perfect life

When He Zihan woke up, he found himself sitting on the floor of the living room. He felt a headache and found that his eyes seemed to be swollen.

Sitting on the same spot for a while, he remembered what happened last night - he was drunk, and Chen Qiran sent him back.

At that time, I had already let go of all the pretense, and almost shamelessly asked him to hug me to sleep, regardless of whether he still remembered me, whether he still cared for himself as he did three years ago, and only wanted to Returning to that warm embrace again, I just want to fall asleep in his arms and sleep until dawn.

However, that person reacted coldly from the beginning to the end, no matter how much he asked, he never touched him again.He Zihan still remembered that last night she had the urge to get out of bed and hug him, but that urge finally dissipated in the cold and ruthless reaction of that person.

The man just covered himself with a quilt, and after making sure he wasn't making a fuss, he left without looking back.

Remembering that she couldn't help crying yesterday, He Zihan couldn't help but want to sneer.

He was really worthless, Chen Qiran didn't love him anymore, so he just cried like that, desperate to die, he really didn't look like a man.

After getting up and going to the bathroom to wash his face with cold water, He Zihan managed to pull himself together.

What happened last night had already made him understand that there was no hope between himself and Chen Qiran.He doesn't love himself anymore, that's enough to explain everything.

No matter how much effort I put in, it would be in vain. I have reached the highest point of my [-] years of life, but I still can't compare to Chen Qiran, no, there is no comparison with him at all.

It is time to let go of the shackles that have been placed on him.

He no longer loves himself, and if he continues to pester him, it will be tiresome.

Gathering up her mood, He Zihan suddenly remembered the phone call in the middle of the night yesterday, looked at the time, it was already eight o'clock in the morning, and called Lu Senyang.

"Zihan, what's the matter?"

"What happened to the company, do you need my help?"

"No, I'm ready. Would you like something to eat, and I'll bring it to you when I go to the company?"

"Hehe, I'm very glad that you have this kind of heart. However, today is Saturday and you don't go to work. You can have a good rest at home. I'll go back to my place later."

"Alright, then I'll hang up."

Staying here is also doing nothing, and life has lost all meaning in an instant.He Zihan looked at the sky in the distance through the window, and suddenly felt that he had stayed in City B for three years, and hadn't visited the surrounding area much in the past three years. Now, taking advantage of the weekend, it seems that he can just relax.

He Zihan has always been a man of action, so he quickly took a shower, took some change and went out - he usually didn't bring much money when he went out, and he was afraid of losing it or being robbed.

When I arrived at the tourist distribution center, I took a rough look at the route, picked a tour group at random, and got on the tourist bus after buying a ticket.The people in my group were either old people or families with children. On the surface, it looked like a car full of men, women, old and young, having fun, but He Zihan felt irritated when he was squeezed among this group of people.

What kind of crime did I commit? Why did I take a two-hour car ride with these people to a place I had never heard of before, which was said to be a tourist attraction? !

The child sitting next to him has been sulking from the moment he got in the car, as if he was angry with his family members sitting in the back seat.

Listening to the voice of that father, it sounds like a Cantonese.Seeing that the person sitting next to him had a bad face, the kid in the back who looked like his younger brother suddenly patted him on the shoulder, "Brother, don't be angry. At worst, let you sit between mom and dad, I'll go Sit up front."

Seeing that the elder brother ignored him, the younger brother was unyielding, patted He Zihan on the shoulder again, and smiled at him: "Big brother, can I change seats with you?"

He Zihan was puzzled, why did he encounter such a thing today? !

"I want to sit with my brother, is that okay?"

Feeling in my heart that the current child is really terrible, the two brothers are so sticky, He Zihan still very cooperatively changed positions with the child.Sitting in the back row and seeing the two brats leaning against each other in front, He Zihan felt that he must have gone crazy now - he actually felt jealous.

Why can even a child get so close to the person he wants to be close to, but he has been completely abandoned by Chen Qiran without knowing it?

Although as a man, it would be ugly if he was mother-in-law, crying, making trouble, and hanged himself, but he was eliminated by Chen Qiran for no reason, and He Zihan couldn't accept it because of emotion and reason.

He waited for three years, prayed for three years, and feared for three years, and finally saw him.Knowing that he is still alive and well, I am happier than anyone else.

However, he no longer loves himself!

The more I think about it, the angrier I get, and the more I think about it, the more I feel unreasonable. My chest is already burning like a fire, and my whole body will be swallowed by the flames of anger. I just want to ask him face to face, but I suddenly understand that I am going to On the bus of an unknown scenic spot in the suburbs.

He Zihan stood up suddenly, but fortunately the car was running smoothly, if there was a sudden brake, he would inevitably fall down.

Walking to the door, he chose the driver between the driver and the tour guide: "Driver, please stop, I want to get off."

The driver continued to concentrate on driving, but the tour guide saw that he wanted to leave, and patiently explained to him: "Sir, if you bought a group ticket and get off here now, we will not be responsible for it when you come back." take you back."

He Zihan thought about it, if he got off from here now, how long would it take to go back?

"How far is it from the city center?"

The driver replied in a timely manner: "It has been driven for about [-] kilometers."

"Please stop the car and let me get off. You don't need to drive me. I'll just call someone to pick me up."

"Then I'll refund you half of the tour fare, after all, you have already taken the halfway bus."

"OK, thanks."

After receiving the money from the tour guide, He Zihan got off the bus.

Watching the bus leave without a trace, He Zihan sighed helplessly.

Now I still have 180 yuan on me, and this road just leads to the airport. Although I have never been to the airport in City B, common sense tells him that if he wants to take a taxi back to the city center from here, it will cost at least [-] yuan. .

He Zihan, who has worked as a translator for three years, is well aware of the difficulty of making money. He would rather go to a place with a bus than spend 100 yuan on a taxi to go back. For punishment, if he spends another 100 yuan, He Zihan feels that he will collapse.

He hasn't officially gone to work in Lu Senyang's company yet, so even if he becomes a real working class in the future, he can't just waste money casually.

He Zihan understood this truth very well, so he started to walk back in the direction the bus came from just now.He doesn't know what thirty kilometers is. He only knows that there is no place in city B that he can't walk on foot.

However, after walking under the scorching sun for an indeterminate amount of time (without a mobile phone or a watch) and sweating all over, he was surprised to find that he was still in a place with no village in front of him or a shop behind.

Looking around, except for the farmland, there is no human habitation at all, let alone the bus station.

He Zihan started walking again, and began to calculate the distance based on how many steps he walked.After walking for a long time, his legs were a little tired, so He Zihan stood under a tree that seemed to be able to block the sun a little to take a rest.

Each step is 15024 centimeters, so he has walked 500 steps since the beginning of counting, which is about [-] meters.But the driver said they were [-] kilometers away from the city!

He Zihan knew that it was impossible for him to walk back with his own legs today, but in desperation he compromised with reality and prepared to hail a taxi.

However, just when he was so scorched by the scorching sun that he was going to stop the car, all the taxis that had been speeding past him when he was walking just now disappeared.

When people are unlucky, they will choke even when drinking water. He Zihan has completely understood this day that he shouldn't do such inexplicable things that he has never done before.

Even if you are in a bad mood, you can't come to a place that is safe and unfamiliar to you, at least you should move around in an area you are familiar with...

However, since the purpose is to go out to relax, then at least I have achieved half of it - the other half is because I don't know how to go back now!

While he was anxiously waiting for a taxi, a white BMW suddenly passed by him.This car looked very familiar. When He Zihan realized that it was the same car that he had an accident with Lu Senyang in Paris, the car suddenly reversed miraculously.

When He Zihan looked at the car window that was about to be rolled down, he met Chen Qiran's eyes.

"Do you want a ride?"

After blinking his eyes and making sure that he read correctly, He Zihan said, "No need, I'm waiting for someone."

"He Tezhu really has leisure time, waiting for someone here at a time like this."

He Zihan felt uncomfortable when he heard the words "He Tezhu" from Chen Qiran's mouth. Chen Qiran's sarcastic tone made him very strange.Even though what happened last night had made me completely disappointed in this person, I still had to maintain the necessary face.

He Zihan tidied up his emotions, and pretended to be indifferent and replied: "I just like it, if you have something to do, hurry up and leave."

Chen Qiran wanted to say something, but a woman's voice suddenly came from inside the car: "Brother Ran, since he doesn't want to sit, why do you force him? Don't you have a lot of things to do this afternoon?"

You are Fan Geting's voice that He Zihan will never forget for the rest of his life. Did he pick her up at the airport?Are they together?

The thoughts in his mind made He Zihan's eyes suddenly darken. Chen Qiran glanced at him again, and continued to say in an unfamiliar tone: "Since He Tezhu wants to continue waiting for others, then we will go ahead."

"Walk slowly without sending."

Watching the car gradually drive away, He Zihan's pretense of ease and ease just now disappeared, leaving only exhaustion, not even sadness, his whole heart has been hollowed out, and he has nothing left.

Many years ago in Paris, the scene of seeing Chen Qiran and Fan Geting on TV at Lu Senyang's home came back from memory again.

In the past and the present, the two images overlap and then completely separate. At that time, the person who took good care of himself has given his feelings to another person now?

He Zihan knew that he couldn't care less.Seeing Chen Qiran with others still hurts my heart, makes me sad, and makes me want to die.

However, that person, after all, gave his feelings to others and no longer belonged to him.

Staring blankly at the car that had gone away until it disappeared from his sight, He Zihan didn't notice how sad his expression was that he was so lonely that he almost cried.