Adoption relationship

For several days, Xiang Weiding noticed that Zhang Jianan was in a bad mood.He is not in a high mood, talks lazily, and has a sullen expression. Zhang Jianan has been cooking a lot this year, and his cooking skills have improved slightly, but recently he has returned to the past. The taste of the food made it difficult for Xiang Weiding to eat. Xiang Weiding thought that Zhang Jian'an didn't like doing these trivial things, and he wanted to spend more time taking over these housework, but Zhang Jian'an just didn't agree.

"What's wrong with you?" Xiang Weiding finally couldn't help asking Zhang Jianan.

Zhang Jian'an raised his head and glanced at Weiding, with a puzzled expression on his face, he asked lazily, "What's wrong?"

"I think you're not in a good mood recently?" Xiang Weiding looked at him with concern.

"Oh..." Zhang Jianan sighed, put down the chopsticks in his hand, and said, "Son, I'm a big man, and I've been at home for almost a year. Recently, I'm thinking, should I find something to do again?" gone?"

"Looking for something to do? Is it work?" Xiang Weiding asked immediately, then thought for a while, and said: "The family has money, but they don't need the salary you earn from work. And the work is so tiring..."

"Weiding, how old am I now?" Zhang Jian'an interrupted him, pointed to himself, and said, "I'm only 35 years old this year, and I'm in my prime. What can I do if I don't work at this time? I don't need it at home. I don't need that kind of salary, but at least I can play a role, so that a big man won't have nothing to do and stay at home all day, what does that sound like?"

"The family has money, so it's normal not to work, so what's the matter?" Xiang Weiding took it for granted.

"If you have money at home, you don't have to work? Then son, why do you work so hard every day? As a parent, I am idle at home and watch my children earn money every day?" Zhang Jianan asked back.

"This is different..." Xiang Weiding said dryly.

Xiang Weiding doesn't like Zhang Jianan going to work, because if Zhang Jianan works, he doesn't have a lot of time to stay at home. When Wei Ding was busy outside, he thought that there was someone at home, and he was very satisfied.

And... Xiang Weiding is working very hard now, just wanting to take care of Zhang Jianan in the future, maybe Zhang Jianan will not need his care, but... as long as Zhang Jianan is at home, Xiang Weiding will always subtly feel that he has worked hard , as if it was really all for Zhang Jianan, which made him more motivated.

"Different? What's different?" Zhang Jianan glanced at Weiding.

Xiang Weiding was at a loss for words to answer Zhang Jianan's question.I had no choice but to follow Zhang Jian'an temporarily and said, "Then what do you want to do? I think it's too tiring to work for others. Anyway, the family has money. If you just want to waste time, why not open a bookstore or something else, and then Ask a few people to watch, you just go to the store every day, it’s easy.”

Hearing Xiang Weiding's proposal, Zhang Jian'an immediately shook his head and said: "That's better. It's simple to say, but it's complicated when you actually do it. If you open a store, you will definitely hope to make a profit. If you hire someone, you must go Management, these are too tiring, for me, it’s spending money to make troubles, it’s better to help others to save worry and trouble, anyway, as you said, the family is not short of that little money.”

Xiang Weiding will tell Zhang Jianan to open a shop.I just hoped that Zhang Jianan could have more free time, more free time, and not have to commute regularly like work, but Zhang Jianan clearly expressed his disapproval, and asked Weiding: "Then what do you want to do?"

"...I haven't thought about it yet." Zhang Jianan suddenly realized that he had dragged the topic far away, and quickly went back to his goal, saying: "Anyway, I stayed at home for a year, it's too boring, I just want to find something to kill time."

"Boring?" Xiang Weiding grabbed the word and said, "If it's just boring, you can often go out to play, travel or something, and you won't feel bored anymore."

"Traveling? That's a good idea." Zhang Jian'an immediately agreed, then seemed to think about it, and then said a little listlessly: "But I don't know where to travel. You and Wei Tao are busy. I really don't know by myself. Where are you going?"

"You can go to the Internet to look at the introduction of those tourist attractions and so on. There is a lot of information on the Internet. Choose the place you like, and then you can go to the travel agency to play with a group. Give me a few months, and then the company will step up. I’m on the right track, and I can play with you.” Xiang Weiding felt that as long as Zhang Jian’an didn’t go to work, it would be fine, so he quickly gave Zhang Jian’an an idea, and thought of going on a trip with Zhang Jian’an in the future, Xiang Weiding The corners of Ding's lips rose immediately.

"The tour groups are all strangers who don't know each other, and they also stipulate a time and place to stay for a long time, which is even more boring..." Zhang Jian'an showed no interest.

Regarding Zhang Jianan's travel, Xiang Weiding was not that eager. It was only because Zhang Jianan said he was bored that he suggested it. After all, Xiang Weiding wanted Zhang Jianan to stay at home.

For home, Zhang Jianan, Xiang Weiding has a strange perception. He has always felt that a place with Zhang Jianan is called home, and a home with Zhang Jianan is his home in his heart.Xiang Weiding also has a stubborn and paranoid idea that home is his and Zhang Jianan's home, and Zhang Jianan is at home, as if home and Zhang Jianan are owned by him at the same time.

After breakfast, Xiang Weiding took out a napkin to wipe it, stood up, and said: "I'm going out first, you can think about the travel slowly, anyway, it's not in a hurry, go if you're interested, and stroll around Bingqing if you're not interested Or at home."

"Well, let's talk about this later!" Zhang Jian'an didn't feel much about the travel, as if it didn't matter.

Wait until Xiang Weiding goes out the door.Zhang Jian'an smiled lightly, sighed, and muttered to himself in disbelief: "I never imagined that I would have a day of deceiving a child..."

After the conversation that morning, Zhang Jianan was still not energetic every day, and he felt a little uncomfortable seeing Xiang Weiding. He hoped that he could take care of Zhang Jianan, he hoped that he could make Zhang Jianan happy, and he hoped that Zhang Jianan would be well every day.

If Zhang Jianan is not happy, Xiang Weiding will be ten times more unhappy. He will feel that he is not only not taking care of Zhang Jianan, but even Zhang Jianan's mood.Xiang Weiding will feel that he is useless, and even doubt whether he can really bring something to Zhang Jianan in the future. ...can make Zhang Jianan happy.A humble hope, because Xiang Weiding didn't dare to expect Zhang Jianan to respond. He only hoped that Zhang Jianan would accept his kindness to him. Only in this way, Xiang Weiding would be satisfied.It's just like how he used to take care of Zhang Jian'an in life, washing and cooking, as long as Zhang Jian'an is willing, Xiang Weiding is happy, because... this means that he can still give something for Zhang Jian'an.

A few days later, one morning, after Xiang Weiding woke up, he found that Zhang Jianan seemed to be in a particularly good mood today. Before he could ask, Zhang Jianan smiled briskly and said, "Weiding, do you still remember my old times? My colleagues, Uncle Hu, right? Today and tomorrow are the weekends, they decided to go to a certain villa in the suburbs for two days, and they called me yesterday to make an appointment, and I will go with them in a while, and I will be back tomorrow afternoon."

Suddenly, Xiang Weiding was stunned, then remembered Zhang Jianan's gloomy mood during this period, and compared Zhang Jianan's cheerfulness at this time, Xiang Weiding nodded without hesitation, and said with a smile: "Uncle Hu, let's go!" Remember to call you when you play, it’s really good, the weather is fine recently, and it’s quite enjoyable to go to the suburbs to relax.”

"Well, go get some fresh air." Zhang Jianan took a deep breath as he spoke, as if he had already begun to look forward to today's trip, and then said to Wei Ding: "You came back late last night, just I forgot to tell you, I will meet you, Uncle Hu, and the others in a while, and I will take my mobile phone with me. If you have anything to do, call me and I will be back tomorrow."

"Understood, don't worry about me when you go out to play, just have fun with Uncle Hu and the others." Xiang Weiding smiled.

Zhang Jianan was very satisfied with getting the result he wanted. Although he secretly apologized to Xiang Weiding, but...he has tried his best to take care of the child's mood, so let's take it slowly!

After breakfast, Xiang Weiding went out first, Zhang Jianan tidied up the house, then slowly took a set of clothes, took his mobile phone, closed the door and left.

Zhang Jianan went to the station alone, and took a short-distance bus to the suburbs. In fact, there was no old Hu, no old colleagues invited him. This was just made up by Zhang Jianan. It's 10 minutes away, and it's the weekend. Many office workers in Bingqing invite friends to drive to play, and many students also take advantage of this day--good scenery, good weather and favorable location--to play nearby, so there are many tourists. , the first thing Zhang Jianan did after getting off the bus was to choose a hotel and book a better room, and then he was relieved to go for a walk. He was worried that there would be too many tourists and it would be difficult to book a room when it was too late.

The air in the suburbs is much better than that in the city. Most of the people who come here to play around casually, or even go to a place like a farmhouse to stay there, and serve tea under vines or grape trellises. Tables, drinking tea, chatting or playing cards in a circle, the green leaves are shaded, very pleasant.

Zhang Jian'an wandered around by himself. In addition to the flowers and trees planted nearby for people to admire, there are fields with crops in the distance. At this time, two women were weeding and fertilizing the fields. Zhang Jianan walked over slowly, and when they passed by them, they would look up at him strangely, then lower their heads and continue to work.

At this time in May, the cucumbers in the field were erected, and they were blooming with tender yellow flowers, bearing some finger-length cucumbers, which were very tender, and looked as if the skin would break and the juice would flow out when touched lightly. Zhang Jian'an thought that if he came ten days later, he would definitely "steal" one and pick one to try something new.

When the sun shines, some smooth and emerald leaves reflect light slightly, and the smell of earth and fresh grass are perfectly mixed together. Zhang Jianan took a deep breath, watched while walking, and then found a place to sit on the ground, half Squint your eyes and enjoy the sunshine with all things.

At this moment, Zhang Jian'an was a little moved, the air, the sun, the plants, the life... He suddenly remembered something so far away in his previous life, and it was Xu Wenshi's hometown when he was a child.

Both sides of the winding path scattered with fine gravels are full of green crops. At that time, there were no villages with roads, and there were not so many concrete buildings in forests. The sky was not so cloudy. Breath, the sun shines brightly on everything on the earth. Thinking about it now, even the sunlight at that time was indescribably clean.

Ugh

When I grow up, I leave home and run around for survival. I rarely go back to my hometown, and even if I go back to my hometown, I don’t have to rush. When do I have time to watch the changes around me?

I always think that I still have a lot of time, and I always think about the future, when I have a good job, a good income, get married, have a wife, have a child, dress decently, and bring my family back home In the small town of my hometown, when people I knew saw it, they would say, "Hey, boy Wen, you are promising, look at this outfit, and married such a beautiful wife."

He thinks that at that time he will be able to face everyone with his head upright, whether it is the neighbors who used to sigh "Oh, that kid from the Xu family, his father is gone, his mother is gone, and his grandpa is gone, poor boy", or It's a look of pity, but in fact it's just the relatives who are watching coldly. He always feels that he has to work hard to look good in order to be proud in front of others.

Of course, ideas are always good, but Xu Wen, who is poor and white, is just a high school student, has nothing to do in the big city and has no foundation, so why should he get ahead?So, he has been around for a year and a year, changed one job after another, and thought about starting a business, but starting a business also needs funds. He has no parents to provide him with anything. He can only save slowly by himself, and starting a business also needs funds. Opportunity, if you catch up, you will succeed, if you don't catch up, you will fail.

It's a pity and a pity that Xu Wen, who was struggling to survive, was put on the line by fate, and he never had the chance to return to his hometown to be proud. He became Zhang Jian'an, a man who had everything that Xu Wen had fought for all his life without struggling. After being at a loss for a long time, the goal that he had insisted on achieving for a long time was suddenly achieved in a strange way, without him needing to work harder, and he simply didn't know what to do anymore.

Of course, people’s hearts are not satisfied. When life is difficult, just think about working hard to make life worry-free. Life is worry-free. Just want to have a house of your own in this life. After having a house, It would be nice to have another car, but if you have a car, you will think about other things. Anyway, people... are animals of desire, and they will never be satisfied.

Satisfaction is a state of mind, which must be given to oneself, not what external substances can bring.

Zhang Jianan didn't know whether he should be satisfied. The strange fate made him feel that the world is impermanent and life is impermanent. To be a child of a rich family, money may not be much, but it is too much for ordinary people. Zhang Jianan even has a sense of life. At a loss, Xiang Weiding appeared and became his responsibility, so Zhang Jianan found what he had to do, to care for the growth of an immature life.

Life, thin and fragile, like the thin Xiang Weiding at that time, would be overwhelmed by certain things at some point, silent and unobtrusive.

Life, tenacious and strange, like Xu Fan who opened his eyes in Hwaseong Hospital, is dead?Newborn?Again?I don't know if this is a trick of fate or the tenacity of life

Volume 95 Sad Struggle Chapter [-] Some Mood

Chapter 95

Zhang Jianan sat there in a daze for a long time.It wasn't until his skin was sore from the sun that he got up and left, looking for a place to eat something casually, watching TV in the room instead of going out in the afternoon.

Sitting on the edge of the bed, turning the table boringly, Zhang Jianan smiled helplessly. The living room at home is twice as large as this room, the sofa is much softer than this bed, and he ran so far for the large-screen LCD TV. After traveling here by car and spending money to watch TV, Zhang Jianan finally got through the night, carrying his mobile phone on his body, and went out for dinner.

After eating, Zhang Jian'an didn't go back to the room immediately, but looked around. He found a place where there were several tables of people playing cards, and he watched these people play cards.

At ten o'clock in the evening, Xiang Weiding went home, and when he opened the door, he was greeted by darkness.Xiang Weiding stood at the door for a moment, he knew that Zhang Jianan had gone out to play, he knew that Zhang Jianan would not be at home, but... when he returned home and faced the darkness of a room, Xiang Weiding found out again——Zhang Jianan Not at home, there is no Zhang Jianan at home tonight.

Turn on the lights, enter the house, close the door, and Xiang Weiding looked at the extremely quiet and deserted home with strange eyes, feeling a little bored. In the past, when going home, there would always be a light in the living room. In the past, after entering the house, Zhang Jianan would always Smiling and saying "Son, I'm back", perhaps with just such a sentence, Zhang Jian'an went back to the room, but... there is someone at home, and Xiang Weiding knew that Zhang Jian'an was not far away from him, so he didn't feel that deserted.

Standing in the living room, Xiang Weiding suddenly felt that the living room was too big, which made people a little cold. Xiang Weiding didn't want to bear it, so he decided to go back to the room, but standing in front of his room door, he stopped again and turned his head Looking at Zhang Jianan's room.Then he walked over slowly and gently opened the door.

Through the light coming in from the living room, Xiang Weiding saw that Zhang Jian'an's room was neatly tidied up, the thin quilt on the bed was folded and placed on the bedside, he just walked in without turning on the light, closed the door behind him, and put The light in the living room was also blocked from the door, so he took off his shoes, and Xiang Weiding lay on Zhang Jianan's bed, staring blankly, not knowing where it fell.

Xiang Weiding remembered all the things related to Zhang Jianan very clearly. He counted silently in his heart. Back then in Hwaseong, Zhang Jianan went on a business trip for four days at a time. They separated for four days. On her tenth birthday, Xiang Weiding is in school.Zhang Jianan went back to Hwaseong alone for a week, and they separated for a week, went to college, and trained with Weiding for half a month, and they separated for half a month.

After living together for ten years, Xiang Weiding and Zhang Jianan separated three times for a total of 26 days. Today is the fourth time. Although Zhang Jianan said that he would come back tomorrow, it was the shortest separation, but... Xiang Wei Ding felt a little uncomfortable at this time, there was nothing around him, and his heart felt a little empty. As long as Zhang Jianan was not within his sight and within his reach, Xiang Weiding would always feel a sense of panic that he couldn't grasp. His eyes adapted to the darkness of the room, and he could see the faint moonlight coming in. Xiang Weiding slowly took out his mobile phone from his trouser pocket and held it in front of his eyes. Zhang Jianan's number was always the first in his mobile phone number book. Putting his finger on the dial key, he watched Zhang Jianan's number scroll continuously on the screen of the phone, and he sent Wei Ding for a while before pressing it.

Zhang Jianan set the phone to vibrate for incoming calls, and when the call came in, Zhang Jianan felt it. He took out the phone and looked at it. It was indeed his son's number, and he chuckled silently.He didn't answer it at the first time. After watching it ring for a long time, Zhang Jianan answered it. He stood still and said, "Weiding? Are you going home now?"

"Well, I'm at home." Xiang Weiding trembled when he heard Zhang Jianan's voice on the phone.

"Is there something to do on the phone?" Zhang Jianan asked, then took the phone away from his ear, turned to the table where he was playing cards, and let the noisy voice be transmitted to the other end through the phone.

"No, it's nothing." Xiang Weiding paused and replied, and then heard Zhang Jian'an's voice, asking: "What are you doing now?"

"Oh, you Uncle Hu and the others were playing cards. They said it was so crowded, so they forced me to play together. I just went up and played a couple of times. I was unlucky. You also know that I don't like to play this game. You are watching them play!" Zhang Jianan He opened his eyes with a smile and said nonsense.

"...Did you have fun today?" Xiang Weiding asked in a low voice.

"It's not bad, but there are too many people and it's a bit noisy." Zhang Jian'an seemed to complain.The tone seemed happy.

"Oh..." Xiang Weiding was silent for a while, and said, "Just have fun."

"You are at home alone, go to bed early! You will have another busy day tomorrow." Zhang Jianan asked with concern, and then said: "Hang up first."

"Wait." Xiang Weiding hurriedly shouted. In fact, he didn't know what else he wanted to say, but...he just didn't want to hang up the phone, just wanted to hear more about Zhang Jianan's voice, and Xiang Weiding asked for nothing. : "Are you coming back tomorrow?"

"Well, Uncle Hu and the others go to work the day after tomorrow, so I'll be back tomorrow afternoon." Zhang Jianan walked a little further while talking on the phone.The card games are too loud, and there is no need for that little sound now.

Come back tomorrow... that is, close your eyes and sleep, and you will see Zhang Jianan tomorrow, Xiang Weiding stared at the ceiling of the room and thought.

"Then what time do you take the bus back? About what time will you arrive home?" Xiang Weiding asked slowly.

Zhang Jianan sighed in his heart, looked up at the night sky, the clear night in the suburbs, the sky was full of stars, looked at it, as if his mind was going to be sucked in, now facing Xiang Weiding, he always felt a little complicated, Hearing his son's question at this time, Zhang Jian'an also felt sour.

The child who was with Zhang Jianan on the first day, and the child who lived together for ten years, used to have various reasons for the two of them, but this time... it was Zhang Jianan who deliberately separated the two, On the phone, the child's voice was obviously lonely, and Zhang Jian'an felt a little distressed.

When at home, Zhang Jian’an would always leave a light for the child who came home late every day. During the year when he was out of work, he often waited for the child to come home, say a word or two with the child, or make some supper for the child. , and then said "good night" and went to bed.

I don't know... I go home today, my son is facing a dark room, does he feel uncomfortable... Does he feel scared when he stays at home alone... No matter how big the child is, parents always tend to treat the child as a child and worry about it.

"The car will arrive at around [-] o'clock tomorrow afternoon, and it will be home by [-] o'clock at the latest." Zhang Jian'an said softly.

Now at ten o'clock in the evening, if he arrives home at six o'clock in the afternoon tomorrow, that means there are still twenty hours... Xiang Weiding found that he has become fussy, and even the time is so clear.

Seeming to have nothing to say, Xiang Weiding remained silent, not wanting to hang up the phone.Even if the two of them didn't speak, knowing that Zhang Jian'an was on the other end of the phone would make Xiang Weiding feel much more at ease.

There is really nothing to say, after all, we will go back tomorrow, Zhang Jianan said softly: "Weiding, go to bed earlier, I'm going to die."

"Oh...good night." Xiang Weiding said in a low tone.

"Well, good night, son." After Zhang Jian'an finished speaking, he ended the call without hesitation. If he wanted to care about the child's emotions, he couldn't care about it, and now that he cared, what should he do in the future?Zhang Jian'an could only harden his heart and ignore it.

The next day, Zhang Jianan took the car back to the city until 04:30 in the afternoon. It was exactly six o'clock when he got home. He just opened the door, and the person sitting on the sofa turned his head when he heard the voice, and immediately got up to greet him, saying: " If you say you will come back at this time today, I will prepare the meal ahead of time."

Never thought that Xiang Weiding would be at home, Zhang Jianan was very surprised, said: "Aren't you busy today? Still have time to go home and cook?"

"It's not busy. I came back at five o'clock. It took a while for the dishes to be ready. It might be a bit cold. I'll go to warm them up." Xiang Weiding said before going to the kitchen.

"Son." Zhang Jianan stretched out his hand to hold Xiang Weiding, raised his head slightly to look at the taller child, and said, "How can you not be busy? You don't have to go home to cook at all, and eat outside with Wei Tao." That's good, I can cook by myself when I get home."

"I, I..." Xiang Weiding looked away, he was not busy, but he left everything behind and wanted to see Zhang Jian'an as soon as possible, since he was in a state of anxiety at the company anyway.

Zhang Jian'an sighed in his heart, patted Weiding on the shoulder, and said, "There is no need to heat the dishes, now in summer, it is appropriate to eat them cold."

After dinner, Zhang Jianan stopped Xiang Weiding from clearing the dining table. He knew that Xiang Weiding was very busy during this time. Zhang Jianan almost drove his son out of the house. Then he stood on the balcony and watched Xiang Weiding walk out of the community. not see.

Feeling a little irritable, Zhang Jianan took out a cigarette and smoked one after another. He hadn't smoked like this for a long, long time. It seemed to be the first time in his life that he smoked masochistically.

Xiang Weiding hated him, Zhang Jianan knew it.Zhang Jianan is also reluctant to part with Xiang Weiding, because Xiang Weiding is the child he raised, the only family member in his life, the only relative. In life, there is no one else except Xiang Weiding. The daughter of this body, Zhang Jiao , Zhang Jianan is actually more responsible for her, and has very little affection....

One or two years ago, Xiang Weiding, who was a freshman, was crying in his arms over and over again, expressing his reluctance. Now, only one day and one night apart, Zhang Jianan felt Xiang Weiding's joy at returning home, and at the same time brought It gave Zhang Jianan a feeling that the child wanted to be tired of being around, and seemed to regard this as the most important thing, and didn't want to do anything else, and didn't want to take care of anything.

Feelings can make people weak, especially the feelings from important people around them, making people more likely to be weak, compromised, and lost.

Zhang Jian'an almost thought that the child needs himself, maybe as the child once said, it's okay for two people to live together as before?Why do you have to make such an excellent son sad?Why do you have to see the children you raised unhappy?

But... Zhang Jianan is very sober again. The degree of his son's attachment is not normal, or very abnormal. Xiang Weiding's life has just begun, and he will meet many people in the future, and he should also meet many people People, Zhang Jian'an doesn't want his son to be alone in his world, that's not okay, and he can't.

Xiang Weiding is the most important person in Zhang Jianan's life, he wants to be good to him, he hopes everything will be better for him, that's all.