Ji Yu

There are only a few squirrels in the trap, and they are so cute.I don't have much hunting experience, and I don't want to be too far away from Qiyu's wounded house, so I just set up a few traps, but I haven't caught any decent prey with the trap nets yet.

Throw those squirrels into the straw cage and take them back to show Qiyu.

There was no one else on the mountain, so he didn't stay in bed all day long.Occasionally come out to get some air.However, he has been wearing a vertebral cap to cover his face.I can only take a good look at him when he is asleep.

"Do you eat squirrel meat?"

"What? You don't even let go of such a little meat?" Qiyu, who was fiddling with the grass cage, turned her head and said in surprise.

"If you can't bear it, let it go," I said with a smile, "but the food these days is so monotonous, it reminds me that I'm not interested in eating anymore." No matter where we are, we hire a cook.The only time I grill and cook a few times is when I'm on the road.Most of the time, I still eat meals in the hotel, or dry food.If I really want to cook by myself seriously, I'm still far behind, even Qiyu is better than me now.He has also gone to the mountains to hunt more times than me, so he may even have better hunting experience than me.But now he doesn't like to move, he is lazy every day, and he doesn't even talk much.

"Can you cook at noon today?", I squatted down beside him, and took his hand that was teasing the little squirrel.

He paused slightly, trying to retract his hand.

I squeezed his hand tightly and put it next to my cheek, "Are you okay?"

"Let go", he whispered, "...I'll do...you...what do you want to eat?"

"Anything is fine," I let him go in satisfaction.Seeing him turn his head back again, he sighed inwardly.At least he didn't drive me away now, and he is still willing to sleep in my arms at night. Although he is not allowed to light the lamp and can't do anything, I should be content.

Qiyu is extremely concerned about face, and some defects have dealt a huge blow to him psychologically.A beautiful face used to be the basis of his survival, and later it was the basic reason he believed to maintain our relationship.

Although we started together for this reason, but later on, it was no longer like that.His own existence, body, appearance, personality, words and deeds, as well as years of experience and emotions together, all these make his appearance or body no longer an important reason for us to be together.Good looks are just icing on the cake.Of course it's good to have it, but it's fine if you don't.

Qi Yu should understand this.He didn't drive me away, and he can stay by my side safely at night. I am very happy that he really trusts and relies on me.

But he still broods over his face.He has a distasteful personality, and I am quieter, so when we were together, he always surrounded me more.Now it's the other way around, he always avoids me subconsciously, and in order to get close to him, I have the cheek to pretend not to notice his alienation, and insist on posting it.

After the sky darkens every day, he can relax a bit.Occasionally, I would take off my bamboo hat, lean against me to enjoy the cool breeze, and listen to what I had to say.

Now we are really imitating the ancients, working at sunrise and resting at sunset.Since I couldn't do much at night without lighting the lamp, I went to bed early.After the light outside in the morning, Qiyu would wake up vigilantly and put on his vertebral cap, for fear that I would see his face.Originally he was a person who loved to sleep late, but now this makes me a little sad.But I obeyed him and changed my living habits.When I was not used to it before, because I ate and went to bed too early, I couldn’t fall asleep after going to bed, and after falling asleep, I would wake up hungry again in the middle of the night.But after a few days, I got used to it.

After Qiyu and I went up the mountain, we lived in the cabin where they took a rest while hunting. Although it was small, it had everything and all internal organs.Next to that house, I built several wooden houses.With a fence around it, it becomes a yard.Originally, when I was at the foot of the mountain, I also helped a young man in the clan who was going to marry a wife build a new house, which didn't bother me.

Although the mountains are good, they have to beware of wild animals, and it is inconvenient to fetch water, so it is really not suitable for others to live for a long time.But we don't have this problem.Qiyu and I are not afraid of any beasts.Although it takes a long distance to fetch water, it doesn't feel hard even with our physical strength.For us, the mountains are a nice and quiet place.

It's just that he avoids me even when eating during the day, which really makes me depressed.When I went to wash the dishes by the creek, he stayed by my side again.

"When did your cooking skills become so good? I didn't notice it before."

"Hmm... I haven't done it before..."

"Then when did you learn it?"

"You said you wanted to travel the world with me... I don't think we can take a cook with us everywhere... I don't want to have extra people around when I'm with you... So when they cook, I paid more attention... Although I didn't do it myself, I learned a little..."

My heart was as sweet as drinking honey, I smiled and looked at him sideways.He avoided my eyes.

"Do you remember the first time we talked? You came to my bed with such an arrogant look, saying that you want to make a deal with me", I asked with a smile, and he looked completely different from him now.I didn't like him like that before, but now I would rather his personality is still so flamboyant.Better than the unnatural silence and cowering now.

"Well, remember, you hated me very much then."

"It's not that I hate you. Anyway, everyone gets what they want, and you love me. But at that time, I definitely didn't like you as much as I do now."

"Then... At that time, were you very unwilling to be inferior to others?"

"Not at all. But at the beginning it was a transaction, so naturally you have to do it according to your preferences. Later, since you are regarded as one of your own, you are willing to..., so you changed your habit. But as for my preferences, it is indeed I prefer the ones on top. In the past, I probably liked women, but when I arrived at the Liu Mansion, I was pulled over. Therefore, although I am used to having sex with men, it seems that the top is more in line with my nature. If you are like me, In the future, we'll switch things up, I never had the idea of ​​forcing you, it's just that you don't have that intention."

"No, no", he waved his hand, "Actually, I don't care, it's just that when you were young, I thought you were not good at..., and your physical strength..., that's why you were like that. I really don't care, it saves effort and It's better to enjoy it."

I haven't had sex for several months, and it was fine when I was alone.Now this person lies next to me every night, unable to do anything, and whenever he thinks that way, he becomes stiff all over, and I have no choice but to suffer.He is telling me this now, and my mind can't help but wander around on this matter.Maybe... he talked to me about this... because he felt relieved?Tonight can...?

I glanced at him.

But he turned his head and said, "Aren't you very upset when I went to Hualou?"

"Of course", I nodded.

"That's really just a play on the occasion. I understand the truth of it best. Can't you trust me?"

I thought about it, "If you want to say I believe it, I still believe it. Even if you slept with them, I still believe that you have me in your heart. But even if I believe you, I am still not happy. I am not happy that you are contaminated with blood. If you smell other people's smell, you are not happy when others see your body. If I go to Hualou, will you believe me? Are you happy?"

"You're not that kind of person. I understand you. You think they're dirty. I won't mess with people outside Hualou. But if you cheat, you won't go to people inside Hualou. You must find a good family and say Maybe it's still a woman," he said with a slightly sour taste.

I patted him, "Obviously you are staying in Hualou overnight, so I should be jealous."

"I...Actually...the real one is only a few times...I still look forward to your return...I still have scruples...and only when I feel sad and can't bear it, I will get myself drunk... That's why... I usually just want someone to sleep with my arms around... I don't want to bring him home...so I have to sleep in the flower building..."

"Are you still reasonable?", I rolled his eyes at him, "We were all wrong in the past, even if it's evened out, we won't mention it anymore. Don't keep reminding me that you slept with someone else."

"I'm afraid you'll hate me in the future. We're good now, so you don't care about anything. If you don't like me in the future, then everything I do is wrong. My background, my going to the flower building..."

"Am I that kind of person?" I asked him a little funny.

He avoided my eyes and remained silent.

I pondered for a while. Although my own experience is not much, I have seen and listened to a lot.Take things in the clan as an example, because of the industry run by Qiyu, everyone's life has become easier.Especially those who are responsible for shipping goods and managing the store, they can be regarded as small rich people.The mountain people are simple and simple, and most of them still live as usual.But there are also some men who can share adversity with their wives, but cannot share wealth.Disliked his wife as a yellow-faced woman who bought a concubine or set up a concubine at the foot of the mountain.To say that compared to the blind marriage at the foot of the mountain, the decision to get married depends entirely on the agreement of the parents and the matchmaker, and the relationship between the husband and wife does not matter.But the clan has always been open-minded, usually young men and women fall in love with each other, and then get married.The relationship is naturally different from that of parental engagement.Relying on each other for 20 years, life is good, but the man dislikes his wife. This is not good, and that is not good.In fact, it's just disgusting, and it's not pleasing to the eye.

So his worry is not unreasonable.

At that time, Qiyu still couldn't get used to it and wanted to take care of it.I stopped.After all, it is someone else's family business, and even if you can manage people, you can't control your heart.Life is different, these are the usual things.However, we should not overwhelm others in everything just because we have improved the life of the clan.That's not the way to get along in the long run.After all, we are foreigners, neither the patriarch nor the elders of the clan.It is their business that people respect us, but we should not feel superior to others just because of this.Housework is inherently unclear, and it is even more taboo to manage other people's housework.Anyway, the patriarchs and their relatives and friends will persuade them about this kind of thing, but it is not easy for us to interfere.

"Then how do you want me to guarantee it? Take a poisonous oath?" I asked him helplessly, is it useful to guarantee something that I don't even believe in myself?I really don't think I will change, but I'm afraid it's hard for him to believe my empty words.People's hearts are indeed fickle.

"I don't believe in the pledge of eternal love." He looked at me fixedly, thought for a while, and sighed, "Forget it, if you change your mind in the future, I'll find a place to adopt a child. Someone gave me the old age. If you don't change your mind, I will spend the rest of my life with you and serve you comfortably. Then let Lin Han bury us together in the future. "

I laughed, "You think so far. I won't change, so don't worry about it."