Stockholm syndrome

"Ye Shen, don't you like Zhong Han anymore, okay?" Li Weiran said these words close to my face, the newly grown stubble gently rubbed against my neck, a little itchy.The aroma of coffee in the corner of his mouth has not dissipated yet.In the empty McDonald's, 17-year-old me and 17-year-old Li Weiran hugged each other brazenly.This scene is engraved in my heart like a brand.The temperature from his body made me feel at ease like never before.

"Okay." Maybe I should say, are you kidding me.Or what a joke.Or, stop messing around or something.But I agreed very happily, almost an instinctive reaction.Probably in my heart, I also long for warmth. In fact, at this time, I didn't know whether I liked him or not, but he was already special in my heart.

Hearing my reply, Li Weiran let go of his hands around my back, held my face in his arms and kissed my forehead forcefully.Just like when my dad and I were playing and kissing me when I was young, and made a lot of noise.As a result of this, I sat on the ground due to excessive shock.Well, we got to know each other very well, and I even rubbed his back, but once some things are brought to light, people will become shy instead.

"Look at you, you're promising." Li Weiran smiled, and pulled me up from the ground, keeping his mouth open, how happy this guy is.

"You think I've experienced hundreds of battles just like you." I rolled my eyes at Li Weiran, wiped the ashes off my trousers, and sat down on the chair.

"I haven't kissed many people." Li Weiran blushed unexpectedly.But why did his words sound so strange?

"Who else have you kissed?"

"There's no one else..." Li Weiran came over again and put his head on my shoulder.It's pretty heavy, and I always thought he didn't have much in his head.He hugged my arm and rubbed his hands back and forth on it, trying to warm me up a bit.

It was embarrassingly cold.I was in a daze, but Li Weiran hadn't recovered from the excitement just now, he kept looking at me in a daze.

"Ye Shen, what's wrong with you?"

"I'm thinking." I turned my head and looked at Li Weiran, his eyes were all crooked, and most seventeen or eighteen-year-old children have some thoughts about being in love. "You can't be playing a prank. Do you like men? There are endless girls who come to our class to look for you every day."

"Do you think I'm watching a prank?" Li Weiran raised his hand, and I immediately put my hands on my head very cowardly.

"Like." Maybe staying up late caused a short circuit in the brain, but I pushed back desperately.It's just that the imaginary fist didn't come down.

"I won't bully you anymore." Li Weiran's hand fell on my head, and gently smoothed my hair. "I don't like men, but you are an exception."

"I am a man."

"Well, I know." Li Weiran nodded, still resting his hand on my neck. "I always thought you were smart, but your smartness was spent on studying. I thought you would have felt it early in the morning."

"Aren't you and Wang Tianyi always like this, I think you are very close to the people in your team." When I mentioned the team, I immediately realized that I had made a slip of the tongue, and Li Weiran's face froze, but he soon recovered .

"You are different. Ye Shen, you are different from them." Li Weiran held my hands, put his fingers between my fingers and clasped them.I know I'm special, I've always known it, I just can't believe it.

"You are also different." I tightened my right hand with Li Weiran.Looking up, he was also looking at me with soft and serious eyes.Suddenly, the whole person felt light and light.Am I in love?It's all going well, right?

At dawn, Li Weiran and I left McDonald's together. He waited with me at the station for the bus. Originally, he wanted to give me money to take a taxi back.I don’t want to live or die, it’s too ostentatious to take a taxi back home, most of the people living in our community are from the M hospital, everyone knows each other, if someone sees me coming back from the outside by taxi early in the morning, I don’t know how to tell my dad Woolen cloth.Let him think that I am in a puppy relationship, well, in fact, I did, but the other party is not a girl.

"Can I go to your house with you? I'm not full yet." Li Weiran looked at me pitifully, used to being stared at by him, but I couldn't bear this sudden look, goosebumps on my back Get up soon.

"No. My dad will be off work later. Besides, if you don't come home all night, your family will be in a hurry. Unlucky child, you are still at this age and don't save your parents some snacks."

"It's okay, they don't know."

I was choked by Li Weiran, and I didn't know how to refute.It seems that his house is similar to my house, and there is often no one at night.It's just that the reason for not having it should be different. No matter how I think about it, I don't think the two of his family can't go home because of overtime.

"Ye Shen, I'm so happy." Li Weiran clung to my side, bumping me with his shoulder from time to time, as the number of pedestrians on the road gradually increased, he didn't dare to act too ambiguously. "Why don't you react at all?"

"I haven't realized it yet. The reflex arc is a bit long, you don't understand."

"Don't look down on people, isn't that what the biology book says."

"Then tell me which parts the reflex arc consists of."

"..." Li Weiran was stuck, I knew he wouldn't.He suddenly hugged my head from behind and reached out to mess with my hair.

"What are you doing, don't make trouble." I hugged his arm and tried to resist, but the other party tightened his grip.

"Let you laugh at me. I just don't study well. I never laughed at you."

"Why are you laughing at me? You didn't do as much in three subjects as I did in one."

"I never joked that your family has no money."

"My family is not poor at all, but your family is too rich."

"My family is rich. My family is not only rich but also powerful. I am also handsome and tall." Li Weiran raised his chin, this guy has always been narcissistic.He still had his arm around my neck, still looking silly. "Ye Shen, I like you, do you feel that you have a special face and are very proud of you?"

"Actually, I still feel that I am even more proud to be among the top 10 in the school." I leaned back and lay in Li Weiran's arms.The head rests on his neck.Does falling in love lower your IQ?Li Weiran's IQ seems to have dropped again.

"But I feel very proud, Ye Shen, you study so well and you like me, I feel very proud." Li Weiran smiled happily. Few people would be proud of my good study, except my parents.Learning well is the most useless thing, you can't eat it, you can't use it.But my relatives will be complacent about it.

When the car came, I took a few steps forward, and Li Weiran followed. "Be careful on the road." He put his hand on my back and gave me a slight push when I got into the car.

"Buy something to eat on the way home. Don't be hungry." Remembering that Li Weiran told me just now that he was not full, I couldn't help feeling a little worried.

"I remember..." Before Li Weiran finished speaking, the car door was closed.I looked at him through the glass. When the car starts, there will be some exhaust fumes. Li Weiran is a bit of a clean freak. He doesn't like the smell.When we walked on the road together, he always let me walk on the side near the road.This time he unexpectedly didn't dodge, and even followed the car for two steps, then stood there and waved at me.He rolled up the sleeves of the school uniform jacket, revealing half of his arms.The morning sun shone down, and he stood there, his body covered with a faint golden layer.

I sat in the window seat and turned my head to watch his shrinking figure, almost twisting my neck. It was quite cold in the morning in November. I hugged my arms and rubbed them on my arms.The clothes were worn by Li Weiran all night, and they already smelled like him.I picked up the clothes and sniffed them.It seems to say that people will always smell a special smell on the person they like, which is undetectable to others.I always feel that Li Weiran has a taste of boiled water.He likes to wear a perfume, or antiperspirant, or something else, I haven't used it, so I can't tell.The taste is the same as the taste of Sprite just after opening the lid.But this is not his taste, it is his own taste, which is the taste of boiled water.The boiled water in the enamel jar is just right, neither cold nor hot.

For many years to come, I would think of him whenever I drank from an enamel jar.This is probably why I can't forget him all the time, even if he is not by my side, even if I have almost forgotten his voice.As long as I pick up the enamel jar to drink water, when my finger touches the wall of the cup, the warm temperature and familiar smell will remind me of him, and the 17-year-old boy in the school uniform of X middle school grinning at me silly .