Bliss

Chen stood in front of him, looking into those slightly deep eyes, "It doesn't matter if you tell the truth, we might be bandmates in the future, I want to know what you really think of me."

"Very..." Kang Chen said expressionlessly, "Very cute."

"..." Ji Rui, who was always chatty, was suddenly at a loss for words. He just opened his eyes wide and looked at the tall boy with slightly flushed cheeks. The next moment, his actions surprised even himself.

Ji Rui kissed Kang Chen on the cheek, a quick but real kiss, and he could feel the cramped heat on the skin surfaces that were in contact with each other.

"Yes, I'm sorry...it's getting late, I'm going home, I'll introduce you to He Yuan and A Yi next time, I hope we can form a band, goodbye!" Ji Rui picked up his bag and ran away, running all the way residential area.

It's fine to go home with someone you met for the first time and talk so much, but you can't help but kiss each other... Although it's just on the cheek, both of them are boys, what is the situation?

It was the first time Ji Rui tasted this feeling of a blank mind, and he returned home in a trance, but he still hasn't recovered.

The home is still so quiet that it makes people feel terrible, and the moment I return here, my heart will be completely closed automatically.

My mother was sitting on the sofa in the living room watching TV, but my father hadn't come back yet.

Ji Rui put down his bag, drove out the mess in his mind, and came to the living room to say hello to his mother.

"Xiaoqin, you are back." His mother smiled at him.

Ji Rui nodded and went to the kitchen to prepare dinner.

Today, there is no him in my mother's world, only my sister's.

I shouldn't complain, after all, if I don't have my sister, I won't exist. If my sister can survive, I can only disappear.

The elegant and gorgeous sister like a swan, and the vulgar and ugly self like a sparrow, everyone hopes to exchange the death of the sparrow for the continuation of the swan's life.

The sparrow is also irreplaceable to the swan, and its death will be as regrettable as the swan.

These words sounded in my mind, and the deep voice seemed to have the power to calm people's hearts.

That's what Kang Chen said in today's classical music appreciation class.

Does anyone really think that the lives of sparrows and swans are as important?It's incredible.

My heart seemed to be slowly filled with warm tenderness, the atmosphere was not so oppressive, and the work became lighter and lighter, and I couldn't help humming a song softly.

"Xiaoqin, did anything good happen at school today?" Mother stood at the door of the kitchen with a smile on her face.

"Mom, I met a very nice boy at school today. He is tall and gentle. Although he is a bit taciturn, he gives off a very reliable feeling." Ji Rui answered the words smoothly, and was hit by something the next moment. back.

"Who are you! You are not Xiaoqin! Xiaoqin is studying in a girls' school, there can be no boys, who are you!" The mother suddenly became hysterical, grabbed all the things that could be thrown at hand, and threw them at Ji Rui involuntarily. .

"Mom, don't..." Ji Rui dodges in a panic, even forgetting that his mother does not have him in today's world. In his mother's imagination, his sister Ji Qin is studying at the Women's Conservatory of Music.

The door opened, and Ji Rui's father came home from get off work. Suddenly seeing this scene, he rushed up and pulled Ji Rui's mother away.

"Calm down!" The middle-aged man supported his delirious wife, and it took her a while to calm down again.

"Why, why did the matching fail, why did Xiaoqin leave me, why..." The mother's face was full of tears.

Ji Rui walked over and knelt on the floor, hugging his mother gently: "Mom, I'm Xiaoqin, and I'm here."

The bruises on the arms are far less painful than the repeated stab wounds in the heart.

The mother only has her sister in her heart, and she is just a spare organ bank. If her sister had a congenital heart disease, Ji Rui would never have come to this world. If she hadn't failed to match with her sister, Ji Rui would never have survived to this day.

The moment his birth loses meaning, he has no need to live.

After Ji Qin passed away, her mother always regarded Ji Rui as her substitute.She put on cute women's clothes for Ji Rui, deceiving herself that she was her beloved daughter who was still alive, unknowingly, Ji Rui also seriously played this substitute game, as long as the mother felt happy, at least she could stand for herself life finds meaning.

When my mother is sane, she is mostly depressed, and she looks at Ji Rui with disappointment and complaints in her eyes. When she is sane, she herself may be relaxed and happy.

During high school, Ji Rui fell in love with rock music and came into contact with bass. During college, he bought a second-hand bass with the money he earned from a part-time job. After meeting Chu Yi, he was introduced to He Yuan, who wanted to form a band. The three hit it off, even though they still lacked a drummer. , but every Wednesday and Friday we meet to practice in the basement of the school gymnasium.

The appearance of Kang Chen was a surprise. His solid drum playing skills won unanimous praise from the other two in the band, and Elysium was finally established.

During the day, Ji Rui is Ji Rui, and when he returns home, he often acts as his elder sister Ji Qin. After such a long time, even Ji Rui occasionally forgets who he really is.Only my father knows about the band, and if I tell my mother that she doesn't know, she will be stimulated, but perhaps, my mother has gradually forgotten him.

The author has something to say: According to this, it seems that the word count budget is exceeded. My new pit progress and the old pit completion plan are full of enthusiasm...

In addition, the writing is always very different from what I thought, and the writing style is getting worse and worse, hey

66. The Song of the Swan 3

No one mentioned that kiss again.

As long as they are together, Kang Chen follows Ji Rui like a loyal servant. After getting along for a long time, Ji Rui realizes that although Kang Chen is reticent, he is not dull and honest. He expresses his opinions in words, but most of the time, he would rather choose to watch everything silently.

It seems that only when facing Ji Rui, Kang Chen will show some different emotions, such as excitement, such as panic, such as shyness, such as jealousy...

"My older sister is as beautiful as a doll. She can play the piano at the age of 6."

"I think my mother only loves my sister."

"If my sister hadn't been sick, my family would have been happier, though that would be nothing to do with me."

"I really hope that one day my mother will be happy because of me."

Ji Rui always talks about himself to the silent Kang Chen. Most of the time, Kang Chen doesn't express his opinions, but every time he reaches out to touch Ji Rui's head and puts his arms around his shoulders, Ji Rui always feels his nose sore.

"Achen, does this dress look good?"

"Achen, I have a part-time job in the afternoon, please help me take 2 English lessons!"

"Ah Chen, would you like to have dinner with me tonight?"

"Achen, how about this melody?"

"Achen, I seem to... fall in love with you."

Ji Rui always said that he should speak out when he has any thoughts, otherwise he would regret it when he couldn't speak up, so he confessed to Kang Chen like that.

At that time, they had all graduated from university, and Elysium had also experienced dissolution and reorganization, and had just returned to the right track of its career.

The tall man was still paralyzed and silent. Hearing Ji Rui's words, he slammed on the brakes, turned his head to look at the people around him, and then very naturally stretched his hands to the back of Ji Rui's neck and pulled him towards himself, affectionately Kissed down.

It was Ji Rui's first kiss, it was warm and long, and the unprecedented wonderful feeling touched his heartstrings.

It wasn't until the car horn blared in the back that Kang Chen reluctantly let go of Ji Rui.

"Achen, I want to go to your house."

When he said this, his heart was beating violently, and Ji Rui could even hear the thumping sound.

I can't tell when I fell in love with this man who can't talk as much as me for 10 minutes all day. For this reason, I specially collected information about homosexuality and analyzed my psychology. Although Maybe he was affected by such an unnatural family, but Ji Rui still felt that he was not born a homosexual. If he didn't know Kang Chen, he would still not understand what it means to like. If Kang Chen was a woman, he would also You can frankly like him.

In short, he likes Kang Chen, likes him, recognizes him, and no one but him, regardless of gender identity.If it's not Kang Chen, never fall in love with anyone again.

In the end, he just followed Kang Chen to the place he rented now, and as soon as he entered the door, he was pushed to the back of the door and kissed passionately. It was completely different from the first kiss just now, it was an extremely rough and aggressive kiss.

Ji Rui was even a little dazed, he never knew that the gentle and elegant Kang Chen would become so strange.

"Wait... Chen, do you like me?" He managed to squeeze out a few words between the kisses.

Kang Chen seemed to have regained his composure, and stopped to hold Ji Rui's face: "I've liked it for a long time, for a long time."

"Then why didn't you say it earlier?" Ji Rui's tone was somewhat reproachful.

"I'm afraid I'll lose you if I say it." The tall man said in a deep voice, then picked up Ji Rui and walked to the bathroom.

The clothes were quickly removed, they kissed each other in the crowded bathtub, accidentally caught a glimpse of the size of Kang Chen's erect masculinity, Ji Rui retreated all of a sudden.

"Well, Ah Chen, I, this is my first time..." Ji Rui, who always had something to say, also became hesitant.

"I will try my best to be gentle." Kang Chen kissed Ji Rui's collarbone.

"But...it's too big, no matter how gentle you are, I can't get in, and I'm afraid of pain." Ji Rui even thought of running away.

Kang Chen held down Ji Rui who was about to get up, and kissed him softly on his chest.

"Could it