Duckling Notes

Xing Zhaohe sighed after a long time, "If you want to give it away, you can give it away." He hung up the phone.

I don't even know what this guy is thinking.

My father and my future stepmother get along very well.It's not because my dad has no principles, but that Aunt Jiang is really attractive.Very gentle, very virtuous.Recently, it has infiltrated into our house a lot.They all knit a sweater and a fur vest for me.Coupled with my encouragement, my dad also yearned for a family very much.

My dad actually told Aunt Jiang about my affairs.She was very surprised at first, but later she didn't see me as a monster.On the contrary, I think my father is very reliable...

I feel more and more that I'm too lazy.

I think after the Taekwondo class is over, I will find a far away place to live in the third year of high school.

However, before that, my dad told me, "Pingping, I plan to take you back to my hometown with Aunt Jiang."

Indeed, I have to go back to my hometown for this matter. Although my grandparents are gone, my aunt, my grandfather's younger brother, my second master and my second grandmother have treated me very well these past few years.

Although his hometown knew that he was not dead, he hadn't gone back to show his face.Before getting married this time, I must go home and have a look.

However, I really don't want to go back.

I miss my aunt, but I have no feelings for my uncle, but it is very complicated for my brother.

I don't want to go back anyway.

My dad thought I was having a temper tantrum, but before we left, he got annoyed when he saw that I hadn't packed a single piece of luggage.

"Your aunt raised you up so much, even if your uncle suffered such a little bit of grievance for you, you will never go back for the rest of your life?!"

I knew that it would be unreasonable for me not to go back, so I put on two clothes unhappily, and got into the car behind them.

Before getting in the car, I looked around, Lin Si, Lin Si, how I wish you would show up at this time and tie me up.I would rather be tied up by you than see peace.

However, my prayers were not heard.

The train station was crowded with people as usual, just like when I first came here, my dad took Aunt Jiang's hand, and I followed them with my suitcase, listless.

When checking the tickets, I really wanted to take advantage of the crowd and slip away, but just as I had an idea, Aunt Jiang turned around and grabbed my arm, "There are so many people, don't get separated. Your dad has all the tickets."

It will be there in a few hours.

I got out of the car with my luggage and still followed them.But my heart is a little sour. I have been looking forward to my dad scoring twice, but he really has Aunt Jiang, but I hesitate.Aunt Jiang is still young, and she probably would like to have a child. Soon, they will be a family of three, and I will become the extra one.Although my dad and Aunt Jiang have good personalities and will take care of me in the future, it is definitely not the same as now. My dad revolves around me as the center.

Ugh.

My aunt was the only one who came to pick us up at the station.She stood alone at the exit.Compared with two years ago, it seems that there is no change, but when I get closer, I realize that she has put on makeup, but the wrinkles at the corners of her eyes are still visible.In the past two years, I was not at home, my brother went to college, and my uncle must still be away. She stayed at home alone, and I don't know how lonely she is.

When she saw my eye circles became red, she took my hand and refused to let go.

"Your uncle is on a business trip, and your brother is still in college in other places, so he doesn't have a holiday. So I'm the only one here," she said.

I nodded and said, "Mom, I'm sorry."

She started crying again.After hugging me enough, I went to hold my dad and Aunt Jiang's hands, muttering, just come back.

We went straight to our hometown.Met the second master and second grandmother, and went to the old cemetery to offer incense.

The second grandma kept holding my hand, sighing, "This child is really nice, how tall he is, and how white he is." The rough hand rubbed my hand a little sore.

Everyone was smiling, and no one dared to ask me why I ran out of the house.Probably in their eyes, I am still an emotionally unstable child, I am afraid that if I touch a nerve, I will run away again.

I suddenly felt that with so many elders around, I suddenly became a child again.Of course, I also received a lot of red envelopes along the way.They said that it was to make up for the New Year's money for the past two years.Although I know that the biggest face value here is only ten yuan.But my heart just felt sore and flustered.Also saw the family tree.I am ranked among the sixteenth grandchildren.They told me, which uncle is now the director of the county seat, and which clan brother has studied at Tsinghua University... Now that your father is back, our family has another director.Lao An's ancestral grave has been smoking all these years.

This feeling is called "returning to the root".

Then, the old people started asking when my dad and Aunt Jiang were going to get married.The second master has already started to make a fuss, adding "Jiang's family", the daughter-in-law of the fifteenth generation, to the genealogy.

My dad smiled silly, went back to see Aunt Jiang's parents, and settled down.

I lived in my hometown for a week, of course at my aunt's house.My uncle never came back, but I secretly heard that when my father and aunt were chatting in the room, they lowered their voices and said that she told my uncle to stay in the company for two days and not come back, lest I feel uncomfortable seeing him.

In fact, I don't have any feelings for my uncle, the big deal is that the two of us pretended not to see each other.But I'm glad I didn't see my brother safe and sound.

But my aunt thought that our brothers had a good relationship, and she said a lot about Ping An, why many girls chased after Ping An in college, even she found a love letter from Ping An's coat pocket, and became the vice minister of the sports department, It's just that the grades are not good, and I will fail every time.

My aunt also took out a box of gadgets, such as game cassettes, boxing gloves, CDs, game peripherals, wristbands, etc., "Pingping, this is what your brother saved for you in the past two years. He said you must like it."

I really want to say that I don't play these things anymore, but I still accept them.

Before the age of 17, these things are meaningful, but after that, they are gone.

"Pingping, I gave your brother your phone number. In a few days, after their sports meeting is over, I will call you."

I nodded and sneered in my heart, does he still have the mind to call me?

I lived in the house where Ping An and I lived, and my bed was still the same, with sea-blue sheets, miscellaneous posters beside the bed, and photos of Ping An and me.

In the past few nights, I haven't slept well, my head is in a mess, and I dream every day.

I dreamed that Ping An kissed me, and I said, isn’t it only men and women who kiss each other?

Ping An shook his head, he could kiss anyone he liked.

I vaguely felt something was wrong, and I said I was going to ask my mother.

Don't go, don't go, he said, I'll buy you a basketball tomorrow, the Burstyn basketball you want.

I have wanted that basketball for a long time, and I asked my uncle for it. He seems to go in one ear and out the other.So I nodded and let him kiss me.

That afternoon, there was no one at home, I was lying on the bed, he pressed on me, panting.

I said it hurts, but he said let me bear it and it will be fine soon.

I thought he was perfunctory, but I still endured it.For the next two days, my walking posture was in the figure of eight.However, he promised to take me to the newly opened playground in Linshi on weekends.

At that time, Ping An was crazy, and so was I.

He frantically spent his adolescent enthusiasm on me, and I frantically searched for a little bit of exclusive love on him, only for me.

How can you not know that is wrong?

Every time my uncle was not at home and my aunt was out, we would be entangled on the bed, as if we were going to form a whole, you couldn't leave me, and I couldn't leave you either.On the bed of this aqua-blue sheet, or his bed.

But it turns out that no one can live without leaving.

He has a girlfriend.Well, very beautiful, very gentle, very introverted.

For me it was like a bolt from the blue.

But he said to me very seriously, Pingping, we are all men, it's just for fun, don't take it seriously.Of course, don't tell your parents, they won't be able to bear it.If you want something, I'll buy it for you, okay?

I think I must have been so stupid back then.People think I'm just a plaything, but I treat him as the only one, and I have to hang myself on the crooked neck tree.

I thought he bought me something to express his love for me.However, that was just a hush money.

What's even more disgusting is that at night, when my aunt and uncle snore, he will touch my bed, bite my ear, and say it's flat, let's do it.

I kicked him away, get out!Do it with your girlfriend!

Woke up my uncle, across the wall, he asked, what are you brothers doing?

Ping An said, talking in sleep.

No more sound.

However, one afternoon a few days later, there was no one at home, and Ping An threw himself on me again.I kicked and couldn't kick him away, and I ignored him when I scolded him.When both of us were disheveled, my uncle opened our door.

He must have been suspicious a long time ago.There was no sound even when the door was opened.He even picked this moment when he shouldn't be at home at all.

When he came up, he slapped Ping An on the face, but only gouged out my eyes.

On my birthday the next day, only my aunt, who didn't know, celebrated with me.Uncle is of course busy again.Ping An went to reunite with classmates.My aunt said that my uncle wanted me to transfer to a boarding school.

That night, I secretly packed my luggage and ran away.

There was no place for me to stand in this home.

……

Both my uncle and Pingan knew why I left home, but my aunt was kept in the dark. In her eyes, I was still the obedient, innocent child who loved to act like a baby.When I left home, I accidentally walked on an evil path.But as long as you come back, you can still go back to the right path.

I even discussed with my dad to let Pingping come back to high school.She is about to retire and has nothing to do, so she can take care of me.

My dad felt ashamed and was willing to take care of me.

I'm glad he declined.Otherwise, how would I face Ping An, how would I face my uncle?

It's just that I think Aunt Jiang would like me to stay, but she's too embarrassed to express her opinion.

So, I found her disgusting again.

But what was wrong with her?

I've been depressed ever since I got back.Even dark circles came out.My dad saw it, but no matter how I asked me, I refused to say.

He must be wondering.I just ran away from home because I thought it was an illegitimate child. Now that it is proven not, why am I still so unhappy when I come back?

And I was stuffy in my heart, and I felt out of breath every day.

I survived a week.I was very depressed.

On the last day, I finally found a place to vent my anger, the treasures of Ping An, his stamp collection, and many original comics.I found them all and drew them one by one with a signature pen. The more messy the painting was, the more ruined it was, the happier I felt.

The author has something to say: By the way, don’t be forced to change the name from this article, after deleting the river crab part, I have no love...

So I am very sorry for the students who are at the bottom of the pit.I'll try to finish it as soon as possible.

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