appendix!Closing report

NO.15

Xin Jian felt that he had a dream.

The contents of the dream were messy, and many pictures flashed back and forth, like colored lanterns that were lit up chaotically.

It seems that a lot of things have happened, and there seems to be nothing, but I feel tired from head to toe, so heavy that I don't even want to lift my arms.

The messy lines cross to the end and become a song.

The tone is a bit familiar, but it doesn't fit well.

The voice became louder and louder, and finally turned into a deafening scream, which finally woke Xin Jian up.

The phone was inside his jacket, ringing and vibrating.

Suddenly awakened by a start, he still didn't understand the situation, so he went to grab the phone in a daze, and the screen showed that it was Fu Zhi.

"Hey……"

The voice was full of sleepiness, he curled up on the back seat and stretched reluctantly, then scratched his head and leaned back on the seat.

"...Xin Jian."

As a result, the voice on the other side of the phone was softer than his, as if he was weak and didn't even have the confidence to say one more word.

Xin Jian frowned: "Fu Zhi?"

He raised his voice: "You speak louder, I can't hear you clearly."

Over there, Fu Zhi seemed to have cursed, but the voice was too low to hear clearly. Xin Jian sat up subconsciously, and heard the person on the other side of the phone struggling to express in a staccato tone: "Get out of the car now..."

"After getting off the bus, go forward...on the right...there is...an alley...you..."

Xin Jian followed Fu Zhi's instructions step by step. The irritability and uneasiness in his heart swept away all the drowsiness he had just had. After getting out of the car, he looked around. This is the place downstairs from his house. .

The alley that Fu Zhi mentioned is actually a gap between two buildings, a place that no one will pay attention to except children.

When did his hands start shaking so much that he had no idea, and Fu Zhi's voice continued in his ear: "You go...to...hu, at the entrance of the alley...to take a photo..."

I.

Before the last word was uttered, Xin Jian had already rushed in.

Fu Zhi was lying on the ground. Because of the lack of light, he couldn't see exactly where he was injured. He could only see him staring at Xin Jian who ran to him and squatted down next to him. Insufficient strength.

The two of them looked at each other like this for about half a minute.

Xin Jian felt that his mind was empty.

It's not a blank space as most people say, but a total emptiness.

He felt the wind blowing hysterically in his ears, filled with a distorted noise, very harsh and uncomfortable, his back was covered with cold sweat, and he shivered whenever the wind blew.

I stretched out my hand to touch it, but I didn’t know where I could touch it, so I could only hang in mid-air and stay so stiff, as if something was stuck in my throat, I couldn’t make a sound, and I could only shake my lips and couldn’t speak out after holding it in for a long time talk.

But Fu Zhi couldn't help it: "Call... an ambulance..."

He kept panting after he finished speaking, but it seemed that the panting sound was very weak.

The so-called feeling tired even when breathing probably refers to his situation.

Clutching the phone in his hand, Xin Jian took a deep breath before forcing himself to make a call, but instead of calling an ambulance, he called Li Lei.

"Fu Zhi is injured. He is downstairs from my house, in the small alley on the far right of the 3rd floor of XX Community. Find a car and come here!"

If Li Lei is careful enough, he will hear that Xin Jian's voice has become strange.

Very distorted, with a very weird vibrato.

Fu Zhi was listening to Xin Jian's phone call, and then he closed his eyes weakly: "You...call..."

"I guarantee that Li Lei is faster than 120."

Understanding what he meant, Xin Jian explained in a comforting manner.Li Lei's home was not far away from him. At this time, an ambulance was not as reliable as Li Lei's.

If Fu Zhi had the strength now, he would probably roll his eyes or something, but he really had no choice but to close his eyes again, silently expressing that he would not comment.

Xin Jian felt dizzy and was in a daze when he saw things. Finally, he put his outstretched hand on Fu Zhi's shoulder lightly, and asked tentatively, "Can I touch you?"

"...only... hand..."

After Fu Zhi finished speaking, Xin Jian grabbed him.

A wet and cool piece.

Even if he didn't turn on the lights, he could still guess what they meant.

The uncontrollable chill spread from the palm of his hand to his limbs, and Xin Jian could clearly feel it during that process, wrapping around him tightly like vines.

Holding Fu Zhi's hand subconsciously, Xin Jian took a deep breath unconsciously until he couldn't take in any more air, but he still felt unable to suppress the heartbeat that was about to burst out of his chest.

He couldn't even manage to say, "Fu Zhi, hold on."

In the dark environment, he could only see the person in front of him close his eyes and open them again, and then close them again when he couldn't hold on anymore, and then gradually closed his eyes for longer and longer. The information that represented was so dangerous that he was terrified.

——Xin Jian, you will probably never know what fear is in your life!

Without warning, the words that Fu Zhi said when he quarreled with him earlier rushed into his ears.

Then he clenched his other hand into a fist.

When Li Lei arrived with a pale face, Fu Zhi hadn't opened his eyes for a long time.

Xin Jian squatted beside him as if petrified, holding his hand, without any movement.

It was Li Lei who gave him a hard push: "Stupid! Send him to the car!" That brought him back to his senses for a moment, and he glanced at Li Lei in a daze, and then the two of them and a few doctors and nurses worked together to get Fu Zhi into the car inside.

After receiving his call, Li Lei ran to the hospital to find an ambulance, and came here with the lights on all the way.

There was plenty of light in the car, Fu Zhi was carried into the car and the doctor immediately gave him some emergency treatment, but Xin Jian was stunned by the blood in his eyes.

Even with mental preparation, the dazzling color is too shocking.

Li Lei tried to talk to him all the way, but Xin Jian acted as if he couldn't hear him, and didn't give him any response.He was in a hurry to pull Xin Jian, but was thrown away by the latter.

It lasted all the way to the hospital, seeing Fu Zhi being pushed into the operating room, Xin Jian was still dazed.

The nurse took the risk book and signed it for him, and it took him a long time to explain before he picked up the pen.

Li Lei was annoyed by his appearance, just about to curse, when he turned his head and saw Xin Jian staring at his hand in a daze as if looking at a monster.

——Shaking unbearably.

He himself seems to be wondering why he can't even do something as simple as writing a pen, his eyes are straight, and he can't hear any sound around him.

Li Lei has never seen Xin Jian look like this in his life.

Just watching him tremblingly sign the name, before the nurse went into the operating room, he tried to grab her.

But in the end not.

So Li Lei swallowed all the words on his lips.

He sighed and sat on the chair in the corridor with his head in his arms, feeling angry and regretful that things had come to this point.

On the contrary, Xin Jian didn't feel anything.

Just standing outside the operating room with blood on hands.

It's all Fu Zhi's blood...

NO.16

"...My name is Fu Zhi."

"Really? We are in the same school?"

"You don't need to ask me for this kind of thing, do you? There is a more suitable candidate..."

"Stop talking so much nonsense! I can go home when I'm done!"

"You know I haven't seen this movie?"

"Xin Jian...I really admire you..."

All kinds of conversations lingered in my ears, some of which were so long gone that Xin Jian couldn’t remember them normally, and the frozen images were all of Fu Zhi’s magnified expression. He couldn’t see clearly what was in front of him, but it was weird The most important thing is to see the expression very clearly.

The lights in the operating room were always on. During the period, the nurse came out a few times, and then went in with a blank expression.

Li Lei stood up and asked a few questions, but it was useless. In the hospital, nothing but white was white, and Xin Jian felt depressed and uncomfortable.

I don't know how long he stood there until Xin Jian felt that his legs had lost feeling and became completely numb before the hospital bed was pushed out of the operating room. He took a step forward, but almost knelt on the ground because he couldn't adapt.

Li Lei quickly supported him beside him.

"Doctor, what's the matter?"

"He's seriously injured, but his condition is stable now. You should leave someone to accompany him in bed. He will probably feel a little pain after the anesthetic wears off tomorrow."

A simple explanation, the doctor took off the mask after allowing the nurse to push the bed out, and then turned around to change clothes.

Li Lei followed the nurse to go through the formalities, and Xin Jian accompanied him into the ward. Fu Zhi's face was pale, and the blood was covered up and he couldn't see it for a while. He subconsciously held the hand outside the quilt, feeling the pulse. There was a slight beating before he took a long breath and buried his head on the side of the bed.

Having lived so long, Xin Jian has never been in such a mess.

Gritting his back teeth and frowning, he held Fu Zhi's hand tightly, bowed his head and said nothing.

The quilt in the hospital smelled like a disinfection cabinet.

Fu Zhi's hands were very cold, no matter how hard Xin Jian exerted, he didn't seem to feel anything. He held Fu Zhi's fingers in the palm of his hand, rubbing them back and forth with small movements.

From the angle where he was lying on his stomach, he couldn't see Fu Zhi's face very clearly, he could only outline a rough outline.

The so-called gain and loss are nothing more than the moment of choice.

When Fu Zhi closed his eyes in front of him, he grasped very hard at that moment.I really want the other party to be able to open his eyes tired again after feeling his persistence, but he hasn't.

Even if he roared in his heart.

It turned out that when I was really scared to the extreme, I didn't feel afraid anymore.

It's just tough.

All the feelings described by Fuzhi before were repeated on him like retribution.

In fact, Xin Jian was very angry.

He really wanted to drag Fu Zhi up from the bed and start a fierce fight. He grabbed Fu Zhi by the collar and asked him why he took such a big risk. what mood.

Then when I thought about this level, I really wanted to beat myself up.

When it's time to cut the skin, you can't feel the pain of the skin.

It turned out that it was only when it was spread on my own head that I realized how painful it was.

Xin Jian has always asked himself that he is a very capable person, whether it is pressure or danger, no matter how complicated the situation is, he can laugh it off.Fu Zhi is actually right, he has never tried to be afraid, and he doesn't know what it feels like to be afraid.

Until in that dark alley, he saw Fu Zhi's eyes.

The phone in his hand was actually still dimly lit, and he had heard the other party's voice before, and it became instantly out of reach.

All the things that happened afterwards, he felt like a bystander standing in the sky overlooking.

There is no sense of reality, and the ability to feel is lost.

The only concept left in my mind is the word Fu Zhi, and I can't think of anything else, just repeating it over and over again.

"Fu Zhi..."

Mumbling to himself, he finally squeezed the name out from between his throats. Xin Jian held Fu Zhi's hand with one hand, and put the other hand on his forehead, so hard that he almost wanted to make a hole there.

He needed some external stimulation to deepen the feeling of the hand he was holding with Fu Zhi, to remind him where he was now.

When Li Lei came back after paying the fee, he saw Xin Jian lying on the edge of Fu Zhi's bed, motionless.

He hesitated for a while and finally didn't go in. He stayed in the corridor and took out a cigarette to light it, but finally put it back.

Smoking is not allowed in the hospital, so he was slow to remember.

In the ambulance just now, Xin Jian didn't feel it himself, his face was paler than Fu Zhi's.

It's even worse.

From the time he saw the two people until now, if he still can't see that there is something wrong between the two, then he is blind.

He has always been able to vaguely feel that Fu Zhi is different from ordinary people.

That difference does not carry some kind of discrimination or exclusion, it's just a vague concept. He understands that there are some differences, but he never thinks about it.

The relationship between Xin Jian and Fu Zhi, in his eyes, is a pair of partners who admire each other. Fu Zhi's cooperation is so high that Xin Jian always asks for what he wants. In some moments, I feel that their intimacy is somewhat contrary to common sense.

But watching is watching.

He was not in it, and he couldn't tell the subtle differences in it. He could only say that he had realized this step. He was a little surprised and a little confused, but he felt a sense of emotion in his heart.

At this time, all kinds of behaviors of Fu Zhi had a very reasonable explanation. Li Lei was actually a little surprised at his slowness and abnormal situation.

Looking at Xin Jian's background through the window, he sighed heavily and leaned against the wall, feeling that the two of them would only work harder in the future.

This is a very stressful road, far more realistic than what they take on at work.

He could not imagine such a life, but still gave his blessing.

Thinking of what Xin Jian had shown just now, he finally shook his head and stood up.This is the only way he can stay here, after tossing around most of the night, he really needs to smoke a cigarette to refresh himself.

The yard in the hospital smelled of rosin.

Probably because there are more pine trees, and the dew is heavy at night, the smell is more obvious.

He lit a cigarette and took two puffs. The faint red light flickered in the dark environment, a bit like his current mood.

By the time Xin Jian and Li Lei stayed with him until the morning, Fu Zhi's anesthetic had faded somewhat.

He starts to hurt.

Even though the other person didn't wake up right away, he was still moving in a daze, probably because he was very uncomfortable, and the hand with the infusion was moving back and forth. Xin Jian wanted to hold him down but was afraid of pressing on the wound, so he could only do it in a hurry Find a nurse.

"This is a normal reaction. Try to keep him still, and he will get used to it after a while."

Adapt to pain?

Xin Jian wanted to scold people very much.

The nurse's attitude of taking it for granted made it difficult for him to understand. Although he understood intellectually that this might be an unavoidable process, he couldn't accept it at all.

He carefully pressed Fu Zhi's hand, and glared at the nurse who was changing the dressing: "Can't there be any way to make him feel better?"

Fu Zhi's cold sweat was almost all over the pillow, his face was so pale that even his lips had no blood in it.

The nurse who put the medicine into the infusion bag glanced at him, purely to show comfort, she tidied Fu Zhi's quilt and pillow a little, then put away the things helplessly, and went to the next ward to continue changing the medicine.

She sees too many such family members every day, and no one can do more.

The doctor came over to see him, and he diagnosed that Fu Zhi's current reaction was within expectations, and the condition of the wound was fine, as long as the person woke up, there should be nothing wrong.

Xin Jian was listening to these words, but he couldn't rest assured at all.

Carefully controlling Fu Zhi's movements, he and Li Lei pressed Fu Zhi's half body, looked at the bewildered and painful expression of the person on the hospital bed, couldn't help but gritted his teeth and leaned beside him, persuading him in a whisper: "Fuck...Fu Zhi, don't be hurt..."

He didn't know who he was telling it to, but he kept repeating don't hurt anymore, like a brainwashing coaxing, carefully, his tone was full of pain that was not inferior to Fu Zhi.

The difference between the two of them is probably only that one is conscious and the other is not.