phantom hand

"Are you sure it's him?"

"I won't admit my mistake."

"Thank you."

"Do you really like him? Will you always treat him well?"

"...I can't promise you that."

It was a very inconspicuous bar, and the gray and dilapidated sign made you always unconsciously worry that it would fall with the wind and hit passers-by.Pushing open the door, the smoke is like a coiled silk hole, and the music is loud and deafening.At first Dong Dongdong thought it was just an ordinary underground disco bar, but when he saw several male compatriots cuddling together and gnawing forgetfully, he understood.I can't say whether it's disgusting or not, maybe I'm too eager to find Sha Le, and the feeling of being a spectator is second.

Wang Chuan said that he met Sha Le here, not only met, but also chatted a few words.He said that the child is just messing around with his parents' money right now, so it's not really drunk, but he's in the dark.When Dong Dongdong heard what he said, his heart suddenly tightened, and he couldn't tell whether he was feeling anxious when he saw hope, or he was faintly aware of guilt.

Dong Dongdong stayed in the second-hand smoke all night and got nothing.

He was not reconciled, and he came for a week, and it was still the same.

By the eighth day, he had actually given up any hope. He preferred to believe that those were all Wang Chuan's hallucinations, as if he often mistook passers-by for Sha Le when he walked on the street and patted the wrong shoulder for a reason.

But this time, the child really appeared.

The moment he pushed the door, he seemed to have some kind of induction in the dark, and he glanced over and locked on to the two entangled figures.The child was lying on the sofa, the top was lifted up high, allowing the person above him to lick and caress wantonly.Dong Dongdong stood there in a daze, watching the man put his hand into the child's pants, what he did was self-evident.The child's face was flushed and he gasped violently, his expression was all too familiar. He had been seduced, fascinated, and even addicted to such a goblin countless times in the dim light of a small hotel.

But now, Sha Le is another man.

Dong Dongdong didn't know how he walked over, and in the uneasy light, he suddenly pulled the person up on the child and punched him with his hand.This fist was ten times, a hundred times harder than when Li Chuang hit him back then.

The man was unprepared and fell directly to the ground.But soon, the man got up again, apparently he had no intention of responding to the inexplicable natural disaster, he just wiped his nosebleeds and cursed: "There's something fucking wrong with you!"

Dong Dongdong ignored him, and went directly to pull Sha Le up. Sha Le smelled of alcohol and was in a daze. After sitting up, he tilted his head and squinted his eyes and looked at him for a long time. Dong Dongdong felt his throat was hot, and he couldn't help raising his hand to touch the child's face , wanted to confirm that this was true, but when he was about to touch the other party, he was suddenly grabbed by the wrist by the child, and then Sha Le smiled charmingly: "You look exactly like my previous partner .”

My heart felt like it had been pricked by a needle.Dong Dongdong wanted to say something, but as soon as he moved his lips, he felt a gust of wind behind him. When he turned his head, someone grabbed him by the collar, and in the next second, he left the sofa and was thrown to the ground.

"You're fucking on drugs! Brainless!" While cursing, the man made a gesture to push Shale down again.

Dong Dongdong yelled almost without thinking, "You fucking don't touch him!"

The man opened his mouth halfway, as if he had heard something from the Arabian Nights: "Fuck, I'm going to fuck my partner with you!"

Dong Dongdong was stunned, the tiles under his buttocks were cold.

Sha Le got up wobbly, and didn't look at him, just hooked his "boyfriend" around the neck with a smile, said something in the other's ear, and then walked into the bathroom step by step, shoulder to shoulder with him .

Five minutes later, Dong Dongdong regained consciousness belatedly. He jumped up from the ground and rushed into the bathroom, kicking open one door after another amidst the ambiguous noises. When he reached the fourth door, The two of them were already having sex in full swing.Sha Le lay prone on the toilet seat, allowing the man's weapon to enter and exit his body.

Suddenly his vision was blurred, Dong Dongdong raised his hand to touch his face in disbelief, it was warm.

The man who was in high spirits obviously didn't have the energy to entangle him. He turned his head and glanced hastily, and started to work hard again, humming comfortably while muttering: "Okay, Grandpa, I'll take care of you. It's your turn when I'm done." .”

Dong Dongdong stepped forward without saying a word, strangled the man's neck, dragged him out and slammed him against the wall. Can't get up.Dong Dongdong didn't look at him again, took off his coat and wrapped it around the child, and half-forcibly got him out, half-carrying and half-carrying.

Sha Le seemed to have sobered up a bit, and was extremely uncooperative at the moment.Not to mention kicking and kicking, he never stopped cursing, but his curse vocabulary is really limited, so he just kept yelling at the back: "I have nothing to do with you, you put me down! You fucking let me down! "

Dong Dongdong directly carried him back to the hotel.

At that time, Sha Le had no strength to shout, but he changed his style, threw away his coat, and just sat on the bed with his head tilted and smiled at him naked, very beautiful, very beautiful.

Dong Dongdong suddenly didn't know what to say, the person in front of him seemed to be just a ghost in a painted skin, he looked like a child, but there was a world of difference inside.

"Did you come to look for me? Or did you just look at me inadvertently when you were looking for fun?"

He had never noticed that children's teeth were so white, beautiful and neat.

"Miss me? Well, I guess so, or I'll just go to the hotel directly." Sha Le scratched his head, he cut his short hair neatly, and the bright black color made him look even whiter. "Actually, I'm pretty I like WC, it feels better than on the bed."

Dong Dongdong had saved words for several months, but when he uttered them, they only became four words: "Don't do this."

Sha Le smiled and froze for two or three seconds, and then returned to normal: "Hehe, you must be silly. In fact, all comrades are like this. I was playing with you before, you little white."

Dong Dongdong unconsciously remembered that when the two of them did it for the first time, he couldn't stand it for a long time, but the child was hoarse. Kidnapping and saying that it doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt, just bear it and pass it...

Taking a deep breath, he could only repeat: "Don't do this."

"Don't do that?" Sha Le was still laughing, but her eye circles were very red, "Don't mess with men? Or don't do it in the toilet?"

"Shale..."

"I'm used to it, it's fine."

The eye sockets began to heat up again, Dong Dongdong swallowed sourly in his throat: "You don't call me brother anymore?"

Sha Le looked at him seriously, and then slowly pulled out a mocking smile: "No, who cares about that now, it's worthless."

"I'm rare." Dong Dongdong couldn't restrain himself anymore, he hugged Sha Le tightly, as if he wanted to embed Sha Le into his body with such strength.

Sha Le struggled violently as if electrified.

Dong Dongdong hugged him tightly.

"I don't want it anymore, I don't want it anymore," Sha Le shouted with tears in his voice, "I've given up on it, so don't mess with me—"

I'm sorry, Dong Dongdong described it over and over with his lips, but he couldn't make a sound. He was afraid that these three words were too small to turn the tide.But apart from this, he didn't know what else he could say. He thought that if he asked Sha Le to slap himself a few times, or simply beat him up, would the child forgive him?

But in the end, there is only this one who embraces with all his strength.

They had never hugged so tightly, not once.

Sha Le burst into tears, with no image, no temperament, like a child who couldn't get sugar.

Dong Dongdong pulled the quilt to wrap him and himself, warm.

Sha Le cried so fiercely that in the end she was a little convulsed and couldn't speak smoothly.But after venting his emotions, he calmed down instead, raised his head slightly, and his eyelashes even touched the tip of Dong Dongdong's nose: "No one likes me, my parents don't like me, so they threw me here, and you don't like me either, so you also don't like me." Throw me away. In fact, I don't like myself the least, so I just threw myself away, hehe."

"I like you."

Sha Le lost his mind for a moment, but he quickly reacted and shook his head intuitively: "You don't like me."

The first confession in his life died so prematurely, Dong Dongdong was so depressed that he wanted to vent: "I don't fucking like you, I can fuck a man's ass!?"

Sha Le blinked and nodded calmly: "Ah yes, you just like my ass."

"Get out!" Dong Dongdong was about to go crazy, "I like you! Do you hear me? I like Sha Le, not Sha Le's ass!"

"Does that mean you don't like my ass anymore?"

"..."

In the end, Dong Dongdong did not answer such a difficult question.He just dragged the child into the bathroom, washed both of them carefully from the inside to the outside with warm water, and finally got into bed with the child in his arms.

The quilt was tightly tucked in, and the autumn wind slipped in through the window and could only swirl around the periphery, with no choice.

Sha Le buried his face in the quilt, leaving only the top of his head for Dong Dongdong, muttering to himself, "I must be M, otherwise how could I be so cruel?"

Dong Dongdong smiled, and reached out to touch the wet hair of the other party: "In the future, don't let other men touch you."

Sha Le raised his head and looked at him intently.

Dong Dongdong was overwhelmed by the look, turned his face away, and took another step back: "It's fine if you don't let me know."

Silence, for a long time.

Sha Le suddenly asked: "Are you dating another man?"

Dong Dongdong never thought about this question, but now Sha Le asked, so he tried to imagine that kind of picture in his head, but in the end, without exception, he was very awkward: "Maybe not."

"What about that girl?"

"I don't know," Dong Dongdong is still not sure, he only knows, "There is no man or woman, I just did it with you."

Something flickered in Sha Le's eyes, and then Dong Dongdong heard him say: "If you always treat me well, I won't do it with others, only you."

Sha Le's words were silly, but Dong Dongdong seemed to be infected as well, so he asked casually, "Why?"

Sha Le bit his chest angrily, and said, "I'm a bitch."

Dong Dongdong laughed while rubbing his chest.Sha Le asked you what you were muttering about, but he didn't make a sound, just sat there alone secretly feeling happy.Later, Sha Le became angry, and went directly to hit the opponent's vitals. Dong Dongdong immediately surrendered in pain, grinning his teeth and leaning into Sha Le's ear, confessing completely——

"I just like how cheap you are."

Dong Dongdong lived to be 23 years old, and he only remembers two things deeply.One is that his parents gave him such a talented name, and the other is that he had to help the school girl with her luggage when the junior year started.

It was a starry night, and he was disturbed by the yellow hair on his head.