night without tears

"Master, what are you doing?" F hurried out to pull Yin Yening, but he threw him away. F didn't dare to pull him anymore, so he had to stand with him in the rain.

Yin Ye stared at him, through the tears and rain, through the thunder and rain, he couldn't see him clearly, couldn't hear him, and the people who were so close seemed thousands of miles away.

How lonely it is in this rain.In the half a year he left him alone on the cliff, how many times he had tasted such a rainstorm that could suffocate people to death.

He left him alone, how much bitterness and despair he had tasted!

"Master, the rain is too heavy, so..." F stretched out his hand to grab him.

"Leave me alone, I deserve it—"

He growled, waved his hands wildly, and stepped back.The back is empty, and the place where they hide from the rain is built on one platform, only one side has a ladder.

The moment he was about to fall, F hugged him by the waist, and he couldn't help but put him on his shoulders.

Protecting the master is the top priority, and we can't let him make trouble anymore. It's really hard to deal with something happening on this heavy rainy day!

At first, Yin Yening struggled.In the end, F finally got hairy, and with three or four minutes of strength, he punched Yin Yening's ass.For unreasonable children, spanking is the only way to subdue them!

So Yin Yening was completely honest.He lay on F's shoulders, even though the rain was so cold, the temperature of his close body made hot tears fall unscrupulously, he choked up, and finally could no longer suppress it.

"F... F... I like you."

The rain was so loud that F couldn't hear it clearly.

Just like the stormy night at sea, he missed Yin Yening's only love for him.

But Yin Yening was already on the verge of madness, and now he might as well show his teeth and claws. He grabbed F's wet clothes, propped up his upper body, and shouted overflowing emotions with all his strength in his ears.

Maybe if he didn't talk about it at this moment, the emotion would break through his body and dismember him quickly, so he succumbed, succumbed completely.

"F, I like you—I love you!"

He slumped on his shoulders, like a deflated balloon, leaving only a shriveled skin.

"Master..." F turned his head slowly and in a daze, as if he couldn't believe what he just heard.

The person he was carrying was still grabbing the clothes on his back and mumbling endlessly: "Bastard... I like you so much, how can you not remember me, woo..."

Yin Yening thought that he had made the biggest concession.He thought that a confession would finally make everything clear.

If F is still the same F from before, that poor robot who loves him so much that he is completely humble and hopeless, that person, there is no way to refuse his love, and he doesn't even have the heart to distinguish the real from the fake.

However, beside him now is a robot who is equally gentle and innocent, who is equally serious and caring about him, but only knows how to follow the rules, and his every move is so precise and stupid that he doesn't understand the style at all.

F, who was carrying him, stopped in the heavy rain, and his expression was more appropriate to say stunned than moved.

"Master, what nonsense are you talking about?" He slowly put Yin Yening down and stood facing each other. He looked at Yin Yening's face with puzzlement and bewilderment.

"Like... love? How can you love a robot?"

The current F is very normal. After hearing such words, he made such a response after weighing the pros and cons of the love he said to himself.This is something that the former F couldn't do-yes, how can a person with such persistent selfishness, who longs for that love so much that he is so intoxicated that he doesn't know where to go, how can he be so impartial?

"You're not a robot." Yin Yening shook his head.

"I'm a robot, master, you know in your heart that no matter how much I look like a human being, I'm still a fake! Current circuits, steel parts - master, you saw me being created with your own eyes, how can you still lie to yourself? What about yourself?"

Yin Yening took a deep breath, feeling a chill rising from the bottom of his heart.

"You...you are not, you are alive, you...you have a soul, you told me yourself before..."

"Really?" F sighed: "Master, I definitely don't have such a thing as a soul."

He spread his hands to catch the raindrops falling all over the sky: "I really don't remember what happened before, but master, it is absurd to say that I have life, let alone a soul. Okay, no Saying this, you're going to catch a cold, let's go home."

He took Yin Yening's hand again, trying to drag him to a place where he could shelter from the rain, but he couldn't.Looking back, Yin Yening was already kneeling on the ground.His head was bowed deeply, his hair was stuck to his forehead and cheeks, and the expression on his face could not be seen clearly. He seemed to be whispering something. F squatted down and listened carefully.

"Are you... exactly..." Yin Yening shrank into a ball trembling all over, asking over and over again in the rain: "Are you still an F? Are you my F? Are you? Are you?" Tell me! Are you really, aren't you!"

Yin Yening was going crazy.This person in front of him must not be his F, his F will love him, his F will never forget him.

It was so painful and painful, but he never forgot him.

Looking at him with black crystal eyes, under the mist, there was no way to hide the deep pain and scars. F looked into those eyes, as if a voice from far away told him that the master was waiting, waiting for a salvation, or a complete destruction.

Am I the original servant that the master thought of?He is also asking himself this question.

I don’t know, humans cannot be resurrected from the dead, but robots can be resurrected from the dead, but who can guarantee that he is not a brand-new personality relying on the original body, but the original soul—if it is as the master said, the robot can also be resurrected. Words that have a soul.

"Do you know?" Yin Yening suddenly stretched out his hand and stroked his cheek: "Actually, you are already very similar to him. It has always been me, and I have always been picky about small things. But I have to do this because ...Because if you are not him, no matter how similar you are, even if you are exactly the same, I cannot love you, do you understand?"

I don't understand, master, what are you talking about?The robot thought so, but didn't dare to shake its head.

"You understand? I only love my F, my one and only F! All I've ever loved is him. If you're not him, no matter how similar, I can't love you. I can't have him Do you understand? Otherwise, I am sorry for him, for his feelings for me, for his innocence and his persistence, for his love and for his disappointment. Do you understand?

"A long time ago, I tried to use him as a substitute for that person. If I could love him as he is from the beginning... I found it too late, I ruined everything, but the same Mistake, I can't do it again.

"If he is already dead, just like I killed him on that cliff, then I decide to spend my whole life missing him, silently confessing in a place where he doesn't know, where he can't see. I won't ask you to replace him to desecrate that relationship, to desecrate the most memorable thing in my life, even though I will be lonely from now on..."

"Owner……"

F suddenly wanted to hug him tightly, the master looked so pale and transparent, as if it would break if touched, he was about to reach out, but seemed to suddenly understand the meaning of the master's words - as if he was not the one who was qualified to hug him Live him, let him not be sad, not sad person.

"...If I send you back to Fang Jili and ask him to destroy you, will you hate me?"

F froze for a moment, then shook his head.

"Isn't it?"

"Well," F thought carefully again: "If this is the master's expectation..."

If this is what the master expects, no matter what, it must be done. Isn't this the bounden duty of a robot?

He seemed to hear the scream of fear from the bottom of his heart, but that voice was too weak compared to the implanted command execution program.

Yin Yening's expression was heartbroken for a moment, but slowly, it changed into a faint sad tenderness.

"Hehe, you know? Before you, there was a silly robot... Every time I threatened him that I was going to send him back, he was terrified. Destroy him, he can do anything.

"He likes plants and tea, and he always has a lot of unrealistic fantasies. I found those fantasies unbelievable at the beginning, but as time goes by... I think they are cute...

"He is obviously a robot, but he never behaves respectfully and respectfully. He always does some outrageous things. I won't change them no matter what I say. He stubbornly sticks to his beliefs..."

F listened silently: "If the master likes that, I can do that too, but I always thought that the master likes obedient servants."

Yin Yening's pupils were stained with despair, and then shook his head lightly: "Don't imitate him, don't...I don't want any servants, I just want him...I can't keep you by my side. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I know it's not fair to you, but I...but I really can't..." He said, choking again.

F smiled and said softly: "If I promise to go back to the laboratory tomorrow, will the master obediently go home with me now?"

Yin Yening broke down in tears and nodded.

The rain gradually turned smaller, and fell on the body in wisps.

"Okay." F took two steps forward, picked him up by the waist again, took off half of his coat with one hand, and turned it over to cover Yin Yening's head.

This is F's shoulder, F's temperature...it can still be so close, and the heart is also tightly attached to his back.Yin Yening lay on his shoulder in a daze, realizing that she was still very nostalgic for all of this.

But, but...

"Master, don't cry anymore, okay? Even if I am that person or not, if you are sad, I will be sad too."

Yin Yening finally couldn't hold back his sobs.

"Master..." I shouldn't have said you, F thought, the master always does things in the opposite direction.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Yin Yening coughed lightly and said over and over again.

"Master, you don't have to feel sorry. I'm very happy to be able to stay with you and take care of you for such a period of time."

"sorry Sorry sorry……"

"Master, it's okay. I was created for you. If you are not satisfied with me, I will disappear. Personally... I don't feel sad, so don't blame yourself."

"I'm sorry..." The person on the shoulder still couldn't stop sobbing.

Perhaps it was because at this time he had already understood, understood how serious the kind of "destruction" he was talking about was a heart-wrenching injury.Even if the person he finally met doesn't care anymore, even if he says he doesn't need to blame himself, does that mean he has the right to make such a choice?

Because you are happy, you create him; because you are not satisfied, you destroy him.

Even if he finally stopped complaining, stopped struggling and accepted everything with a smile, could he really be that cruel?

Thinking so chaotically, Yin Yening lost consciousness.

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He still sent F back to Fang Jili, and he begged Fang Jili to keep him.Although he no longer needs him, he hopes that he can still survive as a free life that has nothing to do with him, Yin Yening.

"No way," Fang Jili shook his head and said, "If you don't want him, his existence will be meaningless."

So he watched Fang Jili push F into a closed room. As several iron doors fell slowly, F was still smiling and waving at him. To pieces.

He suddenly wanted to scream, wanted Fang Jili to stop the cruel destruction, but no sound could come out of his throat, he rushed to the iron gate in a hurry, and smashed it...

"Master, master, master! Wake up!"

Taking a big breath of cold air into his lungs, Yin Yening suddenly opened his eyes.

"Did you have a nightmare?" F sat on the edge of the bed, wiped the sweat from his forehead with a cool and comfortable towel: "Master, you have been burning all day, when did your body become so bad?"

"You didn't...you didn't..." Yin Yening still couldn't distinguish between dreams and reality, so he grabbed F's hand first.

"Nothing?" F quickly reacted: "Oh, that's because you passed out before you got home yesterday, so I had to take care of you first. Are you hungry? I made the porridge you like, and the taste is very light , eat some."

Yin Yening was stunned: "How can you be so clear about what I like..."

Didn't you forget everything?

Yin Ye stared at him, he must not be F, if he was F, why would he have changed so much; but if he was not F, why would he always inadvertently remember some small details.

"How can I not know what the master likes? Grass and sea, sugar in coffee, fish porridge... This is implanted, and it is the necessary knowledge to be a good housekeeper and servant."

Yeah... I'm thinking too much again.Yin Yening lowered his head, all of this was just preset by Fang Jili, as if he knew these things from the very beginning when he first met F a few years ago.

Passing the spoon to his mouth, Yin Yening took a sip, the taste...is still the same as F made before.

Are you him or not?

Find out so many differences, so many similarities, contradictory results only push myself into the abyss.It's that simple, yet so difficult.If you were him, I decided to love you with all my feelings, but if you weren't him, then I, who foolishly cheated myself for a little self-comfort, deserved to die.

Yin Yening felt that she was going crazy.

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After recovering from illness, Yin Yening still brought F back to the laboratory.

"What's the matter?" Fang Jili couldn't help but have the urge to run away. Experience has proved that as soon as someone appears, it will be a series of big troubles.

"I...don't know how to say it," Yin Yening pulled F, and dragged him to his maker: "Tell me, this person, is he the original him...my F?"

"Of course he is!" Fang Jili gave Yin Yening a white look.

"However, why are many aspects of him... his personality and thoughts different from before?"

"Ghost knows! In short, all parts of his body are copied according to the original appearance, and it is different—ahem, it can only be your illusion."

"Fang Jili!" Yin Yening felt that something was wrong, and grabbed him: "Look up, why don't you dare to look at me and talk?"

The scientist swallowed and began to break out in a cold sweat.

"Fang, Ji, Li!"

"Okay, okay!" Fang Jili had no choice but to admit: "Actually, actually... If I say this, it will ruin my reputation... Forget it, I admit it. In fact, in fact, your original one F, I checked later and found that two wires were accidentally connected backwards, so... That's why some of his ideas and temperament are so out of line. I haven't dared to tell you, in fact, those may be caused by malfunctions... "

He seemed to be immersed in his unforgivable mistakes, and he didn't notice Yin Yening's expression at all.

"However, the reversed wiring is really strange. I tried it later, and that connection didn't work at all, and I don't know how the previous one worked. But, the one next to you is finally perfect. It will be out of line, it's gratifying, congratulations, congratulations, congratulations!

"Hey... Hey, I said I didn't do it on purpose... Woo... Can you stop looking at me in such a scary way? Hey..."

Fang Jili was already holding the screwdriver in his pocket. He felt that with Yin Yening's appearance, it might be possible for him to jump over and eat him in the next second. Fortunately, he still had a little defensive ability. Then, he was already thinking about the tragedy after the big fight , and the legal distinction between "justifiable defense" and "excessive defense".

Yin Yening did not do crazy things as he imagined, but his expression was extremely tired.

"F, come here," he said softly, "Fang Jili, take him back."

"what?"

"He's not my F, you take him back." After Yin Yening finished speaking, she turned around.

Fang Jili looked back at the robot he made in a daze. Originally, the feeling was just surprise, but when he saw a trace of embarrassment on the smiling face of the robot with downcast eyes, an unknown fire suddenly ignited. up.

"Hey, wait a minute! I'll take him back, what do you want me to do with him?"

"You are the maker, so do whatever you want." Yin Yening said without turning her head.

"Just kidding, if I destroy him, you don't care?"

What is there to care about?Yin Yening wanted to laugh, but it wasn't his F anyway, but when she thought about it, she couldn't.

"Master beware!"

Yin Yening heard F yelling, and before he had time to react, a silver screwdriver flew past his ear, and nailed heavily on the wooden door frame in front of him.

"Fang Jili, do you want to murder yourself for money?"

"I don't seek money, I only kill! Yin Yening, I've seen someone who is heartless, but I've never seen someone so heartless as you! Before, because he wasn't the guy you wanted, how did you abuse him? You begged me to fix him, didn't you swear to treat him well? After only a few days, he can't remember the past, and you're impatient again, right? You think he's a robot, you can Do whatever you want, right?"

Fang Jili said viciously: "Leave him here now, and in a few days, he will cry and beg me to return him to you—yes, I know he is a robot, and I also know that maybe everything about him is fake, But is he really not sad or sad? Yin Yening, I can't tolerate you taking whatever you want from him anymore. Just wait for me—"

Fang Jili said, turned and went upstairs, and quickly ran down with a handful of thick blueprints.In front of Yin Yening, he tore up the blueprints, took out a lighter from his pocket, and lit it up.

"All the data that created him are all here, there is no backup in the computer, and there is no room for it to do it again.

"Yin Yening, let me tell you, stop being hypocritical! The one standing here is the only F. From today on, he is a living being. From now on, he will have no creators.

"If he gets hurt again, I won't restore him to the way he used to be; if he dies, I can't bring him back to life. If you still insist on keeping him here, today will be the last time you see him For one thing, there's no going back—there's no going back forever!"

I also have my own life, okay, let you bother me in the future!

The paper was quickly curled up into a scorched black piece in the fire.Fang Jili crossed his arms and looked at Yin Yening.

He was right... Yin Yening laughed at himself.Perhaps, I was holding such a despicable idea.Maybe send him back today, and come here to take him back someday.Who knows?He can no longer trust his own judgment, because for so many years, he has often lived in regret.

This was Fang Jili's ultimatum to him, if he turned around and left, there would be no room for regret.Yin Yening looked at F with infinite complexity, tears gradually came to his eyes, and his heart was tormented.

Can you remember me, please, please tell me.

You have said that you have the "soul", and you have been attached to it.But when you start over, you tell me with a smile that that kind of thing doesn't exist. F, is your soul still inside the current body?Did you just forget about me?Or... have you already left?

F, if this continues, I don't know what to do with you...