to his love

We have a cold war.

I seem to seldom hear that boys also have cold wars, but the two of us did.He didn't initiate a conversation with me for several days after that day.And when I asked him something, he would just put a cold face on his face and say something like "um", "oh" and "okay" in a half-dead way.

I thought he was tired, tired of being with students like me.But it seems a little different.We are still the most tacit partners on the court, and we are still aimlessly sluggish on the desk together.Even at dinner, if I take the initiative to go first, he will hold my hand.He didn't say anything, but miraculously I understood what he meant.We often end dinner without a conversation.

Lin Yilan's matter was a bit tricky, the head teacher of the second class obviously couldn't find a reason to persuade himself to let the top ten in the grade go.I also felt a little overwhelmed, and it happened that there were some materials in the grades to sort out during that time, so I simply ran to the office twice a day.In the end, it succeeded by coincidence.It succeeded beyond my comprehension.

Lin Yilan came to our class one afternoon.The head teacher's voice sounded quite enthusiastic, and she especially praised me as a great contributor.One more person in a class is like a potted plant blooming in the corner, with a new look, but few people notice it at all.

Most of the time this key class is depressing and silent.I can't figure out why they are so similar at this age.Occasionally there will be laughter and relaxed expressions in the class, but such a little joy will be silenced when encountering faces from time to time by the window.Like a flower closed by darkness.

Lin Yilan's arrival made me a little lucky.When she didn't show her hurtful side, her witty words and gentle smiles were like a gust of wind that kissed flowers in spring, bringing us infinite vitality.

I clearly saw Qi Yueyang approaching her more and more, gradually letting go of his guard and slowly developing a desire to protect.

What I saw that night was not the end, but the beginning of a conspiracy.I feel more and more that the atmosphere is changing, and this feeling is so subtle that it drives me crazy.Fortunately, I seldom distract my attention after I devote myself to studying and sea of ​​questions.I don’t know if it’s the pressure that brought me some illusions. Sometimes I feel that someone around me is looking at me, but nothing happens when I turn my head away.

The days are calm and fast, and the turning point is another night.

The last evening self-study ended early, because the teachers had their little dinner to participate in.I borrowed a public phone from the store outside and dialed Ms. Tian's number, and as expected, there was a busy tone.

I was bored wandering around the school gate when I suddenly heard cheers from the teenagers.The security guards drove away the booing and watching guys, but for some reason, they didn't bother the two people who were watching.

Gu Pan and Ren Chaozhi.

The autumn night in the south has not been stained with dew, and the curvature of the girl's skirt seems to outline a distant dream.No boy can refuse a girl who gives her heart to you like that.Gu Pan raised her head and handed three roses and a piece of pink letter paper. I remember someone mentioned to me a few months ago that her favorite is the scented Xue Tao paper.

We are across the street.I saw a little confusion on his face.Ren Chaozhi took the three roses, and at that moment I felt my blood was frozen.I can't move.

Although I have already prepared.

Although I know that this is a feeling that will not be known.

Although... we gradually became friends again, although I thought I could pretend to have him all the time.

"...Ren Chaozhi."

No one heard, but he turned his head.I think my expression should be very embarrassed, because his face was full of surprise the moment he saw me.

I turned around and left, hurrying away.

I was afraid that such a small thing would make me cry too.

At the corner of the alley, I was overtaken by Ren Chaozhi, who grabbed my hand and forcibly turned me back to face him.

Maybe it was because his expression was too obvious. He touched my forehead worriedly, and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong? Are you uncomfortable? I told you and you ignored me."

"I……"

I didn't realize it was crying.

If he agreed to Gu Pan's confession on the spot, maybe I would just feel a little sad, and I wouldn't make the unseemly gesture of tearing down my face.But now being gently comforted by him in the dim alley, I feel the grievances in my heart turn into tears.

He was silent for a while, "Su Jingzhi, tell the truth. Don't you want me to be with Gu Pan?"

I started hiccupping from crying, but I didn't know where the courage came from. "Yes!" I said.

He was silent again.Tears blurred my vision, and I took a breath to calm myself down.After a while, I heard his bitter voice, "All right, I won't be with her."

"Don't cry, man, you have to shed tears even for such a trivial matter?" He patted my head with a helpless look, "Don't worry, I promise I won't have any contact with her... At most, I'll chase her for you Okay? Hey, don't cry."

Although I was a little dizzy, I still heard what he said.

I think this is a big misunderstanding.

"I...I don't want to chase her," I wiped away my tears, and was once again shocked by my own shamelessness, "I don't like her."

Ren Chaozhi's expression was dull for a moment.

I completely calmed down.

The wind is a bit cool, and there is no other sound around.After nightfall, the entrance of the middle school was unnaturally quiet. I twisted the hem of my shirt unconsciously with my hands, and prayed to God in my heart that it would be best for these few minutes.I know it's not appropriate to recall those in this atmosphere, but I still can't help but think of all the multiple-choice questions he was blinded by.

How much is it right?Oh, two, three points.

Ren Chaozhi's voice trembled for a moment, but recovered quickly.He pressed me against the wall, got very close, and asked me in a very low voice, "What did you say just now? Monitor? Say it again?"

I thought to myself, "I said, I don't like it..."

"No," he interrupted me, smiling, "What you said is that you like Ren Chaozhi..."

"right?"

The whisper was so soft that it was almost inaudible. I suspect that it was me who was deaf.Under the moonlight, Ren Chaozhi's face is very clear, I have never seen him smile so happily.

With full expectations, a little temptation, and... a sense of temptation that I can't ignore.

I knew very well that I was in a huge swaying ship, and the waves were turbulent. It was obvious that I could climb to the coast as long as I turned the rudder, but the seductive singing of the siren made me tangle in circles and hesitate at a loss.

"Tch, you don't talk." Ren Chaozhi seemed impatient to wait, he simply pinched my chin with one hand and bowed his head, "That's the acquiescence."

I felt my mouth was bitten twice.

So, just like that, under a piece of moonlight.

Before I figured it out, I became Ren Chaozhi's boyfriend.

Ren Chaozhi didn't accept those roses, he became my boyfriend.

That's how we fell in love.

My relationship with Ms. Tian was not so rigid when I was very young.At that time, my father would still appear in our trivial lives.Ms. Tian is a mother who loves to talk and laugh. She has never shy away from me about the so-called sensitive generation gap between adults and children.

"If Jingzhi has a girl he likes, he must be bold enough to chase after her!" She told me, "My mother was chased by my father in high school back then. Hehe, the elders in the family don't agree with us being together. , but we still talked about love without hesitation."

At that time, I was still young, and I asked her, "What if I was found out? The teacher said that it is not allowed to fall in love early, and it is only bad children who fall in love early."

"Well..." Ms. Tian thought for a while, "If the teacher punishes you, you can call me and tell me! Mom will tell the teacher that we don't care about the children from other families, but Jing Zhi from our family can fall in love early. !"

"Okay! Pull the hook!"

I was afraid that she would repent, so I hurriedly grabbed her hand.

Then my father left.Leave us and return to his family and business.At first my mother shed tears.The elders of my father's family left us a lot of property, which is enough for us, mother and son, to live in peace for a lifetime.

My mother can't bear that kind of loneliness, she has a high degree of education and work ability.So she found a job outside, and at the same time used the property she left behind to gradually establish a position that was hard to ignore in her field.

And our mother and son gradually become unfamiliar with each other in this way.

Sometimes I think she hates me, she transfers her hatred of that man onto me.But she concealed it well.At least on the surface she is still my omnipotent mother.It's been a long time since we sat together and had a good conversation. Tonight, for Ren Chaozhi, I think we can give it a try.

I called her to stop.

It's 10:30, and she's still in the video conference.It's rare for me to see such a strong woman.Hearing me calling her, she waved to the person over there and looked over.

I didn't know how to speak, so I just cut to the chase.

"I'm in a relationship," I said, "with a boy."

Her typing hands froze.

"What did you say?"

I smiled, "I'm in a relationship with a boy in my class, so I'll report it to you first, so that you don't get too flustered when you're asked to be a parent."

She obviously didn't expect me to say such a thing with such confidence.

After a while, Ms. Tian let out a sneer.

"I can't control you when you grow up," she said, returning her gaze to her notebook. "You can figure it out. Don't get me into trouble."

I said, "Thank you."

It was so soft that I'm not sure she heard it.

Didn't dream much that night - probably did, but forgot when I woke up.I only remember the sunlight that filled the room in the early morning of the second day. When I stretched out my hand, I thought I had caught all the temperatures in the world.

I have never, never felt that life can still have so much vitality and expectation.