phantom hand

After an unknown amount of time, Zhao Qingyu spoke first: "Come to return the book?"

"Well," Ai Gang breathed a sigh of relief as if he had found a step, and raised the few books in his hand, "It's almost due, and I'm afraid of fines."

Zhao Qingyu walked over a few steps, pretending to smile naturally: "Then let's go together, and I will return it too."

Ai Gang had nothing else to say, so he could only say "".

After returning the books, Ai Gang stayed in the library for another half an hour, saying that he wanted to borrow books, so he wandered around in the borrowing area. Zhao Qingyu didn't borrow books, but he was determined to explain that matter today Yes, so I followed Ai Gang pretending to be stupid, until I saw that the other party was too embarrassed, and then said: "Stop shopping, let's find a place to talk."

Ai Gang couldn't tell whether he was laughing or helpless, but he also accepted his orders and wrote a letter and walked out with Zhao Qingyu.

Behind the library is a green rest area. Every summer, the stone tables and benches under the shade of dense trees are filled with self-study students in twos and threes. But now it is the end of winter, and the leaves have fallen off early. The branches have no shelter ability at all, and the stone benches and tables are covered with thick dust, and the wind blows through them, making it chilly.

Zhao Qingyu wrapped his clothes tightly again, and then said to Ai Gang: "No one comes here at this time."

Ai Gang responded subconsciously, and said with a smile, "It's as if the two of us are too shameful." After speaking, he felt that the words were not quite right, and his expression became strange.

"That's right, there's nothing shameful about it." Zhao Qingyu stopped laughing, he inexplicably liked this kind of atmosphere, just like the thrill of a hunter driving a small animal to a corner and watching the other party have no escape.

Zhao Qingyu felt that he was going to be abnormal, and this abnormality was the effect of the soul exchange, coupled with the catalysis of Ai Gang, the two became one.He actually encountered the same thing once during his freshman military training. He was also a straight man, and he was flirting with him, and it became a big deal. He basically knew about that class, but he shrank back. He must have said that he seduced him. At that time, he felt that the sky was about to fall. If it wasn't for his family knowing that he might have dropped out of school, and after that, he deliberately avoided all the situations related to that boy, deceiving himself as if he had never done this before. One thing, actually thinking about it now, half of the reason why he was so sad at that time was because of the strange eyes around him, and part of it was because he really liked that boy.But now, the same situation happened again, but his mood was completely different. There was anxiety and uneasiness, but he really didn't have the slightest fear, because no matter what, at least he didn't have to think about his parents' feelings anymore, and he didn't have to think about it anymore. The pressure of the world and the feeling that "Li Chuang is doing it" no matter what he does, made him feel relieved and relaxed like never before, just like committing a crime with someone else's ID card.

Seeing that the smile on Ai Gang's face was going to be unbearable, Zhao Qingyu didn't turn so many corners, and cut to the point with a gentle smile: "Don't look like you are being tortured, I don't want to interrogate you, I just want to know about hot springs. That time... what on earth were you thinking?"

A gust of wind suddenly picked up some dust, and a small grain of sand flew into Zhao Qingyu's eyes. Suddenly, he raised his hand to rub it, and vaguely felt that Ai Gang smiled, but he was not sure, only heard him say: "This How long has it been?"

Zhao Qingyu knew that the way he was covering one eye was rather funny, but he had to go on, he was afraid that if he got stuck, he would lose the courage to be reckless: "If you hadn't avoided me, it wouldn't have been so long, Forget about those things, I just want to hear what you think, don't... don't end up with it, I'm the only one who is sentimental."

Ai Gang was stunned, with a froze smile on his face, not much better than the funny Zhao Qingyu.

The sand was finally rubbed out along with the tears, and the corners of his eyes hurt a little, but Zhao Qingyu didn't care about that, Ai Gang was like a stuffed gourd, he was anxious: "Can you say something!"

Ai Gang showed a very difficult expression, and after a while, he smiled wryly: "I just don't know what to say. You asked me what I thought. To be honest, I haven't figured it out yet."

Zhao Qingyu looked at Ai Gang, his teeth itching with hatred, and suddenly he could understand Li Chuang's irritable mood of wanting to leave at every turn: "Then let me help you. Let's put it this way, put this matter on two normal men I can’t explain it, you think the same way, right, then let me tell you now, I’m gay, how about you?”

Ai Gang's eyes widened, and he shook his head almost immediately: "I'm not."

His heart twitched, and it hurt a little, but Zhao Qingyu continued persistently: "Then I like you, how about you?"

This time, Ai Gang fell into a long silence.

It was the first time in my life to be confessed by a man, and this feeling... not so good.Not disgust, more surprise and those physical repulsions.Moreover, he was indeed startled by Zhao Qingyu.He hid from Zhao Qingyu before, firstly because he felt a little messed up, and secondly because he was afraid that Zhao Qingyu would be disgusted or angry with what he did in the hot spring, so he hid away, thinking that it would be a joke after a long time, and the big guy would pass.He never thought that Zhao Qingyu had this kind of thinking towards him, and he devoted all his energy to how to fight against his abnormal and dangerous tendencies, only to find that the other party was abnormal at all, so he is now Isn't it possible to make a conclusion about your abnormality?For example, getting too close to a GAY, so...

Ai Gang was silent for too long, until Zhao Qingyu's confidence changed from full to half full, and then from half full to illusory, he felt a little shameless when he said the words: "If you don't like me , why kiss me?"

Ai Gang didn't expect him to ask so directly, his face turned red immediately, and just about to say something, the phone rang suddenly.

Zhao Qingyu was also taken aback, but still took a deep breath, trying to make himself look natural: "It's okay, you can pick it up. Let's talk about it after you pick it up." Zhao Qingyu didn't know where he was so stubborn, so he had to break things up Knead it and make it completely clear.

Ai Gang walked aside to answer the phone.

But there is no place around here that can block the sound, so Zhao Qingyu thinks that he is unnecessary.

Ai Gang didn't say too much, just responded with a few simple um, ah, ah, and the last few words were rather vague, and Zhao Qingyu only heard "Well, then come over at night, and I will take you to eat."

When Ai Gang finished the call and came back, Zhao Qingyu didn't say anything, just tilted his head and looked at him like that.

Ai Gang was stared at in a bit of a panic, and he pursed his lips for a long time before he gave a distorted smile, and said to Zhao Qingyu as if explaining, "My partner."

Zhao Qingyu suspected that he had auditory hallucinations.

Ai Gang looked at him apologetically, as if considering whether to explain further.

The phone rang again, this time Ai Gang didn't answer it, and just pressed reject.However, Zhao Qingyu was brought back to his senses by the ringtone, and suddenly, his sanity seemed to be clearer than ever before.He first smiled to adjust the embarrassing atmosphere, and then patted Ai Gang on the shoulder very naturally—the two were about the same height, and this movement was smooth and natural with the enthusiasm of being a brother: "If you have a partner, tell me earlier, let me southeast Northwest is thinking wildly, um, I have never said what you said before, and you have never heard of it, and no third person knows anyway, hehe, what will happen in the future, huh?"

Uncertainty flashed across Ai Gang's eyes, and he asked in a low voice, "Still buddy?"

Zhao Qingyu was dazzled for a moment, but immediately nodded his head: "Well, we are still friends."

The wind was up again, fierce and persistent this time, making clothes rustle and branches shake wildly.

Ai Gang became dazed in this wind, a place in his heart seemed to be empty, but he couldn't tell what was missing.It was like he knew that Zhao Qingyu was slightly different from his other buddies, but it was hard to describe.He looked at Zhao Qingyu, the man lowered his head at some point, his eyes were hidden, and he couldn't detect his emotions.

Like countless times in the past, he felt that Zhao Qingyu was ethereal again, as if the real person in front of him would disappear in the next moment, so he always subconsciously wanted to treat him well and make him happy, even if he bullied him, It also seems to be very willing...but these are not normal, so he has to do normal things to reassure himself.

"Don't be angry." Apart from this sentence, Ai Gang didn't know what else to say.

Zhao Qingyu raised his head and smiled mischievously: "Why am I angry, I'm mourning for you, alas, two people spend one person's money, two people swipe one person's meal card."

Ai Gang didn't expect him to say this, so he laughed too.

This time it was Zhao Qingyu's turn to ring, and it was Sha Le calling. Zhao Qingyu had never loved this child so much before, so he picked it up without hesitation: "Hello? Well, I'm here. I was in the library just now. Finish the book, okay, you wait for me, I'll go back right away."

After finishing speaking, Zhao Qingyu hangs up the phone neatly, and then apologizes to Ai Gang with a smile: "The people in the dormitory are looking for me, so I'll go back first, don't you have something to do at night?"

Ai Gang was stunned for a long time before he let out a dumbfounded sound.

This is a sensational scene commonly used in TV dramas. The two say goodbye warmly, then turn their backs to each other and walk in opposite directions.But when it really happens to me, no one will have such an elegant mind to think whether the distant view of this shot is beautiful. Saying goodbye is saying goodbye, and leaving is leaving. When the distance is getting farther and farther, no matter how deep the relationship is, it will be lost It's nonsense, wait a little longer, and it will be broken.

Zhao Qingyu walked with a blank mind for a long time, and he didn't feel uncomfortable until downstairs in the dormitory.Now he can unmistakably believe that he has made a big oolong and is ashamed, and he has never been ashamed like this in his life.He thought, as expected, sometimes people can't be too wishful thinking, he thought, as expected, Ai Gang is normal and different from himself, he thought, as expected, holding someone else's ID card is a crime or a crime...

Zhao Qingyu thought a lot in a mess, and these thoughts came out of his heart like concentrated sulfuric acid, eroding his internal organs bit by bit, until he finally couldn't stand it anymore, and slowly squatted down and buried his face in his arms.