Evening Primrose's Lonely Confession

It was still early summer in Beijing, but it was already a fiery midsummer when we arrived in Country J. Song Xitang had a mobilization group meeting to hold, so he first asked the driver to take me to the hotel where I was staying temporarily. The colleagues who were traveling with me only regarded me as the bodyguard who escorted his luggage.

When Song Xitang came back, I just finished the video call with Sheng Tian. He said that the director had already been contacted, and it might be possible. I was also very happy.

Country J's economy is developing slowly, but I still went to the mall, ate a few snacks and brought some back. Song Xitang doesn't seem to be a person who eats this kind of food, but I'm afraid he will be hungry at night.

As soon as Song Xitang entered the room, he hugged me to the bedroom, saying that he had endured too long on the plane, and his colleagues and subordinates drank too much from the diplomatic department, so he deliberately pulled out.

"Hurry up, Zeze, we have a meeting at the hotel later."

"Song Xitang, have you forgotten what you promised me?" I grabbed his hand that moved down.

Song Xitang just kissed me, his body smelled of alcohol and tobacco, Song Xitang noticed it, quickly took off his clothes, and took off mine...

When I passed out from exhaustion, Song Xitang took a bath for me and left quickly.

The purpose of this public delegation is to promote the friendly economic development of the two countries, implement the policies of the two parties, and lay a solid foundation for accelerating the progress of experience and cultural exchanges.

During the two days of staying in the hotel, Song Xitang basically had to read the summary every day, and he had to write something himself. He was busy with others, and I went to mine. Song Xitang also brought his bodyguard over this time, saying that it was just for me. .

The culture of country J is more diverse due to historical reasons, and people here dress more colorfully. I always do as the Romans do, but in order to hide my identity, I still have to wear a black suit every day, but I still bought a few sets of clothes because I heard Song Xitang said that he As soon as the negotiation with the Chinese military region is over, he can take me to live in a bamboo and wooden stilt house on the banks of the Mekong River for a few days. At that time, the clothes will come in handy.

The road to the army was quite a long way, and Song Xitang was in a car alone, so I had to stand beside him and pretend to be his bodyguard.

The military cars are relatively simple, so they are relatively small, and Song Xitang is crowded when two people sit side by side.

Xiao Zhang and the soldiers sat in front, and I was bored so I had to listen to music with wireless earphones. On the way, Song Xitang took off his coat and put it between us. Sunglasses, the little soldier who saw the car driving in the rearview mirror also noticed it.

"Xiao Zhang, let's see how Director Fang's preparations are going." Song Xitang's words made the driving soldiers dare not look any more, and immediately looked away.

I chewed the gum, let go of the hand that was holding my shoulder, and quickly held hands with Song Xitang before no one noticed.

Song Xitang naturally moved his clothes and completely covered his hands. He felt my nervousness, and he stroked me carefully for a long time before he calmed down.

The window was open, and the wind outside the car was strong. Seeing that I was getting nervous, Song Xitang poured a glass of water for my thermos, and told me in a low voice not to be nervous when I approached.

"Mr. Song is really approachable." The little soldier said with a smile.

Song Xitang replied with a very kind smile, "Drive well and keep your eyes on the front."

"Yes!"

The military region was built three years ago. The Chinese military stationed here all the year round because of the lax prohibition of prohibited drugs, which led to a large amount of goods flowing into China through illegal channels. The strength of J country is weak, so the Chinese military came here to defend for three years.

When I got to the place, I was almost dying of thirst. The dry and hot weather here really made me a little uncomfortable, and most of the people in the convoy got off the car like this.

Director Liu led the soldiers to welcome everyone at the gate of the military area. The scene was very lively.

"Commander Song, welcome."

"Old Liu, don't fix these fake things." Song Xitang stretched out his hand and shook it with Director Liu.

The only advantage of the military area is that it is spacious, so many people come and everyone has a single room.

Everyone had dinner together in the cafeteria at night. I suffered from heatstroke, so I asked Song Xitang for leave and didn't go. I hid in my room and swiped my phone.

I don’t know how the little soldier who was driving today found out where I lived, and sent me some special fruits. I know they don’t often have these in the military area, so I am a little embarrassed to accept them.

"Thank you, thank you." I said politely.

But in the end he didn't take it back, "Thank you." I said something to send him out.

After a while, Song Xitang opened the door and came in. His face was gloomy, probably because he saw the little soldier just go out from me.

I casually picked up a fruit on the plate and took a bite, "Eat it, it's quite sweet."

Song Xitang didn't eat, just walked over, pinched my chin lightly and kissed my lips, "Well, indeed." After speaking, he let go of me, took a step back and leaned on the table, looking a little melancholy.

"What's wrong?" I asked him.

"Beijing, maybe I won't be able to go back." He smiled, as if it wasn't a big deal.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"My ex-wife used some connections and found someone to take my place temporarily." Song Xitang said lightly, as if there was a trace of worry.

"It's okay, it's not bad here."

"If I'm sure to stay, you can't stay in the military area all the time. It's absolutely impossible. I'm afraid something will happen to you outside." Song Xitang's expression was very serious.

"I'll be a soldier."

"There is no conscription here."

I couldn't choose what to say, "Isn't this a matter of your words?"

Song Xitang looked at me and was silent for a while, "Zeze, why don't you go back first, I can arrange for you in Beijing."

I chuckled lightly, "Song Xitang, why do you always play with my feelings? It's me when you bully me, you when you control me, and you when you say you love me? Am I so uninitiated? Why do you always The right to choose for me?!"

Song Xitang looked at me, got up for a while and went out, "Think about it carefully."

"Don't think about it, I won't go back."

"If the matter is really a foregone conclusion, I will send someone to take you back." Song Xitang didn't allow me to refuse in the slightest.

When he closed the door and went out, I felt tight in my chest. Song Xitang didn't tell me anything and let me go. I knew he had difficulties, but I was still angry after all, angry that he had the final say on everything, and angry that he would do everything for me Plan well, angry that he didn't think about how I would live without him at all.

Song Xitang is busy with his work, and there are so many people in the military region, he just texts me every day to tell me to eat well, and I also stay in my room to discuss work with Sheng Tian, ​​his progress is very fast, the news is always good, let me Ease the bad mood a little.

It was about the fifth day, when I was reading a book, I heard a loud noise in the room, and when I walked towards the window, I realized that there were more than [-] cars parked downstairs. Next, there was also the sound of people moving quickly outside the house, and the alarm sounded. I opened the door in a panic, and the soldiers ran through the door very quickly, probably going to the door to break through. Song Xitang's bodyguards also came out of the house. Although they had guns in their hands, But it's impossible to protect me to go out now, the frequency of snatching outside is getting higher and higher, Song Xitang is far away from the office building for a meeting, and I can't go out, but the terrorist forces outside are obviously more than the number of soldiers in this building.

The only way is to wait for rescue. There are soldiers from other buildings in this military area, and they will arrive in a short while. I asked the bodyguards to go back to my room first, so as not to mess up the soldiers’ doors easily, but the sudden loud noise made my brain buzz. It sounded like a beeping sound, and I realized how terrifying this evil force is, and it used it blatantly.

After a while of silence, the noise of the robbery became much quieter, and it started again after a while. I went back to the room and gently opened the curtains. I faintly saw a person walking along the crowd, but at the door of the building, someone had already broken in.

Several bodyguards went out to guard the stairs for me. I was a little scared and fidgeted in the room, not knowing how many people would die in this turmoil.

And the man in black just now...could it be Song Xitang.

In the panic, I heard a clearer snatching sound, and my door seemed to be opened, and I covered my head in fright.

"Zeze, come out quickly."

I heard Song Xitang's voice, he walked in, took my hand and left the room, there was a lot of scrambling behind him, it was the bodyguards covering us, he led me to run along the corridor to the end of the stairs, Song Xitang let me Standing still, he ran up and down twice, and finally came to pick me up, but my body was already too stiff.

Song Xitang picked me up and ran up quickly, and the rushing sound seemed to follow him again, my hands were trembling and cold.

Song Xitang opened a fire door, locked the door and led me in. The space inside was so small that only two people could stand. Song Xitang hugged me, covered my ears and said softly, "This place is specially made. They can't open it."

When I touched his arm, I felt it was wet and sticky with a fishy smell, "Song Xitang, are you injured?"

Song Xitang put her arms around my waist, "Zeze, we... haven't hugged like this for several days."

Tears fell down my cheeks, "Yeah."

"Don't be angry with me. It's really dangerous here. The trade of prohibited drugs is blocked. The drug dealers are already hitting the door. Look, how scary it is." Song Xitang's chin rested on my shoulder, and his breath hit the side of my neck.

"Then I won't leave... Can you still persist?" I asked him muttering.

Song Xitang nodded, "Don't worry, I'm fine."

I supported the wall with my hands, fearing that Song Xitang would fall if he couldn't hold it, Song Xitang noticed my nervousness, he coughed twice, and wrapped his arms around me even tighter, "Zeze, I'm fine, I won't die of."

"Song Xitang, you'd better not die, I've given you all the money." I hugged him, trying to get as close to him as possible.

Song Xitang chuckled, and I could tell he was a little weak, "Zeze, we haven't celebrated the New Year together yet, and we still have a honeymoon we haven't been to... There are so many things we haven't done, if you showed up sooner..." Song Xitang The blood dripped down my arm, and his arm gradually let go of me.

"Zeze, let go." Song Xitang lowered his hands and leaned against me, his breathing gradually became lighter.

"Song Xitang..."

"Song Xitang, if you die, you will be sorry for me for the rest of your life."

Song Xitang didn't answer, I just felt sad...

Song Xitang seemed to hear it, he grabbed my hand firmly, "I will do my best... I will do my best... Zeze, let me take a break..."

After he finished speaking, he propped himself up against the wall behind him with his arms. In the darkness, I could imagine Song Xitang, who was always tidy and self-sufficient, how embarrassed he was now, but the only strength he had was only enough to hold my hand.

"Zeze, do you know, if I knew you were so important, I would never let you go, not even for a moment... You know when I heard that you were really married... really... ...Fortunately, we have obtained the certificate now...no one can take you away..." He stroked my hand and my ring, "Zeze, if I...find someone better for you."

It was at that moment that I realized that I had forgiven Song Xitang a long time ago, because I didn't want him to die, and I even covered him up a long time ago. He is my most important person. When I get close to him, I feel that there are only two of us in this world. , I kissed his lips, only to taste the blood of despair.

"Song Xitang, if you die, I won't live either."

In the dark, I heard his faint chuckle, "Okay, anyway, I can protect you underground." He hugged me with all his strength, "But I hope you can live to be eighty, when the time comes I will protect you." I came to find you after being reincarnated."

When the door was broken open, Song Xitang hugged me and turned around, blocking me tightly. In panic, I heard him say, "Don't be afraid."

Fortunately, the person who opened the door was from the military region.

When I watched them help Song Xitang, who was covered in blood, to get on the plane, I felt that the rest of his life was really precious. The only embarrassing thing was that I didn't dare to get on the plane, for fear that it would affect Song Xitang's future. Although I firmly believed in him Nothing will happen, but he still dare not let him go to the hospital by himself, he is not afraid of anything but just in case.

"Zeze! Who is Zeze? The patient calls you."

I was quickly supported by several bodyguards, and they boarded the plane together. Song Xitang held my hand tightly along the way.

When he entered the operating room, my legs were still weak. Fortunately, the doctor thoughtfully prepared a wheelchair for me, so I sat at the door and waited.

Song Xitang's blood on my body had dried up a long time ago. I don't know how long it took before Song Xitang was pushed out. He was lying between the white snow, quietly like a child.

"Family."

I quickly raised my hand, "It's me."

"The patient lost a lot of blood, and the shrapnel in the arm has been taken out, but because his bone was broken, some nerves were damaged, causing irreversible damage."

"so……"

"Let him rest a lot. As for the recovery, don't be too aggressive, but he should have felt it before he passed out." The doctor said it very pertinently. I know that Song Xitang's arm may not be able to recover as before. .

So he keeps touching my hand, is he confirming his perception?

After the anesthesia was over, Song Xitang woke up, and he smiled when he looked at me.

I moistened his lips with a cotton swab, "The rest of my life, Song Xitang, congratulations."

"Thank you." He smiled and grabbed me with his good hand. "You start crying." He pointed at my face, "It's so beautiful."

Song Xitang's face was still pale, I patted him, "Go to sleep, have a good sleep."

He nodded, and soon fell asleep.

I looked at his face, looking for every Song Xitang in my memory, domineering, indifferent, lonely, vicious, gentle, none of his aspects affected my liking for him, probably because each aspect was different handsome.

Song Xitang was in good health, and the doctors said that he recovered quickly. As for his right arm, indeed, he lost feeling in his ring finger.

On the contrary, I was more anxious than him. Song Xitang just twirled the ring and comforted me by saying that luckily it was not my left hand.

"There are better doctors in Beijing, don't worry, they will take good care of them." Song Xitang comforted me, then typed hard with the computer in his hand.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"I'm going to retire from illness." Song Xitang spoke calmly, then looked up at me again, "Why, are you afraid that I won't be able to support you?"

"Are you sure? Wouldn't it be better to apply for a transfer back to Beijing?" I asked.

Song Xitang ate a grape, and began to explain to me leisurely, "The position there has already been filled, so even if I return to Beijing now, it is estimated that the new position will not be easy to do, and the sickness is not bad, so I can do business."

"Business?"

Song Xitang stretched out his hand and asked me to sit over, "The director I introduced to you last time is... an employee of my company..."

I almost sat up in surprise, "How much money do you have?"

"It's more than enough to support you anyway."

I asked again with some disgust, "You have been an official for so many years, how much have you searched?"

Song Xitang smiled helplessly, "My grandparents used to do business overseas, and when my parents started working, they were the rich five generations in Beijing."

He put his arms around me, "As for this company, they invested in it after they retired. Although it was true that I used some connections to make it bigger and stronger, it was all within a reasonable range. Don't worry, my money is clean. And have you seen who I have received gifts from?"

I pouted, Song Xitang knew that I couldn't believe it, so he didn't explain.

Song Xitang was very good at what he said, and took me to play around in country J before going back, but he had a lot of complaints about the clothes I bought, he said it was too expensive and not suitable for his age group.

Sitting on the plane, I finished writing the last page of the story, Song Xitang put his arm around my shoulder and asked me, "Tell me, will they know if we really exist?"

"I should know." I closed the computer and looked at him.

He clasped my head and kissed me tenderly. The light from the clouds came in through the window, bringing only warmth and light, just like Song Xitang's silent love like evening primrose, and his unruly heart.

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