to his love

Ren Chaozhi and I became friends, which surprised not only the students, but also the teachers.

The head teacher first talked to me once, not very formally, and talked to me in a rambling manner while I was sorting out the roster.She said Ren Chaozhi was different from students like me.She said that she didn't mean to discriminate against any classmate, but think about it, Su Jingzhi, do you and him look like people from the same world?

My hands paused as I filled out the form.

Of course it does.

The first time he pulled me to play during recess, he smiled casually.But I was surprised to see a little naive expectation and apprehension in those eyes.There is no way I can refuse an invitation with a smile on my face.So I snatched his ball and threw it down from the third floor, and the people on the court caught him.

"Go ahead," I said, "the last one banned him!"

He was stunned.

We ran up the stairs one after the other, and the small playground and classrooms were filled with completely different smells.The smell of the grass being soaked by water, the smell of the runway under the sun, the smell of boy's sweat and the occasional scent of flowers from an unknown pack of paper towels blend together.I jumped up and scored a three-pointer, and the teenagers booed and applauded me.I saw the head teacher passing by the corridor with the book in his arms, and he was obviously shocked when he glanced over here.

"Squad leader, you're done."

Ren Chaozhi draped my shoulders, gloating, "What do you think Sister Yu will do to you?"

I?I have no idea.

I only know that he is too close, and my heart is almost unable to hide my thoughts.

I pushed him away, "Let's go, run fast, if you catch the bell before the bell, you don't need to write a review."

We didn't catch the bell.

Among the other boys who played together, only one was in the same class as us.That person didn't want to enter the classroom at all.So I stood side by side with Ren Chaozhi at the door.The wind is quite strong, and I feel a little cold.

The head teacher seemed to be trying to calm down.

"What did you two do?"

Her voice is very loud.

"Play the ball."

"Play the ball."

She looked very angry and couldn't believe it, "The monthly exam is coming soon, and I still think about playing basketball all day long! Can basketball be eaten as a meal?"

We returned to our seats as she muttered.

"I'm not depriving you of your hobbies, but everything should be prioritized. Basketball waits for you to be admitted to a good university and get a good job. Who cares if you play how you want? You are students, students in key classes, the top priority It’s about studying and learning every minute! Look at the second class downstairs, it’s also a key class, and there’s never any sound in the classroom when the class is over…”

The pile of books was so high that I took the opportunity to lie down and plug my ears.Presumably she couldn't see it.

Ren Chaozhi imitated me and knelt down beside me.

We looked at each other for a while, smiled tacitly, and looked away.After half a class, I suddenly got a little tired of those exercises, so I turned around and wanted to talk to him to relieve my boredom.

He was already asleep.

The boy's eyelashes are not long and cast only a small shadow.His sleeping appearance is very good, and even makes people feel protective, which makes it difficult for you to connect him with the waking Ren Chaozhi.

I looked at him for a while, and after a thought, I simply put down my pen and lay down on my stomach, sleeping face to face with him.

I'm actually a little sleepy too.The books are piled up so high that the head teacher wouldn't even see it?

After the monthly exam, the class teachers of the whole grade will have a general meeting.The monitors of each class were also present during the quality analysis. When I opened the door and went in with the others, I saw our head teacher's face was so dark that it was frightening.

There is only one report card showing the grade rankings on the table, all the way to the [-]th.I shook the pen and looked at it.This time, the top ten students in the grades, the second class accounted for eight, and our first class only had two.Obviously, tonight's class meeting was once again the homeroom teacher's hoarse solo performance.

I'm not interested in those data analysis with strong skills, and soon I started thinking about things with straight eyes.Half an hour later, the torture finally ended, and I was the last one to leave here, closing the door for those teachers who hadn't finished speaking.

"Su Jingzhi?" A girl stopped me, "Su Jingzhi, hello."

I turn back.

She is tall, at least she is the outstanding type among girls, with short, thin hair, and when looking at people, she will feel that she is very gentle.

"Lin Yilan." I smiled, "What do you want me to do?"

She is the monitor of the second class, the goddess who is quite attractive in our whole grade and is said to be a bit mysterious.

"Please give this to Qi Yueyang," she handed over an envelope, which didn't look like it contained a letter from the touch, "Thank you."

"You're welcome."

I said, nodding at her.

When Qi Yueyang got this, he didn't seem very happy.He is the kind of very stable boy, but now he has a troubled expression on his face.

"Man, come on," I patted him on the shoulder, "There are skills in chasing girls. One is not to give up, the other is to be shameless, and the third is not to give up and be shameless."

"Go away," he said, "I didn't mean that."

I smiled and waved to him.

I thought it was just a trivial episode, but things seem to be getting a little more complicated.One day after school, I met Lin Yilan, and she invited me to dinner.The exchange and study between class cadres seems to be quite common, but Ren Chaozhi who witnessed everything by my side pulled his face on the spot.

"A date?" He hooked my neck and raised the corners of his mouth, "Aren't you taking me with you?"

"What are you doing?" I laughed.

After a while, I added, "It's not a date."

Ren Chaozhi stared at me for a while, then suddenly let out a cold snort, and walked away without looking back.

Of course, you can't just choose a fast food to solve the problem of eating with girls.I ordered two small stir-fries, which have always been well-reviewed among students, but Lin Yilan said that she was not feeling well, so she didn't eat a lot.

"It's like this, Su Jingzhi," she said with a smile, "I want to apply to my old class to be transferred to your class."

"Are you sure?" I asked, "Our head teacher must be very happy. But you are a treasure in the second class, can your old class agree?"

Lin Yilan was very frank, "I don't know. So I want to ask you for help."

I couldn't give her a definite answer, "I'll try."

Lin Yilan looked at me for a while, then chuckled, "You're not curious, why did I go there?"

My hand holding the food stopped, and soon came back as if nothing had happened.

"Not that much curiosity."

I think I know.

I am naturally sensitive to other people's emotions, so even though Lin Yilan smiled nonchalantly in front of me many times, I still felt her deep exhaustion from the bottom of her heart.

This matter is very complicated to explain, very cumbersome, and even a little unbelievable.But there is such a thing.

It was raining that day, and I was in a southern city, where the rain in autumn was normal.

I remember that the sky was very gloomy that day, and there was no one on the ten o'clock street after the evening self-study.This scene is a bit strange but not incomprehensible, because the TV station has begun to report the disappearance cases that happen every half month.

I have stayed on campus for too long, and I am used to the noise and vitality around me.There was only the sound of rain in my ears that night, and I felt that the atmosphere was a bit unusual—this feeling was very subtle, as if there was an inexplicable sense of security in the thousands of rainy nights in the past, compared with tonight.

It wasn't safe that night.

At 10:30, I was still lingering at the gate. At that point, there were no taxis and buses passing by the school gate.I wonder if Ms. Tian forgot to ask her driver to pick me up again.My home is a bit far away, but I still decided to walk back.

I was so unprepared when I saw Lin Yilan.

He didn't recognize her at first glance, she was lying on another woman, with bright blood stains on the corner of her mouth.The woman's body trembled uncontrollably, but she didn't make a sound.

I was unprepared.I thought I was living in the most ordinary campus.

The atmosphere was weird and ambiguous, and we looked at each other across the street.Lin Yilan tilted her head, I'm not sure if she is still rational.

But make no mistake, I'm not interested in any of this.A hasty rescue may not be a complete success, not to mention that even if you see it with your own eyes, the identities of many victims and perpetrators may not be clear at that glance.

Another person came running in the dark.

It was a boy who looked completely crazy. He didn't see me, and ran towards the lifeless woman in a daze.Lin Yilan avoided it in disgust, and the next second, I heard the bullet whizzing by.

Qi Yueyang appeared out of breath.

For some reason, I have always had a good knowledge of the family backgrounds of my classmates.I remember that Qi Yueyang's parents lived in another city, and they belonged to a large family that seems too closed today.

Lin Yilan hid in the shadows far away.Qi Yueyang ran towards me, out of breath but tried his best to calm down, "Are you okay?"

I was in a state of great ignorance and shock.I said, nothing.

I looked in Lin Yilan's direction, remained silent for a long time, and finally chose to say goodbye and leave.

"You can't tell what happened tonight," Qi Yueyang said behind me, hesitating, "I can't explain some things to you."

"I'm not interested in."

I say.

I never told others what I saw that night, let alone mentioned Lin Yilan's appearance to Qi Yueyang.But gradually I noticed many differences in that girl.She has never participated in morning running activities, and often takes most of the afternoon or the entire evening off for self-study.These are simply incredible for the monitor of a key class, because she has neither physical discomfort nor necessary extracurricular activities.I once sorted out the grade-level leave slips, and hers was very special, with only the word "due to business".

Lin Yilan called me twice, and I came back to my senses.It's rude to lose your mind when talking to a girl, so I looked up and smiled apologetically at her.

She pointed to the other side and said, "Although I still have something to say to you, don't you think it's a bit inappropriate now? He's been looking at you for a long time, are you friends?"

I looked in the direction she pointed, and Ren Chaozhi was sitting in the corner with his arms folded, with two steaming dishes in front of him.

It doesn't seem to have moved.

He stared at me, and when our eyes met, he froze for a moment.As I said, I'm naturally sensitive to other people's emotions.But at that moment, I couldn't guess what he was thinking.

"Does he like you?" Lin Yilan approached me naturally and asked in a low voice.

How much I want to say yes to her, to satisfy my little vanity.

But in the end I shook my head.

There are many people in the small shop, and there is noise on all sides.I greeted him across a few rows of tables, then looked away.Lin Yilan handed me a tissue, because I did her a small favor, and she said she owed me a favor.

It wasn't that I didn't want to know her identity at all, but I never asked.It seems that some things can be pretended not to exist if they are not opened there, but once it is opened, I think I am more afraid of the infinite unknowns and threats that come with it than being close to another novel world.

I am such a person.