for love

"Are you really going to America?" Xie Jiashu leaned against the stairs, looking coldly at his brother who stopped at a loss and raised his head.

The movement of the man shrunk his shoulders as if he was afraid of the cold made his originally not tall and straight body look even thinner. He stood there awkwardly, moved his lips a few times, and murmured as if he had made up his mind: "I... want to go... "

It might not be possible to please the family tree here, it will only make him hate him more every time.

His clumsiness and stupidity are often the direct cause of Xie Jiashu's anger. Maybe the distance will make him think of his goodness...

It was much better than making him angry now and then.

Xie Jiashu stared at him for a while, pursing his thin lips, then suddenly smiled indifferently, shrugged his shoulders and walked away.

Xie Zhishu still maintained the posture of looking up, looking at the empty stairway for a while, and then suddenly lowered his head as if discouraged, and the angle of his shoulders drooped even more.

The indifferent appearance was completely different from the excitement at the dinner table.

At that time, he might just be impulsive and unwilling, but now that he thinks that he is actually just an insignificant toy...it's easy to let go.

He has nothing worth keeping.

The corners of his eyes were red and trembling slightly, and he returned to the room with his arms folded, and stood beside the bed for a long time in a daze, until his calves were trembling like his whole body and he couldn't stand anymore, then he remembered that he could sit on the bed.

In a room that is too quiet, loneliness magnifies all the sadness many times.

The corners of the eyes that were just red at first, shed tears uncontrollably, but Xie Zhishu angrily refused to wipe them off, but the tears flowed even more fiercely.

He, he is nothing that Xie Jiashu can cherish.

but……

Even if he can't do anything well, will only cause trouble and only make the family tree angry, he doesn't want to leave him at all...

He is cowardly and selfish, even if Xie Jiashu hates him, he can't stand not seeing Xie Jiashu.

Just thinking about the days without a family tree in the future, my heart feels like it's about to break.The trace of comfort that I wanted to live with my mother disappeared without a trace.

Even if Jiashu always beats and scolds him, even if his mother is so gentle, he still wants to choose Xie Jiashu.

It turns out that to him, family is important, and Xie Jiashu's family is the most important.

As long as the younger brother can look him in the eyes and say that he can't bear him, it's fine, or he can't let go if he treats him domineeringly as a toy.As long as he says not to let him go again, he will really...

Even if the sky falls, he will not leave his side.

However, Family Tree didn't say anything.All he got was a cold snort and a disdainful smile.

Let him stay by his side so dryly, wagging his tail like a dog, even if he has no shame, he can't do it anymore.

For the sake of his family tree, he can let go of all his dignity, and even be a loyal dog by his side as he wishes, but the master no longer needs him, so the obvious disdain makes him no longer have any reason to hold on to him.

Xie Zhishu suppressed his voice and sat on the edge of the bed crying, almost unable to open his eyes, and his mind was not very clear, so he fumbled to open the small bedside table.

The family tree has always disliked him.A child is too vicious, as long as it is something he touches, it will be thrown away without hesitation.

Every drawer and every cabinet in his room is stuffed with old things that were secretly picked up from the family tree.

A worn-out watch, a plush toy that he only played with once, a beautiful box left over from chocolates that he never ate... Xie Zhishu has an obsessive obsession with collecting all things related to the family tree.

In the bedside table replaced from the family tree's room, there were two small clay figurines lying quietly.

It was the only time when my mother took the two brothers out to play when I was a child.The small stall set up by the old man on the roadside, the small clay figurines are not exquisite but very real, just like him and his family tree when he was a child.

At that time, there was one person, and Family Tree, who had never received any toys, held the clay figurines in his hands and cherished them like gold and silver treasures, even though the clay figurines were not strictly toys.

And Xie Jiashu just glanced at it for a few moments, and then threw his mouth into Zhishu's arms.

"Who wants such a broken thing?"

Arrogant child.Such a bad personality since childhood.

But Xie Zhishu didn't find it annoying. No matter how bad Jiashu's mouth was, he had bullied him when he was a child, but facing that face that was prettier than a girl's, the only feeling he had was to spoil this younger brother all the time.

Although it is no longer the age to be pampered, and Xie Jiashu has no time to be pampered by him, but the usual connivance and tolerance are his ways of expressing his warmth.

Even Xie Jiashu never appreciates it.

The more I think about it, the more sad I feel.It's not that I feel wronged for myself, but I feel that I am really useless, and I have never acted like a real brother in front of the family tree.

He has a bad mind, is too cowardly, and cries at every turn, and he can't help Xie Jiashu with anything.

In fact, there is a reason for Jiashu to hate him, so humiliating him because he is not worthy of his kindness at all.

Always clumsy, can't do anything to please others, and the words that come out of the already awkward mouth are also disgusting.

When I was young, I always thought that I was an older brother so I had to protect the family tree, but often when he was being bullied by his classmates, his younger brother, who was two years younger than him, dragged him behind with a cold face, and even broke the bridge of someone else's nose with a punch bone.

The family tree has always been indifferent in my impression, maybe before he appeared he was no different from an ordinary child, but his appearance ruined too many things about him.

He has always understood that without him, the Xie family would not be what it is now.

Jiashu should have parents by his side, but his appearance caused a rift in the family. He ruined Xie's family and Jiashu's childhood.Let him be too precocious, and maybe his personality is distorted because of him.

So I feel more and more guilty, and I want to obey more and more.

When he was more than ten years old, Jiashu would say coldly to his classmates who bullied him: "He can only be bullied by me, and no one is allowed to move a finger of him."

Gradually growing up, the relationship that had been cold at first seems to have returned to the situation at that time when even "bullying" was exclusive.

But never again.

He was going to America and never saw the family tree again.

He felt that he was really crazy. Even though he was hurt like this, he still wanted to stay by his side and be humiliated and bullied by him.

Really... I have sunk too deep, and I am still holding on to the protruding stones on the cliff. Maybe one day I will fall into the bottomless pit and never climb up again.