perfect life

I closed the document, opened the browser and watched the English news for a while, but found that I still couldn't read anything.

The power of memories is too strong, so strong that he has no way to resist those things that have been hidden deep in his heart come out again and again to pay attention to.

He Zihan was afraid that those memories would be tampered with by his supervisory consciousness. He was afraid that he would only remember the good parts and forget the rest that seemed a bit bad, and that part happened to be very important memories.

He was afraid that if he recalled too many times, even his memory would be confused, so why would he face Chen Qiran at that time?

Even if life and death are uncertain, the person who is likely to meet again, if you find that you have completely remembered him in a different way, how sad and disappointed will you be? !

Not wanting to be immersed in the past blindly, He Zihan thought about what he was thinking about before, whether to go to the postgraduate entrance examination or go to work directly.

After standing up and walking out the door, he heard ambiguous panting from Lanzaki's room.

That voice was familiar to He Zihan.

There were many nights when he and Chen Qiran were doing the most intimate thing together, he couldn't help making a sound like a small animal whimpering in Chen Qiran's arms, and Chen Qiran would always say something in his ear that made people blush and heartbeat if.

Cao Hao didn't lock the door when he went in, but now the voices of the two of them because of their affair came into He Zihan's ears very clearly, stimulating his nerves.

For three years he never solved his physical problems by himself.

He was not good at it before, and it was only after he got together with Chen Qiran that he realized that men can still solve it with their hands.In the later period that could be called gluey, the two tossed and tossed for half a day every day, and He Zihan didn't have any extra energy to relieve himself.

Later, Chen Qiran suddenly stopped doing those things to him, and just simply hugged him to sleep—this made He Zihan, who was exhausted by the successive affairs, greatly relieved.

When I went to university, I occasionally had nocturnal emissions, and it was also when I dreamed about doing that thing with Chen Qiran.Every time he had such a dream, He Zihan would change out of his wet underwear in embarrassment, and wash it off quickly while no one was paying attention.

Standing at his door and listening to Lan Qi and Cao Hao's erotic activities, He Zihan felt that it was not appropriate for him to continue to stay in this room.

After taking the keys and mobile phone, after changing the shoes and gently locking the door, He Zihan walked out of the house.

Their school is located in the center of City B, within 10 minutes of leaving the school gate is the busiest commercial street, and there are four well-known shopping malls at the four corners of the intersection.

He Zihan was not interested in famous brands, but the clothes he bought according to the price after arriving in City B were really not comparable to the ones Chen Qiran bought before.

But He Zihan knew that he would not be able to enjoy such material things in his future life, so he still got used to the inferior cotton texture - the high-grade cashmere and velvet before had completely disappeared from his life.

Because he can keep himself busy as much as possible, so that he has no time to think and recall those things, He Zihan has very few opportunities to visit City B.He didn't have the turn to run errands in the student union, and it didn't suit his interest to go shopping.

The last time I came to this commercial street was actually two months ago on Bai Xiao's birthday - during this time, He Zihan was busy preparing for her early graduation, even busier than before, and had no time to go out at all.

I heard a long time ago that there is a famous gay bar in City B, it seems to be near this road.

He Zihan didn't know what was wrong with him, but he really wanted to go there to see it once.

Although he is not sure whether he is gay or not, he only loves Chen Qiran in his heart, and Chen Qiran is a man. Based on this, he can't come to the conclusion that he is gay, but he can't deny it.

There was a feeling of urgency in his heart, and his whole body was slightly hot because he was about to enter a gay world. He Zihan didn't understand what was going on with him at all.

Excited to see gay? !

This is too much to justify.

Feeling uneasy and somewhat expectant, He Zihan pushed away the people at the bar.

In the bar with blue lighting as the main light, there are not many people, because it is only nine o'clock in the evening, and the nightlife has not yet fully started.Although I went to a bar with Cao Hao before, but that time was dragged by him to watch the performance of a certain rock band. In the end, He Zihan left the venue early because he couldn't stand the noise—this bad first experience made him He Zihan thought that the bar was a very noisy and chaotic place.

Little did he know that Cao Hao took him to a bar with a lot of rock performances, which was completely different from the usual gay bars.

He Zihan sat down in an empty corner by himself, and soon a waiter came up to ask him what he needed.

He Zihan remembered that last time Cao Hao ordered the most common Budweiser beer, thinking that other things in the bar should be very expensive, and it would be shameful to sit here without ordering anything, so he said to the waiter: "A bottle of Budweiser .”

The waiter smiled inaudibly when he heard what he ordered.He Zihan was sure that he heard him laugh, but when he raised his head, he only saw the back of the man leaving.

The surrounding tables were all empty, and He Zihan didn't know what most people would order here, so the curiosity when he came here was instantly dispelled by the waiter's laughter.

Because sitting by the window, although the lights in the bar were dim, the dim yellow light at the door was always on - He Zihan could clearly see everyone who came in.

After him, people came in in twos and threes. Unlike He Zihan, those people came in in pairs.

Even though he knew beforehand that this place was gay, He Zihan still felt a little awkward when he saw that there were all men sitting around.

He was not strong enough to drink, even though it was just a bottle of Budweiser, he didn't dare to finish it carelessly and quickly.

There seems to be no resident singer in this bar, just the soothing music played by their own DJ.

Sitting there like this, He Zihan suddenly regretted - what on earth did he come here for? !$30 for a bottle of Budweiser? !Obviously in the store outside, remember Cao Hao bought it last time, it seems to be less than 8 yuan?

He Zihan sighed again.He felt that he must have gone out of his mind to enter this bar. Just as he was about to get up to pay the bill, a familiar figure came into view at the door.

He Zihan watched the man walking towards him with a smile, his eyebrows and eyes were always crooked because he was always smiling when looking at him.

He is still wearing a white T-shirt and khaki pants, exactly the same as when I saw him a long time ago.It seems that the whole person has not changed much, still so glamorous and beautiful.

Three years, whether it is long or short, He Zihan knows that he must have undergone tremendous changes, but why is Lu Senyang still the same as before?

He Zihan thought about it for a while, and quickly came to the conclusion that probably Lu Senyang had fully grown before, so there is not much change now.

Seeing that the other party sat down on the seat opposite to him very naturally, He Zihan felt a little nervous.

But what are you nervous about?

"Zihan, I didn't expect to see you here." Lu Senyang said with a smile, there were too many and complicated things in that smile, and He Zihan couldn't understand it.

"I just happened to pass by."

In order to hide his embarrassment, He Zihan picked up the beer and took another sip.From the time he picked up the bottle to the time he drank the wine in his mouth, the person sitting opposite him never took his eyes off - this made He Zihan terrified.

"I only know that you passed the test in City B, but you have never met you in City B. It has been three years, and you have never said a word to me in emails. Is there no one else in this world who can do it except Chen Qiran?" Does it impress you?"

Lu Senyang spoke bluntly, and He Zihan turned pale after hearing what he said.

In the past three years, Chen Qiran has never been mentioned in front of him. Although he always remembers that person in his heart and misses him day and night, the name of the person in his heart...

The secret in his heart was suddenly revealed by Lu Senyang. The feeling was subtly like a person secretly looking in the mirror, but another person witnessed the whole process, which made He Zihan feel uncomfortable all over.

Taking a deep breath, considering the identity of the other party, He Zihan asked himself to use a tone as appropriate as possible: "Please don't mention him in front of me in such a tone."

"Okay, let's not talk about him. How are you doing?" Lu Senyang ordered whiskey without ice while speaking, and the waiter quickly brought it to him.

"Okay, I'm applying for early graduation."

"Oh? I'm about to graduate, don't you plan to continue studying?"

Lu Senyang originally wanted to ask He Zihan why he didn't go abroad, but thinking of his special situation, the words that had already come to his lips were suppressed.

"I don't miss it for the time being. I have a double degree, and I want to try to work first. If I need it later, I will consider continuing my studies." He Zihan replied categorically.He knew that in many aspects, Lu Senyang knew much more than him.

"Yes, it can be seen that you are an excellent student in City B. However, it seems that you have not taken good care of yourself while studying hard for the past three years."

"Huh?" He Zihan was puzzled.

"Zihan, you're not much fatter than before. I thought you'd be more relaxed after college, and you'd gain some weight. Boys, you can't be too skinny, you always look a little sick, don't you?"

After listening to Lu Senyang's analysis, He Zihan couldn't help laughing.

Rubbing his fingers on the beer bottle, He Zihan still told Lu Senyang the truth: "It turns out that he has gained some weight, and he has gained more than ten pounds. He really looks more energetic. I took the GRE test a while ago, and the student union summed it up." I just finished my work, and there are other things, so I can't take care of so much when I get busy."