Bliss

You don't intend to have sex with me in your life? "

"No, but I'm not mentally prepared today, so I'll do it tomorrow... Ah, it's so itchy, Ah Chen, don't kiss there..." Ji Rui flinched while trying to push away the kiss that reached his ribs Kang Chen.

"Tomorrow is still so big. After doing today, I won't be afraid of tomorrow." Kang Chen patiently blocked the movement of the person under him, and continued to gently tease him.

The first sex and love are inevitably accompanied by discomfort and pain, but compared with the more intense pleasure, Ji Rui quickly succumbs, his body is as straightforward as his words.

After a short rest, it was Ji Rui who took the initiative to tease Kang Chen, asking all kinds of blushing questions with a pure and unadulterated expression, and practicing under Kang Chen's brief explanation. Almost worn out Kang Chen's patience.

"Does it feel better to lick like this?" Asking like this, he engulfed the other party, feeling the organs that merged with himself just now gradually swell in his mouth.

"Well, Ah Chen, you've grown so big again..." He mumbled such words, and asked the other person how he felt while making sex carefully, until he was pushed down on the bed by Kang Chen again.

During the break time of a certain Elysium practice, Ji Rui complained a few words about the current accommodation situation, Kang Chen immediately invited him to live with him, and the cohabitation of the two began, and the relationship between their lovers also tended to be made public in the team.

Before meeting Kang Chen, Ji Rui never knew that his desire for sex was so strong.

Ji Rui collected all kinds of information about homosexuals, watched various action movies, discussed and practiced with Kang Chen, and the two got along better and better on this matter.

Elysium's career path is getting smoother and smoother. Although there are twists and turns, it is calm at last. While the popularity is gradually rising, the private life of the band members has also become an important focus of the media and fans.

Although people's acceptance of homosexuality has become higher and higher, this does not mean that the family of the person involved is also acceptable.

The band has frequent activities, and it is rare for Ji Rui to go home once. He originally thought that this would relieve the pressure on both him and his mother. However, the relieved pressure actually accumulated together, and it broke out when he went home. come out.

When her mother found out about Ji Rui and Kang Chen, she became hysterical and furious. Ji Rui just allowed his mother to beat and scold him, and he didn't make any excuses and didn't need to.

Sometimes the mother regards him as a sister, and sometimes she seems to know that it is her only son, but no matter who it is, the accusation will not change.

"Why didn't you die, Xiaoqin can survive if you die!"

"Xiaoqin, you have changed. Who will allow you to play that vulgar instrument? Your hands can only be used to play the piano!"

"I don't allow you to be with that man! If you insist on being with him, I will die with you now!"

The angry scolding was endless, and it didn't matter who the mother scolded. The closed and distorted heart began to return to normal because of Kang Chen's appearance, but just because of the mother's outburst, all previous efforts were wasted.

It turns out that I am not as strong as I thought.

It turned out that my mother was so important to me, if it was me who died, my mother would be happy.

I thought the depression all the time was because I failed to save my sister, but in fact it was all because I couldn't get my mother's approval.

The meaning of existence is to save my sister. If I can't even do this, my mother can't recognize me, let alone what I have done afterwards. Nothing can satisfy my mother. So what is the point of living... what is the point.

"Achen, I'm sorry."

After sending such a text message to Kang Chen, Ji Rui wandered alone in the bustling streets of the city, passed through those gorgeous streets decorated with neon lights, passed by the chatting and laughing crowd, and caught a glimpse of the man reflected in the window glass , In an instant, he didn't even know who he was.

Only when you are denied by your closest relatives will you really feel ashamed.

Anyway, it shouldn't exist...

Ji Rui climbed up the bridge railing, the night wind messed up his hair, he spoke, his hoarse voice was broken by the wind.

I can no longer find the way I came here/Maybe this is a different kind of happiness/Pretend I am a princess...

It is like the singing of a swan when it is about to die. It is sad and sad, shocking people's hearts.

Take a last look at this beautiful city, let go of the hand holding the guardrail, and jump down...

The cold river water poured into his mouth and nose, and he struggled wantonly but couldn't catch anything. The surrounding was dark, and he could no longer see the light.

Death is sinking and sinking in the endless darkness... All joy, anger, sorrow, joy, resentment, love and hatred are wiped out, consciousness is lax, and finally there is only a vague shadow in my mind. Can't tell each other apart.

Gradually giving up struggling and closing his eyes, suddenly a pair of big hands cut through the darkness and grabbed him, his body was pulled upwards by that force, and a familiar voice rang out in his ears, which he couldn't hear at first.

That voice once said that the sparrow is also irreplaceable to the swan, and its death will be as regrettable as the swan.

The night was too dark to see the man's appearance clearly. The cold river water made Ji Rui almost unconscious, so he could only be dragged to the bank and placed on the grass.

Instinctively coughed out several saliva, the breathing function restarted.

He gasped for breath for a while, and finally managed to sit up with his upper body but was knocked down to the ground by a heavy blow.

"Are you an idiot! Who the hell allowed you to die?" The same drenched man lifted Ji Rui's upper body, hit him down, lifted it up again, and hit him again, only getting lighter each time until he couldn't get any more. He went to hold his cold body tightly in his arms.

"To me, you are the most beautiful swan, and no one can replace you!" It was the first time Kang Chen spoke in such an intense tone, the first time he cried uncontrollably in front of Ji Rui, and the first time he put such a fragile One side is shown in front of people.

The love of Elysium bassist and drummer has just set off a small storm, and the attempted suicide of the bassist has added to the climax of the incident. The media and fans have shown great concern and tolerance for this, even triggering a debate about the protection Entertainer's Big Discussion.

With the help of Kang Chen and other teammates, Ji Rui gradually walked out of the psychological barrier, and no longer blamed himself for the family tragedy of his mother's mental disorder.

After obtaining his father's consent, Ji Rui personally sent his mother, who had suffered a mental breakdown for many years, to a nursing home.According to the nurse, in that clean white room, Schubert's serenade was often heard. The beautiful music made the nursing home no longer dull, and Ji Rui's mother's condition gradually improved.

The first single "Song of the Swan" composed by Kang Chen was released, which positively responded to the previous questions from all walks of life, and the relationship between the two was finally generally accepted.

My song flies to you through the night

In this secluded grove, my love, I am waiting for you!

The bright moon shines on the earth, and the treetops whisper;

Nobody bothers us, dear, don't worry.

The singing will also move you, come on, dear!

May you listen to my singing and bring happiness and love.

swan song theend

The author has something to say: I swear other episodes will never be so hard, and the length should be shorter...

67. The rebellious period outside the episode

The rebellious period is the psychological "transition period" of teenagers. Their independent consciousness and self-awareness are increasing day by day. Because they are worried that the outside world will ignore their independent existence, they will have rebellious psychology and use various means to establish the equal status of "self" and the outside world.

The rebellious period usually occurs in teenagers between the ages of 12 and 14, but some people have a much longer period of rebelliousness.

Jiang Yao rubbed his swollen temples and sighed deeply.

Put away the mobile phone, rush to the road to stop a taxi, and rush to the bar named Crossing.

Just now Jiang Yao received a call from an uncle of the police, saying that a child named Tan Heng had a fight with some young ruffians who were taking ecstasy in a bar. Yao's phone call was given to the police uncle.

Jiang Yao almost crushed his newly purchased mobile phone into powder, stopped the car hurriedly and drove towards the bar, urging the driver to speed up all the way, until he was sweating profusely.

This bar called Crossing was bad luck for eight lifetimes. It so happened that a group of drug-addicted ruffians came here today, and a rock drummer named Tan Heng happened to come. Uncle just came to check today, so... everyone can imagine what happened later.

Jiang Yao threw a pink bill without even asking for change, and rushed into the bar while complaining.

The bar is brightly lit, there is no loud music and no shaking spotlights. Under the surveillance of the police uncle, heroes from all walks of life stand around in an orderly manner. In the middle is Tan Heng with blue eyes and three unknown ruffians .

Jiang Yao rubbed his temples again, walked over and pulled Tan Heng over.

"Officer, I'm sorry, this kid has caused you trouble, I'm really sorry!"

"Are you his guardian? This child is underage. As a guardian, how do you take care of him? Is the bar the place where minors should come? Come here, and fight like others. Does this child have a history of taking drugs? You Tell me the truth." The police uncle scolded sharply, and looked Jiang Yao suspiciously up and down, as if he didn't quite believe that this red-haired young man was really Tan Heng's guardian.

"I'm sorry, I was negligent. The child's father entrusted him to me for the time being. We are playing in a band. It's not suspicious.