Adoption relationship

At this time, spring had just begun, and some vegetables were planted in the field.More soil has just been dug for sowing, and the women are removing the weeds in the fields, but the weeds growing on the roadside have no time to take care of them.

The clusters of verdant weeds, with a little dewdrops spewing out from the tips of the leaves, reflected slightly under the sunlight, and were dazzlingly beautiful. The smell of soil and fresh grass tasted perfectly mixed together. Zhang Jianan took a deep breath. , he watched while walking, and then found a place to sit on the ground, half-closed his eyes, enjoying the sunshine with all things.

At this moment, Zhang Jian'an was a little moved, the air, the sun, the plants, the life... He suddenly remembered something so far away in his previous life, and it was Xu Wenshi's hometown when he was a child.

Both sides of the winding path scattered with fine gravels are full of green crops. At that time, there were no villages with roads, and there were not so many concrete buildings in forests. The sky was not so cloudy. Breath, the sun shines brightly on everything on the earth.Thinking about it now, even the sunshine at that time was inexplicably clean.

Ugh

When I grow up, I leave home and run around for survival. I rarely go back to my hometown, and even if I go back to my hometown, I don’t have to rush. When do I have time to watch the changes around me?

When a person is young, he will express what he wants very straightforwardly for the things he likes, and always think of what he wants to do, and make noise when he is not satisfied. When he grows up, he becomes complicated and has more worries. You have to think about everything for a long time, and you have to make choices. Even if you like someone, do you think about whether you like it first?On the issue of going home, no matter how much I usually want to go back and have a look, I always think about making more money, and after a while, work is more important now, etc. In fact, there is really not much to wait for in life.We can talk about it later.

Things are impermanent, maybe in a blink of an eye, there will be no future.

Thinking of this, Zhang Jianan suddenly felt flustered for no reason. In his early thirties in his last life, he thought that after he had many, an accident made him disappear, and his life and life changed.

It has been ten years since I became Zhang Jian'an, and it seems to have come here in the blink of an eye. Now...he is 35 years old, how many future generations will there be in this life?

If you think about it carefully, in your previous life you achieved nothing, and in this life you are also muddled and at a loss about life.It doesn't mean that one must reach a certain height in order to live, Zhang Jian'an doesn't have that kind of energy, but in a lifetime, one must at least have something, at least know why one is alive, and miss a little bit.

Zhang Jian'an seems to be living for Xiang Weiding in his life.The two of them were together the first day they woke up. Maybe Xiang Weiding was relying on Zhang Jianan to live at that time, but Zhang Jianan also needed Xiang Weiding!

There is a person by his side, a person who relies on him, Zhang Jianan found a sense of existence in the dazed new life, and with responsibility, he knows what life is for, so that he does not have to doubt life, fate, or himself Why live!

For ten years in this life, Xiang Weiding revolved around him, so why didn't he revolve around Xiang Weiding?

Feeling inexplicably irritable, Zhang Jianan took out a cigarette, lit it, took two deep breaths, choked on the smoke, coughed violently, almost coughed up tears, stopped smoking, and focused his eyes on the lit cigarette between his fingers. Go up, watching the smoke cloud rise and disperse.

For ten years, I have raised Xiang Weiding for ten years.

Zhang Jianan has always treated him as a child, even after knowing Xiang Weiding's incredible thoughts two years ago, he still treats him as a child.

Thinking about it now, Zhang Jianan himself finds it unbelievable that he would actually do that, think about it, and continue to live together without any grievances.At this moment, Zhang Jianan felt a little confused.

Why?

So hard, so serious to believe that Xiang Weiding is still a child, so everything he said is just childish nonsense, telling himself not to take it seriously?

Zhang Jian'an knocked himself on the head, a little confused about what he had been thinking and doing in the past two years, maybe after he knew it at the beginning, he distanced himself from it, was it because of Xiang Weiding's thoughts after these two years? Has it faded long ago?

So, could it be that he did something wrong?

After all, Xiang Weiding was still young at that time, only eighteen or nineteen years old. Even if he had any thoughts, he must have been quite calm and not firm enough. Maybe he stayed away at that time. After he got used to it for a while, the child gradually became normal. This would not be the case now!

Life is full of habits.

Zhang Jianan still has some habits unknowingly, and he is also used to directional maintenance in life.I am used to having two people in the family, so after hearing the child's "stupid words", Zhang Jian'an immediately dismissed them, pretending that he didn't hear them, and tried his best and wishful thinking to try his best to think of Xiang Weiding as before. live the same.

Loneliness is not terrible, but loneliness can make people uncomfortable, alone, alone, without human voice.This kind of desolation in life will make people's hearts become colder and colder.

Zhang Jianan felt these feelings for a long time in his previous life. In this life, because of Xiang Weiding, there is someone by his side, life has a focus, and he is used to life with a family. Deciding to separate the two rationally, Zhang Jianan really couldn't do it for a while, he was not so willing, not so selfless.

Therefore, Zhang Jian'an is always a bit lucky, maybe when the child is older, he will naturally forget those absurd ideas, or maybe what he said to Wei Ding was "stupid" in the first place, and he gradually forgot it later.

Ugh

Xiang Weiding is 21 years old. After so long, the "stupid talk" that Zhang Jianan thought was still going on. The child has not forgotten it, but the feeling has deepened. Zhang Jianan blames himself, thinking that he has condoned this phenomenon. , I made a mistake at the beginning.

What to do now?

Zhang Jian'an didn't want to feel sorry for Weiding, that was his most important person, but he couldn't hold on any longer. The child matured year by year. When he was young, the child might be expecting to get what he wanted and was passive. , However, after the child grows up, the child will want to own it by himself, and will gradually become active and tough.

marry?

Zhang Jian'an thought about it when he was young in his previous life, but later he became a little pale and indifferent.Almost never thought about it in this life.It is also possible that when it was mentioned, Zhang Jianan thought slowly that Zhang Jianan had always planned that when Xiang Weiding grew up and saw his son get married, then he would find a suitable partner to marry.

Oh, marriage!

In Zhang Jian'an's heart, it has nothing to do with love, that is, to find a suitable person, so that life will no longer be lonely, no longer lonely, and no longer deserted. Occasionally, Zhang Jian'an thought, if he is not to get married for the rest of his life, and stay with Xiang Weiding, It seems that there is nothing wrong with it. Anyway, life with Xiang Weiding is good. I am used to it. This habit...life with Xiang Weiding has melted into my blood. A real family, relying on each other, wholeheartedly, and at ease.

Family members are very different from lovers and lovers. Lovers may not be able to become wives, and wives may not be able to become family members, because both lovers and wives may be lost, but family members will not be lost except for death.

Zhang Jianan regards Xiang Weiding as his family, and if his son insists, he is willing to accompany Xiang Weiding as a family member for the rest of his life. Anyway, all Zhang Jianan needs is to have someone in his life so that he will no longer be alone in his life.

It's just... Xiang Weiding wanted such a family when he was a child, but now he sighs, helpless, and distressed... Zhang Jian'an simply doesn't know what to do with Xiang Weiding. He hopes that the child he raised can live a happy life. Very good, but obviously... what the child was thinking made Zhang Jian'an unable to see anything better.

When he first came to Bingqing, Zhang Jianan was able to protect his children with his body, and risked his life for Xiang Weiding, and it is the same now. Ding is sick and needs a certain part of Zhang Jianan's body. Regardless of whether the loss of this part will affect his life or even affect his life, Zhang Jianan will not hesitate to agree.

If Xiang Weiding needs anything else, Zhang Jianan will be willing, but only this is not enough. As a family member, Zhang Jianan has always treated Xiang Weiding as an elder. In his previous thinking, his son should have a happy family Even if his son is no longer so close to him after he has a wife and children, maybe Zhang Jianan will be a little bit disappointed and bitter at that time, but... more will be gratification.

Life can occasionally take detours, but you can't go wrong.

After living for two lifetimes, maybe he doesn’t know much, but... Zhang Jian’an has a little more understanding of everything. There is nothing incomprehensible about the word homosexuality. It is also a kind of feeling and a way of life. If this happened to someone else, Zhang Jianan would definitely accept it very quickly. Even if this person was a friend around him, Zhang Jianan would only smile and bless him, and would never look at it with colored eyes.

It just happened to Xiang Weiding, Zhang Jianan couldn't accept it, but I believe that if Xiang Weiding persisted, Zhang Jianan would still understand, but... it just happened in a strange situation, and it had to do with himself, Zhang Jianan It is unacceptable.

If you step into the gay circle, you are almost on the wrong track. If you add the relationship between them... Zhang Jianan sighed in a low voice, that child can really think, dare to think, really...wrong and wrong.

Ugh

In fact, there are really not many things that Zhang Jianan will insist on, everything else is fine, but this one is not enough. Zhang Jianan does not want Xiang Weiding to be so wrong, so completely wrong.

(Sorry, the update has resumed since today, and it has been stopped for two days. It is too late today. Forgive me, keep updating)