Sea King's Self-cultivation

The world collapsed at the moment of her death, and his consciousness returned to reality.

Waking up is evening.

He was lying on the sofa, and the setting sun outside the window facing him had already set, leaving only the pink and purple sunset glow that was smeared randomly like paint, a few stars appeared sporadically in the dark blue night sky, and the clouds were so pale that they were almost invisible.

The evening wind blew, and the broken hair on his forehead was blowing in the wind.

After thousands of failures before returning to reality, he would immediately "restart" and enter the new world line in the "book" again, but this time, he did not "restart" the world line again.

It is no longer necessary.

In fact, he had already guessed it when he failed for the first time, but he just didn't want to believe it.It was only now that he finally faced the result.

Shimizu Xing was dead.

Irrevocably dead.

Her death has become the final conclusion of this world, which cannot be changed or undone.

His mood was very calm, like a traveler who finally found a resting place after a rough journey, his heart was empty, gentle and peaceful.

Before taking the last resort, he went to meet Xingxing's parents.

Without fanfare, and without alarming anyone, he just stood quietly watching them from a distance, watching their gentle and happy new family.

As the source of the tragedy of Xingxing's entire life, they are so happy to have a new child and pour all their love into the new child and family.Their smiles are full of happiness and joy, and they never seem to cause harm to their children. They really look like competent fathers and mothers.

What did they think of Qingshui Xing?rubbish?

Selfishly and irresponsibly brought her into this world, then selfishly and irresponsibly abandoned her.

The family members who were supposed to be the closest, sheltering her from the wind and rain, were precisely the ones who continued to hurt her from birth until she died.

Those warm and happy scenes fell in his sight, so dazzling.

Why she died, they can still live well?

How can there be such a reason?

How could there be such a reason.

For Shimizu Saki, it was just an ordinary day. She went out for a picnic in the park with her parents, and her parents seemed to meet someone they knew. A tall, slender young man in a black windbreaker.

The appearance of the young man in black was extremely handsome and delicate, his iris-colored eyes were as beautiful and deep as the sea, while dangerous, yet people couldn't help but want to get close, there was a fatal attraction and bewitching power.

Judging from his temperament and clothing, Shimizu Saki guessed that he was probably a pianist or painter, with a good family background, noble and elegant, with a hint of melancholy.

He kept looking in her direction, and even if she spotted him, he didn't have any intention of dodging.

It's almost like... an encounter with the male protagonist in a novel.

Shimizu Saxi thought.

She had never been a restrained girl, so she took the initiative to strike up a conversation and asked the name of the young man in black.

The young man in black didn't answer, his gaze stayed on her face for a long time, he seemed to be looking at her, and seemed to be looking at many people through her. Under his gaze, she also blushed from shyness at the beginning. become embarrassing.

Because that was definitely not a passionate gaze, it was more like...a cold scrutiny.

After a long time, or maybe just a while, when she was about to lose her strength and wanted to run away, the young man in black finally spoke.

He even smiled at her, his voice was soft and slow, just as pleasant as she imagined, deep and clear: "It's not that I haven't thought about whether to let those who hurt her go for the sake of blood relationship. but……"

"Seeing you guys living so happily, I really..."

"Very hard to pass."

he said softly.

This was the last time Shimizu Saki saw him.

After leaving a sentence of unclear semantics, the young man in black disappeared.

She didn't have the energy to think about this strange man anymore, because not long after, her father's thriving career suddenly suffered a fatal blow, the company declared bankruptcy, and they owed a huge amount of debt to the mafia organization. Unable to repay at all, he could only hide and live a mouse-like life to avoid people who came to pay debts.

Not long after, the parents suddenly disappeared.

Shimizu Saki was worried and frightened, but she didn't dare to find someone. About a month later, several men in black suits came to her door suddenly and returned her parents' remains.

Shimizu Saki only took one look at the body, but didn't dare to look any further.

Just based on the traces on the remains, it is not difficult to see how cruel torture they had suffered during their lifetime.

"Miss Shimizu Saki, your parents wanted to get rid of debts again by feigning death as they did a few years ago. Unfortunately, they were not so lucky this time. The plan went wrong and we caught us just in time." Bin, a man in a black suit He said politely, "Our leader said that since they like to avoid their debts by feigning death, let them die completely, this will also satisfy their wishes, and they will never have to pay their debts again. You don't have to be too sad, actually They should have died a few years ago, and the extra few years they lived are all earned, and they should be content. By the way, our organization hopes that you can pay off your debts within the time limit. Please don’t try to default or overdue, otherwise We will use all means at our disposal to collect debts."

Shimizu Sashi's legs were weak, and she cried, "They're all dead anyway, can't they pay off the debt? Why should I pay it?! Where can I get the money to pay the debt?"

The man was unmoved, and still said in a business-like tone: "As far as we know, your sister was a few years younger than you when she was trying to pay off the huge debt you left her. What you are now The amount of debt she bears is the same as that she carried back then, if she can do it, then we believe you can too."

Shimizu Saki looked at the debt and felt like falling into an icehouse.

The huge debt, plus the repeated superimposition of interest... enough for her to be stuck in it for the rest of her life, unable to get out.

She suddenly thought of Shimizu Xing, the "sister" she hadn't thought of for a long, long time.

Faced with such a scene back then, did Qing Shui Xing collapse like her?

Or, more fearful and helpless than her.

Destiny is indeed a cycle.

The disaster they once imposed on her finally reflected on herself in a similar manner.

On the other hand, Shimizu Xing's biological mother has not had an easy time recently.

Her youngest daughter was found to be suffering from leukemia, and none of her family members met the requirements for hematopoietic stem cell transplantation.In desperation, they can only turn their attention to the bone marrow bank, but in the vast sea of ​​people, the probability that two strangers will match is extremely low.The couple worked hard and finally found a matching match in the bone marrow bank that could be used for transplantation. They were overjoyed at once, but further investigation found that the matching match turned out to be her eldest daughter Shimizu Xing.

Will the eldest daughter, who has been abandoned by her for many years, agree to donate bone marrow to save her half-sister?

They are not sure.

But in order to save the life of the little daughter, no matter what, I have to try.

This is the only hope.

The husband and wife inquired about the whereabouts of their eldest daughter with anxiety, and finally learned that Qing Shuixing committed suicide a year ago.

It is of course impossible for people who have died to cooperate with them in hematopoietic stem cell transplantation.

Three months later, the youngest daughter finally fell under the attack of a menacing disease, and died after rescue.

During this period, the couple quarreled endlessly, and their relationship almost broke down. Shimizu Xing's mother suffered from heavy bleeding when giving birth to her youngest daughter. To save her life, the doctor removed her uterus.

The eldest daughter who was abandoned died, and the younger daughter who loved and grew up with her also died.

After that, for the rest of her life, she would never have any children of her own.

Before Osamu Dazai's means of revenge could be carried out, fate had already given the answer.

If on the day Qing Shui Xing reunited with her, she could not be so indifferent, and could listen to Xing Xing patiently, even if it was just to comfort her, maybe Qing Shui Xing would not take the road of suicide in extreme despair.

If Xingxing is still alive, will she agree to the request of her mother who has abandoned her for many years to donate her bone marrow to save her sister?

Surely, Dazai thought, after all, she is such a kind and soft-hearted person.

But no if.

She is dead.

Qing Shuixing's mother may not have thought that what she said coldly to her eldest daughter not to disturb her family would come true at this time.

Whoever sows the cause must eat the fruit.

Fate is really fair.

After everything was settled, Osamu Dazai went to the Seaview Cemetery.

The cemetery is lined with green trees, and you can see a bright and beautiful view when you look up. Seabirds hover under the blue sky, their wings rise and fall, carrying the salty sea breeze.

This was originally the eternal resting place he had prepared for himself, but now it was her who was buried in it.

He sat on the grass next to the tombstone, the sun shone through the shadows of the trees, casting broken light and shadows on his white to almost transparent face, everything was warm and peaceful.

He closed his eyes and dreamed briefly as he rested.

He dreamed of Qingshui Xing, and this time they met as ordinary people, fell in love, got married, had children like all ordinary lovers, and lived their lives peacefully and happily.

In the end, the dream revealed its hideous side.

"It turns out that everything so beautiful...is just a dream."

she said softly.

"Do you regret it?" he asked her, "If you hadn't met me, maybe you wouldn't have been in such pain."

"But if I hadn't met you, I wouldn't know what happiness feels like." She said seriously, "So, even if I knew the ending... I would still choose to meet Mr. Dazai if I did it again."

The dream ends here.

He opened his eyes.

【Are you really determined to do this? 】

"Ah."

he replied in a low voice.

Since in this world, Shimizu Xing's death is a foregone conclusion.

Then, let her be reborn in another world.

This time, she will have parents who have regarded her as the apple of her eye since she was a child, a brother who protects her and takes care of her, a happy childhood, a carefree youth, like-minded friends, and future friends. Concerted lovers.

Maybe she will still encounter setbacks and difficulties on the road of life, but it doesn't matter, she is no longer a helpless duckweed, her family will be her backing and wings, and she will eventually grow up well and become that kind This kind of calm and determined adult.

It's just that in her world, there will be no more him.

[Have you really thought it through? 】

[There are so many parallel worlds, new worlds are born every second, and old worlds decline.Finding a world that fully contained her soul was a matter of luck.During this time, you may wait a long, long time. 】

"How long is a long time?"

[Maybe the next second, maybe hundreds of millions of years. 】

He smiled lightly: "Well, I think it through."