perfect life

He Zihan helplessly put the drunk Lan Qi back on the bed, and immediately called Cao Hao over.

Three minutes later, Cao Hao was already standing at the door of Lan Qi's room panting. He Zihan saw him sweating profusely, thinking that he probably rushed over immediately after receiving his call.

He Zihan turned around and went to the bathroom, brought him a towel to wipe his sweat, and said, "I was locked in the room before, but then I suddenly opened the door and came out, saying 'Hao, you don't love me, you really don't love me' .You go and have a look."

After Cao Hao entered, the room became quiet. He Zihan finished reading the two magazines delivered today in the living room, and sat on the sofa doing nothing.

After a while, there was a burst of crying. This house should have good sound insulation effect, but Cao Hao entered in a hurry and the door was not locked. Room.

Because he usually studies by himself until 10:[-] in the evening at school, He Zihan's homework is very good.There are still more than ten days before the exam, and the content that should be reviewed is already familiar by heart, basically there is no need to study hard on any weekend.

The affairs of the student union have also come to an end for the time being. Once he is free, he doesn't know what he should do.

Sitting at the desk, I turned on the computer and wanted to watch something, but found that I couldn't see anything on the screen.

Distant memories emerged from his mind again, He Zihan glanced out the already dark window, his thoughts drifted back to three years ago.

When I left City C, I never thought about going back.

Without Chen Qiran there, there would be no He Zihan.

When he left, He Zihan only brought the notebook Chen Qiran gave him, a few sets of Chen Qiran's pajamas, the slippers and underwear he used to wear, and did not bring the rest.

Those Chen Qiran bought in the closet, at first he lied that they were his own clothes, and then he bought a lot of clothes, shoes, hats, scarves here and there, He Zihan washed them all and put them away neatly In the wardrobe, and then covered the entire wardrobe with a huge cover.

He didn't want to take these things that gave him endless memories just by looking at them.He was afraid that he would think of many things about Chen Qiran when he saw everything.Every event is a lengthy memory, and Chen Qiran in every memory makes He Zihan unable to bear the urge to cry.

He was gone, gone, not to be found.

For the past three years, Lu Senyang has sent emails to He Zihan every week, all about looking for Chen Qiran.However, after three years, there were 154 emails from Lu Senyang in the mailbox, none of which mentioned the news of finding Chen Qiran.

Every time He Zihan reads the email, he will reply to Lu Senyang, and each email has only one title——Received.

Opening the email and seeing Lu Senyang saying that there is no news as usual, He Zihan would comfort himself, no news is good news, at least, there is no proof that he is dead.

As long as they haven't been found, Chen Qiran still has the hope of being alive.As long as he lives, it's fine.

Although he knew in his heart that this was nothing but self-deception, He Zihan really couldn't accept the fact that Chen Qiran had left him.

When Chen Qiran blocked a shot for him and passed out in front of him, He Zihan tried his best not to let it reappear in his mind.

He Zihan had had enough of being trapped in a blood-red nightmare, unable to wake up or even breathe.

He still had to live, and he had to live to be able to see Chen Qiran.

She sleeps in Chen Qiran's pajamas every day, and can faintly smell his breath.

Every night, I imagine him hugging me, putting his left hand through his neck, being held in his arms, his right hand always resting on his cool abdomen, his warm and powerful abdomen sticking to his back, the whole person feels Because of his warmth, he suddenly fell asleep.

He Zihan still remembered those nights when Chen Qiran looked a little lazy and sexy in his pajamas, and fell asleep peacefully holding his hand. Now, it seems like a mirage, which cannot be touched.

Although there are many good memories, those can only stay in the past after all.

Time flies too fast, and unconsciously, I have spent nearly three years thinking about him.

Although He Zihan appeared to be very beautiful and wonderful on the surface in the past three years, the hardships behind it are probably known to no one except himself.Cao Hao and Lan Qi's matter, until today, he finally saw the clues, not because he didn't care about them, but because he didn't have time to take care of them.

I have always used jealousy, busyness and exhaustion to anesthetize myself. Only by filling my mind with professional knowledge and various planning plans of the student union, I have no extra space to think about that person.

Only from [-] am to [-] pm every day, the whole person is either studying or meeting, or on the way to do these two things.At the end of the day, after returning to Lanzaki's house to take a shower, I was already too tired to lie down.

Falling asleep on the bed in less than 3 minutes.

This is how He Zihan paralyzed himself for the past three years.

He is courteous to everyone, and everything the teacher and student council asks him to do is excellent.In his bland smile, people who had a lot of contact with him, such as Chen Shan and Bai Xiao, could feel that He Zihan seemed to reject others thousands of miles away.

Obviously he is right across from you, looking at you with his eyes, and listening to you very intently, but his heart is not here.There must be someone in that beating heart, and that person is the root cause of He Zihan's becoming like this.

Bai Xiao once wanted to test who He Zihan was. Every time she was about to ask, seeing the flickering emotions in He Zihan's eyes, and thinking of the violent reaction he might have after she asked, Bai Xiao finally gave up.

Because he is a well-known handsome freshman, after he often went to the school cafeteria and library with Bai Xiao and Chen Shan, those courtship#s and phone calls became less.

Unbeknownst to He Zihan, he has gradually become a mythical existence in M ​​University.

He listened carefully to every class he took (He Zihan basically skipped classes for self-study in some compulsory but extremely boring classes), and he listened carefully, took notes, and was full of energy in every class.

No less than 90 points in each test (including those courses that were not attended, such as XXX theory, etc.), and a special scholarship every semester from the first year of admission.If it weren't for the school's regulation that each student can only receive one national scholarship at the undergraduate level, He Zihan would probably have received it three times.

During the three years of college, He Zihan received a total of one outstanding student entrance scholarship (4), one national scholarship ([-]), one national encouragement scholarship ([-]), and [-] major scholarships ([-] each).

All this money, He Zihan, was deposited in another separate account of his own, separate from the [-] he usually brought with him when he came here—he wanted to know how much money he earned with his own hands, and how much he would have when he graduated from university.

At that time, the translation job I was looking for in City C has been persisting, and the salary has increased from 80 yuan per thousand words to 120 yuan, because the owner of the private enterprise also introduced other jobs. He Zihan worked as soon as possible in his spare time. Do your own translation work.

Because of He Zihan's high efficiency and high accuracy, the boss even gave him a year-end red envelope of 3000 yuan—it hasn't been broken since the first year.

Adding up the odds and zeros, when He Zihan went to save money one day, he suddenly found that there were already more than 8 deposits in his separate account.

This was something he had never dared to imagine in his previous years.

It has always been a weak existence, only thinking about how to survive, and worrying about how to eat and drink warmly every day. In terms of study, it has always been only average, and the embarrassing level of not getting up or down, and not getting the attention of the teacher. attention of classmates.

It's been like this since childhood.

Many years later, He Zihan recalled that maybe he was able to be admitted to Incheon Middle School back then, maybe it was really a blessing in his previous life, otherwise, he would never have known Chen Qiran, and his future life would not be like that at all.

What He Zihan didn't know was that he already possessed extraordinary memory and logical thinking ability.

In the past, my grades were not high or low because I didn't have enough time to study, and most of my time was spent on making money every day.

At that time, he didn't have enough sleep time. The small hut was too hot in summer and too cold in winter, which caused He Zihan to suffer from prickly heat or frostbite all over his body. The pain was unbearable, and his sleep quality was not good.

After arriving at university, even before moving to a house in Lanqi, He Zihan got an unprecedented amount of sleep.There is even more time to study - all the time outside the water can be used to study.

Later, he joined the student union. Although things were sometimes cumbersome and there were too many miscellaneous tasks, because he was appreciated by the chairman, those miscellaneous tasks were never his turn. All He Zihan needed to do was to write a plan for a certain event.

This kind of mental activity does not take up too much time, and He Zihan can complete it in less than an hour in the library.

He was a student who brought a computer with him as soon as he entered school. At that time, he was the only one in the dormitory with a computer. At first, He Zihan was very embarrassed.

Although he didn't mean it at all, he was afraid of causing a burden to others, so He Zihan usually didn't use the computer very much in the dormitory, but took the computer to the library for use.There are many people in the library, and many senior and graduate students, many of them bring their laptops to the library for self-study - only in such a big environment, He Zihan can use his computer with peace of mind.

Apart from attending classes and making plans, He Zihan spends the rest of his time on himself and reading.He has basically read through all the original English books in school, so He Zihan passed the College English Test Band 650 with an excellent score of [-] points, despite maintaining his excellent professional grades.

Cao Hao suggested that he take the TOEFL, IELTS or GRE certificates to increase his bargaining chips in finding a job in the future. He Zihan rejected the first two because the registration fee was too expensive, and GRE because the registration fee was 380, which was acceptable to He Zihan , so he tried to take the test once and got a score of 1500 (full score 1600, valid for 3 years).

He Zihan himself was a little surprised to achieve such a high academic performance. Sometimes he was confused and wondered if his brain began to develop after he got to university?

When he came back to his senses, he found that he had opened the document named "Unspeakable Desire" again, He Zihan couldn't help laughing.

The novel made such an impression on him that he remembered many of its details afterwards.Whenever I think of some of these things, the meeting related to Chen Qiran feels like opening the cistern of the gate, and my mind suddenly overflows.