The rebirth of the Republic of China

I sometimes think, what kind of thoughts do I have about that man?

Those memories will never fade with time, but become clearer as I grow older. Those pleasant or embarrassing pictures linger in my mind, and I even rarely have free time to think about other things.

That year when I left home to go to school, it was at a time when my temperament was unstable, and my mind was full of the idea of ​​serving the country. After reading a few advanced magazines, I thought I understood various doctrines. From time to time, I went to some class reunions and published His own opinion seems to be easy to handle, but he is also enjoying the glory of being noticed.

Although my background is not good, but I am the eldest son of a big family in central Sichuan. Even though my father loves the second brother more, his attitude is not biased, and he is very careful when teaching me.

Before going to school, my second brother and I were taught most of the homework by our father. Although the students in front of us are also talented, many of them are from poor families, so naturally they don’t read as much as I do.Besides, being born in such a family, no matter how much I don’t like it, I have to go out occasionally to take care of business and socialize with others. Naturally, I have increased my experience. The logic of the conversation can be clear and grasp the key points, and the content will not make people feel boring. offend.

So, I lived a very good life in school, that is, in that year, the "January [-] Incident" broke out, and Lu Yihua became famous in the first battle.

Jingan, he once told me about this battle, I remember very clearly, his expression at that time was very smug, I rarely saw this expression on this man’s face, he has always been self-controlled and restrained in emotion, I was at that time I thought, he should regard me as a relative, otherwise he wouldn't show his true emotions in front of me.

Although, I later realized that what I had in mind was nothing but wishful thinking.

At that time, I had already had a relationship with Jing An, so I stayed by his side to take care of his life. Jing An treated me very well, and he always agreed with my views as long as they were within his acceptable range. At that time, I asked him: "You were not afraid when you were walking in the temple? You were only in your early twenties then, right? The same age as I met you!"

At that time, Jing An just looked at me with a little surprise. He didn't seem to expect that I would ask such a question. He just looked at me like that for a while, and then he realized it. My."

"Colonel Liu?"

"At that time he was just a captain!" Jing An smiled, "That was the first battle he encountered after following me. Although he was mentally prepared, he just came out of school after all. It was the first time to shoot, and the whole person was very nervous."

Having said that, Jing An paused for a moment, with an emotion similar to nostalgia in his eyes, and I continued to ask curiously: "What's next? I haven't seen Colonel Liu look nervous! He always gives me a kind of The impression of knowing everything and being able to do everything!"

"Where is someone who can do everything from the beginning!" Jing An was very happy. Before I could react, he kissed me, and then continued, "At that time, the military committee was discussing whether to increase the number of troops in Shanghai. A group of us had a good relationship and The officers of the new Anti-Japanese War gathered together to wait for the news. At that time, their ranks were not high, and they were not qualified to attend many meetings. In the end, they were really anxious to wait." Jing An laughed, as if he was really feeling the time when he was young, "I really waited In a hurry, I simply encouraged a large number of officers above the battalion and brigade to break into Minister He's house overnight to volunteer for the war."

I knew what happened later. Jing An led troops to reinforce Shanghai as he wished, and gradually gained fame after defeating the Japanese invaders. He was one of the first batch of Huangpu generals in the national army to participate in the War of Resistance.

"Thinking about it now, I was really young and vigorous at that time. The commander-in-chief in charge of the battle at that time was General Zhang Zhizhong. While I was still on the road, the enemy army concentrated their forces and prepared to break through the central position of Miaohang Town. Immediately I took over When the order came, General Zhang asked me to draw a regiment from my [-]st Brigade to go for reinforcements, but I was on the scene thinking that I would be away or something, and I had a better way, so I changed the target to focus on the whole army. The brigade is strong enough to cross Yunzaobang."

I still remember Jing An's tone when he said these things, but this kind of leisurely attitude has never appeared again. Jing An is still the rational and domineering Lu Jingan of the past, and I am still the original me.

I heard that I was very excited after the victory of the Temple Walk. Although the victory of the Anti-Japanese War is still far away, the victory of a battle is enough for us students to be excited for a while. We go to the streets to participate in various activities, or simply hold activities by ourselves. This is how we celebrate this victory.

At this time, Lu Jingan was only a vague impression in my heart. Later, as his achievements became more and more brilliant, I began to understand him, good and bad, those who resisted the war and killed revolutionaries, and that faint image gradually became clear. stand up.

Just five years later, the Songhu Anti-Japanese War broke out, Lu Yihua's reputation became more and more prominent, and news about this man gradually increased in the newspapers. Almost every time, as long as there was news about him in the newspapers, the accompanying Just a win, big or small, never a bye.

This day, I had just had breakfast and was about to go out, when I heard the call of a newspaper seller outside.

"Read the newspaper! Read the newspaper! General Lu Jingan of the 36th Division defeated the enemy and seized the Huishan Wharf! The Japanese army was forced to flee into the concession and surrendered to the British army! Read the newspaper! The 36th Division..."

It was a victory, and then I met Lu Jingan.

In the past five years, many things have changed a lot. I am already a major officer in the Nationalist Government’s Military Supplies Department. I can’t compare with Jing’an. I didn’t even think that I could see this so soon. A character who was called a hero on the battlefield of the Anti-Japanese War.

However, I was still too young after all, and I took the shadows in those worships as real people, and compared the real people with the imaginary ones.

When I saw Jing An for the first time, I was shocked. He was very young, much younger than the photos printed in the newspapers. He was clean-shaven and wore a brand-new military uniform. He wore a pair of black leather military boots on his feet. Scratching the ribbon in his hand, when he saw me, there was a flash of amazement in his eyes for a moment. If it wasn't for what happened later, I almost thought I was wrong. There was such an emotion in a man's eyes after seeing me, This makes me a little uneasy.

However, Jing An didn't say anything at that time, he just ordered a lieutenant colonel officer who was following me to receive me, and then went upstairs to wash and change clothes by himself.

This is Jing'an's residence in Wuhan. It is not very big, but it is superior in decoration design.It's hard to imagine that a soldier's home has such a quiet layout.

"Let's drink tea."

I turned around when I heard the sound, and it was the lieutenant colonel who was ordered to stay to receive me, that is, Liu Sheng who treated me well later on.

Liu Sheng sat across from me with a smile: "The teacher has been tired for several days, and this time he finally had a rest but went to the banquet again. Major Zhao may have to wait for a while."

"It's okay, it's my job."

Jing An is very good to Liu Sheng, even after we become that kind of relationship in the future, Jing An alienates many people intentionally or unintentionally, he is still very good to Liu Sheng, almost no one can replace Liu Sheng's position by his side. When he lost his temper, Liu Sheng was the only one who could listen to him.

Although Jing An is so kind to me that he indulges me, he has set a line for me in his heart. This may not even be noticed by him, but it does exist.Within this line, I can do whatever I want, but beyond this line, he will not treat people softly because of other affections.

And when he was angry, it was just outside the line that I must never touch.

After we chatted for a while, Jing An changed his clothes and came out, because there were still things to deal with, Liu Sheng didn’t stay, and left after telling Jing An, while I fidgeted and talked with Jing An about Minister He’s confession things.

I always feel uncomfortable, the man in front of me has such an aggressive gaze that I can hardly lift my head up, and then when I finally finished my business and was relieved to leave, something unexpected happened to me. One thing changed my voice.

Maybe it was out of self-protection, I have forgotten the mood at that time, and I can't remember the reaction at the time, but after that intense stimulation, I still have a little impression, the only thing I remember is, Jing An after the passion subsided. When he pulled away and left, the expression on his face was satisfied after the affair was over, his expression was calm but without any other emotions.

When I woke up the next day, Jing An was no longer there. The bedroom door rang twice. I didn’t answer, but the door opened anyway, pretending not to wake up. Walking around, I opened my eyes a little, and the figure from behind was the lieutenant colonel from yesterday——Liu Sheng.

I woke up unexpectedly, and I couldn’t sleep, my whole body was so sore, I started to look at this room, a very ordinary guest room, and then I noticed the clothes on the head of the bed, which should have been put down by Liu Sheng just now.

From the time of the accident until now, I myself admired my indifference, I was able to remain calm like this, but just after I thought I would remain calm forever, Jing An came back, looking at his expression, I suddenly had a feeling in my heart I was embarrassed, and before I could react, my body had already started to move.

"Kangdang——" the dagger fell to the ground.

Jing An didn't seem to care much about this, he picked up the dagger and shook it twice before throwing it out of the window.

My life began from then on, Jingan kept me by my side, and then I went home to visit my father who was seriously ill and was bedridden, and met Zhao Jiaxing again, there was a conflict, and then I experienced a turning point in my life, Zhao Jiaxing introduced me with a bad face Knowing another person, a staff officer in the national army, his real identity is Qian Zhongcheng, a senior officer of the Communist Party who sneaked into the Kuomintang.

What did I think?I said I had to think about it, and Qian Zhongcheng agreed with me. He said that this was a big choice for me to make in life, and I had to think about it carefully. In the end, I agreed before returning to Jing An, and secretly participated in the ceremony.

After all, it is impossible for Jing An to treat me like that, not to complain in his heart, although because of the character he cultivated since he was a child, I feel very warm to have such a person to care about and pamper me.

However, this does not make me hesitate. Jing An’s attitude towards me is yet to be discussed. Besides, I have seen a lot of obedience and injustice in government agencies. I really have a good impression of the Communist Party’s political program. I feel that I have found my faith. Well, the KMT has nothing left for me to commemorate.

The days passed by so precariously, I returned to Wuhan from Miancheng, Jingan didn't ask me anything, my anxious mood was relieved a lot, but I felt a little lost.I agreed with Qian Zhongcheng's opinion and stayed with Jing'an until the Communist Party's identity was exposed.

The days of concealing his identity continued until the end of the Anti-Japanese War. Finally, at the beginning of the 37 Republic of China, Jing An was transferred to the commander-in-chief of the "communist suppression" in Central China, and concurrently served as the commander of the No.14 Corps. I followed him into Xuzhou to command the battle.

In the past few years, Jing An has been very disgusted with such orders. He himself does not like civil wars, and has always held a sympathetic attitude towards the Communist Party. I haven't done much serious work, and what I have done is often just decent enough.

However, his principal really trusted him, and at the end of that year, he changed his place and appointed Jing An as the commander of the appeasement of the Hubei-Hubei border area, and then changed to the general director of the appeasement office of the Sichuan-Hunan-Hubei border area , Then, the "Supreme Decision-Making Committee" of the Sichuan, Hunan, Hubei and Guizhou border regions was established, with Jing'an concurrently serving as the chairman.

However, these are the last splendors. After successive defeats in the national battlefield, I seized the opportunity to talk with Liu Sheng for a long time. Liu Sheng didn't intend to care about these things at first.

I thought for a while and only persuaded: "Zhengzheng, Jingan only has this little time left, and it will be too late, you know him better than me, just because of his temper, he will really be dismissed as a commoner in the future." Can ordinary people bear it? What's more, he killed so many Communist revolutionaries, even Mr. Qu died at his hands, if he persists, if he fails and fails to leave later, can the Communist Party let him go?"

Sitting on the sofa in silence for a while, Liu Sheng raised his head and looked at me. His eyes had lost the softness he used to look at me. He said, "Tell me, when did you join the Communist Party?"

I thought I would be very proud, but when he asked this sentence, I found that I couldn't say it, so I covered it up: "It's not important, the main thing now is to persuade Jing'an."

I don't deny that I have selfish intentions. The combat effectiveness of the army led by Jing An is obvious to all. If it can be incorporated peacefully, there will be a lot of trouble left.

Liu Sheng did it for a while, then stood up slowly, and walked towards Jing An's office. I knew that I had succeeded in persuading Liu Sheng, so I followed him there. When I arrived at the door of Jing An's office, It was quiet inside, and through the crack of the door, I saw Jing'an leaning on the chair behind the desk, while Liu Sheng was standing aside.

"Why do you have such thoughts?" Jing An's tired voice came out, it was still calm.

Liu Sheng relayed what I said when I persuaded him, and said: "I didn't intend to interfere with your decision, but what Zhao Rui said is right now, this is undoubtedly the best choice for future plans, but we still have to leave a way out. We killed so many of them on the Communist Party side, what kind of attitude do they say, if you agree, I will arrange for a trustworthy person to contact you.”

Jing'an didn't speak, the room was silent, Liu Sheng said again: "Hurry up and make a decision, Jingmen is lost now, if we really wait until Eastern Sichuan is defeated, we will have no sincerity to surrender, then you will definitely not be safe."

The sunlight outside the room shone into the office, covering Jing An's body, from my angle, his side face was hidden in the light and shadow, his expression was hard to distinguish, and finally I only heard: "Forget it, do as you said. "

My heart suddenly lightened and I breathed a sigh of relief. After all, Jing An is a high-ranking military officer and a second-rank general of the Kuomintang. After surrendering, the treatment should not be bad, but the fact is not as I expected.

After Jing An handed over the army, he left with the people sent by the organization. Naturally, I still followed him. Those low-level people in the Communist Party were very curious when they heard that this person was Lu Jing’an. His reputation is there, and few people can ignore it. Yes, when we arrived in Sichuan Province, General Chen appeared in the line to welcome Jing An.Thinking about coming to Jing'an, he was very happy to see his old classmates from the Whampoa period, he looked a little excited, and chatted happily with General Chen.

At this moment, I was completely relieved that General Chen was a very good person, not to mention that Jing An was still his old classmate, so it was better to have him take care of me than me, so I don't need to feel that I can't face Jing An anymore with this status.

After I was relieved, my care was obviously relaxed. When Jing An came, he only brought a platoon of guards, and Liu Sheng took care of everything in daily life. When passing by Miancheng, Jing An applied to visit their old house. The house was empty, and I heard that his family had moved abroad after the end of the Anti-Japanese War. Liu Sheng accompanied Jing An to look back and forth in the old house, and I followed another comrade to go through various procedures.

Who would have thought that when I leave, I will be separated from Jing An Yin and Yang.

I heard that Liu Sheng blocked a shot for Jing An. I heard that Jing An did not leave after his guard platoon shot him a bloody path. I heard that Jing An was waiting for someone with Liu Sheng's body in his arms at the end. He died before dawn; I heard that he ordered people to block the people who were about to rush in; I heard that he lit a fire with his own hands when the guard platoon was about to be wiped out. I heard...

When I rushed over in a hurry, the Lu family mansion was completely engulfed in the sea of ​​fire. The fire spread soaring into the sky, and the scorching heat wave rushed towards me. I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my heart. It can't be put out.

Only then did I see with my own eyes that the fire that ignited could be so big that it could burn continuously for three days and three nights.