guan Lu said "I, Xi Chuan, you Xue Zi Han", without even noticing that there was a person standing behind him.

"Li Liang, why are you here?" Xi Chuan said in a low voice. Xi Chuan had forgotten Li Liang's evaluation of Guan Lu's courage, and now he just wanted to find a topic to avoid embarrassing himself. Even though it was dark night, Xi Chuan was still afraid that Li Liang would see that he was at a loss.

"Seeing that you are coming, I will follow behind." Li Liang seemed to be cooperating with Xi Chuan, and his voice was so small that only the two of them could hear it.

Xi Chuan took a long breath and didn't know what to say. Xi Chuan didn't know what to do with his frozen heart. Facing Li Liang's pretended shock for a moment, he also followed Guan Lu's sentence. Completely disintegrated in a sentence of confession.

"Let's go back. Don't let them find out, otherwise Xue Zihan will lose face. We don't even know they are dating. It seems that Zihan is deliberately hiding it from me."

Xi Chuan wanted to say something else, but he couldn't even control his own words, one sentence after another perfunctory words stuck in Li Liang's throat, Li Liang didn't say anything, turned around and left, Xi Chuan didn't know that he Why did he lift his footsteps to keep up, and slowly followed behind Li Liang in the same direction like a walking dead.

Guan Lu's Yingying whispers are like flies lingering in the summer, ringing in Xichuan's ears, tired but helpless, as if she is falling asleep and wants to wake herself up from the nightmare, obviously I know what the real world looks like, but I can't always wake up from the nightmare.Li Liang walked very slowly, maybe that's why Xi Chuan could keep up with Li Liang's pace.

"Aren't you going back to the dormitory?"

Hearing Li Liang's words, Xi Chuan looked up and saw that he followed Li Liang back to the place where they met by chance this evening. It was here that he met Li Liang. From his mouth, he learned that Xue Zihan was on the playground, Then Xi Chuan was Guan Lu's confession, Xi Chuan wanted to erase everything, but it couldn't be erased like a brand.

"Oh, I'm going back!"

Xi Chuan didn't ask Li Liang why he came to the dormitory where Xue Zihan and the others lived. Now Xi Chuan doesn't have the extra energy to think about these questions.He turned around and left without even saying goodbye to Li Liang.

"Hey! Xi Chuan, stay with me for a while and go back. I'll look for him later. Anyway, they haven't come back yet."

Xi Chuan knew who Li Liang was talking about, but Xi Chuan didn't want to think about it, "I'll go back first, Xiao Sheng might still be in the hotel, he's drunk, you go get him back."

After Xi Chuan explained Li Liang's words, he didn't turn around and turned away. Originally, he wanted to find Xue Zihan, and after he found it, he and Xue Zihan went to fetch Xiaosheng back together, but now they can't do this together.It should be Guan Lu, Xi Chuan doesn't know what's wrong with him, why he always thinks about it when he wants to forget, even he can expect things that never happened, which makes him feel so uncomfortable.

After returning to the dormitory, Xi Chuan straightened up on his bed. Yin Hao was already asleep, and he had no intuition for Xi Chuan's return. Why didn't he drink more like Yin Hao, so nothing would happen. If I hadn't heard Guan Lu's confession, then I could still face Xue Zihan as before, even as friends, but now I can't.

There is nothing wrong with liking someone, but why do you want to like Xue Zihan, a person who is very different from yourself, a person you don't understand at all, and a person you like after only meeting a few times.At that time, Xichuan hoped that Xue Zihan could feel the same way as him, but Xichuan knew that it was his fantasy, so he buried Xichuan Xue Zihan in the deepest part of his heart.

Thinking of all the things in the past, the things I have done with Xue Zihan are not like things that friends would do at all, and I have never done those things with Yin Hao. Even if Xue Zihan never said that he likes him, Xi Chuan is satisfied and just keeps going like this There's nothing wrong with being friends, but suddenly Xue Zihan has a girlfriend.

Resentment towards himself made Xi Chuan clench his fists, and thinking of the inexplicable kiss with Xue Zihan made Xi Chuan completely uncontrollable and punched the wall.Yin Hao really fell asleep, and the loud noise under the confrontation between the fist and the wall didn't wake Yin Hao up. Xi Chuan couldn't care so much anymore, and even this kind of venting still didn't make the clenched heart feel a little relieved.

The joints where Xi Chuan fought against the wall were scratched, and although no blood flowed down, blood was still oozing out.Xi Chuan can no longer feel the pain, this kind of self-abuse is a little bit of pleasure for Xi Chuan, maybe the pain in the body will share the pain in his heart.What will happen if you just go to sleep like this, will you forget all about it tomorrow?Could all this be a dream?

The heart-wrenching pain is Xi Chuan's tossing and turning, what should I do?Xi Chuan asked himself over and over again, there are plots of dying for love in novels and movies, but how can he talk about dying for love if he doesn’t even have love? I don’t know when Xi Chuan regained his sanity, even though his heart hurts so much now , how sad, tomorrow the sun will rise and I still have to live tomorrow.

Ever since Xi Chuan was sensible, he has watched his mother busily live for life. Even if he didn’t have a penny, he felt that he would not be able to live on tomorrow, but after tomorrow, his mother would still be able to prepare everything for him, so that he could Go to school with peace of mind. Although my mother never told Xichuan about all this, Xichuan is such a smart child, and she can understand everything in her eyes.

Xichuan once swore to the sky that he would definitely make his mother excited in the future, so he must study hard and live up to years of hard work. Xichuan was admitted to the best liberal arts high school in the province with excellent grades, and entered the second grade high school. It means that the university is within reach, and his mother's happy look when she saw the notice has always been remembered in Xi Chuan's mind.

The day when high school starts is approaching, and my mother's joy at that time is also gradually diminishing, and the sorrow that comes with it, the best high school tuition is of course not cheap. In order to surprise my mother, it is not very important whether I go or not, as I can be admitted to university in other middle schools.

Xi Chuan once mentioned this to his mother at the dinner table. At that time, his mother didn't say anything. Among them, Xi Chuan was also happy.But when the second middle school started, Xi Chuan still entered the school gate of the second middle school, with the high tuition fees that his mother got from somewhere.

The moment Xi Chuan walked out of the house, he felt that tears were about to ooze out. Xi Chuan raised his head and looked at the rising sun, and held back the tears that were about to flow. Xi Chuan, who was lying on the bed, was still about to burst into tears Controlled in the corner of the eye.A man does not cry lightly, Xi Chuan upholds his own beliefs, to live a strong life, not only for himself but for his mother, but also to study hard, so that his mother can live a happy life.

The strength oozing out of life made Xi Chuan slowly get up on the bed, went to the water room to rinse the broken joints with cold water, and washed his face by the way. From now on, he will pretend that he has never known Xue Zihan. There is nothing wrong with going back to the past, at least there will be no heartache, and life still has to go on.

Although I have learned to be strong since I was a child and learned to face life with reason, maybe this is what children from poor families have to learn to do. It is said that children from poor families have long been in charge of the family. Although the Xichuan family was once rich, they are sensible in Xichuan The first thing he faced was poverty. Xi Chuan never felt inferior because of this, because it was not his fault, and Xi Chuan never blamed his mother, because it was not his mother's fault. How Chuan wished that he could be able to share more for his mother.

Xi Chuan ridiculously wanted to see what he was like now, whether he was particularly embarrassed, defeated by life, defeated by life because of Xue Zihan, Xi Chuan faced the mirror and smiled, which made Xi Chuan feel I am a little nervous, let's live my life as before.So how should this night pass, the day will start tomorrow, and today I still have to struggle in pain.

Thinking of this, Xi Chuan left the dormitory building and headed for the outside of Ninth Middle School. Xi Chuan didn't know why he had to return to this restaurant. He was afraid that Li Liang didn't come to pick up Xiao Sheng, and it was because of a promise with Xue Zihan that he would go back. , what about Xue Zihan?Xue Zihan is no longer waiting for him. Instead of living a life without Xue Zihan like this, he should let Xue Zihan know that he has returned to the hotel before that. When Xue Zihan asks him one day, he will have reasons to defend himself, even in the face of Xue Zihan, who has never been unreasonable, still has enough courage himself.

Xichuan returned to the hotel and Xiaosheng was still there. It seemed that Li Liang didn't come to pick up Xiaosheng.Xi Chuan smiled coldly, looking at Xiao Sheng who was so drunk, Xue Zihan's friend.Xiaosheng is not bad, but in the future, these people will withdraw from their lives, like passers-by in their lives.

Xi Chuan helped him up in a low voice, and for some unknown reason, Xi Chuan picked up a bottle of white wine on the table by the way.As soon as he walked to the corridor with Xiaosheng, Xi Chuan heard someone coming up the corridor. It was Xue Zihan who spoke, and the cold emphasis was so familiar.And Li Liang, Guan Lu and Xue Zilin should also be there. Xi Chuan panicked for a moment, and Xi Chuan, who had just regained his sanity, suddenly lost his mind.