looking back inadvertently

The luminous bracelet had already lost its usefulness by the time school started, and turned into an ordinary plastic bracelet, Liang He never took it out again.

After a holiday, Liang He really felt the "aging" that Qin Ying mentioned in A Hua.Its amber eyes like glass beads seemed to have lost their luster, became cloudy and lifeless, and their movements were not as flexible as before.

In the first week after the start of school, each subject conducted a mock test in the form of a college entrance examination.Liang He performed very well in mathematics this time, one point higher than Cao Lei.

Surprisingly, not only did Shen Zhe ask Liang He for questions after commenting on the test papers, Cao Lei also asked him a big question during class.The difficulty of that question, in Liang He's opinion, is very ordinary, and he has also mentioned it in class, so it is impossible for Cao Lei to be confused at the level.

Although Liang He was puzzled, but the other party was sincere, he told her seriously.Explain it to Xueba, for fear of saying something wrong and making a joke.

Within half a month, this happened twice.For the second time, he couldn't help asking Cao Lei the doubts in his heart: "Are you really good at this question?"

Cao Lei's expression was a little stiff, and her flushed face turned pale in an instant.

"I don't mean anything else," Liang He said patiently, "I just think you're better at math than me, so I'm a little surprised."

Cao Lei still didn't answer, he added: "It's okay, just forget it if you don't want to talk about it."

It's not that he doesn't understand girls' little thoughts at all, although his contacts with Cao Lei are really limited, so he doesn't know what caught her attention.

Liang He didn't mean that, he didn't want the other party to misunderstand, and he didn't want her to be embarrassed, so he could only stop verbally, trying not to pay too much attention to this matter.

After that, Cao Lei didn't ask him to give lectures on purpose.

According to the date, the other grades of the school have not yet officially started, but as senior high school students, their current study life is much more tense than last year.In the corner of each class’s blackboard, there is a countdown display of the countdown to the college entrance examination, and the evening self-study is also strictly grasped. Without special circumstances, you are not allowed to ask for leave at will.

At the end of August, Ah Hua suddenly disappeared and did not come back for two days, leaving the food untouched, which had never happened before.Qin Ying kept talking during the day: "Could Ah Hua get lost?"

"It's okay." Liang He was equally uneasy, and tried to comfort her, "Maybe I'll be back tomorrow."

Qin Ying's complexion was also much haggard.When did it start?Liang He couldn't tell.Her hair is slow to whiten among the old people of the same age. Before she was 70 years old, it was almost completely white in a few years.

There was stewed meat at noon, but it wasn't too bad. Qin Ying said regretfully, "It can only be used as supper at night."

"Yeah." Liang He likes to eat her cooking, but it doesn't matter if it's earlier or later.

However, that evening, when Liang He and Shen Zhe were going to eat outside the school, they bumped into Liang Zheng's car parked by the side of the road.

"Liang He," Liang Zheng got out of the car and called to stop him, "Don't go to self-study tonight."

"why?"

"Come with me, I will tell your teacher."

His tone was very blunt, which repulsed Liang He: "Have you asked my opinion?"

Liang Zheng took a deep breath: "Go and see your grandma."

Liang He and Shen Zhe were stunned at the same time.

"Grandma?" Isn't his grandma at home?The two had dinner together at noon.

"Your grandma's physical examination report came out a few days ago, and it's not very good," Liang Zheng said with a sullen face, "I discussed with your aunt to put her in the hospital."

"It's not very good—what do you mean?" If it was a minor illness, Liang Zheng wouldn't come here on purpose, and even asked for leave to take him to the hospital.

"Come with me first, to the No. [-] Hospital."

Shen Zhe gently said to Liang He: "You can go with uncle."

After Liang He got into the car, Liang Zheng called Luo Mingyu. He only said that there was an urgent matter at home, and hung up quickly without explaining the details.

"What's going on?" Liang He couldn't bear his temper, and continued to ask, "What's wrong with my grandma?"

Liang Zheng was silent for a while, his hands holding the steering wheel tensed: "Stomach cancer."

The air-conditioning on the car rushed out from the air-conditioning outlet, accompanied by a low roar, which did not weaken the strength of Liang Zheng's words, and Liang He's ears were buzzing.

"Stomach—" he couldn't say another word, "to what extent?" Qin Ying would check her body every year, if it happened just now, it might not be too serious.

"Late stage." The cold words dispelled Liang He's last hope, and Liang Zheng's voice trembled a little, "I fainted once at home this afternoon...your grandma just said that she was worried about you—I was also very worried. Chaos, I came to find you."

Liang He didn't say a word, he didn't know how to react, the blood all over his body was frozen into ice, his fingers retracted subconsciously into his palm, and clasped his knees tightly.The trees and pedestrians outside the window retreated quickly, and the car was speeding all the way.

Four years ago, my grandfather passed away suddenly from a cerebral hemorrhage.At that time, Qin Ying completely collapsed. Seeing her grandma like that, Liang He tried to cheer her up. It was also during that time that she learned how to cook and do more housework.

"You'd better be mentally prepared," Liang Zheng said in a weary and cold voice, "the doctor said that there is not much hope, just endure the day, delay as much as possible, and then... go comfortably." Of course he was not feeling well, but a People in their forties have enough tolerance for this kind of thing, at least on the surface.

For Liang He, those painful memories seemed to be just yesterday, and he had to face new despair.This time he didn't even have someone to accompany him out of the nightmare.

When he arrived at the hospital, Liang He's hands were icy cold, and the air-conditioning in the car seemed to be all attached to his body, lingering on.

The "Oncology Department" sign hung at the end of the corridor, with white letters on a blue background, and my eyes hurt when I saw it.

A single ward with a small balcony outside and fruit on the bedside table, if it weren't for the vague smell of medicine and the all-white sheets and bedding, it might feel like a warm place.

"Oh, why did you call Liang Helai!" Qin Ying did not lie down, but sat straight on the head of the bed, "He still has class."

She did lose weight recently, but her family didn't know that it was a sign of aggravation of her condition, they thought it was just old age, plus her love of worry and hard work.Liang Mei and his wife also wanted her to relax, so they took her on vacation together. No one thought that the old man's deadline was coming.

how could be.

Even in the ward, Liang He couldn't figure out how all this happened.There is no difference between grandma and when she was at home.

"Mom," Liang Zheng said, "you lie down for a while."

"I'm not tired," Qin Ying lost her temper, "You just let me rest, but I don't feel tired. Liang Zheng, I'm fine, why don't you just go home?"

"Mom, let's..." Liang Zheng, who was still calm on the road, his eyes turned red, "We have to check it out."

"I know!" She waved her hand, "Isn't that the disease... Don't hide it from me, I'm going to see your father soon, right?"

Liang He who had been standing by the side turned around abruptly, with his back to them, facing the cold white wall of the ward.

"You don't think it makes Liang He happy, does it?" Qin Ying's voice continued, still addressing Liang Zheng, "It's no surprise at my age...I really miss your father too."

"Mom, let's treat it," he said without confidence, "try."

"Then tell Liang He what you are doing..." Her temper became urgent.

"You're not at home, so he'll know when he goes back at night." Liang Zheng glanced at Liang He, who was behind his back, "Mom, he was brought up by you. What's the matter, he should be able to deal with it... "

"Liang He—" Qin Ying called out loudly.

Liang He's originally drooping eyelids closed and opened again with a little force.Turning around and walking up to her, she didn't sit on the bed, but just squatted down.

"Liang He," she put on her usual kind expression, "Did you see Ah Hua?"

Liang He's nasal cavity was choked, his throat was astringent, he made a sound for a long time, and said something against his will: "I saw it just now, but I ran away again."

Qin Ying stared at him quietly, wondering if she believed him.

"It's running fast," he started making up lies again, "You still say it's old, but I think it's still so skinny."

Qin Ying suddenly smiled like a child: "That's good... you can look at it once in a while, I probably won't be able to go back, it would be great if that child can live longer..."

"Hmm..." Liang He put his hands on the back of hers.The wrinkled skin sticks under the palm, "I will keep it."

"And you're about to take the college entrance examination, don't forget about business..."

"Ah."

She kept saying some repetitive words, Liang He just nodded, when the doctor came for examination, he left the ward and walked quickly to the balcony on the same floor.

He was overwhelmed by the atmosphere in the ward, and when he came into contact with the outside air, he gasped for breath and his chest heaved violently.

"Liang He," Liang Zheng called him from behind after a while, "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine." He didn't want to show weakness in front of his father, "where's grandma?"

"She's resting, don't worry about you," Liang Zheng put his left hand on his shoulder, "Have you not eaten yet? I'll take you to have a meal, you go back to Tianyuan, and I'll take you to school tomorrow morning."

"Are you going to accompany grandma tonight?" Liang He tried his best to maintain calm.

"Well," he said, "I'll watch you eat first."

Liang He shook his head: "Dad, don't worry about me, I want to go back."

"Are you going back to No. [-] Middle School now?" Liang Zheng said in surprise, "Why?"

"Grandma's stewed meat in the morning wasn't bad enough, and I didn't eat much at noon, so she cooked it again." Liang He forced a smile on his lips, "She said, let me serve it as supper at night."