Ji Yu

Back at the mansion, the housekeeper ran over to report: "Third Master, there is a guest coming to visit you. Second Master is entertaining you in the living room."

I nodded and walked towards the living room.Those who come to me are usually literati, and Qiyu has nothing to talk about with them, and they don't like to associate with businessmen very much.Usually if I'm not around, they leave a post and leave.Why is it that Qiyu happens to be at home today, and is still in the mood to receive her?

"Second brother, I'm back." He turned to face the visitor, but he didn't recognize him, "Who is this?"

The visitor cupped his hands and smiled at me: "I am Chen Li, and my father is Mrs. Chen. Because I admire brother Ji Yu's literary talent, I am here to visit today."

I've never heard that Mrs. Chen has such an old son, but I took a closer look and found out that it turned out to be a girl disguised as a man.She is only thirteen or fourteen years old, her figure has not yet grown, and she is a bit indistinguishable in men's clothing.She looks smart, smart, generous and calm, without the softness and shyness of a woman.No wonder I didn't notice that she was a woman last time either.

I smiled slightly. The marriage I told me was actually such a young girl. It was really a joke. "So it's Brother Chen, please sit down." Knowing that it was a girl, she gave him a consoling smile, and said to Chen Li: "My talent and aptitude are mediocre, and the knowledge I have today is nothing more than hard work. I dare not take it as a compliment from Brother Chen."

She giggled, "You can call me Brother Chen, you are so much older than me, calling me brother Chen is weird."

I thought about it, then nodded, "Alright, Brother Chen, what can I teach you today?"

"I heard that the flowers planted by brother Ji Yu are very good, can you take me to see them?"

"It's easy too," I nodded and got up, "Second brother, are you going too?"

"Yeah," Qi Yu nodded expressionlessly.

I took the two of them to see my garden, played a game of chess with Chen Li, and listened to her play a few ancient tunes.She was always smiling, not so much because she fell in love with me, but because she felt she had found a good playmate.Probably her father's students were too old and rigid, or too flirtatious and too dandy. When she met me, who was not too old and not too slick, she had some interest in dating.Her father probably made a mistake, this girl didn't mean that to me.

Qiyu was always by my side like a bodyguard, but she didn't take the initiative to say a word.He kept a straight face like a black-faced door god until we sent Chen Li out of the house.

After turning around and returning home, he pushed me back to my bedroom, "Who is she?"

"Master Chen's daughter."

"It turned out to be her. Gu Shao mentioned to me that he wanted you to marry her, saying that you are a good match. He said that this marriage will be very helpful for your career. Why, do you want to marry her?"

I shake my head.Chen Li is quite cute, but it's a pity that the right time, place and people are not right, so it is impossible for me to marry her.

"Why? I watched you talk speculatively?"

Why?Because Lecheng is not a place to stay for a long time, I must leave, how can I harm others.

Why?Because I don't want an official career, and I don't need a wife who can help me in my official career.

Why?Because Chen Li and I are just acquainted for the first time, and we don't have any relationship between men and women, so why talk about marriage?

Why?Because I will be with you, before you turn your back on me.

"Because... I have you. It is enough for me to have you", as long as...you live up to me.

His face turned red in an instant, and he lowered his head uncomfortably, but the corners of his mouth curled up, "Me too. You are enough."

He didn't go out that day, but just stayed by my side, exchanging countless kisses, I took the book, only turned two pages all day, and didn't read anything.

It seemed that after he took the concubine, after our separation for a period of time, the feelings that had gradually cooled down were warmed up.A little farewell is better than a newlywed?

I don't understand.

At night, he put his arms around my neck and leaned on my shoulders, and asked me again: "You really don't know how to marry a wife? Even if she will help you rise to the top?"

"Ah."

"Will you stay with me forever?"

"Ah."

"I used to think that scholars are full of benevolence and morality, but in fact they are men who steal women and prostitutes in their stomachs. So I never liked you to study. Later, I saw that you even took the imperial examination, and I felt even more uncomfortable. But, you and those people People are really different. After you read the book, you didn’t become that kind of heartless person, nor did you become a hypocrite full of bad water. I was in the building when I was young, and there was an older brother who was very kind to me. At that time he He fell in love with a poor scholar, redeemed himself with money, followed that scholar, and used private money to support that person's study and life. But after the scholar became an official, he climbed up to a lady in the official family. Later that brother was killed by that The woman was beaten half to death, thrown out of the mansion, and died on the street that night. I heard that the scholar was beside him when he was beaten. He didn't want to offend the Yue family, so he didn't bother. It was our building and him A few good brothers paid for someone to bury him. Since then, I have hated scholars. I am also afraid that one day, you will become like that."

It's a very common story, Qiyu's brother believed in the wrong person.

"You never believed me?" I was surprised.I thought we made that clear in the past.I thought that when he was willing to leave the Liu Mansion with me, and he was willing to hand over all the money to me, he believed me.

But at that time, I hadn't obtained the official title.Could it be that he has been full of doubts about me since he became a scholar?

I do not understand.

"No, I believe in you...but I'm afraid of the future..."

Still dubious.I feel speechless.

Qiyu continued: "When I was in Liu's house, I didn't think about anything. We are the same, you are younger than me, and you don't like to talk, and you don't talk to anyone. At that time, I felt that I could take care of you, I could Protecting you. I am satisfied with that kind of life. But after I came out, many things changed. You passed the examination of scholar, even if I do business, it is you who help me and teach me hand in hand. You are better than me in everything I have always hoped to be worthy of you, and I hope that one day I will not be left behind by you. I also know that Gu Shao's background is very deep, and I know that you want us to stay away from him and not to be involved. But, I really don't want to I just guarded that shop and watched you fly higher and higher until one day you left me. If you also became an official and found a lady from the official family, what should I do? I can’t stop you at all. So I accepted Gu Shao's proposal, took over those shops, and made the business bigger...I want you to need me, rely on me, and hope that you can't leave me in the future. But when the business gets bigger, I can't help myself, There are so many things to do every day, I have to greet and send, go up and down, and do things I don't want to do at all, such as going to the brothel, or accepting that concubine... But even so, I still can't keep up with you , because you took the Juren exam again, and your teachers and friends are all well-known figures in Lecheng. They are not comparable to a businessman like me. Yesterday I heard from Gu Shao that the lady of that family is very helpful to your career. When I was helping, I felt very uncomfortable...I felt so uncomfortable that I couldn't stop you at all. I really wanted to tie you up at home so that you couldn't go out, but I couldn't do that...I was so scared that you would agree to it just for fame. Marrying the young lady of that family...but today, I'm so happy...Ji Yu, I'm so happy...you really want to be with me for the rest of your life..." His voice was a little choked up.

I sighed, hugged him tightly, and kissed his forehead lightly.Still feel speechless, who hurt whom?

It is true that he is afraid that I will leave him.

It's also true that he has his own ambitions.When he was busy ignoring me, when he accepted that concubine, whether he missed me more, or himself and his business more, I'm afraid only he himself knows.

In fact, during that time, he didn't need me that much.Yes, because I know him well, I understand that at that time, he really didn't need me that much.He was very busy and contented, he was recognized and respected, he had business partners, and he had many obedient subordinates.His life has many centers of gravity, and I'm just one of them.

He didn't hesitate to accept that concubine, he didn't worry about hurting me, because he knew that as long as he didn't touch her, I wouldn't leave him for this.

He didn't start worrying until I went to live in the mountains for a few months.Although I am no longer the most important, but also very important.He doesn't trust others, so he is unlikely to fall in love with others.So he doesn't want to lose me.

He was telling the truth.But he said what he meant.In the parts he didn't say, or admit to himself, I wasn't really that important anymore.

But even if it doesn't matter, he still doesn't want to lose me.People are like this, especially possessive men.

I can see it.

Because I can see clearly, I know that he is no longer the person I wanted to spend my life with at the beginning.In his heart, career, status, money, face, wives and concubines, and me are all what he needs.

My heart is cold, and my heart is far away.disappointed.

But obviously disappointed, still can't let him go.

I think if we have no hidden worries in our lives, if I don't worry about Qiyu being liquidated by those in power in the future, I might have let go.

I want to live a free life, and I want to find someone who is willing to guard me for the rest of my life.Love is too extravagant, I never count on it, I just want to find someone to hug, have a warm body temperature, and wait for a long time.I thought so years ago, and I still do now.

I would rather live with an ugly and vulgar village woman who treats me wholeheartedly than a Qiyu who is increasingly ignoring me.

It is because of hidden worries that I am still waiting and waiting.

Maybe I'll be able to make a decision after the way out is arranged, whether I still want to spend my whole life with this person.