purple double bed

That night, Yan Jing suffered from insomnia for the first time. He remembered the details of the two teasing each other during the years he had known Rong Yuming. It seemed that he had the upper hand every time. Yuming was letting him in on purpose, but Rong Yuming had always been kind to him.

However, at that time, the word homosexuality did not exist in Yan Jing's concept at all. He always believed that boys should be with girls, just like sisters and brother-in-laws.Rong Yuming's sudden confession made Yan Jing feel very at a loss.

But the strange thing is that Yan Jing doesn't dislike him. Instead, he thinks that he is gentle and easy to get along with, he knows how to do things well, and there are almost no shortcomings in him. No matter from any angle, he is a near-perfect person.Every time he gets close to him, Yan Jing will feel his heart beat faster.I just don't know if I like that feeling.

For a while, Yan Jing avoided Rong Yuming deliberately, and Rong Yuming didn't take the initiative to find him. The obvious cold war atmosphere between the two made Ouyang Shuo confused.Just in time for the winter vacation, a new movie theater opened in the city center, Ouyang Shuo took the initiative to treat guests, and invited Yan Jing, Rong Yuming, and Bai Shaobo, a group of childhood friends went to the movie theater to join in the fun.

Rong Yuming deliberately changed places with Bai Shaobo and sat next to Yan Jing.At the beginning of the movie, he suddenly gently held Yan Jing's hand.

The name of the movie is "Love Letter".The film opens with a vast expanse of white snow and a bleak funeral.

In the crowded movie theater, when he suddenly held hands, the stalled heartbeat and the momentary stagnation of breathing can even be truly felt to this day.He clasped his hands tightly with his fingers, conveying the other person's warm body temperature through his fingertips, as if a sudden electric current had passed through his fingers, there was a strange feeling of numbness.

Yan Jing wanted to break free, but he held him even tighter, so he turned his head stiffly, trying to focus on the movie screen.

Because of this, he remembers the plot of the movie very clearly.

In that movie, the heroine Hiroko saw the address of his fiancé Fujii Shu in middle school on the anniversary of his death, and sent a letter with the idea of ​​writing to him in heaven, but unexpectedly received a reply. , which leads to a memory about the first love.

The first love in the student days was green and beautiful, and the tone of the whole movie was always so plain and sad. When the show was about to end, the theme song played again, and Rong Yuming who was beside him suddenly came over and asked softly in Yan Jing's ear: "Actually, you like me too, don't you?"

Yan Jing's fingers were unnaturally stiff.Rong Yuming smiled slightly and said, "Don't run away anymore."

Looking back now, it was on that day that the two were officially together.

The temperature that day was very cold, and the winter wind made people tremble all over. At the end of the street, Rong Yuming took Yan Jing's cold hand, put it on his lips, and breathed the heat gently, while rubbing his face. hands, and said seriously: "Ah Jing, let's be together."

Against the backdrop of the street lamps, his smiling face was very bright, and his dark eyes were also full of tenderness. Such eyes could almost make people fall easily.He rubbed the frozen fingers in the palm of his hand as if to please him, and the warmth slowly seeped into his heart like that.

Yan Jing finally smiled and said, "Okay."

The two hugged each other tightly, the cold wind in winter was blowing on their faces and it was icy cold, but their hearts were warm.

They were secretly together for three years, preparing even the best for the future.

Under the personal tutoring of Rong Yuming, Yan Jing's grades improved by leaps and bounds, and he successfully entered the top ten in the grade in the third year of high school. The two planned to go to a famous university in other places together. Yan Jing naturally had to follow his father's wish to study medicine, and Rong Yuming of course If you want to study business for the sake of the family business, the university is very famous for its medicine and business studies. If the two apply for the same university together, the family will not have the slightest doubt.

The smart two successfully completed their volunteer applications according to the original plan. Seeing that they were getting closer and closer to the goal of happiness, an unexpected accident happened suddenly.

That day, Rong Yuming's parents happened to go out to discuss business, and Yan Jing's parents were not at home. The two of them received the admission notice at the same time, and they were very excited. celebrate.

After dinner, Yan Jing wanted to go home, but Rong Yuming suddenly grabbed his arm and kissed him.

They have been together for three years, and they have kissed quite a few times. They have long since lost their initial youthfulness and shyness. The more they kiss, the more passionate they become. In addition, they are in a good mood today, and after drinking again, their emotions gradually became a little out of control. They fell on the sofa hugging and kissing all the way.

When the relationship has progressed to this stage, it is very natural to break through this last hurdle.The road in front of them has been paved, and they just waited until September to leave their hometown and go to school in the far north. Now that they are both adults, it seems that they have nothing to worry about.

Yan Jing cooperatively asked him to take off his clothes, because he struggled on the bed for a long time because of who gets on and who gets off, and finally Rong Yuming said helplessly: "Okay, I'll let you this time." Yan Jing got his wish, and suppressed it with a smirk. He starts kissing.

The two were kissing passionately, when suddenly, the door was pushed open, and with the sound of a heavy object falling to the ground, Yan Ru's screaming sound could be heard.

"Ah Jing, what are you doing?!"

Such a posture naturally reminds people that Yan Jing is forcing Rong Yuming.

Yan Jing turned his head and was about to explain when he heard a crisp "slap", and a loud slap made his mind go blank for an instant.

The corners of his mouth were scratched, a strong smell of blood spread in his mouth, and his ears were buzzing. Looking at his sister who was trembling with anger, Yan Jing stood there in a daze, unable to speak for a long time.

Yan Ru stared at her disheveled younger brother, her voice trembling slightly, "How could you treat Yuming like this?! You have been naughty and naughty since you were a child, and now you are doing this kind of thing to your friends even worse?!"

"No..." Rong Yuming stood up and wanted to explain, but Yan Jing stopped him with his eyes.

"Sister, let's talk when we get home." Yan Jing calmly picked up the clothes on the ground, put them on slowly, and turned to go out.

He knew that he had always been a naughty and naughty bad boy in the hearts of the elders, so if anything happened, it must be him who was at fault.And Rong Yuming, who is smiling, is the proud son of heaven that everyone is full of praise. Yuming, who is spoiled by his family, how can he bear these mocking eyes?

Therefore, at that moment, Yan Jing took the initiative to bear all the responsibilities for the one he loved. Now that the matter has been exposed, let him, a "naughty and naughty" person, take all the responsibility.Anyway, he has been beaten countless times by his father since he was a child, so this time it would be a big deal to add a whip.Those punishments... can never be imposed on Rong Yuming.

Yan Jing was brought back home by Yan Ru, and it happened that Yan Shu was not there for a few days, and Yan Ru didn't want to do anything to her younger brother, so she just taught him with various principles, Yan Jing agreed on the surface, but in her heart she planned to wait for her parents When I came back, I officially came out and made everything clear.

At this moment, a fierce conflict suddenly appeared between Rong Yucheng and Yan Ru.

The relationship between the two of them has always been very good on the surface, and they are a pair matched by their parents. Everyone thinks that they are a loving couple.Yan Jing never thought that the relationship between their husband and wife was already in jeopardy.

Rong Yucheng...has never loved Yan Ru.

The ambiguous relationship between the two younger brothers became the trigger for another quarrel between the husband and wife.

Because of the matter between Yan Jing and Rong Yuming, the couple had a big quarrel, and Rong Yucheng moved back to Rong's house directly.That night, Rong Yucheng's parents also happened to come back from other places.At three o'clock in the middle of the night, Yan Jing woke up from a nightmare, got up to go to the bathroom, and found that the light next door was still on, he opened the window out of curiosity to look, and vaguely heard the violent sound of smashing antiques in the living room, and There are violent arguments on the verge of emotional breakdown.

Rong Yucheng rushed out of the living room madly, followed by Rong Yuming's cry: "Brother, where are you going! Brother!"

Yan Jing watched helplessly as Rong Yucheng drove his car and disappeared at the end of the street.

But, he never came back.

The next morning, Rong Yucheng and his car were found by the traffic police in the western suburbs. His car crashed into a construction site next to the road, and he and his car were blown up to ashes.The traffic police said it was likely a suicide.

Yan Ru completely collapsed after hearing the news. Even now, Yan Jing still clearly remembers the pale face of her always strong and calm sister when she saw her husband's ashes.

Everything suddenly deviated from the track, and the young Yan Jing couldn't control it at all.

Yan Shu finally came back, and after knowing this, he pointed all the blame at Yan Jing.If Yan Jing hadn't gone to Rong Yuming's house to do bad things, Yan Ru and his wife would not have quarreled and separated, and the Rong family would not have quarreled and turned upside down, resulting in such a tragedy.

Yan Jing suddenly became the target of public criticism.became the source of all accidents.

It rained heavily that night, and Yan Jing knelt on the stone slab in front of the door waiting for his father to forgive him.

Yan Shu's face was terribly cold, and he cursed: "You bastard! Tell me clearly, what's going on between you and Rong Yuming?!"

Yan Jing raised his head and looked at his father calmly, "Dad, now that things have happened, I have no choice but to tell you frankly that I am gay."

With a slap, the face that had just subsided from the swelling was slapped firmly again, and his father's palm slapped his cheek mercilessly, and he lost his hearing in an instant, and a burning pain spread across his cheek, but Yan Jing did not compromise at all. , looked at him proudly and stubbornly.

"I like Yuming, no...I love him. Please let me be with him."

"Bastard, say it again!" Yan Shu was dizzy with anger, picked up the whip and whipped it at Yan Jing.

With a crisp sound of "swish", Yan Jing's shirt was torn apart, and as the whip grazed his back, a glaring bloodstain appeared on his fair skin.

"I love him." Yan Jing's eyes were flat, still proudly looking at his father.

Another whip came down and wiped his forehead. The blood was washed by the rain on the top of his head, blurring his vision. Yan Jing pulled the corner of his torn lips and said lightly: "Dad, I love him..."

The whips came down one after another with the rain, and shocking bloodstains were left on the back. The original neat purple shirt was cut into holes, and the blood flowed down, staining the floor tiles red.

Yan Jing still refused to admit defeat, kneeling there stubbornly.

"Dad, it's not a disease. Even if you beat me to death, it won't cure me."

"I am right."

He was indeed right, he just fell in love with Rong Yuming.Now that he has chosen to be with Rong Yuming, he can't give in at this last moment.He knew that with his father's personality, if he compromised at this moment, it would mean that he and Rong Yuming had no future.

For Rong Yuming, he had to grit his teeth and hold on.

I can't count the number of whip marks on my body, and I have lost consciousness when kneeling on the cold floor...

Yan Shu finally got tired from the beating, put down his whip, and said with a sullen face: "You are still young, do you know what love is?! How dare you say that you love him? I haven't taught you for a long time, it's getting worse and worse! I will spend a few days with your sister Go to Australia, get out of here and calm down for a while!"

"I'm not going to Australia." Yan Jing wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand, and said stubbornly, "I will not separate from him unless you beat me to death."

"You!" Yan Shu was furious, walked over and slapped Yan Jing twice, turned around and slammed the door behind him, "Kneel here and reflect on yourself!"

That night, Yan Jing knelt at the door for a whole night.The rain hit the body, and it was icy cold.The scars on the back were poured by the rain, and there were bursts of piercing pain.However, he was not sad, because he knew that as long as the day dawned, he would have hope.

When he was young, he was often mischievous and caused troubles. Every time he made a big mistake, as long as his father beat him up and his anger subsided, he would always rely on him in the end in desperation.As long as he insists on not letting go, his father can't really beat him to death, and he will still agree to him in the end.Then, he and Yu Ming can really be together.

However, the Yan family made such a big commotion, did Rong Yuming hear it?It's best if he didn't hear, otherwise Dad's irritable personality might even beat him up too.Besides, his brother had just left, and he must have felt very uncomfortable. The pressure that must be faced between the two of them should be borne by himself.

Thinking of this, Yan Jing clenched his fingers to support his body, knelt on the cold ground, and straightened his back.

As long as he thinks about being able to be with him in the end, thinks about the happy and happy days after the two go to university together, thinks about his gentle smiling face, Yan Jing feels that what he does today is worthwhile.

At six o'clock in the morning, Yan Jing's mother finally couldn't help rushing out the door, wrapped her son's trembling body in a big coat, and said in a trembling voice: "Okay, stop kneeling, go and recognize your father wrong……"

Yan Jing's physical strength was almost exhausted, but he still shook his head stubbornly and said hoarsely, "Mom, I'm right."

"Ah Jing, why are you so stubborn... for Yuming, you..." After all, my mother was soft-hearted. Seeing the hideous scars on Yan Jing's body, her eyes became sore, "Okay, since you really love him so much, I will help you Advise your father...your father also didn't sleep all night, and now he is angry, don't fight him hard..."

Yan Shu opened the door and came out, staring at Yan Jing with sharp eyes, and asked in a deep voice: "Have you figured it out?"

"I figured it out." Yan Jing tugged at the corner of his mouth, and forced out a faint smile, "I still say the same thing, I won't be separated from him."

Such a proud and stubborn son made Yan Shu lean against the door as if he lost his strength in an instant, "You are so stubborn!"

At this moment, Rong Yuming suddenly appeared. Wearing a black suit and a black sacrificial veil wrapped around his arms, he walked to the door of Yan's house expressionlessly.

Yan Shu looked at him and said coldly: "Yuming, what do you say about this?"

Rong Yuming glanced at Yan Jing who was kneeling on the ground, raised his head, and said softly, "Uncle Yan, let me persuade him."

Yan Jing suddenly opened his eyes wide. For a moment, he thought he had heard wrong.

In the blurred vision of the rain, Rong Yuming's gentle face was still as familiar as before, but Yan Jing found that he suddenly didn't recognize him.

At that moment, how much Yan Jing wished that Rong Yuming could kneel beside her and firmly said: "I love him too."

Yan Jing believed that his father was really about to compromise, all he needed was a word from Rong Yuming.

But at this time, he said calmly: "Let me persuade him."

It seemed that Yan Jing, who was kneeling on the ground, had become a fool performing a one-man show by himself.Yan Jing who kept saying "I love him and I will not be separated from him" has become the saddest joke in the world.

Rong Yuming bent down to support Yan Jing, but Yan Jing waved his hand away.

Yan Jing stared closely at his eyes, "How do you persuade me?"

——How can you persuade me?

—Advising me to give up the relationship between us?Advise me not to become gay for you? !

Yan Jing's whole body trembled slightly, staring at him closely, but he couldn't say a word anymore.

After a long silence, Rong Yuming's voice slowly reached his ears.

"I've already decided to study in the United States." Rong Yuming paused, and under the shocked eyes of Yan Jing's mother, he said calmly, "Ah Jing, let's break up."

For a moment, it was as if all the strength in his body had been drained.

He knelt in front of the door all night, and when his father beat him all over his body, he still insisted on refusing to give up, just because he loved Rong Yuming, and he was willing to make all efforts for Rong Yuming.

But the other party gave him the loudest slap in the face in front of his parents.

"I'm sorry, Ah Jing." Rong Yuming patted Yan Jing's shoulder lightly, turned and walked away.

The car driving out of the Rong family compound quickly disappeared into the rain, but Yan Jing was still kneeling on the spot in a daze.

Perhaps his knees were numb from kneeling, and he no longer had the strength to stand up.The father's ironic gaze and the mother's pitiful sigh were like a sharp thorn, piercing straight into the bottom of my heart.

He suddenly remembered that a long time ago, the day Rong Yuming confessed his love to him for the first time, he also said the three words "sorry" before leaving.

They have known each other for ten years and have been in love for three years.

In the end, what I got in exchange was only the three words "I'm sorry".