seek fate

Su Yuanheng's life is extremely regular.After breakfast every morning, turn on the computer to collect data, and then write the paper.Take a nap after lunch at noon, get up in the afternoon to wash clothes, tidy up the garden, or go to the supermarket to buy some things, and then come back to continue working.

After dinner in the evening, go out for a walk, say hello to the neighbors, then come back to take a shower, watch TV for a while, and go to bed on time at ten o'clock.

He tried to live his life to the fullest, so that he didn't have the time and energy to replay the scene he saw on Long Island that afternoon.

It's not good for his body.Every time his thoughts turned there, he felt a twisting pain in his heart.

Recently, his body gets tired very easily, and he often falls asleep watching TV.He knew it was one of the reactions of pregnancy, and he didn't take it seriously.

It's just that he has been unable to go to the hospital for an examination, and he doesn't know when he can return to China due to his physical condition.Moreover, the child grows up day by day, cannot be checked, and always feels uneasy.

He could only call Qiu Zhiyuan regularly to report his condition, and bought some simple and basic medical equipment to check his body at all times.

After a month in such a hurry, Su Yuanheng felt that his situation had stabilized, and began to think about returning to China.Although Qiu Zhiyuan did not advise him to do so, staying in the United States for a long time was not an option.Is it true that the child was born here?

Su Yuanheng was in a dilemma, but he didn't expect that the person deep in his heart who didn't dare to think about it would fall from the sky and suddenly appear in front of him.

He just came back from a walk that day, and before he reached the door of his house, he saw an arrogant Ferrari speeding up from a distance, and then made an emergency brake beside him, and after a screeching tire grinding sound, a figure stepped out of the driver's seat. Up and down.

Everything happened so fast, before Su Yuanheng realized it, Beitang Minqian was already standing in front of him.

"You..." Su Yuanheng stared at him blankly.

Beitang Minqian looked at him, he seemed relieved, but also a little annoyed, he raised his eyebrows: "You are indeed here!"

Su Yuanheng took two steps back: "You, why did you come here?"

Beitang Minqian frowned, and strode forward: "What are you hiding behind?"

Su Yuanheng didn't want him to discover his bloated abdomen, so he stepped back subconsciously. Seeing him following, he said helplessly, "You suddenly appeared, and I was shocked."

"I was taken aback. After finally returning to China, I found that the house was empty. Why didn't you say anything when you left? Are you addicted to missing games?" Beitang Minqian growled.

Su Yuanheng was stunned and remained silent.

"Why don't you talk? When did you come to the United States? Why haven't you contacted me for so long? Let me go around the country like a fool and come back!"

Su Yuanheng suddenly walked around him and walked towards the house.

"You're ignoring me?" Beitang Minqian stared at him in astonishment, and angrily grabbed him from behind, "Stop!"

"Let go!" Su Yuanheng broke free and ran to the house.

Beitang Minqian stared at his hand that was thrown away, froze for a moment, and followed quickly.Su Yuanheng ran very fast, hurriedly opened the door, flashed in, and was about to close the door.

Beitang Minqian caught up in time, stretched his foot in, and blocked the door.

"Go away!" Su Yuanheng yelled at him.

Beitang Minqian was so annoyed by his words, he also became ruthless, and slammed on the door with all his strength.

With a bang, Su Yuanheng was knocked away by him, and his back hit the wall heavily.

Beitang Minqian rushed into the house at once, slammed the door hard, and shouted: "I finally found this place, and you treat me like this? What's the matter with you? You didn't even tell me when you ran away from home!"

Su Yuanheng didn't speak.He lowered his head, covered his stomach with one hand, and leaned on the wall behind him with the other.

Beitang Minqian asked: "I asked why you didn't tell me when you came to the United States? It's so close to New York, why didn't you come to me?"

After a while, Su Yuanheng said in a low voice: "...Tell you? How can I tell you..." I went to look for you, but you...

He couldn't say the next words, turned his head away, and didn't look at him.

Only then did Beitang Minqian realize that his complexion was not good. He had been leaning against the wall, his body seemed to be limp, so he couldn't help but stretched out his hand, and calmed down: "Hey, what's wrong with you? Did I hit you too hard just now? ?”

Su Yuanheng avoided his hand and walked slowly towards the hall while leaning on the wall.

Beitang Minqian looked at his back, faintly feeling that there was something different about him.

"...how did you find this place?" Su Yuanheng slowly sat down on the sofa, pulled the loose sweater to cover his already bloated stomach.

Beitang Minqian said patiently: "I returned to China half a month ago and found that you were not there. I asked around and heard that you almost resigned. President Wang told me the address, and he said that you have returned to the United States."

The Beitang family is the major shareholder of the hospital, so it is very easy to check his information with the director.

Su Yuanheng didn't speak.

Beitang Minqian walked up to him and looked down at him: "I didn't come here to quarrel with you. Let's have a good talk."

"What are you talking about?" Su Yuanheng asked casually with a weak voice.

Beitang Minqian frowned lightly again, leaned down and stared at him: "Where did you go then? When did you come home? Why did you resign and come to America?"

"...What about you? Where have you been these few months? What have you done?" Su Yuanheng finally raised his head, looked at him and asked.

Beitang Minqian showed a somewhat irritable expression, straightened his back and said: "I was going to find you, but I have something to do here, so I came back."

He said it lightly, which made Su Yuanheng extremely disappointed.

"Why aren't you talking? Yuanheng, you haven't answered my question yet."

Su Yuanheng said indifferently: "There is no reason, I came back when I wanted to."

"Didn't you come to find me?"

Su Yuanheng smiled suddenly: "Why did I come to you? Did you tell me again when you came back?"

"Yuanheng, I don't like your attitude." Beitang Minqian's voice was a little cold, "Did you think I didn't want to tell you at that time? But where are you? You ran away from home in the middle of the night, your phone was turned off, and your whereabouts were unknown. I told you to air?"

Su Yuanheng pressed down on his abdomen without any trace. The impact just now made his stomach ache. He was worried that he would hurt the child, and he had no energy to entangle with him. He said tiredly: "I don't want to talk to you now, please leave, I want to rest gone."

Beitang Minqian raised his eyebrows: "You drive me away?"

"It's up to you to understand it. This is not our home in City A, please respect me."

Beitang Minqian stood there in astonishment.

Su Yuanheng stood up slowly with the help of the sofa, and walked slowly towards the stairs.

Beitang Minqian looked at his back, and suddenly said: "Don't you want to know why I came to you? Feili."

Hearing the unfamiliar but familiar name, Su Yuanheng froze all over, and slowly turned his head while holding on to the handrail of the stairs.

"you……"

Beitang Minqian was frightened by his expression: "Yuan Heng, what's wrong with you?"

"You... what did you call me just now?"

"Oh, Yuanheng? Or... Feili?"

Su Yuanheng only felt his eyes go dark, his world was spinning, and he gradually fell limp.

Beitang Minqian was taken aback, rushed over, picked him up and put him on the sofa in the living room.

In fact, Su Yuanheng didn't pass out, he just felt dizzy and weak for a moment, he was in a trance for a while, and soon woke up, and saw Beitang Minqian looking at him anxiously.

Seeing his concerned face, Su Yuanheng's heart warmed and he softened.

He still loves him no matter what.It seemed that he was doomed in his previous life. In this life, he might never be able to escape his feelings for this person.

"Yuanheng, what's wrong with you? What's wrong? Do you want to call a doctor?"

Beitang Minqian didn't expect that Su Yuanheng would faint in such poor health now, he was almost at a loss in fright.

"No, just a little hypoglycemia."

"Hypoglycemia? I never heard you say that."

Beitang Minqian stretched out his hand, put it on Su Yuanheng's forehead, leaned over worriedly, and asked in a low voice: "What's the matter with you? Did you really get sick? Did you come to the United States to see a doctor? You have been in the United States for the past few months. How did it go?"

The sharpness and confrontation just now have disappeared.

Su Yuanheng looked at his worried face, listened to his concerned tone, warmed his heart, and said: "It's really nothing, I'm not sick, don't worry."

Beitang Minqian frowned and wanted to speak, but Su Yuanheng interrupted him: "What did you call me just now? What do you know?"

Beitang Minqian looked at him deeply, and slowly said: "That name is really yours, right? You have been called this name before you were ten years old, right?"

Su Yuanheng was a little weak, and slowly moved his eyes away, looking at the ceiling, wondering what he was thinking.

After a while, he sighed in a low voice and said, "Yes. Before I was adopted, my name was Yan Feili."

"Yan Feili... Feili..." Beitang Minqian muttered twice.

From the first time he heard this name, he felt very familiar, as if in the distant past, he had said this name thousands of times on his lips and in his heart.

"Then you know that person—Yan Yuheng."

Su Yuanheng's heart skipped a beat, he sat up halfway on the sofa, and slowly said: "Yes, he is my father. He left me at the gate of the orphanage when I was four years old and never came back... Tell me ,what do you know?"

Beitang Minqian knew about his background, but he didn't expect him to be so calm.

He sat down by the sofa and looked at Su Yuanheng: "Don't you wonder why I suddenly returned to the United States? Don't you want to know what I have been doing these past few months?"

Su Yuanheng lowered his eyes, looked at his abdomen, stroked it lightly with his big hands, and said nothing.

Beitang Minqian didn't notice his movements, but he didn't like him avoiding his eyes.

"I told you I was going to find you, and I didn't lie to you. I think you only have two places to go, one is your home here in America, and the other is the orphanage where you once lived. You didn't bring your passport , I think you should have gone back to the orphanage, I found out the address and wanted to find you, but I was called back to the United States because of something urgent.”

Beitang Minqian paused at this point, and continued: "I encountered something in the United States, and I couldn't go back. I was very worried about you. Until a month ago, I happened to know something about you. I ran back to China in a hurry, but I couldn’t find you anywhere, and after looking around, I realized that you were actually in the United States.”

Su Yuanheng said: "What the hell do you know? Is it about my... father? How is he? What do you know? Tell me quickly!"

Beitang Minqian sighed: "Now I know I'm anxious, why didn't you admit it when my eldest sister asked you?"

"Minqian!" Su Yuanheng was really anxious.

He has a bad feeling.It must be very important for Beitang Minqian to leave his family and fiancee in the United States and run back to China to find him.And this matter concerns his father...

Although more than 20 years have passed, it would be a lie to say that he really doesn't care or mind at all.When Beitang Yazhi asked him if he didn't admit it, he was actually wary because he didn't trust Beitang Yazhi, a strong woman.What's more, this is his privacy, and he doesn't want to expose it to others.

But Beitang Minqian is different.He is the person he loves the most and is closest to in this world.Since he asked personally today, he must figure it out.

Beitang Minqian said cautiously: "I told you, don't get excited."

Su Yuanheng's heart skipped a beat, but his face remained calm: "Speak."

Beitang Minqian hesitated for a moment, and finally said: "I got the news that he is currently in a mental hospital in China, and I am afraid his time is numbered."

Su Yuanheng's expression paled instantly, he bit his lower lip tightly, and remained motionless.

"Yuanheng!" Beitang Minqian looked at his face, was startled, hugged him tightly, only to feel that his body was frighteningly cold.

Sitting on the special plane flying to China, Su Yuanheng has been absent-minded.Looking at the white floating clouds, I only feel that life is like a dream, and everything is like an illusion.

Suddenly, the little guy in his stomach threw a violent flying kick, bringing him back to his senses.

Su Yuanheng gently put his hands on his belly, his eyes drooping.

Even if everything in this world is illusory, at least the child in her womb is real.The throbbing, excitement, pain, anticipation and all the emotions he brought to himself are so vivid and kind, giving him the courage and determination to give everything for it.

Wasn't... father also like this back then?

Su Yuanheng felt a pain in his heart, and began to lose his mind again.

"Don't think about it, just eat something."

Beitang Minqian came over with a tray and arranged the things on the dining table himself.

This plane is the private plane of the Beitang family.Because of Su Yuanheng's physical condition, it was difficult to take an international flight to leave, so Beitang Minqian transferred the plane and only carried the two of them back to China.

Su Yuanheng actually doesn't have much appetite, but seeing the Chinese food that Beitang Minqian specially asked the chef to cook according to his taste, he still feels warm and tender.

"Let's sleep for a while after eating, there are still more than ten hours."

"En." Su Yuanheng responded softly.

Seeing his tired face, Beitang Minqian couldn't help regretting that he really shouldn't have told him about his father.

But then again, how could he know Su Yuanheng's physical condition at that time.He just thought at the time that that person was Su Yuanheng's biological father after all, and if he was not allowed to know the truth of the matter, he would regret it for the rest of his life.

Beitang Minqian didn't want this kind of thing to happen to Su Yuanheng, because he knew him well.He knew how affectionate Su Yuanheng was.If I knew the news about his biological father but didn't tell him, once the matter was exposed in the future, it would definitely be a knot in the hearts of the two of them.

What's more, Beitang Minqian didn't think it was necessary to hide this matter from him, but he regretted that he didn't find out his current physical condition, so he said it rashly.

"Don't worry too much, I'm here." Beitang Minqian patted the back of Su Yuanheng's hand, comforting him lightly.

He is not very good at saying comforting words, this sentence is the limit, and he really can't say more.But it was enough for Su Yuanheng.

Su Yuanheng held his hand, sighed softly, and said in a low voice, "Thank you."

Beitang Minqian put his other hand across his shoulder, holding him in his arms.

He had never hugged him like this before, and it was strange for two big men to sit together like this.But who cares, they were the only two passengers on the plane anyway.The accompanying crew members are all in the lounge and will not disturb you.

Su Yuanheng's figure is actually similar to that of Beitang Minqian. Although he does not have his proportions, he still has wide shoulders and narrow hips, a wasp waist and long legs, and he has a good figure.

It's just that his health has declined rapidly since he became pregnant, and his figure is also a little out of shape. At this moment, nestling in Beitang Minqian's arms, he feels very at ease and comfortable, and his mood is slightly calmed down.

Beitang Minqian held his hand, his gaze fell on his protruding belly, and a smile could not help but appear on the corner of his mouth.

He really didn't expect that Su Yuanheng was the Maya man his elder sister said, and he really couldn't wish for it.

When he told the news about his father that day, Su Yuanheng's face turned pale immediately, as if he was going to faint at any moment.Beitang Minqian was so shocked that he wanted to send him to the hospital immediately, but he stopped him.

"Hurry up... make this call. Find a Dr. Zhang... Dr. Zhang."

Beitang Minqian frowned, and wanted to ask who the doctor was, but seeing how uncomfortable he was, he hurriedly called him.

This Dr. Zhang is Qiu Zhiyuan's senior and has lived in the United States for many years.Because Su Yuanheng refused to go to the hospital, Qiu Zhiyuan rummaged through the phone numbers at home, and finally found the senior's contact information, and by coincidence, it was in the neighboring town where Su Yuanheng lived, only [-] minutes' drive away. can come.

Qiu Zhiyuan passed on his data to the senior and entrusted him to take care of it.Su Yuanheng just visited his clinic last week. He wanted to see when he could return to China, so he prescribed some medicine.

Beitang Minqian made a phone call, and this doctor Zhang happened to be there, so he drove over immediately to check up on Su Yuanheng.It was determined that the fetal gas was agitated due to emotion, so he was given an injection and prescribed some miscarriage medicine, but it was not a serious problem.

When Beitang Minqian knew that Su Yuanheng was pregnant for more than four months, he was very surprised and kept staring at his belly with those slender and clear eyes. The huge surprise that followed made him so excited that he couldn't say no for a long time. Speak up.

I am going to be a father!I am going to be a father!

When he realized what Su Yuanheng's pregnancy meant, Beitang Minqian was instantly hit by this strange but proud emotion.

He has no doubt that Su Yuanheng's womb is his own flesh and blood, but he never thought that one day he would have a child with Su Yuanheng.No, in other words, he was too young to be ready to be a father, but when he realized that he was about to be promoted, he unexpectedly felt heartfelt excitement and joy about it.

At this moment, Su Yuanheng had a panoramic view of all his reactions.

Although Su Yuanheng was lying on the bed exhausted and exhausted, he was still secretly paying attention to his reaction.Originally, when Dr. Zhang came, he wanted Beitang Minqian to leave the bedroom, but... this matter can't be hidden from beginning to end, since he has already found him, he should let him know, so let's take a gamble...

He saw Beitang Minqian was stunned for three minutes after listening to Dr. Zhang's diagnosis.Then his face changed suddenly, and he stared at his stomach in surprise and joy.

Su Yuanheng was uneasy, he was not sure about Beitang Minqian's attitude.Because during the six-year relationship between the two, he felt that Beitang Minqian was as free as an eagle, unwilling to be bound by anything.Sometimes when the two of them chatted, when it came to the topic of children, Beitang Minqian always said: "Children are a kind of burden, and it is too troublesome to raise them."

At that time, Beitang Minqian was very young, and Su Yuanheng was not surprised by his thoughts.

Later, he entered the entertainment circle, and in that intricate and colorful world, he became more unruly, and had a spectatorial and playful attitude towards everything. Su Yuanheng felt that he would not consider children's matters even more.So for so many years, he never mentioned his Maya physique.

But sometimes, walking with Beitang Minqian and meeting parents with children, Beitang Minqian would always play and laugh with the children happily, which made him feel that he was not so disgusted with children. Maybe it's just because of his origin and growth environment that he doesn't want his own children.

Su Yuanheng observed silently for a while, and was obviously pleasantly surprised to see Beitang Minqian's eyes sparkling and the corners of his mouth twitching slightly.But I don't know what attitude he will have when he calms down.

After seeing off Dr. Zhang, Beitang Minqian really began to think about this matter carefully.He circled the living room twice, slowly following the clues.

Obviously, Su Yuanheng had concealed from him that he was a Maya, and...if Dr. Zhang hadn't been called by accident today, he still couldn't guarantee that Su Yuanheng would confess to him.

Beitang Minqian frowned.He respected Su Yuanheng's intentions, but he didn't like his concealment attitude.

He thought for a while, kept the matter in his heart, went back upstairs as if nothing had happened, smiled at Su Yuanheng, and went over to kiss him.

"Honey, you're hiding it so well."

Su Yuanheng's heart skipped a beat, but after Beitang Minqian's words, he never brought up this topic again. He just touched his stomach excitedly and smiled happily.

"Haha, I'm going to have a son!"

"...How do you know it's your son?"

"Daughter is also fine. I like everything you gave birth to." Beitang Minqian smiled, leaned over and kissed him tenderly.

Su Yuanheng was confused by his attitude.He didn't mention anything about his concealment of his physique and pregnancy, which made Su Yuanheng a little uneasy.

But he didn't have time to think about Beitang Minqian's thoughts, he was eager to return to China.

Su Yuanheng's blood pressure was on the high side, and his current physical condition was not suitable for flying, but he rarely became stubborn.

The father who disappeared for many years finally got news, so how can he stay in the United States with peace of mind?

Although Beitang Minqian was annoyed that he had told him about it, he still couldn't resist his insistence on returning to China, so he finally used a private jet to fly him back all the way.

Su Yuanheng moved, broke away from Beitang Minqian's arms, and unfastened his seat belt.

"do what?"

"Go to the bathroom." Su Yuanheng said to get up.

"I go with you."

Su Yuanheng listened and glanced at him with a smile: "Why are you accompanying me? I'll go by myself, you sit down."

After hearing this, Beitang Minqian sat back on his seat, took out the magazine and read it casually.

Su Yuanheng came back in a while, bowing his head while walking to tie the cuff buttons on his shirt.

Beitang Minqian looked at him and smiled slightly, and was about to speak when suddenly the body trembled violently.

Su Yuanheng was caught off guard.Unlike ordinary airliners, private jets have two rows of seats, which can be leaned on at will.In the spacious and comfortable cabin, there are only a few sofas far apart.Su Yuanheng staggered, immediately lost his footing, and fell in the direction of Beitang Minqian following the turbulence of the plane.

Beitang Minqian stretched out his hand in fright, and quickly caught him.Then the plane shook violently twice, and slowly calmed down.

"Yuanheng, are you okay?" Beitang Minqian asked nervously.

Su Yuanheng was falling on his lap, this position was a bit awkward, he wanted to get up and return to his seat, but was hugged tightly by him.

"I'm fine, I'm just not standing still."

Seeing that he looked normal, Beitang Minqian touched his stomach and said, "Fortunately, the child is fine."

Su Yuanheng's heart suddenly sank when he heard this, but he didn't speak in silence.

The plane had stabilized, and a random attendant came in to take a look, and Su Yuanheng had already sat back in his seat.

Beitang Minqian asked, "Are you tired? Go sleep for a while."

Su Yuanheng was indeed tired, so he nodded and went into the bedroom inside.After lying down for a while, Beitang Minqian also came in and lay down behind him.

Su Yuanheng moved inside, and Beitang Minqian reached out to hug him.

Su Yuanheng didn't know why, and felt a little conflicted in his heart, but there was nowhere to hide on the special plane, so he had to hold him.

Beitang Minqian's hand was originally on his waist, and then slowly lowered to his protruding belly, rubbing it lightly.

"Yuanheng, are you asleep?"

Su Yuanheng didn't speak.

"Feili, are you asleep?"

Su Yuanheng's heart skipped a beat, and he couldn't help but say, "Why do you call me Feili?"

Beitang Minqian smiled lowly: "I know you're not asleep. Hey, I like to call you Feili, I think this name sounds nice."

"What's there to hear?"

"I don't know, it seems that I have called you thousands of times and tens of thousands of times. You don't like it?"

"...No, I'm just not used to it." In fact, he couldn't tell why, every time he heard him say that, his heart beat violently, as if... there was a kind of intimacy that was more intimate than before, spreading deep in his heart .

Maybe it's because of his real name, maybe it's because of the name his father gave him, maybe... it's because of the meaning of the name itself.In short, Su Yuanheng was inexplicably moved when he heard him calling himself that.

Beitang Minqian rested his head on the back of his neck, breathing next to his ears, his voice was low, hoarse and soft.

"Feili...Feili...don't say goodbye...that's a good name."

Su Yuanheng slowly closed his eyes, and vaguely went back to the distant past. His father once hugged him like this, and murmured softly: "Xiaoli, Feili... the meaning of this name is to never leave. You Remember..."

remember……

Dad, I remember, but what about you?you still left me...

Even the person behind him will leave one day...