extravagant hug

Lu Jinsui rubbed his lips against the other's eyelids like a piece of fragile porcelain, covering the pool of clear spring water.

"Don't think too much, okay?" I didn't want to say it but I had to say, "You know, there is no possibility for us to be together anymore."

There is no possibility of being together anymore...no more...

Lin Shu gritted his teeth desperately, trying to restrain the involuntary shaking of his body. There were blue and white tooth marks on his lips. After a while, he took a deep breath, but when he wanted to speak, he felt sour again.When you really hear this answer, you can't be numb, or you can't hear it.

Lin Shu buried herself deeply in his chest and did not respond for a long time.

Lu Jin followed him, showing a gentle but heartbroken expression where he could not see.

"You'll take care of our baby, won't you? Let him follow you."

In the end, a trace of hidden worry in his heart was also asked tactfully, he was afraid that Lin Shu would give up his will to survive.

Lin Shu still didn't move, and after a while he pushed Lu Jinsui away tremblingly with laughter, tears streaming down his face while smiling.

Lu Jinsui's heart twitched tightly. He put Lin Shu back on the bed, and instead of looking at her, he turned around and was about to walk away.The person behind who has been very cooperative suddenly grabbed his hand, with tears in his eyes, he kept that weird smile, opened his mouth to say something, but what overflowed was only fragile crying sound.

Heartbroken, Lu Jinsui sat back on the bed helplessly, and let him pull her obediently, wanting to leave after he fell asleep.The divorce agreement was still quietly lying in the study.

Without him, Lin Shu may still meet someone who loves him, at least he can live a peaceful life, although Lu Jinsui thinks so every time, but when he thinks about seeing him again, he will have difficulty breathing.

Just when his thoughts were wandering, Lin Shu's lips had already started to climb to his ears and his neck, and his hands began to reach into Lu Jinsui's clothes restlessly and began to knead and stroke.

The hot breath was close to the ear, and the sensory organs on the body seemed to become extremely sharp in an instant, and the signals became more and more obvious.

"Follow... I hurt..."

Lin Shu's voice was weak, but it hit Lu Jinsui hard on the heart. He stretched out his arms to wrap his arms around his already bulky and stiff waist as Lin Shu was approaching, and carefully supported his belly with one hand.

Lin Shu's tears hung in the corners of his eyes, but the kiss fell like a feather like a feather. As if he had sensed something, the strong love in his heart had already controlled the movements of his body. He just wanted to keep him with all his strength, at least Tell him one last time.

"Fine, I love you."

Lu Jinsui was stunned, his heart ached, and he almost couldn't restrain himself, but he clearly knew that he had made a decision, so he still pushed him away without a trace, but Lin Shu held him even tighter.

"Don't...don't push me away...you know I'm going to die don't you? Why are you? Why?"

It was as if a sharp sword had pierced the chests of both sides, and the pain was so painful that even breathing began to be difficult, but Lin Shu's genuinely heartfelt voice continued unstoppably.

"I'm also afraid...I'm also afraid that I won't be able to support...Why?! Why can't I?!"

Those clear eyes were full of sadness and despair, and his tears kept falling. At this point, it seemed that he didn't want to take care of anything, and only wanted an answer.

"Don't you hate me? Then you torture me severely! Why did you leave? Why..."

The out-of-control emotions caused the child in his womb to make troubles again and again, and he had to bend down to endure, but the pain in his spine didn't stop him. Lin Shu felt that he was hysterical, but his voice was soft like a whisper.

"You know...you know that without you I would not be possible...impossible..."

Looking at him with tears in his eyes, but he couldn't help but hugged his abdomen tightly, no matter how painful it was, only he knew, Lu Jinsui just looked at him indifferently, how could he have the warmth he wanted to rely on.

At this moment, Lu Jinsui could only clench his fists and try to resist the impulse, instead of comforting him and giving him hope.

Just let it go, you will give up, you should give up.Lin Shu.

All of a sudden, Lin Shu clutched his abdomen tightly, the tears still remained on his face, the corner of his mouth twitched and burst out into a maniacal laugh, the tears flowed out again with a smile, but that kind of smile was something Lu Jinsui had never seen before, absolutely It is as poignant and beautiful as the most coquettish and purest flower on the snow mountain.

"Okay, okay! You go, go!"

Lu Jinsui's footsteps seemed to be filled with lead, feeling that every cell in his body was being squeezed, but he just took one last look at Lin Shu and walked out.

Knowing that he had left, Lin Shu slumped on the bed as if he had lost his strength. His stomach still hurt, but his body only felt cold.

"I'll give birth to you well. But, Dad is tired... Dad knows the baby will be strong, right?"

Lin Shu stared at the restless belly in bewilderment, but stretched out his hand along the curve of the belly.

His hands were being manipulated in a disorderly manner, his mouth was slightly opened, the desire in his lower body was swollen and painful and could not be released, but cold sweat was already on his forehead, his lips trembled a few times, but there was only a painful moan.

Lu Jinsui walked out of the room in a daze, but was still worried about leaving Lin Shu alone.He was sitting in the living room smoking, cigarette butts scattered all over the floor, looking at the pictures on the wall, smiling sadly.

This is what you eat.At the beginning, he moved thoughts that he shouldn't have moved, which led to the current result, and the later escape left the person he was thinking about bruised and bruised.Even if there is infinite sorrow in his heart, he is not qualified to confide in it!

He sat blankly in the living room for a while, finally extinguished the last cigarette butt, and stood up.

His heart was throbbing, his mouth was so bitter that he couldn't speak, his hands were clenched into fists, and he walked slowly towards the abyss-like room, but his goal was such a heart-wrenching picture.

Lin Shu's legs were spread wide, and the movement of the fetus could be clearly seen on the bulging belly. His hands were barely placed underneath to hold his desire, but the thing that was already standing tall could not be released.

Lin Shu closed his eyes, with an expression of pain and despair that could not be vented. The strength in his hands was no longer strong, but his heavy waist still moved from time to time.

Lu Jinsui saw that the corners of his mouth twisted into a weird arc that looked like a smile but not a smile, his brows were tightly frowned, sweat was all over his body, his heart skipped a beat, he couldn't speak anymore, his eye sockets were moist, and it seemed like strange transparent droplets The release generally falls one by one scrambling to the first.

It turns out that heartache is like this!

He leaned down, Lin Shu didn't seem to notice anything, he was trying to let out the thing he was holding in his hand, Lu Jinsui lightly grabbed his hand, the man finally stopped moving, his body froze but still refuses to open his eyes.Lu Jinsui opened the corners of his mouth, and the next moment he had the hard object in his mouth.

Using his lips and tongue to please him, he felt the thing in his throat, and it swelled up a bit. Based on his understanding of men, Lu Jinsui could only shrink his mouth as much as possible to touch those sensitive points.Breathing, sucking, he heard Lin Shu's breathing quickened, and the moans disappeared, leaving only the uncontrollable swallowing sound.

He suddenly squeezed the hand that was being held by him, Lin Shu's legs straightened, his waist straightened and then fell down, and a low moan came from his throat vaguely.Lu Jinsui wiped the dripping from the corner of his mouth, endured the fishy smell, swallowed the liquid in his mouth, and straightened up. Lin Shu still closed his eyes tightly, but two lines of tears fell down.

Lu Jinsui looked at the man silently, feeling intense chest tightness. He brought water and wiped Lin Shu's body, and then went out but did not come back.

As if the surrounding air had frozen, Lin Shu's eyelids moved, and then opened quietly. He turned his head to look towards the door, smiled weakly, and then closed his heavy eyelids.

After that day, Lu Jinsui never came back, and Lin Shu never mentioned this matter.Although Lu Jinchu was puzzled, he still had some confidence in his brother because of his performance last time.

It was the weekend, and an unexpected guest came to the villa.

Lu Jinchu looked at the strange woman standing outside the door, well-dressed and plain. Seeing an unnatural smile on her face, Lu Jinchu felt that this woman looked familiar, but he didn't move away.

"Hi, I'm Lin Shu's mother, is Xiao Shu there?"

Lu Jinchu was taken aback. He had never heard Lin Shu mention his family. At this moment, he couldn't help but look at her a few more times, but heard a voice behind him.

"Jinchu, is Brother Wang here?"

Lin Shu supported his belly with one hand and put his other hand on the handrail of the stairs. He was walking down slowly, with a faint smile on his lips.

He asked casually, but when he saw someone coming, he stopped in his tracks and froze on the spot.

"Xiao Shu, how are you doing?"

Lu Jinchu backed out, and now there were only the two of them left in the living room.Lin Shu lowered his head and put a thick pillow on his back, but instead of leaning on it, he straightened his back.Hearing her gentle yet trembling question at this moment, he raised his eyes.

"You don't need to worry about whether I'm doing well or not. What's the matter today?"

Mother Lin's already anxious mood became even more sad, she was a little embarrassed, and seemed to become more cautious in every movement in front of her son whom she had not seen for a long time.

"Xiao Shu, do you have a baby yet?"

Lin Shu felt pain in his heart, they hate such a body, right?Otherwise, he would not care about himself.

"Why, did you come to see me for a joke? Yes, I have a baby, but I won't abandon him!" My heart began to hurt, "Even if he is born with defects, I will love him the same! "

The wrinkles between Mother Lin's brows and eyes deepened. She endured it, and the tears in her eyes finally did not fall. She understood the hardships her son had suffered in the past few years. more blunt.

"Xiao Shu, mom is wrong, but mom has never given up on you."

Her voice was choked with sobs, and she dressed up specially before coming here to cover up her rapid aging in the past few years, and she was always nervous when standing at the door, but the expectation and excitement in her heart were so strong.

Lin Shu found it ridiculous, and couldn't help but spit out harsh and heartless words.

"You are wrong. I forgot that I had a mother as early as when I was sick and no one was looking after me."

Mother Lin was stunned, looked at Lin Shu, her mouth became more bitter, her lips moved, and finally she kept her tone from getting too out of control.

"Xiaoshu... I'm sorry. We..." She recalled the silent atmosphere at home during the Chinese New Year holidays, but no one had the courage to go to him. These people with little knowledge were a little alienated from their son because of his special nature, but they were still in their hearts. Never let him go.

"Mom can't say anything. Mom just wants to apologize to you and know how you are doing."

As soon as the words fell, Mother Lin knelt down on the ground with a plop.The sound made Lin Shu tremble, and his eyes began to drift away, and the eyes gradually became bloodshot. The coldness he had tried to maintain before consumed most of his strength.

"Xiao Shu, my father has been in poor health these years, he has been thinking about you, and my brothers and sisters are not happy without you."

She finally couldn't hold it back any longer, her face was covered with tears wantonly, her body knelt on the ground and kept shaking.

They did put more energy on the other children at the beginning, but when they wanted to find Lin Shu later, the family itself was in a bad situation, and Lin Shu had his own family, so how could they have any face?But now, when she knew that her son was not doing well, she also came here with trepidation, and hoped that it was not too late to help.

"You, get up! You are all right, people like me don't deserve to have a home!"

Lin Shu stood up suddenly, looked at her indifferently and tiredly, with tears in his eyes.He didn't want to cry in front of her, even though he had been wronged countless times, he longed for such a haven that could accommodate his tears.

"You silly boy! You used to send money to us when you were working part-time, and I saved it for you. Mom is afraid that you will have a cold or heat, but mom has no face to see you..."

After talking about it, Mother Lin couldn't hold back her sadness anymore, and cried out in mourning.

Lin Shu stood with difficulty and panted for a while, the tears in his eyes finally hit the ground drop by drop.Time passed between the two of them, and he finally knelt down and helped his mother up.

"Stop talking, you can go back today. If you don't mind, I can go back this year for Chinese New Year."

How could he have forgotten that home?However, he also didn't dare to be tortured and entangled by the resentment in his heart for so many years.

Lin's mother looked at Lin Shu with tears in her eyes, full of self-blame and love: "Xiao Shu, actually I came here this time to take care of you. Your younger brothers and sisters are all in school. Don't think too much about it. I just wanted to do something for you."

Lin's mother was afraid that her son would misunderstand and feel sad if she said something wrong, so she twisted the hem of her clothes habitually with both hands, and helped Lin Shu sit on the sofa.

Lin Shu shook his head weakly: "You don't need to waste time here, Dad needs your care even more."

Lin Shu broke away from her hand, just like every child, the unfair treatment from his parents was always a hurdle in his heart, even if he forgave it, he still felt awkward and sad.

Mother Lin was taken aback, and she felt even more guilty when she heard him say that, her heart ached for a while, but Lin Shu was born by herself after all, so she could guess what she was thinking about.

Under Lin Shu's ignorance and Wang Zimu and Lu Jinchu's laissez-faire, Lin's mother finally stayed in this villa.

She is also the mother of several children, so she knows a little about pregnancy, and it is easier for her to deal with Lin Shu's usual ailments.Lin's mother was careful and down-to-earth, and helped a lot.Although Lin Shu didn't say anything, he must have felt more at ease in his heart. No matter how old a child is, he will always feel more secure by his mother's side.

Mother Lin and Lin Shu didn't talk much, and even lowered their heads when they saw Lin Shu. She did all of this carefully.

Until one night, Mother Lin, who was sleeping in the next room, suddenly heard crying from the next door. She got out of bed without wearing a coat, opened Lin Shu's door and went in.

It turned out that he had a nightmare, his face was covered with tears, and he was waving his hands indiscriminately.

Lin's mother was heartbroken, and hurried over to grab his hand to prevent him from hitting her, then stroked his head and smoothed his hair, comforting: "Don't be afraid, Xiaoshu is not afraid, mom is here..."

Strangely, Lin Shu really calmed down slowly, and then opened those clear and beautiful eyes, and blinked a few times, as if he was still in a nightmare.When Mother Lin was about to help him cover the kicked quilt, she was hugged tightly by him.

"Uh... Mom... Mom..."

Lin's mother was so excited that she didn't know how to respond, she just cried along with Lin Shu, and kept saying, "Mom is here, Xiao Shu is not afraid, mother is here..."

That night, Lin Shu finally confessed his fragility in front of his mother. Although they were not used to it yet, they were trying to adapt and accept each other.

And Lin Shu really began to accept his mother's care. When he was not feeling well, Lin's mother was by his side. Lin Shu held her hand and gritted his teeth.

He has always been a strong boy.

In addition to being distressed, Mother Lin took care of Lin Shu even more meticulously.

Lu Jinsui went to the company as usual, and everything was going on step by step.The company was his painstaking effort. Even if he couldn't hand it over to Lu Jinchu, he still wanted to take good care of it. He couldn't imagine watching it collapse.I don't know if it was Xu Siru's carelessness or on purpose. Although the loophole is big, it is not irreparable.

Xu Siru often went in and out of the company building during this period. She didn't look as glamorous as before, but standing with Lu Jinsui, she was still an enviable couple.The news of their marriage had spread half a month ago, and colleagues in the company would greet her when they saw her.

Today, Xu Siru was drinking tea in Lu Jinsui's office as usual.

"Jin Sui, I have something to tell you."

Lu Jinsui lowered his head to process the documents, and looked up at her.

Xu Siru was noncommittal about his indifference, and said to himself: "Jin Sui, let's finish the wedding here first, and then go abroad."

Lu Jinsui was taken aback: "Didn't you agree to go back and tie the knot?"

"Isn't it okay to stay here?" She was aggressive.

"Siru, I've already agreed to your terms, I hope you don't go too far." He felt powerless in his heart, but his eyes didn't lose the slightest bit, and he didn't give in.

"I have an inch? Then let me ask you, is it difficult for you to end here?"

"You know, I didn't mean that..."

He propped his forehead wearily, as if a piece of his heart was missing when he thought of that.In the days when he didn't go back, he thought a lot, and he saw more and more clearly the past.Lu Jinsui took a deep breath to relieve the cramping pain.

"Since that's not the meaning, then let's make it so. It will be at the beginning of next month, and I will inform you of the detailed time."

She got up and was about to go when she sat down again.

"I forgot to tell you, I have finished the wedding invitation and sent a copy to your home."

Lu Jinsui felt his ears buzzing, he looked at her incredulously, but she actually laughed, and there was a little helplessness in that smile.

During the period when Lin's mother was here, she managed the house in an orderly manner. Lin Shu felt his mother's care and was moved, but he didn't want her to do too much.

It was noon, Lin's mother was resting in the room, and Lu Jinchu went to work.The weather outside was cloudy, and Lin Shu was not feeling well when he woke up in the morning, and even his mood was a little restless. He lay on the bed for a while, but he didn't feel sleepy at all. On the contrary, his body was very sore.He came out to pour a glass of water and passed by Lu Jinsui's study.

Lu Jinsui never came, and the door of this study room never opened. Lin Shu's deliberately suppressed emotions welled up. He squeezed the cup tightly in his hand, and stepped forward to push open the door.

He remembered that he was here once, and he tried to negotiate with Lu Jinsui, but in the end he was left alone on the ground, looking helplessly at the direction the door opened, and he didn't look back until the end.

Maybe it has always been like this between them, he has never seen his sadness and hope.

Lin Shu took the cloth towel beside him and couldn't help wiping the table again.

He stretched out his hand to the drawer. The drawer was unlocked and opened smoothly, and the things inside just lay there quietly.

Lu Jinsui said that the things here are not his and he cannot touch them.So, what about this?

Does the stuff he can't touch include this?

Lin Shu even became cautious about his breathing. Those things he avoided to face were swarming towards him at this moment. It turned out that they were always doomed.

But how ridiculous?The entanglement over the years has only exchanged for a few thin pages.

Lin Shu supported the corner of the table with one hand, and calmly opened the divorce agreement that Lu Jinsui had prepared, and saw the flamboyant font at the signature and the blank space.

"We can't be together anymore..."

Lu Jinsui said that to him that day, but he didn't do it straightforwardly.

The blank thought was broken by the sudden ringing of the phone in the living room. Lin Shu wiped his face dry. He quickly closed the drawer and walked down the stairs with his back supported, fearing that the ringing of the phone would wake up Lin's mother.

"Hello, is this Mr. Lin?" It was a female voice with a gentle voice.

Lin Shu sat awkwardly on the sofa with his back supported. He couldn't tell who the other party was, so he could only answer yes, but he heard a woman's chuckle.

"I wonder if Mr. Lin knows that Mr. Lu Jinsui is going abroad today?"

She seemed to be at the airport, and the female voice on the radio and the small voices of the bustling people around could be faintly heard from the microphone. An image appeared in her mind. Lin Shu had roughly guessed who it was, but was afraid of the answer in her heart.

He knew that Lu Jinsui was going to push him away, but perhaps he instinctively avoided thinking about this result, Lin Shu's hand holding the microphone froze.He finally understood the meaning of the divorce agreement.

"Are you her family?" Lin Shu asked with a trembling voice.

The other party seemed a little surprised, but admitted frankly after a while: "Yes, I am her sister."

Neither of them said it clearly, but the answer is self-evident.

"Lu Jin flew to New York with the flight at 03:30 this afternoon, and there are still two hours before boarding..."

There was a beeping busy tone on the phone, Lin Shu didn't even know the purpose of the call, only four words floated in his mind: He is leaving.

The corners of the mouth were bent upwards by half an arc, and was interrupted by the growing discomfort in his abdomen. Lin Shu rested on the sofa for a while, and then managed to prop himself up and walked towards the study.

"Lin Shu! Lin Shu!"

Lin Shu wanted to hide the expression on his face, but it was too late. In order to take care of Lin Shu conveniently, Wang Zimu had a spare key at home. He rushed over with a look of urgency, and saw Lin Shu leaning against the door frame with a pale face. He was talking about something, but the situation was urgent and sudden, so he had to speak first.

"Lin Shu, did Lu Jinsui tell you anything? Did you know that he was going to marry someone else?"

He only found out about this news when he went to Lu Jin and his company to look for him. The company has already spread the news, but Lin Shu was the only one who was kept in the dark.In his shock and anger, he even forgot to restrain his emotions. At this moment, he saw Lin Shu's face was covered with cold sweat, his legs were limp, and he had to rely on external force to stand still.

"What about you two..." No matter how much he said, he couldn't say anything.

At this time, Mother Lin heard the movement and had already come out of the room. Seeing that the atmosphere between the two was not right, she came over and asked worriedly, "Xiao Shu, what's the matter? Why do you look so bad?"

Lin Shu was severely tormented by the pain in his abdomen, but there was a strong voice shouting in his consciousness.

"Go! Let's go to the airport!"

Looking at the traffic jam, Wang Zimu became more and more anxious.He honked the horn several times in succession, only to see that Lin Shu just tilted his head against the window glass, with no superfluous expression on his face.

He suddenly calmed down.There are some things that outsiders can't get their hands on. Under the calm appearance of that person, I don't know what kind of suffering he is enduring in his heart.

This is the last time... Lin Shu sat on the back seat and kept saying to himself.

He didn't let Mother Lin accompany him. He knew that this time was the last time for him to keep him, or let him keep him.

The pregnancy has entered the late stage, the belly is too big to cover up, and the legs are swollen, but he doesn't think about this problem at all, and only wears the black windbreaker that Lu Jinchu bought for him last time.Lin Shu listened to the small voices in the car and looked at the passing scenery outside the window. The memory began to flow back, allowing him to see clearly everything that he didn't want to let go of.

In the noisy airport hall, people come and go, and everyone is in a hurry.

Although they found out about the flight after checking, due to the traffic jam on the road, when Lin Shu and the others arrived, it was very close to Lu Jinsui's boarding time.

Looking at Lin Shu's bloated figure, Wang Zimu might think it was just fat to others, but he knew how much pressure Lin Shu was under.Seeing the man looking for Lu Jinsui with a silent face, striding hard and firmly step by step, I didn't feel a little more strength, and followed him to look around.

When riding on the elevator, Lin Shu secretly grasped the handrail with one hand, but he knew that he couldn't stop, if he stopped, the person might miss it.

Finally, when the two saw the boarding gate, passengers had already entered one after another.The heartbeat was slow and fast, Lin Shu just stared in that direction blankly.

Lu Jinsui held the handle of the suitcase, lowered his head slightly, and said something to the well-dressed woman beside him.Maybe it was because the sun was too glaring, Lin Shu couldn't help squinting his eyes, under those bright colors, his humble but persistent emotions, along with his breathing, ached deeply into his bones.

There was a certain distance between the two of them, Lin Shu smiled in that direction, his eyes blurred but he called out firmly.

"Jin Sui!"

The voice was not loud, and the people next to him were still coming and going, but Lu Jinsui seemed to have heard it, and turned around.The moment he saw him, the expression on his face was inexplicable.

He glanced at Xu Siru at the side, who smiled calmly.

"I just helped you make a decision that you dare not make."

Lu Jinsui was startled: "Thank you."

He handed her the luggage in his hand, said something sincerely, and walked towards Lin Shu.