seek fate

Su Yuanheng fell asleep in a daze, Beitang Minqian didn't do anything, just hugged him gently, and fell asleep unconsciously.

The plane landed smoothly, and when Su Yuanheng got off the plane, his expression was very bad.For a long flight, although he was on a special plane with superior conditions, flying is flying, and his body at this time is really struggling, not to mention the problem of jet lag.

Beitang Minqian saw his discomfort and wanted to take him to the hospital, but he stopped him.

"Let's go home first and rest a little bit."

Beitang Minqian frowned: "Yuanheng, why are you always pushing yourself so hard. You are not alone now, you should pay attention to your health. You should go to the hospital for an examination first."

Seeing his firm attitude, Su Yuanheng had no choice but to say: "Let's go back to pack our luggage first, and then go here." He said and handed Qiu Zhiyuan's business card.Jian Beitang Minqian looked at him suspiciously, and explained: "I have been checking here, this doctor knows my situation very well, it is not good to change hospitals temporarily. Besides, I don't want others to know, and your face, Let’s be more restrained at home.”

Beitang Minqian felt that what he said was right, and pushed the sunglasses on his face: "Okay."

The two returned to the apartment first.After being vacant for almost two months, the house is full of dust.Beitang Minqian took the initiative and started to clean up by himself, but these things were very unfamiliar to him, so Su Yuanheng shook his head.

Su Yuanheng was very tired, but because of jet lag, he couldn't sleep for a while, so he went to the kitchen to make lunch.The two had a simple meal, and after Su Yuanheng had a rest in the afternoon, Beitang Minqian stuffed him into the car and came to Qiu Zhiyuan's clinic.

Su Yuanheng had called before returning to China, so Qiu Zhiyuan was not surprised to see him, but Beitang Minqian made his eyes widen.

"Strange, why do I think you look familiar?"

Beitang Minqian put on makeup and a pair of ordinary glasses, and his whole temperament changed.He said lightly: "Doctor, are you checking me or him?"

Qiu Zhiyuan was a little embarrassed, he quickly grinned, and turned his attention to Su Yuanheng.

Seeing the mysterious image wriggling on the screen, Su Yuanheng was a little dazed.Mystery, wonder, joy, surprise and other emotions are intertwined, so complicated that he can't explain.

Beitang Minqian was obviously more excited than him, because the hand he was holding was trembling slightly.

It's just ultrasound, but it truly makes the two of them feel the magic of life.

The emotion in Beitang Minqian's heart at this moment was indescribable, and he stared at the screen in a daze.

Su Yuanheng looked at him, and saw that his usually indifferent and dark eyes were shining with a bright light, which was a look he had never seen before.

"The child is very healthy. You can't see a boy or a girl from this position. It will be easy in a month or two. But you are a little anemic, your blood pressure is too high, and your physical fitness is not very good. It may be because you have been traveling too hard recently. And You are not a woman, and I can't tell you about some situations, so you must have a good rest. It is best to stay in bed for a while." Qiu Zhiyuan said.

Su Yuanheng hummed and did not speak, but Beitang Minqian suddenly came to his senses and asked, "Can he travel far away in his current situation?"

Qiu Zhiyuan was stunned: "What? Going out again? Stop joking."

Su Yuanheng said: "I want to know, is the child's current situation stable or unstable?"

Qiu Zhiyuan glanced at him and said, "It's relatively stable, after all, it's been five months. But..."

Su Yuanheng interrupted him: "That's good. Don't worry, I'm also a doctor, and I won't mess around."

Beitang Minqian frowned and remained silent.Qiu Zhiyuan also frowned.

Qiu Zhiyuan prescribed medicine for Su Yuanheng and explained the precautions in detail.Beitang Minqian listened very carefully and asked some questions from time to time.

Su Yuanheng was indeed tired, a little drowsy, and fell asleep when he got into the car.

The two returned home at night, and Su Yuanheng rested early, but he did not forget to remind Beitang Minqian to take him to see his father immediately tomorrow.

Beitang Minqian is really suffering now and can't tell.Before leaving, Qiu Zhiyuan repeatedly told him that it is best not to let him go out at this time.But you don't let him go, is it possible?

Beitang Minqian had no choice but to arrange the itinerary. The next morning, the two still set off on time.

The nursing home where Yan Yuheng lived was not far from their city.Because they were worried about Su Yuanheng's health, they didn't take the train, but drove there.It only took one day to get there.

Su Yuanheng was a little nervous and excited.He doesn't know what his father looks like now, he only knows that he has liver cancer, which is in the terminal stage, and I'm afraid he doesn't have much time left.

Su Yuanheng was so indescribably sad that when he saw the bony figure on the hospital bed, he almost collapsed.

Yan Yuheng sat on the hospital bed with his knees hugged, tilted his head and looked out the window, muttering to himself.

No one knew what he was talking about, and no one cared about the words of a madman.

Su Yuanheng stood at the door, not daring to move.

Beitang Minqian stood silently behind him, after a while, he said softly: "Go in, I will accompany you."

Su Yuanheng didn't know how he got into the room.After what seemed like a century, he finally came to his father's bedside.

Looking at the strange but familiar old face, tears flowed down like that.

"dad……"

A call, condensed how many years of longing and resentment.

Yan Yuheng looked back at Su Yuanheng, smiled, and turned back again.

He didn't seem to understand or recognize who the person in front of him was.

Su Yuanheng slowly approached him, tentatively put his hand on his shoulder, and called softly: "Dad...do you still recognize me? I am... Xiaoli..."

Yan Yuheng didn't respond, and was still staring out the window in a daze.

Su Yuanheng felt like a huge rock was pressing on his heart, making him almost out of breath.

Beitang Minqian patted him, and said in a low voice: "Don't get too excited, it's useless. The doctor said that he doesn't know anyone, which is better. And his illness is not aggressive, just immersed in his own world. "

Su Yuanheng bit his lip, suppressed his sobs, and asked in a low voice, "How long has he been here? Who sent him here?"

"It's been about seven or eight years. I have never known your life experience, so I haven't investigated it deliberately. I only got news about him recently. The person who sent him here is his friend in the painting world, and the same person has paid for the medical expenses in the past few years. out."

Su Yuanheng was in a daze, and after a long time, he slowly asked: "How much time does he have?"

Beitang Minqian was silent for a moment, then said: "The doctor said, it's only been about a month."

At this moment, Yan Yuheng suddenly turned his head around and flashed an empty smile at them.

Su Yuanheng felt cramped in his heart, and after a while, he said with difficulty: "I want to take him out of the hospital."

Beitang Minqian did not speak.

Su Yuanheng said: "I want to take him home and take care of him personally."

"But you are currently in a special physical condition, how do you take care of him? Besides, the hospital has relatively complete equipment, so stay here..."

"No! I want to take him home." Su Yuanheng interrupted him lightly. "I'm a doctor myself, and I know how to take care of a...terminal cancer patient." He said the last few words with great difficulty.

"And he doesn't have much time. You also said that his illness is not dangerous." Su Yuanheng raised his head, looked at Beitang Minqian who was standing beside him, and begged deeply: "Help me. Let me take him back..."

Beitang Minqian couldn't refuse Su Yuanheng like this.Looking at those dark and moist eyes, showing such helplessness and pleading, what else can he say?

After careful consideration, he looked at Yan Yuheng who was so emaciated on the hospital bed that only a bone remained, and finally nodded: "Okay."

Su Yuanheng smiled at him and held his hand gratefully.

After Yan Yuheng was discharged from the hospital, it went smoothly unexpectedly.Because the patient is not long to come, and Beitang Minqian has great skills, so this matter was settled quickly.

On the way back, Yan Yuheng was very cooperative and hardly responded.Let him go and let him sit.Except that the pain was very severe when it happened, Beitang Minqian had to hold him down and let Su Yuanheng give him an injection, and everything else went well.

But Beitang Minqian knew that with Su Yuanheng's current situation, even if he said it was fine, he still didn't feel at ease.So after returning, Beitang Minqian hired a professional psychiatric nurse.

This is a male nurse who is experienced in caring for mental patients and is no stranger to terminal cancer patients.

The treatment given by Beitang Minqian is very generous, and with the power of the Beitang family, it is easy to find such a person.

They didn't go back to their home directly, Beitang Minqian took Su Yuanheng and his father to a villa in the suburbs.

"Here?" Su Yuanheng was a little strange.

Beitang Minqian smiled: "I bought this with the money I spent as a model last year. I wanted to give you an unexpected surprise when I came back a few months ago, but it has been delayed until now."

He picked up Yan Yuheng who was in a coma, and led Su Yuanheng into the house.The decoration inside is very comfortable and simple, but it is a bit empty and looks lacking in popularity.

"A lot of things are not ready yet, let's add them slowly. The environment here is good, and there are many rooms. When Nurse Chen comes, there will be a place to live, so you can take care of your father."

"Well, it's good."

Originally, Su Yuanheng was worried that the place they lived in was just a simple two-bedroom and two-bathroom. With Yan Yuheng and a professional nurse, they might not be able to live there. Unexpectedly, Beitang Minqian prepared this place.

Arranging Yan Yuheng in the bedroom, Su Yuanheng looked at his father who was still sleeping.Beitang Minqian walked over, hugged him from behind, and said softly: "Man's fate is destined by God. Don't be too sad."

"...Hmm. I'm lucky to be able to see him in my lifetime and to do my last bit of filial piety."

Beitang Minqian saw that he looked gloomy and was not in good condition, so he changed the subject and said, "I bought this house specially for the two of us, and I will show you around."

Su Yuanheng's heart moved, he looked at him, but didn't speak.

Beitang Minqian smiled slightly: "Let's go."

He took Su Yuanheng to visit the villa slowly, and said as he walked: "When we traveled to France the year before last, you said that you liked the style of villas in rural towns very much. I came here to shoot an advertisement last summer, and I happened to see that the villa area here is under construction. Sales, I bought it on a whim without discussing with you, thinking that I can come here for vacation in winter and summer, what do you think?"

Su Yuanheng was in a daze back to before they had a quarrel, when the two did talk about buying a villa in the suburbs in the future.

"Look, this is our master bedroom, and there is an empty room next to it. I originally planned to use it as a study room, but now I can just turn it into a nursery room. Haha, fortunately, it hasn't been renovated yet." Beitang Minqian immediately smiled when he mentioned the child , with a childish complacency in his expression.

Su Yuanheng was stunned.

He didn't think that far ahead at all.Hearing Beitang Minqian said that he bought this house last year to live with him, if they hadn't quarreled, he would have been pleasantly surprised and happy, but at this moment, he was only slightly dazed.

and I live here?What about your family?Where's your...fiancée?

Su Yuanheng couldn't ask.Seeing Beitang Minqian excitedly dragging him around, he couldn't let the questions weighing on his mind disturb his interest.

In the evening, that Nurse Chen arrived with her luggage and lived next to Yan Yuheng's "ward" on the first floor.Beitang Minqian and Su Yuanheng's bedrooms are on the second floor. Nurse Chen was slightly surprised to see them "living together".However, he was calm and professional, so he didn't ask too many questions.

In this way, Su Yuanheng stayed with his father in the villa.Beitang Minqian moved their things from their original home, but he got busy himself.

Because of leaving the United States suddenly, there are still many things that have not been dealt with there.For Beitang Yazhi's relentless pursuit, Beitang Minqian felt very impatient.

He has taken over the affairs of the family again.There was no way around it. It was supposed to be three years, but in fact he had been "wandering" outside for more than six years.Thanks to Beitang Yazhi's patience, she has endured until now.

Su Yuanheng also noticed that he was busy, but he put all his attention on his father, so he didn't care.

That day when Beitang Minqian came home, he didn't see the father and son in the room. Nurse Chen told him that they were in the yard.

Beitang Minqian came to the backyard and saw Yan Yuheng sitting in a wheelchair, covered with a thick blanket.Su Yuanheng sat aside, carefully digging out the apple puree with a spoon, and feeding him bit by bit.

Beitang Minqian walked over, sat down beside Su Yuanheng, and asked in a low voice, "How is Dad today?"

I don't know when, Beitang Minqian followed Su Yuanheng and called Yan Yuheng "Daddy".Su Yuanheng was a little strange at the beginning, but he didn't ask him, because he was afraid that Beitang Minqian would say something like "your father is my father".

If that is the case, Su Yuanheng is afraid that he will misunderstand something and have fantasies that he should not have, so it is better to keep silent and let this "intimacy" in disguise continue.

"Still the same."

"Have you ever had any pain?"

Su Yuanheng nodded, and said in a low voice, "I added the medicine today."

Beitang Minqian remained silent.For patients with this advanced cancer, morphine is the only drug left.

Su Yuanheng put down the apple, took out a tissue, and carefully wiped the drool from the corner of Yan Yuheng's mouth.

Beitang Minqian looked at his calm face and asked softly, "How are you today? Did the child bother you?"

"fine."

Beitang Minqian put his hand on his belly, lowered his eyebrows, and felt it carefully.

It was also such a coincidence that the child seemed to feel his father's touch, and suddenly moved a little bit with great strength, pushing up Su Yuanheng's belly.

"It moved! It's so powerful." Beitang Minqian couldn't help but exclaimed in surprise.He had never felt such a strong fetal movement.

Su Yuanheng smiled wryly.Since entering the fifth month, the child's movements have gradually become more obvious. Before, he could only feel it by himself, but now he can feel it when he puts his hand on his belly.

"One day we will go to check again to see if it is a boy or a girl." Beitang Minqian said excitedly, squatting down and sticking his head to Su Yuanheng's stomach.

"Do you like boys or girls?" Su Yuanheng asked casually.

"It's all good. But it's better to have a boy first. The next child will be a girl, so that I can protect my sister when I grow up." Beitang Minqian said casually.

Su Yuanheng was slightly taken aback.

The next birth is a girl?

He... still wants to give birth to him again?This means... Do you still want to be with him forever?

Suddenly Yan Yuheng moved, and slowly turned his head, looking at the two of them.

"Father, what do you want?" Su Yuanheng didn't focus on the little life in his womb like Beitang Minqian, and asked quickly when he saw his father's movements.

Yan Yuheng stared blankly at his stomach, and suddenly said softly, "Baby...you have a baby..."

Su Yuanheng's expression moved slightly, and he said, "Yes. Dad, I have a baby."

Yan Yuheng raised his head to look at him, then looked down at his stomach, with a thoughtful look on his face, he said slowly: "I also have a baby...my baby...Xiao Li...my son is called Xiao Li .”

There was a huge wave in Su Yuanheng's heart.He tried his best to restrain his excitement and said calmly, "Yes, Dad, I am Xiao Li. I am your son Xiao Li."

Yan Yuheng looked at him again, as if he didn't understand what he was talking about.He looked down at his stomach and touched it, it was flat.Then he looked at Su Yuanheng's swollen belly and tilted his head in thought.

"dad……"

Su Yuanheng looked at him excitedly and expectantly.But Yan Yuheng just mumbled blankly: "Where is Xiaoli? Where is my son?"

"Father, I'm right here!" Su Yuanheng knelt beside him and held his hand.

However, Yan Yuheng's gaze passed through him and landed on a distant, unknown place, as if he had suddenly realized something, and said sadly: "I lost him... I left my son... ..."

"Father!" Su Yuanheng's heart was shaken, and finally he couldn't help crying.

Beitang Minqian watched them silently. At some point, Nurse Chen came behind him and said softly, "Some mental patients will suddenly wake up, but their memory will be disturbed. For him... it may be a flashback."

His voice was very low, obviously he didn't want Su Yuanheng to hear him.

Beitang Minqian led him away for a distance, and asked, "Do you think it is possible for him to fully recover before he dies?"

Nurse Chen shook her head: "It's hard to say, this situation varies from person to person. But I think his hope is quite high, after all, Mr. Su is by his side."

Beitang Minqian looked at the father and son, sighed, and said, "You take good care of him, and I'll leave it to you. If it's possible...forget it, it might not be a bad thing."

"Yeah, it's a pain just thinking about it."

In the evening, Beitang Minqian came out of the bathroom after taking a bath, and saw Su Yuanheng lying sideways on the bed, as if he had fallen asleep.

He turned off the light, threw off the quilt and got into bed, hugging him from behind.

Su Yuanheng moved suddenly, turned around, and said softly, "Do you think Dad will recognize me?"

"Yes. You are his son."

Su Yuanheng stared blankly at the ceiling, and said softly, "I'm afraid it's too late..."

Beitang Minqian hugged him vigorously.

Su Yuanheng turned his head sideways and looked at him in the dark: "I haven't told you yet, thank you."

"No thanks. I'm also sorry I didn't hear from you sooner."

"I've always wanted to ask, how...how did you find my father?"

Beitang Minqian was silent for a while, and said: "We have been together for so many years, I have never asked about your personal affairs, because I respect you, and if you don't tell me, I will never get to the bottom of it. This time... it is me The eldest sister sent someone to investigate."

Su Yuanheng's heart skipped a beat, thinking of that meeting in the villa, Beitang Yazhi directly asked him if he knew Yan Yuheng.She must have investigated it at that time, right?It's just that Beitang Yazhi's mind is too deep, the purpose of doing this...

"Your eldest sister, you already know that I am a Maya. I am now...does she know?"

"Hmph. There's something she doesn't know." Beitang Minqian's voice was a little cold, and then he tightened his hands, and said softly, "Don't worry, the head of the Beitang family is still me, and I won't let her hurt you and the child of."

"Mrs. Ji is not that kind of person." Su Yuanheng is not worried about this at all, but the child in his womb not only hides his identity, but is also an illegitimate child.If Beitang Minqian gets married in the future...will he take the child away?

As long as Su Yuanheng thinks about it like this, his heart will tighten with pain.

"What's wrong?" Beitang Minqian sensitively sensed that something was wrong with him.

Su Yuanheng tried his best to suppress that emotion, but for some reason, he couldn't stop it tonight, and he couldn't help crying.

Maybe it was because his father was dying of an illness not long ago, which made his heart ache unbearably.

Maybe it's because the child in the womb is getting bigger and bigger, connected by flesh and blood, and more affectionate.

Perhaps Beitang Minqian's idea of ​​getting married was always in his heart.

Maybe... just the mood swings during pregnancy.In short, a tear trail rolled down the corner of Su Yuanheng's eyes.

He feels too tired.Very tired, very tired.

The silver tear stains reflected the waves of light in the darkness.Beitang Minqian's eyesight was sharp, he couldn't help being taken aback, stood up and turned on the bedside lamp, and said in astonishment, "Are you crying?"

Su Yuanheng raised his arms to cover his face, and murmured, "Minqian, don't take this child away...I beg you..."

Beitang Minqian was shocked, and hurried forward to pull him: "What are you talking about. Why did I take the child away? Don't think about it!"

Su Yuanheng shook his head.

Beitang Minqian said: "Tell me what's on your mind, don't be so stuffy all the time, don't you know I'm in a hurry? Why do you want me to take the child away? Am I going to let you separate from the child?"

Su Yuanheng calmed down slowly: "Even if you can't, others can..."

Beitang Minqian interrupted him sharply: "No one will! As long as I am here, this kind of thing will not be allowed to happen!"

Su Yuanheng was slightly shocked, lowered his arms, and looked straight at him.

Because Beitang Minqian was angry, his beautiful eyes like autumn water were exceptionally bright in the dark night.He stared at Su Yuanheng closely, and after a while, he sighed softly, leaned down, and bit his lips.

At times like this, no amount of talk is effective.

Su Yuanheng trembled slightly, and wrapped his arms around him.

The two exchanged words, Beitang Minqian originally wanted to "punish" him, but Su Yuanheng took the initiative to pester him and couldn't stop.

Beitang Minqian pressed his head with one hand, kissed him deeply, and slowly stretched out his hand under Su Yuanheng's body, rubbing it back and forth.

When the two parted, they were both very emotional and out of breath.

Su Yuanheng said hoarsely: "Turn off the light..."

Beitang Minqian looked at him, his dark eyes stained with deep lust, turned off the light with his backhand, and kissed his lips slowly.

In the dark night, the two were tightly entangled, and their pajamas were messy with each other.

Beitang Minqian put his hand into Su Yuanheng's pajama pants, and asked hoarsely, "Is that okay?"

Su Yuanheng covered his hot and firm part with his backhand, silently inviting.

The two hadn't had sex for several months, so they couldn't help being very emotional at this time.Especially Beitang Minqian, wished he could go deep into the cave immediately like before, and turn his head upside down.But thinking of Su Yuanheng's current body, he had to work hard to suppress it and slowly develop it.

Su Yuanheng's genitals also stood up early, Beitang Minqian held it, and Su Yuanheng's hand also covered his place.

The two were very familiar with each other's bodies, and they had a good time just using their hands.

Beitang Minqian said in a hoarse voice, "Why don't we just do this..."

However, Su Yuanheng was a little unsatisfied, and whispered: "It's okay. Come on." He slowly took off his pajama pants and threw them aside.

Beitang Minqian thought that he had been pregnant for more than six months now, so it shouldn't matter, so he reached out and opened the drawer beside the bed, and took out ointment and a condom.

Su Yuanheng was a little surprised: "You want to wear a condom?"

They have been dating for so long, Beitang Minqian has hardly used that thing, seeing that he had prepared those things in the drawer at some time, he was secretly surprised.

Beitang Minqian was a little embarrassed, and said, "I asked Dr. Qiu, and he said it's best to use this." He bowed his head and kissed him, and started to act.

He knew that Su Yuanheng was in a bad mood recently, and proper sex could relieve his stress, so he deliberately wanted to please him, so he slowly opened his body, made foreplay sideways, and then inserted it patiently.

Beitang Minqian has rich experience in this field, and he and Su Yuanheng have always worked together, so it is natural and hearty.

Su Yuanheng hadn't had love for a long time, but now he felt hot all over, and the most primitive desire slowly awakened from the bottom of his heart, he couldn't help but clutch the bed sheet under him, and moaned.

Beitang Minqian likes to hear his "calling bed" sound the most, but Su Yuanheng is shy and introverted, and even in the most intense moments, he just can't restrain himself from making a sound.When Beitang Minqian heard his voice at this time, his head became dizzy for a while, and his movements became more and more loud.

The large and comfortable mattress was bumped up and down by them, making a low and hoarse "squeak" sound.In the end, Su Yuanheng couldn't help but climbed onto the railing at the head of the bed with both hands, and could only cooperate with Beitang Minqian's "exercise" with his stomach straight.

"Enough, enough... I can't do it..."

Su Yuanheng yelled several times in a low voice, and Beitang Minqian suddenly realized.

When this husband-wife movement finally ended, Su Yuanheng was already so weak that he had no strength left.

Beitang Minqian leaned on the bedside, turned on the lamp, subconsciously touched the cigarettes in the drawer, suddenly remembered Su Yuanheng's current body, and held back again.

Su Yuanheng fell into a deep sleep, Beitang Minqian bent down, looked at his sleeping face, and suddenly sighed.

"Yuan Heng, Yuan Heng, what are you thinking..."

Mumbling to myself, floating in the night.

A petal of sweet fragrance.