looking back inadvertently

When he was very young, Liang He hadn't gone to school yet, so he asked Qin Ying: "Grandma, do people really die?"

"Yes," Qin Ying said to him while doing things, "If you get sick or get old, you will die."

Xiao Lianghe felt that death was terrible, he would stay away from his relatives around him, and he would fall into the boundless unknown.

"Then how long can I live?"

Qin Ying smiled: "Why do you think about this so little? Your days are still long!"

Liang He asked again: "Grandma, how long will you live?"

"Grandma, it hasn't been that long, but I should be able to watch you grow up."

Liang He was not satisfied with these ambiguous answers, so he pestered him and asked, "How long can a person generally live?"

"This... as long as you are in good health, you can live to be a hundred years old."

Liang He was already able to do arithmetic at that time, and silently counted how many years were left between his own age and one hundred years old, and after finishing his own calculations, he went to Qin Ying's.

During the Chinese New Year, my heart beats like a drum - I am getting closer to being a hundred years old.

However, the time in a child's eyes is long after all, and he is easily attracted by the present, and he forgets the "life limit" that he once felt uneasy.

Liang He always felt that his eyes were moist in his sleep, but when he woke up, he wiped them with the back of his hand, but there was nothing.

It was morning, and he sat up in bed.

The cat food basin outside the door is full again, and the old shoe rack where Ah Hua sleeps in winter is still on the side.This is the third day it has been missing.

The bright morning light passed through the corridor window and silently shone in, but it could no longer warm this corner.Through the light, Liang He noticed the mottled rust marks on the shelf for the first time.

He stood at the door, staring at the food bowl.The emotions accumulated in the hospital the night before surged up irresistibly, and he squatted down, burying his head in his arms.

Overnight, the world he lived in collapsed, as if the comfortable Anle Township suddenly turned into rubble, and the tired birds that once lived under the eaves no longer returned to their nests.

What was feared and forgotten when I was young will come one day.

Liar, grandma is not even a hundred years old.

The door was open, and he neither packed his schoolbag to go to school nor went back to the house.I don't know how long time passed.

"Liang He?"

There was a not so loud sound of going upstairs behind him, accompanied by a soft call.He resisted the numbness of his legs and stood up again.

"Why are you here?" His voice was hoarse, before Shen Zhe could answer, he remembered something, "Are we going to be on duty today?"

He and Shen Zhe were in the same duty team, and they were the first to arrive every time.But today, it's been a long time, maybe it's because of this that Shen Zhe came to have a look.

"It's okay." Shen Zhe slowly walked to his side, "There are others."

Liang He remained silent, and continued to stare down at the basin containing cat food.

Shen Zhe saw Liang Zheng pick up Liang He with his own eyes last night. Now that he looks like this, it's not hard to guess the reason: "Your grandma's illness... isn't healed?"

Liang He turned around, facing Shen Zhe, tears slid down the half-dried tear trail again: "Ah Hua will not come back, and grandma will not come back either..."

With just one sentence, he couldn't even narrate it completely, so he immediately turned his back and covered his mouth and nose with his palm.

The gentle force fell on his shoulders, so that it would not cause pressure, but after it was slowly transmitted to his body, the overwhelming sadness seemed to find an outlet, and gradually dispersed.

Shen Zhe didn't say much, and put his right hand on his shoulder, and they were silent together.After Liang He's low sobs stopped, he handed over the tissue and said at the same time, "Do you need to ask for leave?"

"No need," Qin Ying would be even more ashamed if she didn't go to school because of this, "Would you please wait for me for a while?"

"Ah."

Liang He's schoolbag was not opened at all last night, and he didn't need to tidy it up, he just carried it out the door.

The duty time has long passed, and now the roads are full of students who are riding bicycles or walking to school.There are also quite a few people around the breakfast shop, deep-fried dough sticks, pancakes or pancakes...the ones who get them run away immediately, stuffing them into their mouths as they walk, regardless of the image.

Several mixed food smells hit Liang He's sense of smell, but he had no appetite, and he didn't even drink a sip of water this morning.

Last night, he finished eating the food Qin Ying left in the refrigerator, and his stomach was still heavy. Even if he stopped eating all day, he might not have the desire to eat.

"You didn't have breakfast, did you?" Shen Zhe suddenly remembered when he saw the early ones, and gave him the flower rolls wrapped in plastic bags, "I bought them in the cafeteria."

"I can not eat."

"Try it... give it to me if you don't want to eat it."

Liang He didn't resist any more, took it stiffly, and didn't eat it. He lowered his head and said, "I didn't write a single word for yesterday's homework."

Shen Zhe was stunned for a moment, but still followed his footsteps: "If you didn't write it, you didn't write it."

Due to the previous delay, they arrived at the classroom, where the morning reading had already begun.

Liang He was absent-minded throughout his morning reading, and the wilting leaves outside the window fell into view.

The senior three class is on the third floor, just above the previous classroom, and still facing the basketball court on one side.It was still the same tree outside, but it could be seen from a higher position, and the leaves seemed to be denser.In fact, this tree is not very old, far less tall and lush than those old trees on the other side of the teaching building.

His eyes lingered between the branches of the trees for a while, and the textbooks for a while, but he hardly opened his mouth.When the morning reading was about to end, Luo Mingyu asked him to go out.

Being lectured by Luo Mingyu alone is usually not a good thing. He still has homework to hand in today... It's just that Liang He has no time to worry about his own fate, it doesn't matter anymore.

"Liang He, how is your grandma's illness?"

Never expected that the first sentence Luo Mingyu said to him was this.He was stunned, and then his nose was sore, and he couldn't even tell all the information he knew.

"not good."

The shallow lines between Luo Mingyu's eyebrows showed worry, and she sighed slightly: "It's hard for you."

Liang He was puzzled and surprised at the same time. He always felt that it was not something Luo Mingyu would say, and speculated whether she learned about this through Liang Zheng.But the call from the car last night did not elaborate.

"Okay," she saw Liang He's doubts, "Shen Zhe told me everything."

Liang He was greatly surprised: "Yes——Shen Zhe told you?"

Glancing into the classroom through the door, Shen Zhe sat in his seat, as if nothing had happened.Because of his absence all morning, Liang He didn't even know when Shen Zhe left the classroom, and how he would explain to Luo Mingyu.

"He was afraid that I would criticize you for not completing your homework, so he explained it to you in advance," Luo Mingyu said with some self-deprecating, "This Shen Zhe... I guess I am similar to Miejue Shitai in his eyes now."

Whether it was Shen Zhe's intercession or Luo Mingyu's forgiveness, Liang He felt an unprecedented emotional load, and he could not respond immediately.

"Just make up the homework slowly," she added, "I'll explain to the math teacher, let Shen Zhe help collect the homework for the next two days."

"Ms. Luo," Liang He bit his lower lip, "Thank you."

"You don't need to thank me for this kind of thing. I'm not that unreasonable. I should have gotten to know your father better yesterday." She patted him on the shoulder. You worry."

"Well," he nodded, "I'm going to class first."

"Go."

Liang He finally told Shen Zhe and Wen Hao what he knew about Qin Ying's illness during the day, and he didn't tell anyone else.At least for the past two days, he still couldn't digest all this calmly.

However, his appearance is quite different from usual, which can be easily noticed.Cao Lei was also in a class break. After repeated hesitation, she asked, "Did something happen to you?"

Liang He deliberately restrained the abnormal outflow of emotions: "It's okay."

He has long known that he is not used to being taken care of by others, and it would be embarrassing for outsiders to notice his abnormality, including facing Luo Mingyu in the morning.

Maybe Shen Zhe is an exception.Liang Hyuk was not at a loss for crying in front of the other party.I'm afraid Wen Hao would not be able to do it.

He hoped that this was a nightmare, that after school he would run up the stairs of the old house, open the door, and Qin Ying would be waiting for him at home.

But nothing.That night, only the cold walls greeted him.

The author says:

I'm sorry, I have to go out on the weekend, because I'm not very used to editing texts on mobile phones, so I won't update it the day after tomorrow, and continue next week!