Rebirth Night Talk

Wang Xi, who hadn't had a drink for many days and was in a bad mood, came out of the bar. He drank too much, talked a lot, and showed some loose publicity. He ignored the people coming and going on the street, but just grabbed Zhao Xuejun and talked about love. .Bei Dongning looked like he was watching the excitement, and then, under Zhao Xuejun's stare, he drove them to Sanxin Mall and left.

"Junjun, I'm actually satisfied, right? You're so nice, I'm an asshole if I'm not satisfied!" Wang Xi babbled against the elevator door.Zhao Xuejun dealt with him by looking at the rising floor numbers.

"What can you do if you are not satisfied, and what can you do if you are content? Think about it!?"

"I just can't think about it!"

"Did I do anything wrong? Falling in love is like being a thief. Xuejun, I really want to tell the whole world that I just want to be with you and only be with you. What can they do to me! Kill me? I am his ancestor!"

A moment of silence, sometimes torture a person, why kill him.Hanging on the high wall and looking up at the whole city is already uncomfortable, but it is even more uncomfortable to tie up your loved ones with you, it is simply worse than death.If they hadn't experienced this kind of ordeal, they would never know how terrible this kind of ordeal is. Zhao Xuejun himself knew that feeling. In his previous life, he was scared like a mouse. In this life, he never wanted to live that kind of life again.

Helping Wang Xi to go into the house, Wang Xi kept nagging: He didn't ask for anything, and everything was empty.He asked Zhao Xuejun what he wanted, but Zhao Xuejun couldn't answer.

What he wants, he just wants a simple approval that belongs to his relatives.No matter how much money you have with you, how much you are worth.They are the children of their parents, and they must explain to Zhao Jianguo and Gao Juzi about their relationship.He wants to be recognized by the whole world!That is impossible.

Stumbling, they walked into the living room, Zhao Xuejun threw Wang Xi on the sofa to find a hot towel, but Wang Xi grabbed him and dragged him into his arms.He carefully looked up and down this handsome but delicate face, he kissed him carefully, kissed his forehead, kissed his collarbone, while kissing, he murmured to himself: " Don't be afraid, with me...we are not afraid of anything, so many years have passed, who can separate us? Junjun...what are you afraid of?"

Of course Zhao Xuejun was scared and wanted to cry, tears flowed out, and Wang Xi licked them all for him.They all have a stomach full of depression and helplessness to fate, they need to vent, and the only channel is the other's body.They wrestled together, torturing each other ruthlessly, trying to tear each other apart or blend the pieces into one, whichever was best.There must be something wrong there, it's just a simple emotion, and it can't bear so many shoulds, according to the rules of emotions that should be.This is as painful as the birth of a great god and Buddha in a devout traditional Christian family.The catharsis at this moment is like the affair in the Garden of Eden, followed by the final carnival of being kicked out of heaven. It is extremely open, deeply in love, and tossing the other person's distress in the soul.

"I love you so much." When Wang Xi said these words, Zhao Xuejun broke all barriers, all fears, and all the things he was afraid of were instantly thrown away. He provoked him and had to repay him.He stretched out his hand and wrapped his arms around his neck to respond to Wang Xi's love, every movement he made would respond to him, and every word he said satisfactorily answered Wang Xi.

"I love you."

"Me too."

"No one can... separate us."

"cannot."

"I will die for you..."

"Let's go together!"

They rolled and boiled the air in the room almost to the limit. They didn't feel ashamed of being so frank and numb. They kissed until... a flower pot was thrown from the greenhouse, and the debris splashed on the enthusiastic The TV wall in front of the two bodies.Time ended in an instant.Zhao Xuejun was dripping with cold sweat. He raised his head and saw his parents with gloomy faces.He could clearly feel that there was a huge branch under his body, which was rapidly wilting. Until this moment, he actually became worried.

Hey, Wang Xi won't be so frightened that he becomes impotent, how can this be good?

Zhao Jianguo and Gao Juzi went home with two pots of orchids they had just bought from the night market.This period of time at home is really boring. Who doesn't want to live a leisurely life, but irritating things are always discussed and come together.With a relaxed mood, it is also possible to buy two pots of orchids to decorate your life.The old couple happily talked about Hua'er, Zhao Jianguo kept dissuading the old wife all the way, don't worry about Xiao Er.This person must be able to think about it, what should I do if I don’t want to?People love to come and go, now whoever stops is the enemy.Parents are the most disadvantaged professions in the world. Can you tell your children a reason?Don't talk about reason, think about it, and me, I can't mess up in this house.

Gao Juzi nodded repeatedly to her husband's highest instruction, saying yes.This gave Zhao Jianguo a sense of accomplishment. They went upstairs and saw the lights in their son's small building dimly on.Just thinking about it, I gave my son a pot of orchids and called Xiaosan'er sticky leisure.Unexpectedly, as soon as they entered the door, they heard a burst of nasty love, and then the old couple saw that their favorite youngest son and godson met each other naked on the sofa.

Zhao Jianguo was dizzy and couldn't breathe.He threw the flower pot as hard as he could, fearing that it would hurt his son, so he threw it on the far wall.After throwing away the flower pot, Zhao Jianguo sat down on the ground, pointed his finger at his pale son who was stunned, and clicked three times: "Hello! Hello! Hello... beast!"

Gao Juzi was dumbfounded, so stupid that Lanhua fell to the ground, the basin made a dull sound when it hit the ground, the fragments splashed on her thighs, and she didn't even know the pain when the skin was cut and bleeding.She cried, instead of wailing loudly like in the past, howling to the horror of ghosts and gods, she shed tears silently, not knowing how to do it this way.

Zhao Xuejun looked at it like a fool, and the moment he saw his father sitting on the ground, his heart was wrenched, and he lost everything.All efforts were in vain, and he saw the little thing he did a long time ago. At that time, what he didn't understand was just shouting for true love, and shouting that he would fight against the world.My father was also like this at that time, sitting paralyzed, and soon he looked pale and out of breath. He was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment and never came back.

Zhao Xuejun felt that he had never been so calm. He put on his clothes calmly and quickly, left the stupid Wang Xi and went straight to his father.At this moment, he doesn't care what others say, no matter what emotion, love.All the emotions at this moment are not worth Zhao Jianguo's kindness in raising him for these years.

He knelt down, knelt down on the debris with a plop, grabbed his father's collar very firmly, and said very firmly: "Dad, don't be angry, I will listen to whatever you say! Don't be angry, just calm down, I am the most obedient, I can do whatever you want. Take a breath first...Mom, I have heart-saving pills and nitroglycerin upstairs, hurry up..."

Wang Xi was stunned as if struck by lightning.

"Dad! You hit me! I'll find you a stick. If the wooden stick doesn't work, you can beat me with an iron rod. If you want to scold me, I'll kneel down until you vent your anger. It's okay for you to beat me to death. I'm wrong. I'm really wrong, I'm wrong, real dad! Don't worry about anything, I won't live if something happens to you..." Zhao Xuejun became more and more excited as he spoke, and finally wept and begged, looking very pitiful.

Zhao Jianguo clutched his heart and took a few quick-acting heart-rescuing pills that his wife had taken from him.

"Dad! I was wrong, I don't know what's wrong, but I was born like this. I can't marry, I can't like women... Okay, I won't explain, it's nothing, as long as you are well, as long as you are healthy , as long as you are happy, I will listen to what you say, really. Dad, I swear to you. If I don't listen to you, I will be thundered. Dad, you must not die, please don't have anything to do. I was wrong, I dare not, Dad! Dad... you speak, you speak! I listen!! I was wrong, wrong... really... wrong...!"

Zhao Jianguo, who was shaken by his son, couldn't breathe at first.However, his son apologized indiscriminately, and the nonsense words in his mouth also made him calm down a little.As long as you are obedient, this son can still be saved.

"Don't shake me, what do you listen to what I say?" Zhao Jianguo didn't believe Zhao Xuejun at all. Of the three children in the family, only Zhao Xuejun had the strongest personality.He didn't expect him to apologize so obediently, even when he knelt on the debris and blood flowed all over the ground, he didn't feel it.This tragic apology shocked Zhao Jianguo and his wife.

"I listen!" Zhao Xuejun nodded repeatedly.As long as Dad can live well, anything is fine.

Wang Xi stood up, put on his clothes silently and went upstairs.At this moment, his mind is empty, but last moment he had sworn to each other.The moment is abandoned.He packed up his luggage and walked in front of Zhao Jianguo very calmly, knelt down, and said like an oath: "...Dad, I'm not angry with you, I was wrong, we won't be...together. From now on, We separate..."

Zhao Jianguo ignored him, and was not in the mood to take care of his lost emotions.

Zhao Xuejun watched Wang Xi leave in a daze. He kept kneeling, Gao Juzi helped him up, and put medicine on his knees. Zhao Xuejun didn't care so much. pulse.That night, people were exhausted, and Zhao Xuejun didn't dare to sleep by himself, so he squatted at the door of his parents, like a psychopath, calling out "Dad" every hour.Early the next morning, Zhao Xuejun took his father to the hospital for an examination. Only some blood sugar and high blood pressure were detected in one of them, and nothing else happened.Zhao Xuejun was bored in the room for three days.On the fourth day, Gao Juzi knocked on his son's door and asked him to come out for dinner, but Zhao Xuejun disappeared, leaving only a letter: "Dear Mom and Dad:

The unfilial son left.Don't worry, I'm not looking for Wang Xi.I go by myself.

Long, long ago, I had a dream.I dreamed of me in another life, and because of my emotional life, my dad was pissed off.A child without a father is like a leaf of duckweed, no one loves you, no one loves you, no one cares about you.Freedom is completely free, but in that life, I lived in regret for more than ten years.Without my father's high mountains to shield me from the wind and rain, I dare not be happy. As long as I feel a little bit of happiness, I will take out my father's money and torture myself severely. Life is really worse than death.

Dad, you forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye, I can't face you, and I can't face all the people who know me well.Regarding my emotional life, that's it. I really can't accept a woman, accept a love that doesn't belong to me.So I can only leave and live by myself for the rest of my life, which is better than dragging my father into this unbearable vortex again.I can't afford to regret it, so I have no choice but not to give myself a chance to regret it.

Mom, I know you must be crying again, don't cry, in fact, it's good to be alone, look at your godfather, you have been alone for so many years.We are alive, the most taboo thing is to fight against God, if you can't resist, you can't win, just follow me.As long as... there is no son like me.

I left with enough money on me, I will eat when the time comes, I will add clothes when it is cold, and I will find a shady place to hide when it is hot.I will take care of myself like my mother is by my side.So...you can eat whatever you want and the most important thing is to take care of yourself.This way I have to go, it is really valuable..."

Gao Juzi and Zhao Jianguo read the letter over and over again, feeling that there were some things that Zhao Xuejun didn't explain clearly.After the incident between Wang Xi's child and Zhao Xuejun came out, before they had time to lose their temper, they came so suddenly and then left suddenly. It always felt that something was wrong.At the very least, he should give this pair of bastards a hard lesson, right?

"Where did you say San'er went?" Gao Juzi asked her husband, wiping away tears.

"He can't die!" Zhao Jianguo was still angry.

Wang Xi sat in his office with a look of sadness in his eyes.Wang Rui said polite words in front of his brother with high spirits.This time, he originally came to look for his brother with a mission, but unexpectedly, the brother who had always looked down upon him would have such a big business, and he would have long been left behind.

"Brother, what are you doing to put such a big satellite for our family without saying a word! Brother...?" Wang Rui called a few times, Wang Xi was startled, and looked up at him: "En?"

"Hey, brother, what's the matter with you? Are you unhappy with me?"

"It's nothing, just tell me." Wang Xi smiled politely and wryly.

"In the past, our mother and grandpa were nagging you because they were afraid that you would lose yourself, that you would suffer, that you would suffer, really. Brother, they will be happy if you do so well now. You see, So does our mother, try to find some country girls for you, no wonder you don't like to go home."

Wang Xi didn't speak, just stared at the photo of him and Zhao Xuejun.He felt angry, felt betrayed, felt that his feelings were so cheap, he had given a lifetime commitment, and was abandoned in a blink of an eye.He really couldn't accept it, and he was a little hopeless.

The female secretary in a black one-step skirt knocked on the door and came in, put a letter on the table and left.Wang Xi picked it up, was stunned for a moment, wanted to tear it up but was reluctant, he thought about it for a long time... and finally opened it.

"Wang Xi...are you angry? I know it. You want to strangle me to death, and then die yourself..." Wang Xi let out a breath from his nostrils, that's what he thought.

"You know that saying? A baby who cries gets milk. What can we do now? I know what you want me to do. But people who do that are fools, fools. Like you A stupid person would do such a stupid thing...

Have you thought about that night?As you can imagine, what's the matter, and I didn't do anything wrong!I jumped up, confronted my parents like crazy, publicized our emotions, and talked to the sky. The two results were that my dad was pissed to death, and then my mother strangled to death.If my mother feels that she is still angry, maybe she will strangle you to death as well.

Even if my mother doesn't kill you, Zhao Da and Zhao Er won't let you go..."

Wang Xi wanted to laugh, but felt sad at the same time. This kind of emotion gathered on his face, and his whole expression was a little distorted.Wang Rui didn't speak, but looked at his brother cautiously. In recent years, he has been too flamboyant and stepped on his brother hard. He is a smart person and knows how to put it back. In the future, he must distance himself from the Zhao family. To put it bluntly, this is my elder brother, so it is possible that he has really become the son of the Zhao family.No, I have to discuss it with my grandfather, uncle, and cousins ​​when I go back today.

Wang Xi continued to read the letter: "...Wang Xi, I'm going to find a place to stay. If I find it, I will contact you. In this world, I only tell you where I am, and I only ask you to find me alone. I have nothing to say to you, and I apologize that you may not accept it, but if you live by hating each other for decades, then your life is really useless, and your life is too bad.

If I were you.Just wait for food and drink every day, and wait until one day you catch me... Then take revenge on a heartless, selfish bastard like me, anyway, I will never torture myself.

I have nothing to say to you, just one thing, from now on, you have to be filial to my parents instead of me, you have to act like you can't find me, you have to pretend to be extremely painful and desolate for the whole world to see .You remember, in the future, we have to do one thing, we have to wait, we have to learn to do the things we most disdain to do, and endure the separation we least want to endure.

One year, two years...maybe ten years...we will stay together silently, I will wait for you, just waiting for you alive alone, no matter whether you are willing to wait for me or not, keep me.

I believe that one day, my father, mother, and brother will want to open it.I will, why don't you forgive me?I love them so much, just as they love me.Well, I've never been a thing!I know you want to scold me!So... I left, found the place, and I will give you a letter!You must hold back for me..."

After reading this letter, Wang Xi was very angry at first.He only thought of Zhao Xuejun, grabbed him and asked, "What do you think I am?" But calm down, think carefully, what can I do?The emotion is so sincere, yet so sad.Without the blessings of the whole world, he can only cling to the only thing he has. He has no choice but to love Zhao Xuejun, so he can only wrong himself, and slowly move forward along the web he has woven.Even if he knows that many things are a game, but besides Zhao Xuejun, who else can he like?

"Brother, what are you talking about? Are you going back?" Wang Rui looked at his brother angrily, and said a lot of good things to him. Is my brother traveling to Mars?

Wang Xi smiled, and carefully put the letter into the safe. From now on, this letter will be the evidence that he blackmailed him. While putting it away, he said in a good mood: "Return, why don't you reply? I miss you all Damn..."