Evening Primrose's Lonely Confession

Song Xitang seemed to be still on the phone for a while, "Be good."

"Got it, got it." I turned on the computer impatiently and continued to organize the files.

Song Xitang hung up the phone, and I felt bored instead.

It was only at night that I remembered that the car broke down. Song Xitang sometimes went to bed early and sometimes went to bed late, but his phone was turned on 24 hours a day. The time when Song Xitang can talk about daily trivial matters.

If opening that door was my biggest regret, making this call is one I regret even more.

"Who are you?" The bright female voice sounded, I was startled, she seemed to be able to predict my reaction, "Don't hang up on me!"

"Sorry, I made a typo." I said rightly.

"Zeze, aren't you Zeze?"

I'm to blame for this, one time Song Xitang put his phone on the dining table after a call, and I just saved my phone in it.

Didn't expect him to stay.

The woman gave me my address accurately and told me not to run around, otherwise, she would not know what to do. She also told me that she had obtained all my information from Song Xitang.

I was trembling, and the hands holding the phone were trembling, because I really didn't know who to turn to for help in the middle of the night without Song Xitang.

I just remember that woman hired a lot of people to break into the house that Song Xitang bought for me, broke my furniture and computer, and my clothes were torn apart by several men. I learned the lesson well, and slapped me hard twice.

I tried my best but couldn't break free. I was held in a cold and dirty place. What did I do wrong?My yelling and roaring had no effect, but made them even more ferocious.

In a panic, they finally let go of me, but because of the rough treatment, there was no pain anywhere on my body.

"Ashan, stop making trouble." I heard Song Xitang's voice.

Song Xitang probably saw that I looked a bit like what he said before, he lost face, he covered me with his clothes, carried me outside, I just felt dizzy.

On the way to the hospital, Song Xitang just let me pillow his leg, and there was a trace of complexity in his eyes that he had never seen before when he looked at me.

"Song Xitang...the car you gave me is broken." I touched his face, as if I regarded him as my favorite person, even though he just looked at me indifferently, I still let my fingertips reflect Move it over and over again until you have no strength and fall asleep.

Most of the things in the hospital are uniform. Since the process from illness to recovery has the smell of disinfectant that I don't like, I don't have a deep impression. When I picked up the pen, I had already forgotten all about it.

Song Xitang asked me to go back to the manor to recuperate, but I refused because my leg was seriously injured and it was inconvenient to go upstairs and downstairs.

He peeled the apple for me and I didn’t pick it up. I just asked him when I would be free. Seeing that I was still sick, he probably didn’t want to argue with me. He just sat there silently, waiting for the apple to change color and then eating it himself. .

In the end, Song Xitang compromised and took me to his own residence, which was an ancient Chinese-style house in the suburbs.

It was remodeled from the original Song family's old house, and the inside is the same as a modern home.

Song Xitang pushed my wheelchair to the door of a room on the first floor, "I'll make it up, stay here temporarily, and when your legs recover, go to the manor to recuperate."

"Thank you." I nodded, the wheelchair was electric, and I went in by remote control.

The Chinese-style big bed looks pretty good, and the room is simple and clean.

After all, I couldn't eat the dinner made by Song Xitang, so I decided to stop eating, and remote controlled the wheelchair to walk around the house.

When I went to sleep at night, Song Xitang was stopped by me outside the house. I didn't want to play hard to get, but I was really scared.

"Song Xitang, I've decided not to touch men anymore."

When I was in the hospital, it was a constant nightmare.

Song Xitang just paused, and went upstairs without saying anything.

When I was in the intensive care unit of the hospital, he was always with me, and I would definitely drive him away when it was almost night, because I was afraid that there would be a man next to me when the night fell.

Everything is thanks to Song Xitang's wife, but she has not been punished, but I can no longer accept the love anyone can give me.

Anyway, this world is unfair.

I obsessively want to play online checkers all day long, but... the first place in the competition area is always difficult to surpass, Song Xitang saw my frown and thought something serious happened.

He asked me and I just said that it was a pity that I didn't win the first place in the game.

Song Xitang smiled, "Little fool." The next day he invited me to be my teacher in Beijing's famous nine-dan checkers, but at the same time he also asked me for a reward, saying that he would take a nap with his arms around me.

"Answer or not, or not, let me let him go." When Song Xitang pulled me to say this in the bathroom, he was still threatening, but I clearly saw that there seemed to be a little more expectation in his eyes.

"Then let him go."

Because of this sentence, Song Xitang pushed open the door, looked at me at the door, paused, went to the living room, took the clothes and left.

When I was sleeping at noon, Song Xitang broke into my bedroom, took off my clothes and got into my bed. He looked like a hooligan when I first met him.

Knowing that I was inconvenient to move, he pulled me over and whispered something in my ear, "Zeze, let me hug you."

I still pushed him away, because of the terrifying image that flashed in my mind, "Song Xitang, stay away from me." If Song Xitang was a little later that day, I don't know what would happen. According to this reason, I should be very grateful From now on, he will dedicate his heart and soul to him, love him well, and never leave his mind.

But Song Xitang saved me, but he also buried my throbbing heart for him with his own hands, because the reality made me sober, even if Song Xitang really liked me a little bit, he would not fight against the monstrous power, let alone Falling out completely with his wife is at most hiding me deeper and preventing her from discovering it again.

I don't know when it started, our relationship has become complicated.

Maybe when he asked me if I missed him, I answered without hesitation.

It may also be that when I greedily stroked Song Xitang's cheek and said aggrievedly that I called him just to tell him that the car was broken down, I saw his complicated expression and his arm tightly hugging me.

I really wish I could die in his arms, even if it doesn't change his life in any way, but maybe he is the one who is having nightmares now.

Song Xitang's eyes were full of astonishment, he grabbed my shoulder and asked me loudly, "What are you afraid of? Ah? What are you afraid of? They obviously didn't do anything to you?"

I covered my mouth tremblingly, shook my head, tears rolled down the back of my hand, I was so frightened myself, trying to remember, only saw ugly faces and people.

They kissed me on the mouth.

Song Xitang took a deep breath, "Tell me, why?" He opened my hand and let me breathe.

I supported the bed to catch my breath, groped and sat far away from Song Xitang, "It's nothing, I am incapable of accepting it myself, you go... you go... I will leave here and you too."

Song Xitang got up, threw the clothes he had taken off on the bed, cursed and went out.

"Nine Duchess of Checkers" is just a nickname. This person was too serious when he talked about checkers, and he was a man, so I drove him away, and there was less nagging in my ears.

The days passed quickly. Seeing that autumn is almost over, my leg healed very quickly. I couldn’t see it when I was walking, but I didn’t go out for a walk. I just wandered around in the yard and went back to the house when I was tired. Watching movies and eating melon seeds.

Song Xitang comes every day. I didn't ask about his family affairs, but judging from his state, everything is probably as usual.

He was afraid that I would be bored, so he put a large water tank for me in the shade under the porch. I studied it, and it turned out to be an object from the late Qing Dynasty. He bought a group of small fish and lotus leaves and put it in, saying that it was waiting for spring. Find someone to repair the rockery and give me a real pond, and I can raise whatever I want.

I nodded and responded to him, "It's really good."

Song Xitang didn't provoke me anymore, and he wouldn't come into my room. As for dinner, he gradually made it better than before.

When we were having dinner at night, I asked bluntly, "Aren't you uncomfortable staying here with me all day?"

Song Xitang looked at me and stopped chewing, "Aren't you holding back too?"

Indeed, I put down my chopsticks, "Recently, my sister called me and asked me to go back to my hometown, saying that I should hurry back and go on a blind date."

Song Xitang took a bite of food for me, "Well, do you want me to have someone deliver it to you?"

"I've already booked the ticket, you can take me to the airport the day after tomorrow." I said directly.

Song Xitang smiled and said: "I will try my best to spare time to see you off."

I looked at Song Xitang, obviously not afraid of me running away again, "I left this time, maybe I won't come back." I said bluntly.

Song Xitang nodded, "Tell me about the marriage."

Song Xitang must be tired too, I went back to sleep after eating, I always felt that someone had entered the room in my dream, but I didn't have the energy to open my eyes.

On the day I went back, it was the airport that Xiao Zhang sent me to. I didn't take too many things, but I just mailed all the things back in advance.

Xiao Zhang knew what happened that day. He didn't expect Song Xitang to keep me at home for so long. We said goodbye at the airport. He probably knew that it was the last time we saw each other, so he hugged me and gave me a book before boarding the plane. .

"Love in the Time of Cholera" I murmured and stroked the gilt text on the cover of the book, and turned the pages, which still contained pale pink evening primroses, a book I had half-read at the manor.

It’s just that I like reading books. I don’t like reading foreign books. First, they don’t seem easy to read. Second, they all have a characteristic, hypocritical,

If I were 80 years old, I would rather spend my days and nights looking for a pretty girl than my first love.

"Mr. Song asked me to give it to you."

I accepted and put it in my computer bag, "Thank you."

My home is in a small place in the countryside. In the next two months, because the electricity was not good in the countryside, I mostly didn't write it down.

The big thing is, my sister found me a blind date, and I met her. She was a girl in her early twenties, very pretty, and I was not too young, so we agreed to the bride price and got married.

Except for the bride price and the money for building a house, I kept 20 for myself, and gave the rest to my sister. She didn’t want it, so I told her to keep it for me, and she accepted it.

"Ozawa, you...have you suffered in Beijing these years?" She asked, with a worried look on her face.

I shook my head. When it comes to suffering, my elder sister eats a lot more than me. She married at a very young age. Later, her parents passed away. She didn’t even have her mother’s family. It's very fast.

I hugged my sister: "I'm fine, it's because you're tired, take a rest in the future, I'm in everything at home."

My sister patted me on the back, just like when I was a child.

"uncle."

My elder sister has a daughter named Xiuxiu, who is only five years old. I saw her when she was one year old, but she was too busy working in Beijing and didn’t come back for many years.

"Xiuxiu." My sister turned around and hugged her. I couldn't help feeling a little bit disappointed, so I went to tease her, "Why are you always clinging to my sister?"

Seeing that Chinese New Year is coming soon, my sister and brother-in-law drove to buy New Year’s goods, chatted casually on the road, but it was kind, he is an honest man, he has supported my sister for so many years, I am grateful to him.

During the Chinese New Year, my brother-in-law and I were lighting firecrackers outside. Xiuxiu was so frightened that she clutched her hands and ran to the house.

We drink, watch the year, eat dumplings, I think it is the happiest year ever.

The next day, my sister and I went to visit our "in-laws", and the girl sat cross-legged on the kang in the house. When she saw me, she put melon seeds and sugar in my bag.

"Happy New Year."

"Happy New Year." After I finished speaking, I took out the hairpin in my pocket and pinned it on her head as a gift.

This card was picked at the gold shop in the town, and it cost about 2000 yuan.

My sister said I was different from the people here, and indeed, the girl said the same.

By the way, that girl, let's call her Fangfang.

The day of my wedding was very lively, everyone in the village came, my sister Zhang Luo was very decent, and Fangfang's parents were also very satisfied.

On the wedding night, I drank too much. Looking at Fangfang's face, which was flushed, I didn't touch her, because I was afraid that she would be scared, and she looked a little nervous.

The new house was very clean and warm, and we fell asleep hugging each other, and I felt like my heart was warming up again.