phantom hand

Ling Fei didn't show up again for a few days, Brother Chuang's stomach has remained healthy for a long time, so healthy that Brother Chuang misses the soreness a little bit.I just miss the soreness, not Ling Fei.However, he did regret that he didn't call immediately the next day. If the timing was delayed, he would feel embarrassed if he wanted to call again, so he never figured out what happened that night, and whether Ling Fei was properly arranged.

People who have not left school will unconsciously regard themselves as children, and Li Chuang is the same, so he feels that the adult world is too complicated, and the gay world in the adult world is even more tangled and confusing.He didn't want to participate, but he seemed to walk in without knowing it.

During the days when Ling Fei disappeared, Han Mukun called every other day, and there was nothing important about it. He just asked about the current situation, asked about the weather, and then talked about what he had seen in Southeast Asia.Li Chuang was always very nervous at first, but after calling 10086 to make sure that the one-way charges also included international long-distance calls, he calmed down.

Han Mukun didn't mention Ling Fei's matter, and Li Chuang didn't take it seriously at all, so he didn't feel any abnormality at all, but Han Mukun was much gentler than before, and the great concern of asking about his coldness and warmth made Li Chuang eager to think about it several times. I can't find a reason to pinch someone, which is called a depression.But the general mood is still good, at least there is someone who can talk from time to time.

Ling Fei appeared again on a rainy day, the green leaves of the palm trees were washed shiny, the air was warm and humid, the man didn't have an umbrella, he just leaned against a tree with his head hanging slightly, as if he wanted to Smoking, but the cigarettes at the fingertips have long been wet by the rain.

As soon as Li Chuang came out of the dormitory, he saw such a look, and quickly ran over with an umbrella, covering both of them, and then wiped his face angrily to make the man's facial features clearer: "Where are you?" Am I acting like a melancholy lover?"

Ling Fei raised his head slowly, his reaction seemed to be a little slow, he stared blankly for a long time before focusing on it, and recognized Li Chuang, and the next second, he gave the boy a big hug.

Li Chuang's clothes were dry and comfortable at first, but they turned out to be a watery cloth by this bear hug. They were wet and stuck to his body together with Ling Fei's people. It was extremely uncomfortable. Li Chuang squinted his eyes and felt uncomfortable. He patted Ling Fei on the back of the head hard: "You are going to die..."

Ling Fei didn't speak, just kept rubbing against his neck, like a dog.

"Okay, how did you get here, how do you go back? I won't go outside with you on a rainy day." Li Chuang said while pulling the person on his body down, "Where's your car?"

Ling Fei clung to Li Chuang tightly like a sloth, still unable to survive, put his head on his neck and muttered: "I didn't drive."

Li Chuang frowned: "Then why did you come here?"

Ling Fei finally raised his head, his eyes were a little dazed: "That's how I came here."

Li Chuang rolled his eyes at the umbrella ribs, and was about to complain, when Ling Fei showed a childish smile: "I miss you."

Li Chuang seldom saw such a rare and cute look on Ling Fei's face. Thinking about it carefully, it seems that only the state of just waking up from the hospital bed when he was injured by himself was a little bit similar to the present, silly, Stupid, but simple and clean.

He dragged him into the dormitory building from the eyes and ears of the dormitory supervisor, and finally got into the elevator. Li Chuang teased him, saying he missed me.Ling Fei actually tilted his head and thought about it very seriously, and then he answered sternly. He thought about it a long time ago, but intermittently, sometimes he clearly wanted to come to you, but somehow he forgot later. Today I have been Thinking about it, I came here.After finishing speaking, he looked at Li Chuang very naturally, as if he didn't think there was anything wrong with this state at all.Li Chuang refused to look at the blue lake water in his eyes, he was afraid that he would drown in it, or he might be lucky enough not to drown and become like Ling Fei, uh, that would be better than drowning.

There was no one in the dormitory, and everyone went to their elective courses.In fact, Li Chuang also had it, but he escaped, so now he regrets it very much.Ling Fei's hair was a little longer than last time, and it was somewhat similar to the original appearance. Li Chuang handed him a towel, and he stood in the middle of the dormitory and wiped it honestly.

After busying around for a while, the two cleaned up for themselves respectively, and Ling Fei gradually returned to his usual appearance, indifferent and cold, with quiet and peaceful eyes.However, the school celebration T-shirt and Hawaiian flower shorts of S University still gave him a different flavor.

Li Chuang spread out the wet clothes and hung them up, then pulled over two chairs and sat down with Ling Fei face to face, ready to have a long talk.

Ling Fei first leaned over and kissed his lips.

Lingfei's kiss, to be precise, was a kiss when he was awake, and it was always superficial. Li Chuang only felt that his lips were cold, and the man had already retreated.But now Brother Chuang can face these things calmly, only raising his eyebrows slightly, nothing else.

"How are you these days, what have you been doing?"

"Nothing." Ling Fei didn't seem to like this topic very much, "it's all nonsense."

"It's good to do something bad," Li Chuang casually broke a banana from the table and handed it over, "You're like a wandering spirit every day."

Ling Fei peeled off the banana peel very face-saving, and then took a big bite, stuffing his cheeks bulging, chewing seriously like a big monkey.

Li Chuang didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "I said, why are you here?"

Ling Fei didn't answer right away, but waited until the eating of bananas was over before saying, "I miss you, isn't it normal to want to see someone I like?"

It's quite normal for Li Chuang to help his forehead, but it's not right for Ling Fei.

Ling Fei had his own way of thinking. Now that he saw Li Chuang's expression, he knew that he was not welcome, so he confirmed the same and asked, "Are you annoying me?"

Li Chuang scratched his head: "It's not annoying..."

Ling Fei nodded, his eyes brightened beautifully: "That's why I like it."

Li Chuang black line: "There is still a certain gap."

Ling Fei frowned in confusion, as if he couldn't understand: "Isn't there only two types of people, like it or hate it."

"Is there no one who doesn't like and doesn't bother?"

"Yes, stranger."

"..."

"But we two know each other."

The unbelievable argument made Li Chuang completely surrender. He grabbed Ling Fei's hand and helped him stuff the remaining bananas into his mouth. Han Mukun used to always tell him when he couldn't bear it, you are the master, and now he put this sentence The improved version of the words was presented to Ling Fei: "You are a Buddha."

Ling Fei ate the remaining half of the banana again, still graceful and graceful, not even making a sound.

Li Chuang thought that he could prepare something to eat at any time in the future. If he didn't want to listen to Ling Fei's nonsense, he could just plug it in. It was better than sunflower acupuncture.

Just as he was thinking about it, Ling Fei put the banana peel into the trash can neatly, and then looked at Li Chuang indifferently: "I am a Buddha, so what are you?"

This question is nonsensical, but Li Chuang can really find the answer, he said: "I am Li Chuang."

Ling Fei blinked in confusion: "Who is Li Chuang?"

The heart suddenly beat irregularly, and in the clattering heartbeat, Li Chuang heard himself answer patiently: "Li Chuang is me."

Ling Fei shook his head in confusion and said, "You are Zhao Qingyu."

Li Chuang looked into his eyes without moving: "Zhao Qingyu is in the northeast."

Li Chuang didn't know why he told Ling Fei these things. On such a quiet rainy afternoon, he seemed to be abnormal with Ling Fei.But this abnormal state is very comfortable, as if there is no need to think about anything, no need to worry about anything, thinking of what to say, what to do, what to do, what has been suppressed in the bottom of my heart is truly and soothingly released come out.

Ling Fei was a good listener. From the beginning to the end, he listened quietly, sometimes frowning, sometimes nodding, and most of the time, he didn't have any mood swings, and just looked at Li Chuang peacefully and quietly.

Li Chuang didn't know how long he had been talking, including the oolongs he had with Han Mukun, and when he finally had his fill of fun, he remembered to ask about his impressions after listening: "Hey, I'm very serious about giving Tell me, your mouth is dry, don’t tell me you don’t believe me.”

I don't want Ling Fei to nod without hindrance: "I believe it, why don't you believe it, you have no reason to make up a story to lie to me."

Li Chuang was so moved that tears filled his eyes: "That's right, it's no good to lie to you!"

"Then should I call you Li Chuang from now on?"

"Yeah!" Li Chuang nodded his head off.

Ling Fei finally raised the corner of his mouth slightly: "Li Chuang."

"Hey—" the loud and joyful response.

"I'm sleepy, can I borrow your bed?"

"...you'll sleep to death!"

Seeing the man climb into his bunk, Li Chuang poured mineral water viciously while thinking about killing him with a fruit knife.

The brothers of 807 were able to return home after ten o'clock in the evening that day.No way, who let the younger brother and daughter-in-law come, so the three people headed by Shao Xiaodong chose to go to the laboratory to pass the time with science after digging through the door, so as to show their magnificence.

That day Li Chuang sat cross-legged at the end of the bed, meditating on Ling Fei's peaceful sleeping face from afternoon to night, and then figured out one thing - it turned out that he was really good with men.At least for Ling Fei and Han Mukun.

This is a process of self-knowledge and self-transcendence. Li Chuang has experienced incomparable inner suffering, until the final conclusion came out, he was still dying and did not want to admit it.

But the facts are in front of his eyes, he will miss Han Mukun, he will not reject Ling Fei's kiss, he will want to kiss Ling Fei when he sees Ling Fei's fragility, and he will be stubborn with Han Mukun when he refuses to call. ...Damn it, this is clearly the method Song Xinyou always used in the past!

All in all, Zai Chuang's vitality that night was a milestone, which not only changed his outlook on life, worldview and values, but also subverted his previous life plans.Uh, well, he didn't have any plans before, but he doesn't need to plan anymore, because the road has changed from one road to two, and the uncertainty increases quadratically, and he doesn't even know whether the target is male or female. Really can't do it.

Li Chuang didn't tell anyone the conclusion of his philosophical thinking, but Ling Fei had an inexplicable tacit understanding, and since that day, he has pursued Brother Chuang relentlessly.Li Chuang wasn't vigilant at first, but felt that Ling Fei was a little more cheerful than before, and the jumpiness of the conversation had also improved. Looking at it, he was one step closer to normal, but after going out a few times, Li Chuang found that Something is wrong.

In the past, whether it was harmful, harmless, pure, evil or evil, Ling Fei was natural, without any purpose, but now it is different, when he is pure, he will look like a dog, and then he will raise his head and blink his eyes silently begging you Touching, when it is evil, it will be like a cat demon, clasping your hand with one paw and scratching and scratching.After being harassed a few times in this way, Ling Fei called again, but Li Chuang didn't go out.He didn't have to guard his body like a jade, but he was indeed not ready for a non-human being.

Later, Li Chuang carefully analyzed his feelings towards Ling Fei and Han Mukun, and found that he likes the former but hates the latter. Liking is the kind of liking that wants to be touched and kissed. It's a feeling, but I hate it, but it's really annoying when I think about it-you won't show up just by making a fucking phone call! ?

At noon that day, the entire dormitory in 807 was lying down, and Li Chuang was left alone on the balcony to send text messages to Ling Shao.Ever since he couldn't explain clearly on the phone or didn't have time to explain it at all, Ling Shao seemed to have discovered the fun of text messages, and regardless of whether Li Chuang returned or not, he would send them endlessly when he thought of them.Li Chuang sometimes chatted with him a few words. After all, the brainwaves of the two people did not overlap at all, so it was impossible to tell which sentence would spark the spark of inspiration.

Besides, he quite likes chatting with Ling Fei—if that person is in a normal state and doesn't always express his love so strongly.

The dormitory at noon was a bit stuffy, and it was not time to turn on the air conditioner, so Li Chuang liked to blow the wind from the balcony.

Ling Fei's topics are usually one or the other, but today is very logical, mainly explaining the possibility of the next two people and his full liking.Li Chuangbing came to cover up the water and soil, trying to make him understand that love cannot cross races.

Here are some excerpts of text messages:

Lingfei: My dear, if you are not satisfied with me, I can change it.

Li Chuang: My dear, I will change whatever you are satisfied with me.

Lingfei: I want to hug you.

Li Chuang: Hug.

Ling Fei: I didn't hold it.

Li Chuang: Hug again.

Ling Fei: Will you time travel back?

Li Chuang: What do you think?

Ling Fei: Probably not.I don't want you to go back either.

Li Chuang: Even if I don't treat you well?

Ling Fei: What does this have to do with whether you get along with me?

Li Chuang: Hehe, come on, I will give you a bite.

Lingfei: I want to find you.

Li Chuang: Don't, how many times have you tried this to nothing? You still don't give up.

Ling Fei: I may not live long.

Li Chuang: ... Terminally ill?

Ling Fei: No, I feel like I could fall asleep anytime, anywhere.

Li Chuang: Dizzy, then I will wake you up.

Ling Fei: Kiss me to wake me up, baby.

Li Chuang: Do you think of yourself as Sleeping Beauty...

After pressing send, Li Chuang couldn't help raising the corners of his mouth, feeling very comfortable, as if gradually getting used to this kind of weather, this kind of city, this kind of life, this kind of Zhao Qingyu's version of Li Chuang.

Ling Fei didn't reply, but a phone call instead.Li Chuang picked it up without even looking at it, and teased with a smile: "Honey, I'm still on the road of overcoming thorns and thorns. There are still snowy mountains and rivers and dragons and handsome guys. Go on and sleep."

There was a moment of silence on the other end of the phone, and then Han Mukun's lifeless voice came: "Thank you, I just fell asleep from the plane..."