You have no regrets

The moonlight shone softly in the courtyard of Zhennan Hall, Xiao Liu's footsteps were a little shaky, and he walked tiredly to his room.He drank too much wine, he didn't hold his alcohol properly for a while, and he was a little drunk, but he didn't lose his mind.

He pushed open the door and lit the lamp, only to find someone standing in front of him and looking at him, Xiao Liu's eyes were blurred, struggling to hold on, drowsy, all he could smell was the clear scent of herbs , making his eyes sour, wanting to cry.

This is clearly the smell of Jun Yan.

In the past, before Jun Yan closed his practice, he would enter the room at this time to see if he had kicked the quilt, and then cover him with the quilt to avoid catching cold.

Did you come to see if he kicked the quilt today?

A moment of silence spread in the room, and it took a long time to hear Xiao Liu's somewhat vague voice.

"Eldest Brother...Eldest Brother...is it you?" There was a little crying sound.

He was probably drunk, and not very drunk.

Otherwise, since I'm already this old, is there still a need for Senior Brother to care about me so much?

Jun Yan frowned and looked at the person in his arms, picked him up with some headaches, and put him on the bed.

Xiao Liu's face flushed slightly, which made his already pretty face look more coquettish, it was his appearance of being slightly drunk after drinking.

He looked at him, feeling some inexplicable throbbing in his heart, the emotion he tried so hard to bury in his heart broke out again, slowly struggling to wrap around his thoughts, tightening stubbornly, making him unable to breathe.

"Xiao Liu, sleep well."

His voice was deep and pleasant, sounding soft and warm, Xiao Liu shed tears unknowingly, sobbing in the half-dream and half-awake state, feeling sad with pain.

It was only in his dream that he dared to enjoy Jun Yan's tenderness so presumptuously.

He knew that when he woke up from the dream, the reality would prick his whole body like a needle, and he could only shrink in the memories alone, reminiscing about the special tolerance and care that were only for him when he was ignorant.

When he woke up in the morning, he only felt a little headache, and even forgot how he got into bed.

It was vaguely like having a good dream, but he forgot.

After freshening up, he took his sword to the martial arts arena, and he had to avoid the time of practicing martial arts with other senior brothers. He still couldn't face the third and fifth senior brothers who always laughed at him alone.

In fact, the two of them have restrained a lot, probably because the feeling of being ridiculed by them is too deep, basically Xiao Liu avoids them.

Swords are his specialty, but in fact he knows all the weapons of his seniors, and he is quite good at practicing them.

He tied his hair back with a red headband, drew his sword, and practiced.The sword in his hand pierced the air, forming a gust of sword wind, blowing the fallen leaves on the field, and the martial arts field was covered by those fallen leaves for a while, and some dust was flying all over the sky. Jun Yan watched silently from the side. Then, secretly surprised.

Xiao Liu was standing in the center of the martial field, the sun was about to come out, the golden sunlight shone on his dexterous body, his slender body moved nimbly and quickly, every move was very precise, one could even hear the sound of the sword slicing through the air Cracking, full of power, almost perfect.

A bunch of black hair behind him fluttered along with his figure, Jun Yan couldn't take his eyes away from the concentration on his face, such a delicate face was full of sweat, but it was still beautiful and moving.

After practicing the last move, Xiao Liu put the sword back into the scabbard, turned around and saw Jun Yan standing on the sidelines, he was a little surprised, his chest heaved slightly, he was still breathing, his face was flushed, unexpectedly A trace of charm.

"Morning, big brother, come to practice martial arts so early?" He was a little nervous, thinking about his moves just now, whether there was something wrong.

"Xiao Liu, you have really improved a lot." Jun Yan was very surprised that Xiao Liu had practiced swordsmanship so thoroughly and improved so rapidly.

"Thank you, big brother, for your compliment." Xiao Liu was taken aback for a moment, thanking him cheerfully, not being humble.

It has always been like this, as long as you can get Jun Yan's approval, others will not feel sad if they oppose him.

"Eldest brother still needs to practice martial arts, so I'll go back to my room first." He bowed his hands to Jun Yan and left the martial field.

These two years were neither long nor short, but they were enough to make them become unfamiliar. Perhaps in Xiao Liu's heart, he had already lost the position that could shelter him from the wind and rain.

But did Xiao Liu understand that he worked so hard just to make himself more capable of protecting him.

It's just that these seem useless, Xiao Liu's ability just now proved everything.

Xiao Liu didn't go back to his room directly, but went down Zhennan Mountain. He walked to an inn in Zhennan Town. The waiter saw him and immediately led him to the second floor where there were fewer people.

He had been to this inn many times, the inn was crowded and there were more people, but the waiter always had a little impression of beautiful people, and he remembered them after a long time, even the habits.

"Wouldn't it be better if it's just a jug of wine?"

"Let's go to Plum Bar this time!" Xiao Liu put down the sword in his hand, and said to the waiter in the shop.

The waiter nodded, and not long after, he took a jug of high-quality plum wine in his hand, put it on the table, and then backed away.

That pair of beautiful eyes stared at the pot of plum wine for a while, then sighed slowly, frowning together, poured a glass of plum wine, and drank it down in one gulp.

Niu Er looked a little silly behind him, he had never seen this kind of drinking method before, the plum wine sold in this inn had a very strong aftertaste, even if he didn't get drunk, he would get completely drunk.

Niu Er had just sold out the rice, so he decided to have a snack at a famous inn in the town. He looked at Xiao Liu for a while, and decided to go up to say hello. The way is very curious.

"Brother, why are you drinking here by yourself?" Niu Er saw that Xiao Liu was about to pour another glass of wine, so he hurriedly stepped forward to interrupt. This drinking method is not only easy to get drunk, but also hurts the stomach.

Xiao Liu took a look at him, feeling very familiar, but couldn't remember seeing him there for a while, and was a little puzzled, but he still greeted him out of politeness.

"Do I know you?" He asked Niu Er.

"I am the mayor here, and my name is Niu Er." Niu Er said.

Xiao Liu tilted his head and thought for a while, then suddenly thought of Niu Er, he still had a little impression of him.

As Master said, the only rice shop in the town was opened by Niu Er.

"What's the matter?" Xiao Liu asked politely.

"I think you are from another place, I haven't seen you before..."

"I came down from Zhennan Mountain. I live on the mountain. I don't know why the mayor is looking for me..."

"I just want to say that the plum wine in this inn is strong. The way you drink it hurts your stomach and you can easily get drunk. It doesn't matter if you are not afraid of getting drunk, but at least take care of yourself. I think you are still young..."

Niu Er rattled a lot of words, Xiao Liu held his slightly dizzy head and made a stop gesture.

"It's true that I'm a little dizzy, just finish this pot." Xiao Liu already felt like he was ordering to chase away guests.

Niu Er is not an ignorant person, but he still has a heart to care about his townspeople, so he didn't know what to say at the moment, watching Xiao Liu drinking plum wine silently.

"After all, I am the mayor of the town. It is right to care about the townspeople. If you have anything to do, you can come to me at the rice store. The rice store I run is the only rice store in the town. It is easy to recognize."

Seeing that Xiaoliu's wife wanted to talk to him again, he said helplessly, and left the inn. Xiaoliu saw the direction he was leaving, didn't say anything, ordered another jug ​​of wine, and drank slowly by himself.

After Jun Yan finished his martial arts practice, his juniors arrived one after another. Today is the day when Xiao Yuan leaves the customs. Everyone gathered in the martial arts training ground, waiting for the master to lead them to the closed training room, but Xiao Liu did not show up.

Everyone was not surprised at all. No one blamed Xiao Liu for not showing up. They seemed to be used to Xiao Liu's disappearance, and they were not surprised.

"Xiao Liu didn't come, where did he go?" Jun Yan asked in confusion.

"Probably went to the town, he always likes to run to the inn." Xu Caowu replied lightly.On weekdays he loves to gossip about Xiao Liu, but recently he is a little different, even when he sees Xiao Liu, he no longer speaks sarcasticly, at most he just doesn't say hello.

"In the town? He said just now that he was going back to his room. Why are you in the town again now?"

Ning Ren sighed, as if he was very helpless to this situation. This year, this kind of thing has happened too many times. He wanted to persuade Xiao Liu, but Xiao Liu always ignored him. It's related to the incident that I ran into that time. After all, I'm still a child, and I'm quite good at holding grudges.

"Eldest brother, please persuade Xiaoliu more. Every time he comes back from the town, he runs into the woods. He doesn't listen to what the master says. He seems to always go to the inn to drink. He dares not let people know when he is drunk. Just ran into the woods..."

Before Ning Ren finished speaking, Jun Yan's face sank.

"Drinking?" His voice was low and chilling, all the juniors were afraid to speak, even Cao Min, who occasionally made fun of Xiao Liu, was afraid to speak.

Jun Yan put away the big knife, and then went down the mountain to find Xiao Liu.Xu Caowu knocked on Jun Yan's door lightly, then pushed the door open and entered.

"Eldest brother." He bowed his hands respectfully.

"Let's talk about it when I come back. I'm going to the town now." Jun Yan hung up his sword and prepared to go down the mountain.

Xu Caowu looked at him before speaking slowly.

"Xiao Liu should be in the Tianyang Inn now, senior brother, you will see him when you go to the second floor when you enter the inn."

Xu Caowu once saw Xiao Liu in the inn, and his slightly drunk appearance made people very excited. He knew that Xiao Liu's appearance was different from ordinary people, and would definitely attract the covetousness of many people, so he was a little worried, so he came here Tell Jun Yan.

Jun Yan looked at him, feeling a little puzzled.

"I remember that you like to trouble Xiao Liu the most, what's going on now?" Jun Yan knew that Xiao Liu went down the mountain to get drunk, and he was already very unhappy, so his tone became even worse.

Xu Caowu didn't answer, turned around and left his room, Jun Yan didn't blame him for his rudeness, and rushed down the mountain impatiently.

When Jun Yan saw Xiao Liu, Xiao Liu was drinking wine with blushing cheeks, his eyes were misty, it could be seen that he was already drunk.The wet lips opened and closed with a glossy glow, and he kept pouring wine into his mouth, Jun Yan's anger was instantly aroused.

"Xiao Liu, come back with me." He snatched the cup from Xiao Liu's hand and said angrily.

Xiao Liu shook his head for a while, looked at his face for a while, and then smiled, looking completely drunk.

"Eldest brother...why are you here? Let's drink together..." He patted the chair beside him and motioned for Jun Yan to sit down, showing his drunkenness.

Xiao Liu's body swayed slightly, and he put one hand on the table to support his head.

"What's the matter? You're so drunk, how old are you, and you're still not sensible?"

Jun Yan really sat down, but Xiao Liu took the glass, poured wine into it, reached out and pushed the glass in front of him, raised the glass with a ruddy complexion, and made a gesture of toasting.

The sour and astringent feeling in his heart swelled a little in the drunkenness, and vaguely gave birth to some other emotions, which made him distressed, and suddenly Xiao Liu lost his temper, because he was drunk after all.

"Master doesn't care about me anymore, why are you doing so many things?" After finishing speaking, he drank the wine in the glass in one gulp, and the plum fragrance spread out in his mouth, making him a little dazed.

Jun Yan was a little surprised, but quickly calmed down again, and took the cup in his hand.

"Go up the mountain, your second senior brother has left the customs, I have nothing to say if you don't welcome me, but other senior brothers, if you don't go, you can't justify it, spoiling you like this, you are simply lawless."

Xiao Liu's heart skipped a beat.

"Then don't spoil me, I didn't ask you, do you think you can still take care of me?" With a strong tone, with a bit of bitterness, "I can do everything by myself."

Jun Yan looked at him sullenly.

Yes, Xiao Liu doesn't need him to take care of him anymore, why does he still ask for trouble, put his hot face on his cold ass?

With a wave of his big hand, he knocked the flagon down to the ground, and the plum fragrance wafted out in the air, and the bursts of fragrance made Jun Yan a little dizzy.

The alcohol was so strong that he was a little surprised.

"Eldest brother, what are you doing!" Xiao Liu's originally dull eyes were all awake now, he said angrily, and his voice became a little louder.

Jun Yan pulled Xiao Liu up and walked out of the inn. When he passed the counter, he put a piece of silver on it. The waiter's eyes widened, and he hurriedly bowed and bowed to send the two of them out.

Xiao Liu let Jun Yan drag him along silently, he didn't know what Jun Yan was angry about.

His hand was held in the warm palm, and he unconsciously remembered the past, and felt a tight and slightly sore pain in his heart.

Jun Yan's footsteps were very fast. He was already a little drunk and couldn't keep up with his footsteps. If he hadn't been dragged by him like this, he might have fallen behind by a long time.

"Eldest brother, I'm very tired." When he was drunk, he subconsciously put on a self-willed posture, a little coquettish, he stood still and refused to move, tilted his head to look at Jun Yan, thought for a while and then spoke.

"Brother, can you hold me?"

Jun Yan turned around, and the one who met him happened to be looking at him, those wet eyes, the original anger also ran away for seven or eight minutes, turned around and hugged him sideways, Xiao Liu nestled in his arms , closed his eyes.

"Take a break if you're tired, okay?"

Xiao Liu didn't answer, and breathed evenly.

He carefully stared at Xiao Liu's face, from his long eyelashes, pretty straight nose, to his rosy lips, and then he discovered the difference in Xiao Liu.

Xiao Liu's fox ears and tail are exposed, which shows that Xiao Liu is very defenseless now.He stared at Xiao Liu's lips, lowered his head involuntarily, and kissed it lightly, the soft and sweet feeling almost made him lose his mind.

The setting sun was hanging on the top of the mountain, shining on Xiao Liu's face, giving him a hazy beauty.

The person in his arms was the one he really wanted to protect with his whole life, but Xiao Liu didn't understand.

When he returned to the Zhennan Pavilion, Xiao Yuan had already left the gate.

Bai Yun walked out of the hall and saw Jun Yan hugging Xiao Liu, thinking that something happened to Xiao Liu, but the juniors kept their mouths shut, not daring to criticize Jun Yan's behavior.

He carried Xiao Liu back to his room, and carefully covered him with the quilt before leaving.After the door closed, the person on the bed moved a bit, blinked his eyelashes lightly, and opened his eyes.

Xiao Liu didn't move, his eyes stared straight up.

The warmth that wrapped him around his body seemed to be still there, and the gentleness made him a little dizzy. He couldn't help but close his eyes and wanted to recollect how those strong shoulders hugged him, allowing him to act like a baby like before. , capricious.

The little fox on the side jumped on him. He stroked the fox gently, closed his eyes and fell asleep.

Early the next morning, he went to the training ground as usual, and today he practiced double whips.And no matter how drunk he was or how late he slept the day before, the next day he would get up to practice martial arts before dawn.Jun Yan always got up at dawn, so the two met again by chance.

Xiao Liu said good morning politely, and then said that he was going back to his room.Jun Yan remembered that he said the same thing the day before, but he went down the mountain to drink, and he felt a little unhappy.

"Are you going to drink again?" His tone was a little harsh.

Xiao Liu first glanced at him in astonishment, as if speechless, with a guilty conscience in his eyes.After a while, he slowly put away the double whips, shook his head, and then turned to leave.

"I asked you something, why didn't you answer?" Jun Yan's voice was full of anger.

Uncharacteristically, Xiao Liu stared back in displeasure, "Why do you care so much? You don't care about so many juniors, you have to care about me?"

Jun Yan was stunned for a moment, Xiao Liu looked at him, vaguely looking forward to it, maybe he was special, shouldn't all the tolerance and love be for him alone?

Jun Yan frowned, and said coldly, "What nonsense are you talking about!"

Xiao Liu's heart sank all of a sudden, he was a little awkward, and what he said was also rude, "I'm talking nonsense, can you control it?"

Jun Yan glared angrily, and swung his right hand towards Xiao Liu's face, only to hear "Pa!", his face was knocked to one side, and his hair scattered in front of his chest, he raised his hand to cover his face. Can't believe it.

Both of them stopped there, no one spoke, silent and embarrassed.

After a long time, Xiao Liu's voice trembled and tears filled his eyes, "Why did you hit me?"

Jun Yan grabbed his hand and was about to speak, but he swung it away, "Why do you?"

"Just because I am your senior brother!"

"What's wrong with senior brother? You can hit someone?"

"Don't be too arrogant, Xiao Liu."

Jun Yan's anger that had calmed down a little suddenly rose again, and he yelled, "Don't think that I spoiled you before, you can be so lawless now." He was so angry that he cursed: "It's different now than before. Now, don't think that I will take care of you unconditionally, what do you think of you, you have to have a certain degree of temper!"

Standing there, Xiao Liu felt as if he had been splashed with a bucket of cold water. He was cold from the beginning to the end, his heart was cold, and his fingertips trembled slightly.

"I am like this now, and it seems that it is not your turn to take care of me. Don't worry, I, Xiao Liu, will not get in your way, and treat me as a drag?"

He looked at him disheartened, and the deep hurt look flashed in his eyes, so fast that Jun Yan almost didn't catch it.And that's exactly what he wants, he just wants to make himself more mature and stronger, so that he doesn't have to be a burden to anyone, especially Jun Yan.

Indeed, the past is the past, and the present is the present. When he grows up, the two cannot be compared. He is not stupid, and he understands this.

It's just that the feeling of being pierced by Jun Yan in person is too painful.

Xiao Liu left coldly, Jun Yan was speechless in the original place, when he turned around, he saw Xu Caowu looking at him, obviously, he had seen what happened just now.

Xu Caowu was silent for a moment before speaking.

"You shouldn't hit Xiao Liu." He said calmly.

Jun Yan was a little surprised by his words, but his mind was confused now, and he didn't think much about the meaning.

"Why, you have changed your sex after two years of retreat, and you care so much about Xiaoliu." Seeing Xu Caowu caring so much about Xiaoliu, he felt a little uncomfortable in his heart.

Xu Caowu didn't care about his sarcasm, and continued to speak: "You know that Xiao Liu has a different physique, and martial arts requires twice as much physical and mental effort as others. Master has diagnosed Xiao Liu. Xiao Liu needs to drink to maintain his internal strength."

Jun Yan was taken aback when he heard that, not knowing what the third junior brother was talking about.

"What do you mean by that?" he asked seriously.

"Xiao Liu didn't drink alcohol at his own will. Only the right amount of alcohol can maintain his internal strength. Why do you say that to him? It's too much." There was a bit of reproach in his tone, but at most he ordered it up to the point. He still didn't dare to disobey Junyan.

"I'm going too far? Do you dare to say that Xiao Liu is not willing to get drunk like this?" He sneered, "If you want wine, you are afraid that there is no one in the restaurant, so you have to run down the mountain? Don't be too protective He, why did you all turn against me when I was absent for two years?"

Xu Caowu didn't dare to speak anymore.

The shop waiter saw Xiao Liu, took him to the second floor and gave him a pot of plum wine.Xiao Liu's cheeks were still burning with pain, his heart was surging, but he didn't show it, that slap was merciless, and the wind blade swung from the palm of his hand made him feel pain, let alone hitting his face superior.

Xu Caowu didn't lie, he did need wine to maintain his internal strength, but that was only a glass of wine a day, and it didn't have much effect on his body.

As the yearning deepened, wine inevitably became his only consolation, as if in a dream, Jun Yan's tenderness and embrace belonged only to him.

He no longer wants to be just a junior.

Wanting to have more, when a vague emotion appeared vaguely, he couldn't see clearly what kind of emotion it was.

Niu Er couldn't help being a little surprised when he saw Xiao Liu, he wanted to go up and talk to Xiao Liu, because Xiao Liu tortured his stomach with that drinking method.Niu Er is enthusiastic at first, but he is a bit nosy. When he sees someone else's cow fall, he will help to cry for pain, not to mention his townspeople, so it is unreasonable to leave him alone.

"Why are you drinking like this again?"

Niu Eryi asked this at the beginning, Xiao Liu looked at him, a little hesitant to answer, but Niu Er had already sat beside him.

"What's the matter?" He was polite, but there was a plum fragrance in his words.Niu Er was a little dizzy when he heard this, so he knew that the plum wine was really strong.

"I'm serious, little brother, drinking like this is not good for your health, you can tell me what's on your mind, but drinking like this will..."

"Well, I know." Xiao Liu said a little sullenly.

Seeing his persistence, Niu Er sighed, "I can help you if you have any difficulties, but if you drink like this every three days, no matter how young you are, your body will be ruined by you."

Xiao Liu had never seen such an enthusiastic person, and seeing him so sincere, he couldn't say anything to refute, but he couldn't stop this self-abuse of drinking.

Because only in this way, he can temporarily forget that he is a person who cannot rely on Jun Yan.

"I'm a little troubled, but I don't want help." He said lightly.

"You tell me, maybe I can help..."

Xiao Liu looked at Niu Er's face, and couldn't speak for a while. He drank too much wine, and his mind began to be a little blurred. He propped his head on his hands and thought for a long time.

"I was slapped this morning. The man said that I was playing with my temper and that I was lawless. I was very angry. It can be seen that he is not upset, but seeing him is also upset."

Niu Er observed his face, and sure enough, some redness and swelling did not disappear.

"This...you may hate her." Why is this little brother's question so strange?

"I don't hate him, I don't hate him at all. He slapped me this morning, and I don't hate him, I'm just angry." Holding his glass, he took another sip.

"Why did she hit you?"

"Because I went out to drink without telling him."

"You really don't hate her?" Niu Er had some clues.

Xiao Liu shook his head, there was no way he would hate Eldest Brother, Elder Brother cared so much about him, but what he said this morning also made him sober up a bit, and he still had expectations, thinking that he could be self-willed, he was too stupid .

"You...maybe fell in love with her... right..." Niu Er wanted to laugh inexplicably.

Xiao Liu suddenly woke up as if struck by lightning, and shook his head abruptly.

"Who said I fell in love with him? He..." He is a man, and he is also his elder brother.

Xiao Liu suddenly shut his mouth and did not speak.

He remembered the way the second senior brother and the fourth senior brother kissed two years ago, men and men cannot love each other, but yesterday the second senior brother looked at the fourth senior brother so deeply, it made his heart throb.

Seeing his dazed look, Niu Er said helplessly, "I think you are really in love with her girl, go and tell her clearly, otherwise it will be too late if you miss it."

"He's not..." But the elder brother is a manly man, he is not at all... unlike a girl...

Xiao Liu was thinking wildly, and that hazy feeling seemed to be becoming more and more obvious. After he figured it out, he stood there in shock, with mixed feelings in his heart.

He cared about his elder brother very much, but he never thought that he would fall in love with him.He is a man, and the senior brother is also a man. He just has such feelings for Jun Yan. The senior brother may not have such feelings, and he must only be treated as a junior.

As a result, the budding feelings were forced back by him again, and his heart became more depressed, and he laughed a little self-deprecatingly.

Falling in love with a senior brother should be forgotten early.