The Days of Dressing Up as a Handsome General

It was night, and the two little guys had to hide and seek in the Ning Garden without sleeping. I asked the servant girl to step back first, and decided to have a good talk with them, to correct their horrifying remarks to a certain extent, and to confess some of myself to them. idea.

"Daddy, you have something to tell us." I was thinking about how to talk to them, when Feng'er walked over holding Ye'er's hand.Even if they are fighting, are they observing the changes around them all the time?

I led them to sit down at the table, and asked, "What do you think about Dad's amnesia?"

The two of them looked at each other, and Ye'er said, "Whether Daddy has amnesia or lost martial arts, Daddy will always be Daddy."

I smiled and patted Ye'er's head, Feng'er also said: "My boy thinks that Daddy's life is better than before."

I raise my eyebrows, don't you?How are you doing now?How did I become a prince?

"Feng'er wants to ask Dad, do you still want to leave?"

I looked at Feng'er in some surprise, what do you mean "do you still want to go?", I must go.

I nodded, "Go."

"The future plan? Go back to Liangguo? Be a prince? Be a general?" Ye'er asked very seriously.

"I don't have any plans, but the general and the prince don't seem to be what I want in my heart." I told the truth.

"The reason why Feng'er said that Daddy's life is better than before is precisely because Daddy doesn't remember anything now, so he has forgotten those things that locked you up. Daddy was not happy before, and there are too many things in Liangguo. Fetters, if you return to Liang Country, Uncle Huang will not let you go. As for the Yan Mansion, Ye Er and I will guard it, and Uncle Lian and Grandpa will also help us, so Feng'er only hopes that Dad will Can have a good time…”

"What do you all know? You are still so young..." I couldn't believe that two seven-year-old children could say such a thing to their father. I asked uncertainly: "Do you want I drop the burden on my shoulders, drop you?"

"Daddy, don't worry." Ye'er said with a bright smile on her face.

I frowned, their proposal is undoubtedly my best choice, but... is it really possible?Can I let it go?I don't have a mother's love in the first place, and if I take up their father's body and don't take care of them, and run away instead, am I not afraid of my conscience being disturbed?At least go and settle them down.

"It's late at night, Xiao Yezi wants to sleep."

"Oh, are you going to sleep? Do you want someone to serve you?" I quickly got up, wanting to call someone to serve me.

"No, Xiao Yezi wants Daddy to hug me and carry me to sleep."

Whenever Ye Er wanted to act like a baby, she would call herself Little Ye Zi, I smiled and hugged her, she wrapped her arms around my neck, rubbed her head against my chin, and snuggled into my arms like a kitten .

"Brother, you and Daddy go to my bedside to talk, okay? I want to hold Daddy's hand to sleep."

Feng'er looked at Ye'er dotingly, and took the lead.Ye'er lay down on the bed, and I helped her cover the brocade quilt again. She took my hand and said, "Daddy hasn't told me a story for a long time."

I have some troubles. Is it a child's habit to sleep listening to stories? "What do you want to hear?"

"Last time, my father mentioned that Cao Cao ordered the warships to be connected to reduce the turbulence of the wind and waves, which was beneficial for the northern soldiers to board the ship. He wanted to step up the drill and wait for the attack. Zhou Yu's department gave advice to Huang Gai, and after that, my father was summoned by an imperial decree... ..."

"But the Battle of Chibi?" I suddenly said, seeing Ye'er nodded, and then thought about what was written in the Romance of the Three Kingdoms, and said, "At that time, Huang Gai saw the weakness of Cao Jun's "serial boats", so he suggested Zhou Yu agreed with the false surrender first and then the fire attack. Then Huang Gai sent someone to send a false surrender letter to Cao Cao..."

The time for half a stick of incense was not yet up, and Ye'er fell asleep after listening to her eyelids gradually sinking.

I wanted to take away Ye'er's tightly held hand, but I was afraid that she would wake up, and I didn't know what to do for a while.Feng'er looked at my troubled look and laughed, and said: "Daddy, let's talk here, Ye'er will naturally let go when she is fast asleep."

Why does this sentence sound a bit weird, let go when you are asleep?Ye'er smiled contentedly on her angelic sleeping face, and I asked, "I'm afraid Ye'er can't sleep well."

"Dad was halfway through what he said last time, which whetted her appetite. You can't hear this kind of story elsewhere. After listening to her complaints for a few days, Feng'er fell asleep before finishing listening to it today. Let's see, Tomorrow she will definitely be pestering Daddy to ask you to tell her a story."

I smiled and didn't take it seriously, "I'll tell her if she likes to hear it, but why can't I hear this kind of story elsewhere? Three Kingdoms..." I stopped, the Three Kingdoms was written by the Jin Dynasty, There is no Jin Dynasty at all here, so the Three Kingdoms may not be there either.

Feng'er smiled and shook her head, "Back then when the Three Kingdoms came to power, there were countless battles, big and small, but at that time many things about military strategies were kept secret from the outside world. If it wasn't for Dad's identity as Lord Ning and his surname Zhuge, how could he have seen it?" Those Three Kingdoms locked in the palace."

I wondered to myself, and asked, "Do I often tell you these secret histories?"

Feng'er laughed, "It turns out that Mother always sang and told us stories before we went to bed. Since Mother died, Daddy would tell us these stories if he was at home."

Seven-year-old listening to historical battles before going to bed?No wonder the children of the Yan family are getting better and better.

"Feng'er, which is the current father, or the former father?" I asked this question out of nowhere, and I seemed to be very concerned about the answer.

"Now." Although Feng'er was stunned for a while, she answered straightforwardly.I happily hugged Feng'er, and I didn't even care about pulling out Ye'er's hand.

Feng'er is obviously not as used to cuddling in my arms as Ye'er, with a shy expression on her face, she said: "Although my previous father took care of us more, he didn't take walks with us or play with us. Now my father We will not trap ourselves in depression every day, let us deliberately make daddy laugh. Now daddy just looks at us from the sidelines, and he smiles happily. Being with daddy is very relaxing and comfortable..."

I wrapped my arms around Feng'er, let him sit on my lap, rested my chin on his shoulder, and said, "Feng'er, tell me something about the past, everything is fine..."

Feng'er's eyes fell on a place I couldn't reach, and after a while, he asked: "Daddy, answer me a few questions first, okay?"

"You ask."

"What does daddy think about the change of dynasty? If Sima Yan takes over Liangguo, what will daddy do?"

My thoughts changed, from what Feng'er said, I had a premonition that I seemed to be grabbing something. "I can't say what I should do. If the country has a good emperor, the country is rich and the people are strong, and when the army invades, everyone will only fight against the enemy and concentrate on defending their own country. Liang country is not easy to capture. If the people are struggling to survive, maybe change another country." Lord will be better."

"Daddy said everything that he didn't dare to say before." Feng'er smiled, "What we told Daddy was what Daddy told us. What does Daddy want to know?"

At the beginning, he quickly said that Yan Mo had preferred masculinity since the death of the princess, but how true or false was it?The two kids don't seem to hate me at all, and they don't seem to hate those things. Could it be that they have seen it so many times that they have all seen it?

"Well... you can talk about it whatever you want, such as things about me and your mother, things about the family..." I can't speak too bluntly, so I can only make indirect remarks.

Feng'er said with a smile, "Daddy married my mother because my aunt disguised herself as a woman and lifted her mother's skirt in the market. Grandpa's family style is very strict. This matter even got to the late emperor. Daddy took the blame for aunt. It is said that the party broke the rules because of the deep love, and the first emperor and the emperor did not offend and pointed out the marriage."

"Father and mother respected each other as guests after marriage, and two years later we had us. The family was harmonious and beautiful until mother passed away... Later, father raised a few older brothers in the backyard, and rumors began to circulate outside."

"Is that true? I just... like men?" I asked cautiously.

Feng'er looked at me seriously, and said: "Feng'er doesn't want Daddy to be burdened by the past, he doesn't care if he likes men or women, you are just our dad. Besides, Daddy just has a good personal relationship with Uncle Yu, the rest Big brother is just snatched by daddy to cover up..."

Uncle Yu?It's Nangong Yu... It's just good to have a good personal relationship, so I asked again: "To cover someone's eyes and ears? Whose eyes and ears are they to cover?"

Feng'er's tone was not kind, she snorted coldly, and said: "It's probably Uncle Huang, maybe it's to deceive many people. However, Uncle Huang used us as coercion to force you to take it. Daddy once said that your presence has made the situation in the court unbalanced, and the only way to stabilize the situation in the court is to call in soldiers to guard the border. Daddy spends most of the year at the border."

Indeed, being a prince in the capital who is also in charge of military power, he has to show his face in the court. It doesn't matter which party he is on. It doesn't matter if the emperor supports it.But the emperor couldn't completely trust himself, so he ended up taking Luoyan Pill.

I rubbed my forehead and shook my head, it's so complicated, these things are really too complicated for me.I looked at Feng'er's calm face, and suddenly felt a little sad. Did they grow up in this kind of environment?When I was seven years old, I seemed to be playing with mud in the yard.

Feng'er continued: "Father thought that he would not live long. He tried his best to treat us every day, told us about the political situation in the court, and told us to hide our strength and bide our time. Without your protection, how would we survive? When we were six years old, my father even gave us all the Yan family's martial arts secrets. My father has changed since my mother died, and it has become like living an extra day is a day, and an extra year is a year.

Mother was killed by the second son of the Minister of War, and Uncle Huang is not a good person. Since they have betrayed our Yan family, I, Yan Feng, will not let them go easily. "

I took a deep breath, and a look of resentment appeared on the face of a seven-year-old child. I quickly said: "Feng'er, you are still young, don't think about those things that you never let go..."

My words obviously touched Feng'er's back, and his voice suddenly became louder: "Daddy! I remember all the things you don't remember! Before you left that night, you gave me the tiger talisman that commanded the Yan family army. Long Yi's finger-pull was given to me, which shows that you sent troops with the determination to die. Feng'er only knows that it was Uncle Huang who ordered the troops. I dare say that Uncle Huang has nothing to do with this incident. If you want me Said, Daddy's life was picked up, forget about those rulers and courtiers, and just be yourself."

My heart is completely confused. Does this kid mean that he will take revenge in the future, the emperor of Liang Kingdom and that second son?I looked at him, wanting to persuade but didn't know how to speak.

After he calmed down a bit, he said again: "Father, Feng'er and Ye'er have two grandpas and two grandmas, they taught you to be a loyal minister since childhood.

Even if a knife is on your neck, even if your wife is insulted, even if you are forced to take poison, you will not resist, you will just suffer in silence, but Fenger Yeer lost her mother when she was six years old, and almost lost her mother when she was seven years old Dad, no one came to teach us that, and we are not his Zhuge Yun's courtiers, we are just children, Dad never taught us the three cardinal principles and five constant principles, the ruler is the guide for ministers, presumably he didn't want us to follow in your footsteps. "

"There are some things that I don't want to say, but I won't complain when Daddy asks me. If you want me to say that Sima Yan should go to Liangjing, and kill that dog emperor, I will let him bully Daddy again, and Yan Yan again." Let's take a look."

Feng'er's wording has already jumped from Uncle Huang to Emperor Dog, and the eyes are full of hatred. According to blood relatives, Zhuge Yun seems to be Feng'er's cousin. It seems that that person has really done a lot of bad things ah.

Probably because Feng'er saw my embarrassed and confused face, his tense body also relaxed, and all the anger in his body disappeared.

He lowered his eyes and whispered tiredly: "Daddy, if you forget about the past, forget it, as long as you don't forget Feng'er and Ye'er..."

I patted his arm and comforted him: "No, I won't forget you again."

"Daddy, go to bed too, I'm sleepy."

I hugged him and stood up, intending to send him to the next room, Feng'er said: "Daddy, I want to sleep with Xiao Yezi tonight."

I smiled and turned around, no matter how harsh he said, he was still a child after all.

I helped him cover the quilt, and he said: "When I was young, my father said that I would sleep in separate beds with my sister. When I grow up, I will be as strong as a man. We haven't slept together since we were three years old. Dad, am I strong now?" "

"Be strong." My subordinates didn't stop moving, and replied casually.

"Daddy never praised me, nor helped me cover the quilt."

My eyes turned hot, "If you want to hear it, Dad can praise you a few more times, and the quilt is the same, it's just a quilt."

"Daddy, you are crying."

I wiped it indiscriminately, and said with a straight face: "Don't eat or sleep, don't talk, don't talk when you sleep, close your eyes."

Feng'er nodded, closed her eyes with a smile, and kept silent.

The smile on the corner of Feng'er's mouth is so similar to Ye'er's previous smile, it is a smile of joy, satisfaction and reassurance.

I leaned down, and a kiss was printed on his forehead, and I whispered, "Good night."

The vermilion carved door was gently closed, and I walked lightly to the bedroom.

Inside the door, two pairs of eyes slowly opened.

"Aren't you tired of pretending to sleep?"

"I want you to care! Do you feel tired if you pretend every day?"

"..."

"Why do you still tell daddy that, isn't it good that daddy is like this now?"

"If you want to say it, if you don't say it, when that day comes, Dad will think we are terrible."

"But aren't you afraid that Daddy will remember those things?"

"No, he remembers the content of the Romance of the Three Kingdoms, but he doesn't remember that the Romance of the Three Kingdoms is only available in the imperial palace. I'm sure, deep down in my father's heart, I don't want to remember anything about that person."

"Daddy is like a different person now."

"Perhaps, this is the real him. Dad probably put on a mask as long as he can remember, and put on another mask after mother died, just like us."

"Could it be that if we lose our memory, we will also forget our masks?" Ye Er sighed a little.

"Daddy said, don't eat or sleep, shut your eyes! Go to sleep!"

Ye Er closed her eyes as she said, and after a long time said, "Brother...are you tired?"

It was Feng'er's long and steady breathing that answered Ye'er, Feng'er was not asleep, he just didn't want to answer.