Offer him a belated lily

I kissed Zhang Yan passionately, feeling that he slowly accepted from resistance, and then began to respond to me.I don't know how long we kissed, and we both were a little out of breath after we parted.

Zhang Yan pushed me away, turned his head away and stopped looking at me.I know that there is a big gap between us, and I also know that we cannot exceed this bottom line.I'm not entangled, and I don't know what to say if I want to speak, it shouldn't be like this between us, and I can't.I turned and left, trying to calm both of us.

After the company held the annual meeting and the annual summary, it began to have a holiday. I sent red envelopes to every employee in my department. They accompanied me through a lot of hardships during the first few months when I took office. This red envelope can make them open Happy new year.

After I sorted out the documents, I was also planning to leave the company and go to the supermarket to buy some New Year's goods.The employees I met along the way from the office to the company lobby would all ask me a happy New Year. I wonder if I was infected by the atmosphere. I thought of Zhang Yan, who will celebrate the New Year in a few days. I don’t know how he should spend his life, where to go With whom.

I want to call him and ask him, but I have no position. I caused his family to be ruined, and now I care about it instead.I myself felt that I was extremely hypocritical, so I resisted the urge to make a phone call, thinking that I should not bother him on the big day.

I went shopping in the supermarket, bought some seafood and snacks, and instead of going back to my own apartment, I went back to my parents' house.I rarely go back these few years, and my parents never cared about my diet and health, they only cared about whether I was still valued and loved by Zheng Shan.

My parents' house was a small villa, and the two lived a high-society life despite their lack of skills. They were extravagant all day except eating, drinking and having fun.I opened the door and handed the things I bought to the nanny. When I entered the house, I heard the sound of mahjong beeping. It was my mother who called the group of little sisters home again.I had a headache and thought about leaving first, since the things had already been delivered anyway.

I was just about to turn around and leave, when my mother looked up and saw me, "Jiarui, don't say hello when you come back! Come here, these are my mother's good friends, called aunts." I could only bite the bullet and walk They came forward and greeted with a smile, "Hello, aunts."

The other three are also well-dressed. Although they have a small fortune, they are not enough for the upper class, let alone the Zheng family.My mother has a high vanity, she only plays with people who are not as good as her family, otherwise she shows off and brags.

A man with short hair and a dress said, "Hey, why don't you say that Sister Zhao is blessed! Don't tell me if your husband loves you, your son is so outstanding! He is a talented person, and he is still a high-ranking member of the Zheng family! Don't be too powerful! A woman next to her also echoed, "Why don't you say that people are incomparable? It would be great if my son was half as successful as your Jiarui!"

My mother enjoys this kind of pursuit very much, but she still pretends not to care, "How can it be so good, my family Jiarui is working hard. This year my family Jiarui was promoted, and now she has real power! Zheng's The president is inseparable from him, and he is becoming more and more busy, and I am worried that he is working too hard!" The short-haired woman played a card and continued to flatter her, "I have been promoted, that is a big deal! Jiarui used to be a high-level Now, what position is it?" My mother said proudly, "Chief Financial Officer! All of Zheng's funds are managed by my Jiarui family! Such a high position is really hard work!"

I stood by and listened to them singing together, feeling like my brain was about to explode, and I couldn't even leave! "Mom, I'm not the chief financial officer, I'm just a deputy director." I can only explain, saving my mother from talking nonsense here.

Hearing my words, my mother didn't care at all, "Aren't vice presidents and directors similar! Anyway, tell Zheng Shan that you can't be a director."

"It's far away, do you think I opened Zheng's? I can be whatever I want! Your son is someone else's job!" I am too lazy to satisfy my mother's vanity, I don't think about this kind of environment for a minute Waiting for "Sister Wang put the things I bought in the refrigerator, remember to eat. I still have an appointment, I have to go first, and I will pick you up tomorrow to pick you up and Dad to Zheng's house. Goodbye everyone!"

When my mother saw me leaving like this, she was a little angry and threw the mahjong in her hand on the table. Others saw that Jiarui must have been busy a few years ago, and he should have a little temper! He was in a high position at a young age. He was under a lot of pressure, and he didn't say that on purpose." After listening to everyone's comfort, my mother's face gradually eased, and a new round of poker games started.

Every time they go home, they break up unhappy, but she still likes to pretend to be a loving mother and filial son outside, which is really tiring.

The next morning I went to pick up my parents and go to Zheng's house. The two of them dressed up beautifully, for fear that others would not know that they were rich.Every time I see the two of them like this, I feel pain in my eyes, dressed like a nouveau riche.

We go to Zheng's house every Chinese New Year and spend it with Zheng Shan and the others.After entering Zheng's house, I started to say hello to the elders one by one, and my parents followed me to say hello to them.I didn't care about them after asking, I went directly to Zheng Shan and sat down, "Chatting with the elders is more tiring than going to a meeting."

Zheng Shan patted me on the shoulder with a smile, peeled an orange and put it in my hand, "Don't complain, it's only once a year anyway. You did a good job at work this year, wait for me to give you a big red envelope, and continue to work hard next year, little one." Garry."

"Of course! I will continue to work hard! I will strive to become a CFO and marry Bai Fumei as soon as possible." I stuffed the orange petals into my mouth, biting down the sweet and sour taste, I couldn't help eating a few more.

When the meal was ready, Uncle Zheng took the main seat, and I sat next to Zheng Shan.There was no one talking at the table, I just focused on eating, and Zheng Shan would occasionally pick up some of my favorite food for me.The food tastes good, but I eat it dull and uninteresting, every year.I feel that this is not to celebrate the New Year, but to suffer.

At this time in previous years, after the reunion dinner, I would go racing with Zheng Shan and other young masters, and then watch the sunrise on the top of the mountain together. This year was no exception.But I don't know why I miss Zhang Yan so much, I desperately want to know where he is, and how he spent this year.

I avoided the crowd, came to a balcony on the second floor, took out my mobile phone and couldn't resist calling Zhang Yan.The call was quickly connected, and Zhang Yan's deep voice came through the phone, "An Jiarui? What's the matter?" I listened carefully to the voice on the other end of the phone, it seemed too quiet, it didn't look like someone was celebrating the New Year together "Zhang Yan , who are you with now?" There was no voice on the other end of the phone, and just when I thought he had hung up, Zhang Yan's voice came over again, "An Jiarui, do you have the guts to ask this question?"

I clenched my phone tightly, and carefully worded "I... I finished the New Year's Eve dinner, I'll go to see you, okay?"

"Looking for me? An Jiarui, what's your intention? You don't let me feel at ease during the Chinese New Year! Why do you always come to bother me!" Zhang Yan yelled at me. "I'm just looking for you! Will you tell me the address yourself, or should I go find you directly?" Zhang Yan has always been soft and stubborn. If possible, I don't want to bother him, but there is no way, I Can't let him go.

After I asked for the address, I found Zheng Shan and explained the situation to him. "Wait a minute, we've lived together for so many years. I'm curious, what kind of person can make you go to him desperately." Zheng Shan still has such a relaxed tone, because his curiosity and my cowardice ruined my life. Zhang Qinghe's life.

I have some regrets, I am afraid that my impulsiveness will expose Zhang Yan to Zheng Shan's eyes.I shouldn't have gone to him on New Year's Eve, I shouldn't have said this in front of Zheng Shan.I'm in a dilemma right now and don't know what to do.Zheng Shan saw my nervousness and uneasiness, wondering if he also thought about Zhang Qinghe, he sighed, "Go, the things you are worried about will not happen again, I will talk to the elders of."

I put down my guard and felt relaxed, "Thank you, cousin!" I remembered that we would set off a lot of fireworks every New Year's Eve, and Zheng Shan should have prepared a lot this time, "Are there any fireworks at my cousin's house now?" Zheng Shan pointed to the garage "It's all piled up there, take as much as you want."

I went to the garage to get a few boxes of fireworks, put them in the trunk, and drove towards the address given by Zhang Yan.

Zhang Yan's home is a community in the city center. This community is well kept secret, and the people who live there are either rich or famous.My car was stopped by the guards. They confirmed my identity to Zhang Yan before letting me go.

I knocked on the door, and after Zhang Yan opened the door for me, he didn't mean to let me in, "Just say what you have to say here!" Regardless of Zhang Yan's obstruction, I pushed him away and entered the room.Sure enough, as I expected, it was empty, with quick-frozen dumplings on the table, no relatives, no friends, no atmosphere of Chinese New Year at all.

I turned around, and Zhang Yan looked at me with folded arms behind me, "Are you satisfied? If you're okay, let's go!" I sat down on the mountain hair, and I couldn't find the water glass after searching for a long time. Don't you even have a water glass? Your house is worse than mine! I thought my house would be lifeless, but I didn't expect your house to be even better."

Seeing that I didn't intend to leave, Zhang Yan could only bring me a bottle of mineral water from the kitchen, "You can make do with this." I opened the mineral water and took a sip, "I don't mean anything malicious, I just want to see you Are you having a good time. I don’t want to leave you alone during the Chinese New Year!”

"I'm all thanks to you! As I said, I don't need your concern, so go away." Zhang Yan's tone was flat, completely free of the cynicism and agitation of the first meeting.

I stood up and hugged Zhang Yan, and kissed his lips fiercely.He didn't resist me, but pursed his lips after the kiss, "I kissed you too, why don't you go? Or do you want to do something else instead of having fun?" Zhang Yan raised his hands and began to take off his clothes. Soon Zhang Yan stood naked in front of me, "An Jiarui, I'll do whatever you want. After you're done, don't look for me again."

"What are you doing? I'm not a beast that is in heat at any time!" I hurriedly took my coat and put it on Zhang Yan's body, "Put on well, don't freeze!"

"Otherwise, what are you looking for me for? When you heard that I am Zhang Qing and brother, do you know that your eyes have changed!" Zhang Yan slammed the coat I put on him on the ground "Do you dare to say that you didn't see Zhang Qinghe through me? You dare to say that it wasn't Zhang Qinghe's name that you called in your heart when you raped me! Do you dare to say that it's not because of Zhang Qinghe that you are so attached to me!"

I was a little confused, I thought of many reasons, but I never expected Zhang Yan to change his attitude towards me because of this "You know it yourself, if you are not Zhang Qinghe's brother, based on what you did to me, you You can still stand here completely!"

"Yeah, your tolerance for me is all because of Qinghe..." Zhang Yan laughed at himself, walked up to me, and straddled my legs, "So, you get pleasure from me , to make up for your loss of Qinghe. As for me, I can not only enjoy it, but also get your protection, so I can kill two birds with one stone!"

I hold Zhang Yan's hands that are trying to take off my clothes, "I admit, I do regard you as Zhang Qinghe's substitute! Because I really love him, I can guard him for the rest of my life! After Qinghe left, I did not Never loved anyone until you appeared! I feel that you are my salvation, you are Qinghe’s brother, you have the same blood temperature! You make me feel that I am still alive, and that I can redeem my sins! "

"An Jiarui, you are really shameless. You killed Qinghe, and now you use his own brother as a substitute, and you can still speak so grandly!" Zhang Yan bowed his head and kissed the corner of my mouth, and then used his firm The tight butt rubbed against my legs, "Don't do it? You can call me Qinghe..."

I had a bold assumption in my heart, but I also felt that I might be being sentimental, so I said a little nervously, "Zhang Yan, are you jealous of Qinghe? Are you jealous of your own brother?"

Zhang Yan was told about the central matter by me, and wanted to escape from my arms in a panic, "No! You are talking nonsense! You are my enemy! You are the culprit who killed Qinghe! I wish I could kill you!"

Zhang Yan struggled so hard that I didn't hug him at once. He fell to the ground. He didn't get up but just curled up on the ground and murmured, "No, no! You're talking nonsense! You're talking nonsense! For your enemy, jealous of my own younger brother... I always call you mean and shameless, now it seems that I and you are the same kind of person, the same selfishness, the same unbearable..."

I hugged Zhang Yan to the sofa and held his shoulders, "Zhang Yan! Look at me, you are not wrong! It is my fault, I forced you to do everything! I insisted on treating you as Qinghe Substitute, I insist on pestering you! Listen carefully, you are right! You hate me as much as you want, blame me and blame me! Don’t use my mistakes to punish yourself, and don’t belittle yourself like this! I feel distressed when I see it , I feel sorry for you, it has nothing to do with whether you are Qinghe's brother or not."

"An Jiarui, I can't understand you!" Zhang Yan leaned against me quietly after finishing speaking, and my hand gently stroked Zhang Yan's smooth back. long."

I picked up the clothes that Zhang Yan had taken off and handed them to him, "Put on your clothes first, don't catch a cold! We'll go down to set off fireworks later, I brought a lot!"

I went downstairs with Zhang Yan, took out the fireworks from the carriage, and took out the lighter to light the fuse.Soon colorful fireworks bloomed in the black night sky.So beautiful, so gorgeous.

Zhang Yan just stood there obediently, the colors of the fireworks kept shining on his face, making him appear illusory and unreal.I was in a trance for a moment, forgetting where I was, his identity and my identity.I approached him as if bewitched, and pulled him into my arms.Zhang Yan put his arms around my shoulders and kept kissing my neck.We didn't manage the fireworks any more, we just wanted to enjoy the warm atmosphere quietly.

In fact, both Zhang Yan and I know that there is nothing for the two of us.After the new year, Zhang Yan will start his revenge, and I will be in a dilemma. I don't want him to have an accident, and I can't watch Zheng's accident.

No matter what will happen in the future, I think I like Zhang Yan a little bit now, because now I don't think of Zhang Qinghe.