rekindled love

In the cold winter, as long as it is after five o'clock in the afternoon, the sky will quickly darken, and just after seven o'clock, the whole sky will be shrouded in darkness.

As Eizuka said, a few days later, when he was off work, when Hengshan looked at his home from a distance, he found that there was no previous light in the house, and he did not see the tall figure when he returned home. The leather shoes that should have been placed neatly disappeared, and when I opened the closet, all the clothes of the man were gone.

Sure enough, it has moved away!In that case, whether it's the man's bondage or my own confusion, everything can end forever!

As usual, after Hengshan hung the coat he had taken off on the hanger, he suddenly felt his throat was dry and thirsty, so he went to the kitchen to pour water for a drink, only to find out that the cup was the one used by Eizuka.The first thought that flashed was: that man will get angry!

Hengshan suddenly burst into laughter, laughing because he cared too much about that man, when will he be able to get rid of this mentality?

"Pa-ta!" The water glass was broken into countless pieces by him with a flick of his hand.

Lying on the bed, I just listened to the ticking of the alarm clock. I finally fell asleep after tossing and turning for a long time, but I opened my eyes immediately when I heard the flapping sound of the wind-rolling window.

The door leading from the room to the balcony didn't seem to be closed tightly. He got out of bed, probably because of his own hypothermia, and he didn't feel much cold even if he stepped on the floor with bare feet.

He has the physique of a reptile, and he can't feel it in summer. In winter, even if he sleeps with more quilts, his hands and feet are cold. He has been sharing the bed with Yingzuka before, and his warm body will continue to transmit temperature to him. Myself, so I have forgotten about this matter.

When I walked to the balcony, I could see the dark night sky. On the national road not far away, even in such a late night, there were still cars constantly coming and going.The night wind felt even colder, Hengshan folded his arms, curled up and sat down in the corner.

"Hikoichi..." whispered the person's name.Thinking that that person is going to get married, my heart hurts so much that I can hardly breathe. It seems a little too late to realize my mood until now.

Although the mood is low, the work is still going on. Because of the holding of the exhibition and missing the man, Hengshan has hardly slept in the past few nights. He felt sleepy not long after the lunch break, but as the head of the department, he fell asleep during working hours , that's too outrageous.Therefore, Hengshan decided to go to the tea room to make a cup of coffee to refresh himself.

When passing by the door of the second class, I inadvertently looked inside, and the seat was still empty, and it had been several days.

Yokoyama couldn't help but pay attention to such a discussion in the office, "Senior Hidezuka hasn't come to the company for a long time!"

"I'm on leave!" Another female employee replied, "I heard that there is something to deal with."

He really went back to get married!Yokoyama stopped because of this topic.

"Section Chief Yokoyama is also listless. I wonder if it has something to do with Senior Hidetsuka's absence." Probably his mood got worse when he talked about this matter, and he even lowered his voice.

"That's why I said it! The section chief will be defeated by Eizuka-senpai, so get ready for a treat!"

The female staff who still wanted to continue the discussion were so surprised when they saw Hengshan at the door that they immediately fell silent and scattered like birds and beasts.

"Mr. Hengshan, judging from the situation you described, it should be a mild paranoia. Although this can be controlled with drugs, the main thing is to untie the knot in your heart." Dr. Hehe looked away from the computer screen , looked at Yokoyama and said.

After running away several times, Hengshan still decided to sit in front of the doctor.But listening to the other party's words, he was constantly resisting in his heart.

"Many people think that seeing a psychiatrist is shameful, but this is the same as a person's body will get sick. If you leave it alone, a minor illness will drag into a serious illness. Facing your illness bravely is the correct solution. Perhaps seeing his resistance, Dr. He He smiled and said some comforting words.

"To put it simply, this disease is caused by internal factors such as sensitivity, suspicion, and strong self-esteem, and external factors are increased work and life pressure, which is the result of the interaction between the two.

"Your crux is that you are suspicious and don't trust others. Since you are in love and you are already living together, why do you think your girlfriend doesn't love you? Ordinary people can't live with someone they don't love!"

Because he was afraid of being viewed in a strange light, Hengshan still concealed part of the truth when he told the story.

"But, I can't do what he wants!"

"So you feel that there is a gap between you and her, and then you take it for granted that her feelings for you are not sincere, right?"

Yokoyama, who was caught by the words, lowered his head and let out a "hmm".

"Mr. Yokoyama, try to believe in one thing more! The world is not just made of gray, there are more brilliant colors, and face it with an attitude of letting nature take its course!"

At around ten o'clock in the evening, cheerful laughter came from the TV in the living room, and a variety show without nutrition was broadcast. Hengshan, who was boringly switching channels after taking a bath, immediately switched channels.

Things that were originally simple became complicated because I was too suspicious. Eizuka also said that he likes him!She even suspected that he was just playing with herself, suspected that he approached her for revenge, and even suspected that he was going to kill herself.

What a fool!

Hengshan, who was immersed in his own thoughts, let the TV screen change continuously, his fingers holding the remote control did not stop, his eyes just stared at the screen, in fact, he didn't see anything at all.

"Now break in a piece of news! The murderer of the serial murder case, which caused panic, was finally arrested by the police. At that time, the murderer seemed to be still looking for his next target. When he was arrested, he didn't care. When the police asked him why he wanted to When he killed these people, he said it was a random killing, he just committed the crime out of boredom."

Looking at the TV screen, the man who was handcuffed by the police and escorted into the police car had a fierce look on his face, and his body was full of flesh. When he got into the police car, the car was still leaning over.There is no similarity with Yingzuka at all. It is ridiculous that he blindly thinks that Yingzuka is a murderer!

But what is broadcast now is not important to me anymore!

Hengshan lowered his shoulders and buried his whole body in the sofa weakly.

It's already the fifth day, the wedding ceremony should be over too!I don't know if the wedding held by Eizuka is a Japanese style or a Western style, but the lovely bride in white clothes standing next to the handsome man, it should be quite a beautiful picture!

"Chairman!"

Hengshan came back to his senses because of the sudden cry, "What's the matter?"

"Qin?" Zetian looked surprised, and pointed to the document on his desk, "Here, section chief! You only signed half of this document, and it will be handed over to the financial department in the afternoon."

It was only then that he realized that he was distracted at work, and Hengshan was secretly annoyed at his lazy work attitude, so he quickly signed the document and handed it out on the spot.

As if he had done something wrong, Zetian took the document in a panic, turned around and left with his neck shrunk.

When it was lunch time, all the people in the office went out to eat one after another. Yokoyama who went out finally closed the door, turned around and saw the back of Hidetsuka who was walking into the office of the second class.

After yelling "Ah", he immediately stepped in and followed.

"Well, because I haven't met you, I haven't had the chance to tell you that the marketing plan went very well, thank you." He carefully chose his words, and bent slightly.

Lifting up, he met Yingzuka's eyes, looking at the things in his hands, as if he was sorting out something.

"I got your patronage when I first came to work. When did you care about me so much?" Hidetsuka put down the materials he was sorting out and narrowed his eyes.

I also know that it is unnatural to come to him directly like this, but when I think that I must say what I have been thinking about for so many days, Hengshan can't care so much.

"You didn't pick this time to come to me because you want to talk about this matter!" Hidetsuka said lightly.

One hit!

Of course he didn't mean to talk about these boring things, but when he was about to say it, he still felt that the words were stuck in his throat, and he couldn't get it out, even though he had thought about it for so long, even if he had stood in front of the man , still worried that if he said it, he would step on the opponent's mine, Hengshan turned his head to one side with his thoughts churning.

With a "hmm" sound from his nose, Hidezuka stared at Yokoyama with his jaw propped up, as if waiting for him to continue.

"Please date me!" The words finally came out.

The air in the whole office suddenly became still, and Hengshan felt that he could hear the beating sound of his heart.

"If you say such things now, I will feel very troubled!" Eizuka leaned his body back on the chair back, and showed a very embarrassed expression on his face to match the words in his mouth, "I'm already married. Wouldn’t it be too unfair to my wife if I agreed to your request?”

What the man said before, the man returned to himself now, the deliberate sarcasm pierced Hengshan's heart like a needle, and even his whole body ached.

"As you can see, I'm very busy right now, so I don't have time to answer your questions." Eizuka spread his hand, pointing to a large pile of documents and materials on the table, "It will be sorted out within today! The minister said People who will never let people drag it until tomorrow." He deliberately used the accent on the word today, and sighed heavily to express his helplessness.

"I'll wait for you! But no matter what, please date me." After solemnly begging again, Yokoyama left the office of the second section.

Judging from the man's tone, it seems that he has lost interest in him.Originally liking this kind of relationship is not forever, and the consequences are all caused by himself. While he keeps rejecting the man, he has also polished the other party's feelings for him!Is it too late to redeem now?

In the following time, Hengshan had constant setbacks at work. It can be said that it was the worst day since he came to the branch office. In the end, he still asked the minister for leave and left early.

"You have worked hard these few days! The marketing exhibition is doing very well! Then, go home early and have a good rest! Let's work hard tomorrow."

The minister, who didn't know the reason, thought it was because he was too tired from work. The two met in front of the station in the morning, knowing that his boss didn't drive to work today, and at the end he kindly said that he could drive the company car home.

Speaking of such words, he probably thinks that Hengshan is too devoted to his work.But regarding the minister's kindness, he thought in his heart that he was not qualified to accept the leave because of personal feelings, so Hengshan finally refused.

When taking the tram home, he was alone in the entire carriage, and there was no other sound in the empty carriage except for the rattling of the tram.Sitting on the rickety car, Hengshan's thoughts also became blurred.

I don't know why, but every time I thought about getting rid of Yingzuka's shackles, I always felt that he would definitely come after him, because he would never give up his toy easily.But this time it was completely different, as if he could already predict that the chance of a man going on a date was zero, so what was the point of him asking Yingzuka to date him?So far, it can only be said that all of this is self-inflicted.

After dusk, when he heard the knock on the door of his room, Hengshan felt that the blood in his whole body was about to freeze.Hidetsuka came to the appointment?He staggered to the door in disbelief.

"You're here at last." The strange face let out a sigh of relief as if to finish something, "Mr. Yokoyama, right?"

After Hengshan nodded to indicate that he was right, the man took out a letter from his backpack.

"This is your registration number, please stamp it here."

Heng Shan obeyed and brought his own seal from the room.

After completing all the procedures, Mr. Postman showed a relieved smile

"I've been here several times and you're not at home, so it's okay now."

After opening the thick envelope, I realized that it was the overseas work visa he had applied for, and it was something he had applied for to avoid men. How should he deal with it now?After sitting on the sofa for a while, Hengshan stood up and threw the things directly into the trash can.

Looking up at the wall clock hanging on the wall, it was already seven o'clock.It's time to go home from get off work!Although he knew Eizuka's cell phone number, he was not sure if he still used that number, so Yokoyama simply opened the company's address book to look it up, and then dialed that number.

"The number you dialed did not answer. Please try again later."

Pressing the cut-off button, Hengshan buried himself in the sofa.

In this relationship, he has always been the passive one, convincing himself that the man does not love him, and then fleeing. In fact, he is timid and dare not face it. In addition to the personality problems that plague him, there are also social judgments. look.

But what's wrong with liking someone?Why did he reject his feelings because of the eyes of the outside world?Is there anything wrong with loving someone intensely from now on even if you missed it before?Finally figured it out, vented all the emotions that had been suppressed before, and suddenly felt that his heart was not so silted up, Hengshan finally saw clearly the only way in front of him.

Pressing the replay button again, the annoying electronic sound finally turned into a long beeping sound.The phone was connected after a dozen rings.

"Excuse me!" Yokoyama first apologized for the interruption.

"Oh. It's you!" A man's faint voice came from the other end of the phone.

"For a date, when do you have time?"

"Well, I'm sorry, I'm in Tokyo right now."

"Huh? Why suddenly..." When he heard that the man was no longer in his area, Hengshan was so surprised that even his voice trembled.

"I was packing things in the afternoon, and now I've been transferred back to the head office. I'll leave it to you at the branch office."

"Why..." Seemingly hearing Hidetsuka's mocking voice, Yokoyama closed his mouth, and fell heavily onto the sofa as if he had been crushed.

At this time, the other end of the phone has also hung up the call, leaving only the beeping sound.

After pressing the cut-off button, Eizuka threw the phone on the low table, buried his body in the soft sofa, and curved his mouth upwards in a nice arc.

From small to large.He is especially favored by God, no matter what he does, he is able to hand in quite impressive results, and because of this, he is used to the admiration of others, but his life is too smooth, which makes him feel very boring.It was at this time that he met Hengshan.

As soon as we met, I felt that the other party was very right to my stomach. Although that handsome face was a little nervous, but his drive to step into the society still attracted my attention. I find it even more interesting, knowing that this serious junior cares about me very much, I can't help but want to bully him.

He still clearly remembers the surprised expression of the other party when he half-seriously and half-jokingly proposed dating.

Although this relationship started under his strong leadership, he never doubted that person's feelings for him, the obsession in his eyes was too obvious.

Therefore, a year ago, without the knowledge of himself as a lover, Hengshan left like this, and even changed his work place, residence and mobile phone number, which made him not only surprised, but also a little injured.

Maybe it was true as he said, he asked to be transferred to the branch because he wanted revenge, but it was definitely not the attitude of wanting to kill him as his lover thought.Although Hengshan has an awkward personality and likes to be suspicious, but when he really wants to give up and is indifferent to him, he will go after him in reverse, which is really interesting.

He still wants to enjoy this feeling of being chased emotionally, wondering what that person will do next?

Just thinking about it made me look forward to it, and Eizuka couldn't help laughing.

He kept ringing the doorbell, but no one came out to answer the door.

Hengshan rushed to Tokyo overnight and came to the residence of Yingzuka in his memory.What if no one is there?He ran here without even thinking about these, and now faced with the situation of no one answering the door, Hengshan couldn't help feeling that he was really irrational, and would definitely be called brainless by men, but it was too late to regret it now.

He continued to knock on the door, and finally, the door was opened, and the man's face appeared behind the door. The moment he saw him, his expression was obviously startled, and then sank.

"Why are you here?"

"Sorry to bother you so late." Hengshan bowed deeply to apologize, his trembling voice revealed his nervousness.

"That's not the problem! It's been a year, haven't you ever thought that I would move? Just like you, I moved away without a sound." Hidetsuka did not forget to add one last sentence.

When he heard the last sentence, Yokoyama clearly showed a painful expression, but Eizuka continued as if he didn't see it, "You are so troublesome! I told you that I was very troubled."

There was no rebuttal, in fact he didn't know how to refute, Hengshan just stood there motionless.

Looking at his stiff face for a while, Eizuka sighed heavily, "Come in!"

"what?"

Looking up in disbelief, Hengshan's eyes were full of doubts.He could hear the obvious unhappiness from the other party's words. He thought he would be driven back just like that, but he didn't expect to hear the answer that he could enter the house. It would be a lie to say that it was not a surprise.

"What? You can't even enter the door? Do you want me to carry you in? If you don't come in, I will close the door!"

Under continuous urging, Hengshan slipped sideways into the room just as the door was about to close.

When he took off his shoes in the entrance, he found a pair of women's shoes neatly placed on the shoe rack on the right, and Hengshan felt his heart constrict.

Looking around, he didn't find a woman.I was still wondering if she was in the bathroom or the bedroom, but if someone came to visit, even if it wasn't my guest, as a wife, she should at least show her face, right?But until now, no one came out to say hello.This shows that the woman is either impolite or not at home. Looking at the dining room, she finds that there are only tableware and food for one person on the table, which fully shows that only the man is at home.

But Yokoyama couldn't help but ask for confirmation, "What about her?"

"Who?" Hidetsuka asked back.

"Your wife!"

Hengshan felt that his current furtive situation was like a mistress who seduced someone else's husband, and came to have a tryst with his wife while his wife was not at home.Except for the enthusiasm on his own side, the man was uncharacteristically indifferent.

When asked this suddenly, Hidetsuka's face flashed unnaturally, "Going back to my mother's house."

Hengshan let out an "Oh" without any fluctuations on his face. God knows how much his heart ached when he heard his words.

They have already become a family, as a woman, they can marry him, and then enter Yingzuo's household registration, but as a man, if he wants to enter his household registration, he has no other choice but to become an adoptive father and son with him.Even though he has untied his heart knot, but for Yingzuka, in the end, he still thinks that only women can do it!

"Is coffee okay?"

When speaking, the man was already standing by the coffee machine in the open kitchen, and his attitude was as strong as ever.

"Huh? Hmm."

The steaming coffee was served in front of him, Hengshan thought he would sit opposite him.However, Eizuka sat back at the dining table without notifying him, and ate the half-eaten dinner just now.

Losing the opportunity to speak, Hengshan had no choice but to sit there quietly and wait. There was no room for dialogue. For Hengshan, there was an indescribable horror. The atmosphere where only the sound of chewing food was heard suppressed him to even speak. Can't tell.

"I usually eat late." The man suddenly said, after thinking for a while, he asked again, "You should have eaten dinner, right?"

"The lovely wife who has to wait for you to eat together will suffer." In fact, he didn't come to discuss his wife with this man, but he just couldn't control his mouth, and suddenly said such words.

Hearing his jealous words, Eizuka just smiled ambiguously.

When Eizuka finished his dinner and the sound of running water came from the kitchen counter, Hengshan became more and more nervous, and then he heard footsteps getting closer, and when the sofa on the opposite side made a creaking sound, he knew that the other party was already on the other side sofa seat.

Hengshan deliberately didn't look up at him, but he had already found him, and he kept hiding his feelings like before, and if he didn't say what he wanted to say, he might regret it.He lowered his head in an inner battle, looking at his white fingers.

And Yingzuka, who sat down, just glanced at him, and then didn't move.

Looking straight at it, Hengshan lowered his head at this time, his face lost the ferocity that he had been denying himself before, instead he looked like an unnoticed little reptile hiding in a corner of the aquarium, occasionally looking at him with erratic eyes.

"Follow me to watch the sunrise!"

"If you ask someone else to do something, you should put the word please in front of it!"

Responding to the other party's request in a mocking manner, Eizuka noticed that the person opposite him fell silent and did not raise his head for a long time. He was thinking about something superfluous again. Maybe it was because he was fighting in his heart. It can be seen that the pair Her narrow shoulders trembled slightly.

"Would you... come watch the sunrise with me?"

After finally mustering up the courage to speak out, Yokoyama raised his head again, in Hidetsuka's eyes, there was an indescribable sexiness in his begging begging eyes full of fatal charm, so he agreed.

Before departure, Hidetsuka said that he was too tired to drive, so this trip to watch the sunrise was driven by Hengshan, and he sat in the passenger seat and closed his eyes to rest.

When he opened his eyes again, he found that the surroundings were pitch black, and the sound of the engine had been extinguished. Yingzuka didn't know what was going on for a while, but only after hearing the sound of waves hitting the embankment did he confirm that they were at the seaside.

After his eyes got used to the darkness and he was able to see the outline of objects clearly, he turned his head and saw Hengshan sitting quietly in the driver's seat, his eyes were looking straight ahead, and he didn't know what he was looking at, because in his opinion, There is only endless darkness ahead.

"Aren't you going down?"

After a long period of silence, Hidetsuka's voice was quite clear.

Yokoyama turned his head and replied, "It's too cold outside."

In the darkness, the man laughed uncontrollably.

"You man," took out a cigarette, and Hidetsuka took a deep breath after lighting one, "It's really incomprehensible, what are you thinking?"

yes!It was he who said he wanted to watch the sunrise, but when he arrived at the scene, he just sat in the car and did nothing. No wonder the other party thought so.But Hengshan couldn't say it. The reason why he changed his mind was because he felt that in this small space, he could at least sense the existence of the man, but after going out, in the darkness where he couldn't see anything, he didn't have the confidence to Find the location of Yingzuka.

"It's so cold outside, so tired..."

He slowly leaned his head on the man's strong shoulders, at first he was worried that the other party would push him away, but he just silently acquiesced to his behavior.

"I'm a married person, and it's an absolute betrayal of my wife to cooperate with you on a date like this."

Because of the close proximity and the influence of his state of mind, the man's speech, which seemed to remind him intentionally, clearly hit Hengshan's heart, and it was so piercing that it made him feel pain like a thousand arrows piercing through his heart.

Eizuka slowly pushed him away, opened the car door and walked out.

The sea breeze rushed in, and Hengshan shivered suddenly.I thought he would go back just like this, because he knew very well that for a married man, his existence was just a trouble.

But Hidetsuka walked around the left side of the car, stopped at the front of the car, leaned his body against the car body, and lit a cigarette flickering in his mouth.

"Aren't you coming out?" Hidetsuka suddenly turned his head and said to Hengshan who was still in the car, "Although it's a bit cold outside, the air is very good!"

Not long after he finished speaking, there was the sound of the door being opened, and Hengshan walked up to him and stood still without a sound.

"Actually, I don't care..."

Not understanding the meaning of what Yokoyama said suddenly, Hidezuka stared at the other party's sad eyes with wide eyes.

"For me..." Hengshan continued to whisper, "It doesn't matter whether you get married or not, as long as you can accompany me for a while like this from time to time."

Eizuka was taken aback by the other party's unexpected declaration.

"Although... I wanted to say it before..." In just a few words, the lips that spoke the words were already trembling violently.

"Bluestone..." Hidetsuka frowned in confusion.

The trembling person in front of him seemed to be about to fall, Yingzuka immediately reached out to grab him, and the icy temperature that came from the moment he touched his body was surprising.

Hengshan put his fingers to his lips, and after biting like biting, he managed to stop the trembling.

"It's all my fault..." He covered his mouth as if he was trying to hold back the hot flow from the depths of his throat, "I... I shouldn't doubt you without grounds..."

"I can say I'm sorry as many times as you want...I'm sorry...I'm sorry..." His eyes were already moist, as if he couldn't hold back any longer, Yokoyama kept repeating these words like a dream, and buried his head on Eizuka's knee .

Seeing his almost mournful cry and trembling appearance, Eizuka wrapped his arms around his body and hugged him.

"Even if you want me to be an underground lover, please love me..."

This person with higher self-esteem than anything else, probably made a determination greater than suicide to be able to say these words!Embracing the frail body in front of him, Hidezuka kept kissing Yokoyama's cold forehead.

Covering his face with his hands in his embrace, Hengshan curled up his body, unable to bear the torment of self-blame.