Stockholm syndrome

I was a confirmed case, which I only found out later.The past few days in the intensive care unit have been muddled.Li Weiran never appeared again.If he didn't call me later, I really thought it was my hallucination.

"Ah Shen, you are fine. Don't worry about your house, I will take care of it." His voice was still so calm, always full of reassuring magic.There are only three people in this world that I can rely on with confidence, besides my parents, they are him.Since the breakup, I have always deliberately avoided everything related to him.Self-righteously feel that we will never get in touch with each other.If he really never shows up again and just leaves me to fend for myself, maybe I can really do it.

But he appeared again when I was most in danger. He is not the kind of kind-hearted old man, but he did this for me.I don't think there is any way to clear up my relationship with him in this life.

Probably from the moment his stubbled face appeared outside the window of the isolation room, I couldn't look back.I know that I love Li Weiran, but I never thought that it is so strong that I cannot extricate myself.This feeling is very complicated, there is gratitude, love, and family affection.I don't know it's bad, but I can't help but regard him as my relative.He has done too many things that a relative should do, just like my parents, he is my relative.I wish he could be my family.

Li Weiran would call me every day to tell me about the situation at home.My dad will call too.My coma symptoms have improved a lot, and I can answer by myself even if the nurse doesn't help.The attending doctor is used to sticking my chest X-ray on the glass wall for observation. I can also see the film from this angle, and the shadow of the lungs is getting less and less.

My symptoms have been relieved a lot. I don't know what medicine they gave me, or because I was young and in good health and went to the doctor in time.It is recovering little by little.The doctor in charge of me said that I would be discharged from the hospital in less than two weeks without delaying the college entrance examination.I will not die, I will take the college entrance examination, and there is still a long way to go.

Probably because people who have experienced ordeals will cherish life very much. I want to live a good life and live a good life with my dad.If my mother is alive in the sky, she will wait for us there for a while.She always said she wanted a girl, but I knew my mother loved me.If she doesn't dislike me, we will still be a family in the next life.Waiting for us in heaven for 60 years, our family will still be together in the next life.

On the 14th day of admission, I received another call from Li Weiran.He usually calls me at night.This time the call came before noon.He was silent on the other end for a long time, thinking about his words all the time, and I couldn't help thinking wildly.

"What's going on?! Did something happen to my dad?" I was frightened by my own thoughts.

"It's fine. Uncle Ye is fine. I saw him today, but he's a bit haggard. It's fine." Li Weiran responded quickly.

"Isn't our family quarantined? How did you see him?"

"Ah Shen..." Li Weiran called out my name in a low voice. "The quarantine ended yesterday. Your mother..."

"...I already know about my mother...you can just tell me." I unconsciously squeezed the phone tightly.

"Today is Auntie's Erqi, so we can't delay any longer. I went to your house early in the morning to find your father. The funeral is held today."

"I thought I could see my mother for the last time, ha ha." I laughed at myself, and tears rolled down my face.The nurse told me to pay attention to my emotions. Crying puts a lot of pressure on my lungs. I have just recovered and my lungs are still very fragile.

"Buried in Babaoshan. When you come out, I'll take you to see her."

"I'm not here, whoever throws the basin for her, whoever throws her..." I couldn't help coughing again.Li Weiran unexpectedly did not persuade me.He was just describing quietly.

A few more nurses died in the hospital, and they originally planned to hold a funeral together.But my mother and the others have a custom in their hometown. If you don’t have a funeral before February [-]th, you will become a lonely ghost and can’t find a way to reincarnate.She told my dad, and my dad remembered.If it was necessary to bury him early, Li Weiran's family used some connections, and it was naturally cleared up.The funeral was very ostentatious, and all the leaders of the courtyard went.My mother has no brothers and sisters, and my uncle's elder brother is in Tianjin, and the relationship is unfamiliar.It was Li Weiran who threw the basin for her, and it was also the aunt Li Weiran called, please go.These things should be done by me, but Li Weiran did them for me.I couldn't even see her off the last way.I really don't deserve to be her son.

If we say that I am Li Weiran's former lover, and we have such a bond, then my mother and him are not related at all.He did what a son should do.What our family owes him is really unclear.

"Li Weiran, I remember your great kindness. Our family owes you." I sniffled to make my voice clearer.

"What stupid words are you talking about?" Li Weiran scolded me, if it was normal, he would have scolded me a long time ago. "Ah Shen, you don't owe me anything. I know your mother is good to me. I am not a fool. The elders I come into contact with are more or less because of my father or my mother. They care about me. I showed it to my parents. But your mother is different. She treats me well and she treats me. I don’t think I’m a good boy, but she just likes me. I respect her from the bottom of my heart. Even without you, I will do the same. I..." Li Weiran paused for a moment, and after a moment of silence, he finally spoke out. "I regard Aunt Shu as my relative."

My dear, this is the most beautiful word I have ever heard.Counting it, my mother and Li Weiran have known each other for just over a year, and my mother has never done anything earth-shattering.I just cooked a few meals for Li Weiran, chatted with Li Weiran when I was grinding on my shoes and clothes, and told him to keep warm in changing seasons. She never even gave him anything decent.These trifles, completely negligible things made Li Weiran regard her as a relative.Li Weiran said that I am a person who is easily moved, so why not him.

"Li Weiran, do you still like me?"

"Yes, I like it." Li Weiran responded, I thought he would hesitate, but he didn't.When it comes to relationship problems, he never hesitates.It's hard to wait for someone, I don't know if this is considered considerate of him, he never asked me to wait. "You take good care of it. You will be discharged from the hospital in two days. Uncle Ye and I will pick you up then."

I hummed and put down the phone.The fever has almost subsided, but the condition of the trachea is not very good.Panting is like pulling a bellows. If you talk too much, you will feel suffocated.In fact, what I just wanted to ask was not whether you still like me.I want to say a lot to him, but I don't know how to start.I want to ask him if he still wants to be my relative.There is an extra key to our house, is he willing to keep it?

I stayed in the hospital for 27 days, and my condition was cured. Because I was discovered early and received timely treatment, I was the first to be discharged from the hospital among our batch of cases.In fact, I don't know how long I stayed in the hospital. I was in a daze every day. It was Li Weiran who told me that he kept counting.I donated serum, and SARS had been brought under control in mid-May, and the number of cases had decreased a lot, but it was still a bit of an emergency.The entrance of the hospital was very deserted, and the road was full of people wearing masks.

When I came out of the inpatient department, I was so blinded by the sun that I couldn't open my eyes. I can't remember how long I haven't seen the sun.I raised my arms in front of my eyes.Keep your head down and walk forward.As he was walking, he was suddenly hugged by someone.

The glare of the sun was blocked, I hadn't seen him for half a year, and he was still so tall.He put his arms around me, resting his chin on my shoulder.I haven't showered for a week, and my body smells of all kinds of medicines in the hospital.Li Weiran, who loves cleanliness so much, didn't despise me.He tightly strangled my hands, and his warm breath hit my neck through the mask.

"Ah Shen, we are going home."

Li Weiran and I just cuddled together at the gate of M courtyard without any scruples. It took a long time before I realized it.Hastily pushed him away. "Where's my dad, why didn't he come?"

"Uncle Ye is at home." Li Weiran dragged me to the parking lot of the M courtyard, he came by car. "I went to your house to look for him this morning. He was very tired, so I didn't call him hard."

"Is my dad okay?" I looked at Li Weiran nervously. When I told my dad that I was going to be discharged from the hospital two days ago, he was trembling with excitement, why didn't he come to pick me up.

"It's really fine." Li Weiran pushed me into the co-pilot, "When did I fool you. Hurry up and go home, take a shower and rest. Tomorrow morning, I'll take you to see Aunt Shu."

The car started, and Li Weiran's right hand was held together with mine. I knew it was dangerous driving, but I couldn't let go no matter what.Just like this, the fingers interlocked, and the warmth from his palm gave me the courage to hold on.

I got home soon, I was just about to reach out to ring the doorbell, but Li Weiran stopped me, he reached out and fumbled in his pocket, and took out a bunch of keys, which were the ones I left at home.He inserted the key into the lock and gently opened the unit door.A cold breath rushed towards him, with a smell of dust.

Li Weiran walked behind me, gently pushing my back.Obviously going back to my own home, I don't know why I am so scared.When I arrived at the door of the house, I raised my head. I thought there would be black gauze hanging on the door of the house, but it remained the same as before.Even the wormwood that was plucked during the Dragon Boat Festival last year was still hanging on it.The door was opened, I walked in, and called Dad.No one agreed.There was a heavy smell of alcohol rushing towards him.