to his love

On the night of his birthday, we took half the boys in the class to skip class.It is said that the probability of the evening self-study class teacher coming in person is about zero, so this group of bleak teenagers who have been suppressed for a long time decided to come out and have fun for half the night.

Ren Chaozhi was quite wealthy, and roasted a table full of meat.In the middle of the conversation, someone randomly brought a few bottles of beer, everyone looked at each other and rushed forward with a howl.

Soon the whole shop was filled with the laughter of these teenagers.

I don't remember exactly what we said that night, but everyone enthusiastically joined in the endless discussion.We talked about the most beautiful and gentle girl in the class, and why those teachers always caught stealing mobile phones and dazed in class.A few familiar friends made a bet with Qi Yueyang and asked him to call the girl he had contacted recently. That guy actually took out a mobile phone from his pocket, and the screen showed that it was Lin Yilan.

There was a lot of noise, and I don't remember if he got through in the end. At 11:30 the owner was kind enough to remind us of the time.Some of them vomited all over the floor after being drunk, but he didn't bother with us and helped us get into the taxi.Those who were not in the car were holding their hands and shaking nervously in the night wind. I asked them what was wrong, and they said indifferently that they were queuing up to go to the bathroom.

Ren Chaozhi and I were the last to leave.We don’t live on campus, and as far as I know, his family felt that it was too troublesome to go home at noon every day, so they rented a suite for him to take a nap at the school gate.I kicked him and asked if he would let me go back with him.He didn't know if he was drunk, but he blushed and nodded after a while.

The house is very spacious, although there is only one room.After taking a shower, Ren Chaozhi sat on the bed and didn't sleep, just staring at me, as if a flower would bloom on my head in the next second.

"What's the matter boyfriend?" I asked, pinching his face while he didn't respond, "waiting for a goodnight kiss?"

He frowned and muttered a few words, but I couldn't hear him, so he moved closer.Unexpectedly, he hugged her and forcibly turned over, holding her tightly in his arms.

I smelled the aroma of his body after bathing, and waited patiently for him to nibble on my face.Ren Chaozhi slowly buried his head on my shoulder again, and said a few words in a low voice.

I still didn't hear clearly, "Huh? Boyfriend, can you repeat it?"

"……Gift."

After a while, he raised his head and said dully.

"Would you be angry if you said you weren't prepared?"

He was taken aback, "No."

Although the eyebrows are furrowed tightly.

I pecked his eyes and patted his head.

"I'm lying, I'm just angry." I smiled and pushed him away, grabbed my schoolbag, "I'm not kidding you, it's all here."

Ren Chaozhi was lying on his side next to me, looking like a foolish king waiting to be flattered by his concubine.

I paid attention to his expression, deliberately made a mysterious appearance, and slowly, slowly took out the stack of treasures I had carefully selected from the bag...

"Dang Dang Dang Dang!"

Ren Chaozhi's eyes straightened.

I excitedly showed him the same sample, "Look, the required practice questions, the simulation test paper, the comprehensive version of the May [-]rd, the intensive rolling paper, the black and white paper and the unit extraction paper, are you very moved? Are you very excited!"

"...I was so moved that tears were about to fall." After a long time, Ren Chaozhi collapsed as if unable to hold on, "Really, tears are falling."

I was upset, and crawled over to shake his head, "Hey, hey, boyfriend, what's your expression? I've carefully selected and prepared this gift that can't be found in the world for you day and night. What's your expression?"

Ren Chaozhi buried his face in the pillow, "My expression is very sincere, I was so moved that I almost cried."

I completely gave up on the image and just knelt on top of him and scratched his arm fiercely.Ren Chaozhi wasn't ticklish at all, he pretended to stop me for a while, and pulled me into his arms.

"Okay, thank you boyfriend." He yawned, "I'm so tired, good night boyfriend?"

I nodded and chirped.

Ren Chaozhi reached out to turn off the desk lamp, then hugged me and wrapped me in the quilt.I was also a little tired after making noise for half the night, and fell asleep almost as soon as I touched the pillow.

I'm glad I'm not asleep yet.

After a few minutes, I lay on Ren Chaozhi's body and whispered into his ear, "Happy birthday."

After a pause, he continued, "I like you."

When I got up, he put his arms around my waist, which made me flinch from the itching.Ren Chaozhi also came over and breathed lightly into my ear.

"Me too."

First love is as sweet as the candy you ate for the first time when you were a child, and you can laugh when you look at each other.I enjoy getting along with my boyfriend more and more.May's birthday happened to be on a Saturday, so he took me to ask the teacher for leave, and said confidently that we would go to see if the extracurricular teaching in a cram school outside the school was suitable for us.

I have made many friends, and most of them have given me [-] points of sincerity.But I know the problem is with me.I'm always reluctant to get too close to most people.So every year my birthday is more or less deserted.Ms. Tian would send a greeting and congratulations, but I didn't really expect much more than that.

It was different that time.Ren Chaozhi naively took me to play all the entertainment facilities in Happy Valley, and finally we were soaked by the fountain on a pirate ship.It was a very sunny day, and Ren Chaozhi and I sat on the public bench for a while, counting to about the seventh little girl holding a pink balloon, and our clothes finally dried.

After that day, Ren Chaozhi sent me home.We walked side by side in the avenue, and the twilight illuminated his eyes through the branches.He smiled and stopped me coolly.

"If you don't coax your boyfriend with a small cake, will your boyfriend be angry?"

I know he's teasing something from before.

So I said sternly, "I will. And it's a tsunami caused by the collapse of the sky. If you don't take out a small cake, you will probably experience the murder scene yourself."

"Okay." He made a helpless expression, and pulled out a box from behind like magic, "Dangdangdangdang! Thank you boyfriend for not killing me?"

That little box had a little electric candle on it.In the ambiguous twilight, the candlelight was as warm as a fairy tale.

"open to take a look?"

I said it was really like a trick to coax a girl, but in fact I was very happy to untie the ribbon.What came in was a rather crude little cake not worthy of its packaging.But there are two crooked villains on the cake, one is wearing a white shirt and shooting a three-pointer, and the other is applauding beside him, with an exaggerated expression of support.

Written in cream on the side of the cake.

"Jingzhi is what Chaozhi's heart yearns for."

There is also a vulgar love.

"How is it?" Ren Chaozhi smiled, "Are you touched? Do you really want to kiss your boyfriend?"

The smile on the corner of his mouth couldn't be suppressed.

"It's still not as thoughtful as I gave you." I tried to be as calm as possible.

Who knows that he seems to be serious, "Do you think I didn't buy you the small questions that are required for the college entrance examination?"

He couldn't wait to prove it, holding my hand and poking the small cake with a fork, "You can feel it yourself. When you finish eating, there is a very small pocket book hidden under it-I have been looking for it for a long time, it is really very small! Reason A comprehensive book with answers and analysis."

My smile gradually froze.

That 17-year-old has officially arrived.

After the third monthly exam, Ren Chaozhi lived up to expectations and broke into the top ten in the grade.Her mother came to the school again to accept congratulations from the teachers.After Ren Chaozhi was defined as a top candidate, he got the same schedule as me, which was personally arranged by the teachers.

"I'm so tired," Ren Chaozhi shook the piece of paper, "It turns out that you are all under so much pressure to be a top student?"

"But aren't we just sophomores?" He rolled his eyes and stuffed the paper into the drawer.

"Go, Jing Zhi! Your boyfriend will take you to play basketball!"

The process of hard work is very bitter, and time passes through calculations, successes, and failures over and over again.There were rumors about me and him gradually in the class, but we two parties tacitly ignored each other.It was only later that the rumors dissipated.I don't know who extended a helping hand, but my classmates did treat me with the same sincerity and warmth as always.Sometimes they would play jokes on me and Ren Chaozhi.I'm so thankful that I still have their warm, silent support on those days.

There are many trivial things, most of which are happy, and occasionally there are some small frictions.I remember Mo Yan wrote a sentence, he said that one hundred happy things will be forgotten in one year, but one sad thing can be remembered for half a lifetime.In fact, he hasn't finished yet.A sad thing will keep the haze in your life, but the one hundred happiness that happened once will leave traces.Those traces are buried in countless corners of your heart, and occasionally turning them casually will reflect a lot, a lot of bright sunshine.

I don't know if that counts as sad, but I do remember it for a long time.As I said, I am a person who is very sensitive to other people's emotions.During a group activity in the last semester of the third year of high school, a guy made a joke.The whole class burst into laughter, and a few girls even stooped unsteadily.I wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes, turned my head and saw Ren Chaozhi through several layers of people, and he happened to turn his head to look at me.As soon as our eyes collided, we couldn't help but smile at each other.

When I turned my head and stood up again, I happened to have an extremely cold gaze from the supervisor at work.There was still a lingering smile on the corner of my mouth, and the sudden freezing must have aroused her vigilance even more.

She didn't come to me right away.

A week later, I came to the office.She told me to show up when the other teachers were gone, saying she didn't want it to become a big deal.

"You are still young, and there are countless possibilities for your future." She said, "Su Jingzhi, you are the best student I have ever taught. I don't want you to be ruined by him."

At that moment, my heart ached.The person I liked so seriously, who worked so hard to become such a good person for me, ended up not getting the respect and recognition he deserved.People who say they care about me don't want him in my future.

"Why, teacher," I lowered my voice, "Ren Chaozhi's grades are better than mine, why would I be ruined by him?"

She sneered, "Yes, I usually judge you by your grades. But Su Jingzhi, it doesn't mean that I don't know how important a person's character is!"

"Ren Chaozhi is different from you in his bones!" She said, "Do you know why he changed schools? He injured his classmates and teachers from the previous school, a girl and an old man, and their bones were broken abruptly. His family also Really rich, just let him take no responsibility at all. Do you know what he said to me on the first day he transferred? He said teacher, I was not wrong. So what if I beat them? I am Ren Chaozhi, can they do what!"

"...The teacher is for your own good, Jing Zhi." She suddenly leaned halfway on the back of the chair, and said exhaustedly, "Ren Chaozhi's family is not something you can mess with. You trust the teacher."

……I do not believe.

I don't believe it... that's my goal.

I can't think of that boy who always laughs, saying that kind of thing.