seek fate

When the old dean came in, he saw Su Yuanheng's desolate and lonely figure, followed his line of sight, and landed on the place where he had appeared.

The old dean sighed lowly.Back then, it was there that she found Su Yuanheng who was already frozen.His small body was curled up in the corner of the orphanage gate, his hands tightly holding the big scarf on his body.

She carried him back to the orphanage and woke him up with a thick quilt and warm rice porridge.But Su Yuanheng, who was suffering from a high fever, even though his mind was blurred, still persistently cried out in a thin, childish voice: "...I want to wait for Dad. Let me go to the gate... woo... I won't leave... ...Xiao Li is obedient, Xiao Li will not leave...I want to wait for Dad...uh...I can't see Dad here...I want to wait for Dad..."

He was so persistent, stubborn like a child, even when he was sick, he struggled endlessly, and even got up quietly when no one was paying attention, and ran out the door drowsily in his pajamas.

If everyone hadn't discovered it in time, he would have almost lost his life that winter night.

The old dean had no choice but to place him in this room on the second floor with a wide view but somewhat shady, and told him that he could see the gate and his father from here.She and the other children can help him wait for Dad, if Dad comes back, just wave here, Dad will definitely see him.

Although she knew that his father, like other helpless parents, would never come back again...

The little child believed it, and after a little recovery, he lay on the window all day long, looking outside without blinking.

The old dean has never met a more stubborn child than him in all these years.Many four-year-old children will gradually forget the relatives who abandoned them after only a few months.As for Su Yuanheng, until he left the orphanage at the age of ten, he never forgot his promise.

On many cold nights, the old director would often find him secretly wearing a heavy overcoat, climbing over the gate of the orphanage, and sitting on the old and mottled steps for a whole night.

"Xiaoli, oh no, should I call you by your new name? Yuanheng, how long do you plan to stay this time?"

Su Yuanheng came back to his senses, and said with a smile, "The dean's mother can call me whatever she wants. If you don't find me annoying, I want to stay here for a while, is it convenient for you?"

He had called the hospital before he came, and Beitang Minqian really had a great influence, and even helped him ask for a month's vacation.It seems that being a major shareholder of the hospital is different, and his one-year holidays are not so long.

He wanted to take this opportunity to relax and think carefully about his relationship with Beitang Minqian.And he hasn't been back to the orphanage for many years, and he really wants to stay here for a few more days.

The old dean smiled and said, "It's convenient, why is it inconvenient. You have donated a lot of money and things to the orphanage for so many years. Everyone is very grateful to you. Have you received the greeting cards sent to you by the children every year?"

"received."

"This room is only occupied by the two oldest children, one is 16 years old and the other is 17 years old. The sixteenth child was admitted to the Academy of Fine Arts this year and went to live in school. There is no spare room in the courtyard. Would you like to squeeze with them here? Squeeze?"

"No problem. Didn't I just live here? Thank you, Dean's mother." Su Yuanheng said with a smile.

So he lived in the orphanage.

During the day, the older children in the courtyard went to class, and Su Yuanheng, the old principal and a few aunts took care of the younger children.In the evening, when everyone came back, the orphanage suddenly became lively and noisy. Su Yuanheng played with them, played games, and helped them review their homework.

He is a doctor. If a child is sick, he doesn't have to look far away. He will take care of it all by himself.He has a good temper, a handsome appearance, and a pleasant face. He is naturally popular, so he is quickly loved by everyone in the orphanage.

Su Yuanheng likes this kind of life very much, and also enjoys this kind of peace. He has lived here for more than half a month without knowing it.At first, he was worried and melancholy about the matter between himself and Beitang Minqian, but after a while, he gradually forgot about these matters and completely relaxed.

The small town where the orphanage is located is simple and quiet, without the hustle and bustle of a big city, and it also lacks a lot of turmoil and scandal.Su Yuanheng didn't pay special attention to Beitang Minqian's movements. In the first few days, he had some expectations, wondering if he would come to him.But after seeing no movement for so many days, he gradually gave up.

Sure enough...that ruthless person...

Su Yuanheng knew that Beitang Minqian had always said what he said, and he didn't like others to go against his will the most.This time, all he wanted was to reunite with him after a long absence and have a good time together, but he left without saying goodbye. I'm afraid he was already very angry, so how could he expect him to come to him.

Maybe, it's really time to break up...

Thinking of this, Su Yuanheng felt his heart tremble, and it hurt like a needle prick.

never mind.Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, don't be like your father...

Su Yuanheng lived in an orphanage these days, always recalling the days when he was with his father.

At that time, he was less than four years old, and he often saw his father get drunk, tear his paintings to pieces, fall on the sofa and cry loudly, and his mood was extremely unstable.Then after waking up, I would regret it, holding those debris in a daze, trying to put together but couldn't put together, so I frantically picked up the drawing board and kept drawing again.

At that time, he was young and didn't understand many things.After growing up, I gradually understood that my father was sad for a man.Because in my father's picture album, apart from my little self, it is full of another man's figure.

It was the back view of a tall man, sometimes wearing a long windbreaker, sometimes wearing a handsome suit.They are all back and profile images, never a front face, always looking as if they are about to leave.

Now he certainly understands that that person is his father's lover, maybe it's his own...

He didn't want to think about it, and he didn't dare to think about it.His father's miserable life and his abandonment of himself were his nightmares all his life.But the strange thing is that he doesn't resent him.

After all, Dad really loved him back then, even if he was drunk to the point of unconsciousness and went berserk, he never beat him or scolded him.Even if he was so poor that he couldn't sell a single painting, and lived on instant noodles for a whole month, he never forgot to add an egg to his bowl and give him a glass of milk in the morning.

Such a poor and chaotic life, Su Yuanheng was young, so he didn't feel that hard.As long as he is with Dad, he is very happy.Occasionally, his father would take him to the park on weekends, and he would run and play carefree on the grass. When he looked back and saw his father's thin figure standing in front of the drawing board, looking up and smiling at him, he felt that he was the happiest in the world child.

Now, all that is gone.It became the most precious and painful memory of Su Yuanheng in this life.

He didn't imagine his father, who lost his soul for a man, and finally had to leave his youngest son and go away.

Su Yuanheng is very smart, and he has been the most diligent in studying since he was a child. Several times, good people came to adopt him, but he escaped them all.Because at that time he was still stubbornly waiting for his father.But later he also knew that his father would not come to pick him up, no matter how long he waited on the cold steps in the cold winter night, his father would not come back.

Then when he was ten years old, a man came to adopt him.The man was a surgeon, and his wife was terminally ill. They had a child ten years ago, but unfortunately died.His wife can no longer bear children, and he wants to give her a last gift.

He said he was a lot like him, that his son might have looked like him if he was alive.

This sentence softened Su Yuanheng's heart.

The man was tall, with a gentle temperament. When he left the orphanage, his long windbreaker was blown by the autumn wind, bringing a sense of desolation.

His back is very similar to the man who often appeared in his father's picture album.This also moved Su Yuanheng's heart.Although he lost a father, maybe he can get another father.

For half a year, that man has been coming to the orphanage to see him, hoping that he can leave with him willingly.Although Su Yuanheng also knew that he was so attached to himself, it was only because he had been looking for him for so long, that he was the person most like him and his son.

Then the dean's mother said something that completely shook him.She said: "Xiao Li, you should go with him. You should have a happy family and a bright future. Follow Mr. Su, and all these can be realized. When you grow up like this, maybe one day you will be able to find you dad."

Su Yuanheng felt that he had grown up overnight.He gave up waiting and waiting, and left with that man.He told himself that he would never be so stupid again, putting all his emotions on someone who had abandoned him.

But he is so stupid, now, he puts all his emotions on the boy who fell in love at first sight ten years ago.

Su Yuanheng smiled wryly in his heart.He knew that in his life, he might not be able to change it.

His adoptive father was very kind to him, and soon took the whole family to the United States in order to help his wife treat her illness.

After a year and a half, Su Yuanheng's adoptive mother passed away.During that time, he became interested in medicine.

His adoptive mother was a lovely woman, elegant, intelligent, kind-hearted, and always fond of a little joke.Su Yuanheng loves her as much as his adoptive father and hopes that she will live.But brain cancer eventually claimed her life.

Therefore, Su Yuanheng decided to embark on the path of a brain doctor.This pleased his adoptive father.

After his wife passed away, that man suddenly became decadent and aged a lot. He concentrated on cultivating Su Yuanheng, sent him to the best school, and passed on his lifelong medical experience to him.

Su Yuanheng is also very competitive. He was awarded the title of genius in the medical field at the age of 17, and a doctorate at the age of 19. With the recommendation of his adoptive father, he officially entered the current general hospital after returning to China, until he met Beitang Minqian the next year.

Now, his adoptive father also passed away seven years ago.In this world, apart from Beitang Minqian, he is alone again.But he knew that even Beitang Minqian was not his.

"Ugh...cough cough..."

Su Yuanheng flushed his face with cold water to wash away the fishy smell in his mouth.I've always been a little nauseous recently, and my mental state is not very good.I thought that a long vacation would allow me to relax, but who knows it is not as good as before.

Su Yuanheng smiled wryly at the mirror.

Is it okay to leave him alone?

Life in an orphanage is simple, but not easy.Due to the large number of children and the lack of sponsorship and helpers, one person often has to do many things.The arrival of Su Yuanheng gave the orphanage a lot of help.

The children liked him very much, especially the 17-year-old boy named Qin Su who shared the dormitory with him, who adored him very much.Hearing that he is a brain expert, his eyes lit up, and he determined to follow his example in the future.

But when he thought about the situation in the orphanage, he said in a sad voice, "It's a pity that I don't have money, so I can't go to medical school. I don't want to add another burden to the dean's mother. After graduating from high school, I will find a job."

Su Yuanheng has seen his report card, and he also knows that he is very talented when getting along with him, so he couldn't help smiling and said: "It's okay, I can pay for your college."

"Really?" Qin Su looked at him with wide eyes.

"I asked the dean's mother, your grades are very good, and she has high expectations of you. You shouldn't bury your talent."

"But, but..." Qin Su muttered, "Going to medical school is very expensive."

Su Yuanheng patted his head and said with a smile: "I can still afford this amount of money. I have already discussed with the dean's mother. Don't worry about the tuition. I know you are working everywhere now, and this will affect you. It’s not good for your health. You will have an exam next year, so start preparing now and don’t let us down.”

Qin Su was overwhelmed with surprise and was too excited to speak.He stared blankly at Su Yuanheng for a long time, then suddenly jumped up, turned somersaults in the room, then threw himself on him and hugged him, shouting: "Brother Su, you are so kind! You are so kind! You are really me!" The Living Bodhisattva! I love you! I love you so much! Hahaha..."

Seeing his happy appearance, Su Yuanheng couldn't help but smile slightly.

He likes this straightforward and kind-hearted child very much.He hopes that this child will one day become a good doctor who saves lives and heals the wounded.

The days in the orphanage passed in the blink of an eye.

When it was time to leave, Su Yuanheng packed up his things and prepared to go home with his luggage.

The old dean and the children stood outside the gate to see him off.Seeing the children's cute and reluctant expressions that day, Su Yuanheng felt warm in his heart.

"Dean's mother, everyone, I will come back to see you."

Su Yuanheng hugged the children one by one, and finally hugged the old dean with all his strength, and said softly: "Mama dean, pay attention to your health. You must take medicine on time for high blood pressure, and go to the hospital if you feel unwell. have……"

"Okay, okay. You child, you have read it several times." The old dean patted him lovingly, and said reluctantly: "You are too. Don't be too tired when you go back, don't work too hard, take good care of yourself ,do you know?"

"knowledge."

With tears in his eyes, Qin Su also reluctantly said: "Brother Su, wait for my good news! When I am admitted to university, I will definitely find you!"

"Okay! I'm waiting for you! Come on!"

Su Yuanheng patted him on the shoulder vigorously.

Through the boy in front of him, he seemed to see himself who firmly embarked on the path of medicine more than ten years ago.

He finally got into the car.When the car started, the children's cries of reluctance came from behind.

Su Yuanheng looked back at the mottled old courtyard for the last time, and the old dean and children who were reluctant to leave, his eyes were sore, and he waved his hand with a smile.

He knew that this was his home.A place he could come back to anytime.

On the way back to the city, Su Yuanheng was restless in his thoughts.

I wonder if Beitang Minqian is still at home?He has so much work, maybe he went to a location somewhere.

The two have not had any contact for a month, and he was the one who left in the past and waited by himself.This was the first time he left him by himself and never looked back.

Su Yuanheng felt heavy in his heart.

Beitang Minqian didn't come to look for him, it seemed both expected and unexpected.

Knowing that he would not find him due to his character, but he still couldn't help but have a glimmer of expectation in his heart.Now this shred of expectation was completely shattered, and his heart was not relaxed, but it became more and more oppressive for him to breathe.

Su Yuanheng felt a little uneasy, not knowing what to say when facing Beitang Minqian again.In fact, speaking carefully about what happened that day, I was also emotional.Beitang Minqian didn't give up yet, but he was timid.

He doesn't want to break up!

This is the only conclusion Su Yuanheng has come to in the past month.His longing for Beitang Minqian did not cool down with the passage of time, but became hotter.

It was already evening when Su Yuanheng arrived home.He parked the car in the underground parking lot, picked up his luggage, and got on the elevator.

Inserting the key into the door lock and turning it slowly, his heart couldn't help but lift up.

click

The door opened.

Su Yuanheng took a deep breath and slowly opened the door.

Everything remains the same.The empty hall, the desolate atmosphere...

Su Yuanheng stood for a while, then slowly threw the key on the coffee table, turned on the light, and walked into the bedroom a little tiredly.

Still the same as when he left.

Su Yuanheng sat on the bed in a daze for a while before remembering to pack his luggage.He opened the suitcase, took out the clothes, and opened the closet, trying to put it in, but froze for a moment.

On the other side of the closet, Beitang Minqian's clothes were originally placed, but now they are all gone.

Su Yuanheng's face was pale, and he stared at the closet stiffly, not even knowing that the clothes in his hand had fallen off.

This is different from Beitang Minqian's other wardrobe.In fact, Beitang Minqian didn't like the gorgeous and trendy clothes Siva prepared for him.Contrary to his handsome and arrogant appearance, Beitang Minqian unexpectedly prefers those simple and elegant clothes, especially white and black.So he threw all the clothes Siva bought for him in the closet next to him, and only hung the casual clothes he liked and often wore in Su Yuanheng's closet.

It used to be a sign of their intimacy.But now, the clothes are gone.

Su Yuanheng started with stiff hands, and opened the drawer below, and the underwear was gone.

He didn't know how he fell on the bed.There is nothing in my head.

The sky gradually darkened, the lights in the living room streamed in, and the bedroom looked even darker and colder.

After an unknown amount of time, Su Yuanheng suddenly heard the sound of the doorbell.With a thought in his heart, he jumped up, ran to the porch in a few steps, and opened the door at once.

"Wow! Doctor Su, it really is you who are back!" Wearing exaggerated big black-rimmed glasses, Siva rushed in and shouted excitedly: "I knew you were back when I saw the lights on the window. Wow Damn! These days I'm really anxious to death, you two are like this, are you trying to play me to death!"

He barged in carelessly, not noticing Su Yuanheng's disappointed and gloomy expression, and murmured, "Where did Werner find you? This guy is so mean, my phone is almost blown up and it doesn't matter." Contact me! I know you are all on vacation, but you should pity me as an agent. There are so many jobs waiting to be arranged, at least give me a call back!

"Hey, when did you come back? If I didn't come to report every day, I really couldn't catch you."

After talking for a long time, he suddenly realized that something was wrong, and asked curiously, "Huh? Where's Werner? Why are you alone?"

Su Yuanheng's head was swollen, and he rubbed his forehead and asked in a low voice, "What did you just say? Minqian went to look for me?"

"Yes." Siva was even more surprised. "I saw him pack his luggage and go out that day. What's going on? Didn't he find you? Did you come back alone?"

Su Yuanheng felt a little dizzy, his eyes turned black, and Siva's exaggerated big black-rimmed glasses kept shaking in front of his eyes.

"No...he didn't come...he didn't come to look for me..." Su Yuanheng's voice was low, all kinds of thoughts were rushing, and his mind was in chaos.

"It's impossible!" Siva cried, "I heard him say that the other day. He said... Huh? Doctor Su, what's wrong with you? Why is your face so ugly? Hey! Doctor Su? Doctor Su..."

Su Yuanheng's vision gradually blurred, his body became limp for a while, and he slowly fell down on the sofa, not knowing anything.

After driving for nearly nine hours in a row to go home, without having dinner, and being stimulated to sit in a daze for an evening, Su Yuanheng finally passed out due to exhaustion both mentally and physically.

It was almost twelve o'clock when he woke up, Siva was sitting next to him with wide-eyed eyes, seeing him wake up, excitedly said: "Thank God! You finally woke up."

Su Yuanheng rubbed his head, found that the back of his hand was pricked with a drip, and said a little tiredly, "I passed out?"

"Yeah. It scared me to death for two full hours. Are you suffering from heat stroke? The doctor said that you are not in good health and wants you to have an examination tomorrow."

Su Yuanheng looked around and said, "What kind of place is this?"

"The community hospital. It's just downstairs from your house, don't you know it?"

"I've never been here." Su Yuanheng pulled out the needle, sat up, and said, "I want to go home."

"Oh, wait, the drip is not finished yet. The doctor on duty just now asked you to have an examination."

"I'm the doctor. This is glucose, it doesn't matter if you take it or not."

Su Yuanheng stood up and walked out, and Siva hurriedly followed behind.The community hospital is not big, just a small two-story building, just behind the residential area. Su Yuanheng has noticed it before, but he has never entered it.

A doctor on duty wearing a doctor's uniform walked over while looking at the things in his hand. Seeing him coming out, he grinned: "Are you awake?"

This doctor is very young, with a baby face, big glasses, and two big dimples around his mouth when he smiles.

Su Yuanheng smiled at him: "Yes. I'm fine, thank you. Where will I pay the fee?"

"Your friend paid for it. Do you live in Block T2 in the front area? I've seen you before. Are you a doctor?"

Su Yuanheng was taken aback: "How do you know?"

The doctor scratched his head in embarrassment, and said, "Which lecture did I see you in before, but I can't remember. I met you in the neighborhood for a morning jog, so I got a little impression. I see that your hand is a surgeon? Holding a scalpel of?"

"Yeah." Su Yuanheng looked down at his right hand. There were obvious calluses on the fingers that often held knives.

The doctor patted him on the shoulder enthusiastically: "This is not acceptable. Doctors should pay more attention to their health. What if they fall on the operating table."

Su Yuanheng was a little embarrassed, and said, "It's because I didn't have dinner today. My friend made a big fuss."

"It's your friend who cares about you. I just drew some blood for you and did a simple examination. The community hospital is not well equipped. You can come back to get the examination report in two days. I think you should pay attention to your body. It seems that you haven't eaten. Dinner is as simple as that."

"Okay, I see. Thank you." Su Yuanheng hurried home, exchanged a few words with him, and left in a hurry.

The doctor still shouted behind him: "Don't forget to have a detailed examination at a regular hospital when you have time. I will notify you when the examination report is completed."

Siva followed Su Yuanheng, took a big bag of dinner back home with him, and went straight into the kitchen: "The takeaway I ordered just now is a bit cold, please put it in the microwave for you to warm up, eat it quickly."

Su Yuanheng was a little embarrassed: "Thank you. I have caused you trouble."

Siva waved his hand: "You're welcome. We haven't known each other for a year or two." He still wanted to say something, but after thinking about it, he shut up.

After the dinner was cooked and set on the table, Siva came to call Su Yuanheng and saw that he was sitting on the sofa with his mobile phone in a daze.

"It's time to eat. Your phone has been turned off for a month? I can't even reach you."

Su Yuanheng lowered his head and said, "I'm sorry."

Siva sighed and muttered, "What's going on? I thought you were together..."

Su Yuanheng suddenly raised his head and asked, "What's going on? Can you tell me about it?"

Siva sat down opposite him, tapped the chopsticks, and said, "You eat first. I'll tell you while you're eating."

Su Yuanheng had no appetite, but he was embarrassed to disappoint his kindness, so he had to pick up the chopsticks and eat bit by bit.

Siva lit a cigarette, propped his cheeks and pondered, "This is not right. Three days after you left, Werner packed his bags and said he was going to look for you and that he would contact me when the time came.

"I personally sent him out. Who would have thought that this guy has been away for half a month, and he didn't even have a phone call, and I couldn't get in touch with you. I thought this guy wanted to live a two-person world with you on a whim. It's off the back of my mind."

He puffed out the smoke ring, tapped the ashes into the ashtray, frowned slightly, and said in thought: "This is not right. Although Werner acts perversely and arrogantly, he is very measured. He is very good at controlling everything, since he said to find you , it won’t be off track. And judging from his meaning at the time, he seemed to know where you are, so why couldn’t he find you? Besides, he wouldn’t stop contacting me.”

Su Yuanheng sank for a moment, vaguely guessing what happened.

Who else could make Beitang Minqian evaporate from the world, except the Beitang family?What's more, Beitang Yazhi had looked for them not long ago.

Siva seemed to have noticed something too.The surname Beitang is very rare, if you name it casually, it is a very important character.Although Werner never told him about his life experience, Siva is not a fool either. He has been on the road for so many years, and he knows many things by heart.

Seeing that there has been no trouble in the past few years, and Werner is a diamond tree that makes money, he didn't ask too much.

"Oh... I made a mistake, I made a mistake, what's wrong?" Siva scratched her hair depressingly.His hairstyle is very trendy, and his attire is also at the cutting edge of the times. Now that he looks at a loss, he looks a bit like a high school student, and he can't tell that he is a manager with a strong wrist.

"Hey, Dr. Su, do you have any ideas?" Siva likes to call Dr. Su Yuanheng Su, it is said that it is because he worships doctors, and there is a bit of friend-like intimacy in the respect.

"I..." Su Yuanheng hesitated whether to speak out his doubts, but suddenly his chest felt oppressed. He just uttered a word, but couldn't help but his face changed drastically, and he rushed into the bathroom covering his mouth.

Siva stood there dumbfounded, ashes fell on the table.He glanced at the dinner on the table, and muttered a curse: "Damn! The dinner I bought won't be so bad, right?"