brightest star in the sky

After returning home and washing his face, before he could pack his luggage, Gu Ran took Chen Xing to look left and right. No matter how he looked, he felt a little haggard, so he frowned and asked him:

"Chen Xing, why are you so thin? Your eye circles are also a bit dark, did you not sleep well?"

Lu Chenxing looked at Gu Ran and felt that he also looked tired, how could he sleep well after sitting on the plane for 12 hours?His eyes were bloodshot, and he stroked his brow in distress.

In Gu Ran's eyes, Lu Chenxing's silly look is rare, and he is the only one in front of him, which makes him very excited.

"What's the matter? Miss me? I miss your baby too."

Gu Ran comforted softly, the person he cared about was finally in his arms, and he felt that his heart had settled down.

"Chen Xing, let me tell you, when I go back this time, my parents and I..."

"Gu Ran..."

What he wanted to say was suddenly interrupted, not only that, Gu Ran even heard the other party's choked up voice, and felt something was wrong.

"What's wrong? Did something happen?"

"Gu Ran..."

Before he could speak, his eyes were already red, and he felt a little anxious looking back.

"Chen Xing, what's the matter? Don't be afraid, I'm here, I'm back."

"My dad... he knows."

Of course, Gu Ran immediately understood what Lu Chenxing meant.He could predict the reaction of Chen Xing's father, but he didn't expect it to happen so quickly.If Chenxing's father deliberately took him to Canada to show his cards to his son, it means that he knew about it a long time ago.

"Did he scold you? Didn't he do anything?"

Rubbing the other person's face, Gu Ran asked.He was also sad in his heart, knowing that this was the reaction that a normal parent should have, but he still had a little fantasy, and now this fantasy is shattered, and he will have to face all this sooner or later, but it is earlier than he expected.

Lu Chenxing shook his head.

He didn't intend to tell Gu Ran about his father's illness.Before he came out of the house just now, his father didn't allow him to say anything, but in fact he didn't want to say it. If he did, he would definitely not stand by and watch, but his father would not accept any help from him, and he would definitely say something to him. If it sounds ugly, he will also threaten Gu Ran with his own illness, so what should Gu Ran do?At that time, there will be a lot of trouble, and there will be no room for repayment.

"Is he very opposed? Actually, I can imagine that he must be very angry."

"It's my fault."

"You just blame me. Let him come at me and vent his anger on me. It's okay."

"As long as he doesn't do anything to you."

"As long as you don't leave me, Morningstar."

Gu Ran spoke incoherently, he thought he would be well prepared to face this, but suddenly he found that when things really happened, he was extremely afraid that the one he loved would be hurt.

What would Morning Star Dad do?Will he be threatened by denying his son, will they be forced to break up, will he introduce a bunch of girls to him, will he be sent to the so-called treatment center that is frightening in legends!

Gu Ran has always been the best person in Lu Chenxing's eyes. He is smart, strong, independent, confident, and optimistic. Nothing can stop him.

For the first time, I saw an emotion in his eyes that the other party had never had before: panic.

It is impossible not to be touched in the heart, Lu Chenxing hugged him.

"Gu Ran, don't do this, I won't leave you."

"But, I'm scared."

I am afraid of my father's illness, afraid that he will leave me because I don't treat him.

The last time Lu Chenxing cried was because of his grandma's death. Gu Ran, who didn't know the truth, just thought that he had been wronged at home and could only coax him.

"Don't be afraid, Chen Xing, I'm here, I'm always here. Don't cry, be good!"

For the rest of the winter vacation, Lu Chenxing and Gu Ran hardly met each other, so they could only contact each other through WeChat.The various holidays I was looking forward to were a happy time for two people to spend together, but now I want to start school sooner.

And Lu Chenxing's bigger worry was his father's illness. When he went back that day, he could only tell his father that he had made it clear with Gu Ran, and then took him to the hospital the next day.

Chen Xing's father's illness, apart from the fact that he had to ask for sick leave from the taxi company, and their leaders knew about it, he didn't tell anyone else for the time being. Lu Haitao and his relatives have long since stopped contacting each other, so he didn't plan to tell them. In addition, Lu Chenxing has almost no friends, but Gu Ran can't say anything.

After school started, the two of them breathed a sigh of relief, at least they could see each other again, but Lu Chenxing looked even more haggard and thinner.Gu Ran saw it in his eyes, and heard from his dormitory classmates that Lu Chenxing's appetite has not been good recently, and he ate very little, so he became even more worried.I can only find him often to go to the cafeteria to eat together, and ask the boys in the same dormitory to watch him eat more. Everyone sees Lu Chenxing like this, and they only think that something happened to him at home, and they dare not ask more .

Sometimes Gu Ran would go to Lu Chenxing for self-study at night, and after that, he would take a walk in the campus and find a secluded place to spend a while together. That was the only time the two of them had alone.

However, Gu Ran gradually discovered that Lu Chenxing was becoming more and more reluctant to be touched by him, and sometimes even if he wanted to kiss him, he would be rejected.At first, he just thought that the other party was not used to doing this outside of home, but after a long time, he couldn't even convince himself.

We can't be together on weekends, we can't be together during holidays, and we can't meet often at school. When we are rarely together, the other party is unwilling to accept his intimacy. Gu Ran feels that the relationship between the two is getting more and more distant.

As far as Lu Chenxing was concerned, he hadn't noticed the change in himself, but all of this seemed to be out of his control.

Does he still love Gu Ran?Do you still want to be with him?

The answer, of course, is that he still loves Gu Ran, loves him very much, and of course wants to be with him.

However, every time I think of my father, a strong sense of guilt emerges in my heart.

That's right, guilt!Because, I have been deceiving him.

Gu Haitao would question his son almost every week, whether he still had contact with Gu Ran, whether they walked together when he went home, and even asked Lu Chenxing to show him his mobile phone.

Therefore, before going home every Friday, I have to clear all the WeChat content with Gu Ran, and delete all the call records.

But those are the most beautiful records of himself and Gu Ran, he is not willing to part with them at all, so he will back them up before deleting them, and put them in a folder, where his father will never find them, people of his age play with mobile phones These electronic products are not as good as those of their young people.

But after a long time, my heart is really tired!

I no longer have expectations for the future of the two of them as before, and I no longer just want to share the happy time with each other fearlessly. Gradually, I have no way to escape except to bury my head in my studies as before.

He never complained about fate, but fate had to come and play tricks on him again and again, tormenting him so much that he almost believed that he had committed some unacceptable sin in his previous life, which made him suffer like this in this life.

That happened about two months into school.There were club activities every Friday afternoon, but because he wanted to go home earlier to take care of his father, Lu Chenxing finally quit the club. Gu Ran thought he was in a bad mood and didn't want to participate in the activities, so he didn't say anything, so he went home early. At least we can get along for a while on the road.

After getting off the subway, the two had to separate. Gu Ran walked towards the main entrance of Binjiang Garden, and Lu Chenxing still followed the original route to go home.

As a result, I arrived home more than an hour earlier, only to find that there was no one at home.After waiting for about an hour, Dad came back. When he entered the door, he saw Lu Chenxing was stunned, and Lu Chenxing suddenly became angry because Dad was wearing the uniform of a taxi driver.

"The one who told you to rest at home, why did you go out to drive again? With your body, why do you still drive? Didn't you take sick leave? What did the doctor tell you?! So you pretend every weekend Did you show it to me?"

Facing his son's questioning, Lu Haitao didn't say a word, just took off his shoes and coat and came in.

"And what's the matter with this medicine? Did you take the medicine on time? Why do you have so much left? If I didn't plan to take you to the hospital for examination and dispensing tomorrow morning, I looked at the remaining medicine, and I didn't know you You didn’t take your medicine properly at all! How did you promise me?”

After hearing this, Lu Haitao looked at Lu Chenxing coldly and snorted coldly.

"What about you? How did you promise me? Are you two really separated? Why do I see you come back together every week and go to school together? When you come back, you get off the subway and walk separately. When you go Do you think I don’t know about the subway station you’re walking into? Do you think I’m so easy to deceive?”

"Father, are you following me?" Lu Chenxing looked at him in disbelief.

"What? You also know that you and that homosexual surnamed Gu are shameless, so you have to hide and sneak around? Let me tell you, if you are with him, you will live like this for the rest of your life!"

"You're not allowed to say that about him! We didn't sneak around! We are classmates, the school is very close, what's wrong with going together?" Lu Chenxing blushed and argued hard.

"You know exactly what's going on! Let me ask you, who knows if you're like this? Your current college classmates, former junior high school classmates, friends, who knows? And you said you weren't sneaky? It's shameless, psychological abnormal!"

Lu Chenxing was completely dumbfounded.

abnormal.

This is the second time I have heard others say this about myself.The first time was in high school, when Gu Ran fought with the man who pursued the girl who admired him, the man said so to himself, saying that he stared at Gu Ran and liked Gu Ran.

Another time it was his own father.