only love is not enough

Li Zinan asked himself, he is indeed just a superficial person.He said that he liked Yan Han's personality, temper, and thoughts, but he still cared about Yan Han's family, work, body, and education, and he couldn't be as calm in front of others as he was in front of Cheng Lan.In the beginning, what he liked was only the side of Yan Han, but now he finds that Yan Han is composed of many faces, which are three-dimensional.He wants to transform Yan Han into what he thinks is appropriate, or put an image that he thinks is suitable on Yan Han, while ignoring Yan Han's own thoughts, not to mention that Yan Han is a man like himself, a man with strong self-esteem and firm will people.He liked the severe cold in his mind, and automatically ignored the parts he didn't like.Li Zinan began to take a new look at Yan Han, re-understand Yan Han, and reposition her emotions.

Yan Han is also examining his own heart.He admitted that his dependence and attachment to Li Zinan came more from the light and warmth that Li Zinan brought him.He also understands his cowardice, because he defined this relationship as a beautiful dream from the beginning, and he is waiting for the day when he wakes up from the dream, knowing that he will not stick to it.He doesn't want to get hurt anymore, he wants to protect himself, so when he has no ability, he will choose to give up instead of fighting.Cheng Lan saw through him, his feelings for Li Zinan were far from being love, let alone a future.But what should he do?he does not know.

The January exam is here, Yan Han is going all out, and Li Zinan is as meticulous and thoughtful as last time, but their inner entanglements are constantly being cut and confused.During this period of time, the two of them were silent a lot. Many times, the two of them stayed together, just leaning on each other quietly, each with their own thoughts.

Li Zinan had imagined many ways to celebrate Yan Han's birthday, but in the end he almost forgot.When Yan Han took the initiative to call him one of the rare times and asked him to go to have dinner after get off work, he remembered and hurriedly bought a cake to take with him.

There are only two simple vegetables, one fish, and the staple food is noodles.Yan Han said that since it was his birthday, he would treat it as longevity noodles, with two eggs in it.The noodles are boiled, the fish is steamed, nothing can be seen, but the green vegetables can be clearly seen not neatly cut.Li Zinan didn't say anything, just hugged Yanhan tightly, kissed his hand, and put it on his chest.

At this time, Li Zinan's heart is not only pity, but also moved, and also a sense of pride, proud of the one he loves, his Yan Han is a hard-working, self-reliant strong man, not the weak man he imagined in his heart.

Li Zinan ate with great relish, and even helped Yan Han pick out fishbone and feed it to him.It had been several days since I hadn't kissed like this, Yan Han looked a little shy, with a smile in his eyes, and his face was flushed, Li Zinan was so excited, he pulled Yan Han to sit on his lap, and gave him a deep kiss.

"The Spring Festival will be in ten days or so, do you have a holiday?" Li Zinan scooped up a small spoonful of soup and fed it to Yan Han.Yan Han nodded and said, "Well, they will take care of me, yes, let it go, for three days, the first day of junior high school, and the third day of junior high school."

"That's great, so do I! When the time comes, we'll go back to your house together!" Li Zinan was simply thinking of driving Yanhan back and bringing him back along the way, without thinking too deeply.But when Yan Han heard that the two of them went home together, as if they were seeing their parents, his face turned red instantly. He shook his head embarrassingly, and said softly, "Go back by yourself." Be happy, "No, I want to buy a yellow scorpion ィ ゼ ゼ Tang blanket Yuan Junren Tent, Ba, Sole, Butcher, Shrimp, Suhuan, Zheng, Stool, Spade, Clam, Californium, Shake

The huge department store is very lively, full of festive atmosphere everywhere, various special sales and new year sales promotions attract everyone, everyone packs big bags and smiles happily.Li Zinan's tall and handsome is easy to attract the attention of others, Yan Han who is walking beside him also arouses everyone's curiosity because of his delicate appearance and sick steps, people who pass by them can't help but take a second look , and some whispered.

This is Yan Han and Li Zinan's first official date and shopping, the more Yan Han doesn't want others to look at him, the more he cares about other people's eyes, the more he feels that others are pointing fingers at him.The physical disability magnified his inferiority complex infinitely. He was ashamed of himself, and felt that walking beside Li Zinan was not worthy at all, and it would only lower Li Zinan's image.He lowered his head and stared at the tiles on the ground in front of him. His footsteps were slightly flustered. His right leg felt more and more stiff and weak, and he couldn't drag it. His right hand began to tremble slightly.

"Raise your head, Yan Han." Li Zinan took Yan Han's left hand and held it tightly.Yan Han looked up and saw Li Zinan smiling at him gently, the smile was full of encouragement and firmness.

Yan Han calmed down slowly, he shook Li Zinan's hand back, his expression became more and more comfortable, and his steps became more and more relaxed.

Since he realized that, except when Yan Han was sick, Li Zinan had only walked side by side with him and never helped him. He knew that Yan Han wanted to rely on himself, and he didn't want Yan Han to feel that he was sympathizing with him.After a long time, Li Zinan also got used to Yan Han's gait, and naturally matched Yan Han's rhythm. It was not until today that he saw Yan Han's embarrassment and embarrassment in front of others for the first time.He feels sorry for Yan Han, and he wants to tell Yan Han that he doesn't care about his disability, he only cares about his feelings.He also respects Yan Han, so he chooses to hold hands instead of helping him. He wants to make Yan Han equal and walk by his side freely.He doesn't care about other people's eyes, and he doesn't care about other people's speculation about their relationship.

Yan Han understood Li Zinan's thoughts.He felt Li Zinan's respect and support for him, and he thanked Li Zinan for not treating him as weak, but treating him as an equal.Therefore, Yan Han also generously greeted the eyes of others who explored and questioned.

Li Zinan led Yan Han to the men's shoe section.Because of its lightness and stability, he always wears canvas shoes in the severe cold. Li Zinan also chose canvas shoes with soft soles and non-slip for him before.Today he wanted to choose a pair of suitable leather shoes for Yan Han, but he turned to several places, but he didn't like it.Finally, a clerk recommended a pair of brown lace-up leather shoes with soft calfskin soles, stylish and easy to match.

Li Zinan first helped Yan Han put on the shoe on his drooping and limp right foot, tied the shoelace, and pressed the toes and both sides until he felt that the foot was not squeezed, then put on his left foot and let him try walking a few steps.Yan Han walked to the floor-to-ceiling mirror, Li Zinan looked at the mirror from behind him and asked: "I can touch my right foot, but what about your left foot, does it feel comfortable?" Yan Han nodded lightly, Li Zinan asked him to take a few more steps, Seeing that he walks effortlessly, I feel relieved, "Then we want these pairs." Li Zinan whispered in Yan Han's ear, "This is a birthday present, I have to." Yan Han smiled and said thank you, Li Zinan blocked the side with his body The clerk suddenly pressed a kiss on Yan Han's face.

Yan Han's face turned red, Li Zinan helped Yan Han take off his shoes, asked the clerk to make an order, and then smiled and said to Yan Han: "Don't worry, I'm blocking it, no one will see it." She lowered her head in embarrassment.

The clerk didn't see it, but through the reflection of the mirror, someone else saw that scene.

The first time shopping was fruitful, Li Zinan wanted everything she saw, and she didn't know how much she would have bought if it wasn't for the severe cold. In the end, she stuffed her backpack bulgingly and carried a bag in her hand.

Back at the severe cold residence, Li Zinan took out the cake, lit 21 candles, and sang the birthday song.

"Why don't you make a wish? Make a wish!" Yan Han looked at the candlelight bewilderedly, and Li Zinan reminded him beside him.Yan Han shook his head and said, "Now, already, it's very good."

"It's not good enough! Close your eyes and let's make a wish together." Li Zinan said while cupping Yan Han's hands and kissing him, "I hope that I will spend Yan Han's birthday with Li Zinan every year in the future."

"This is your wish." Li Zinan just finished speaking, Yan Han laughed.

"Yes, this is my wish." Li Zinan smiled awkwardly, and then said seriously: "Yanhan, I have thought a lot during this time, I know I am not qualified enough, but I still want to say: I love You, Yan Han, I love you. This is only my one side, you don’t have to respond, just give me a chance to love you. As my aunt said, love is a promise, and I will give you this promise today, and I will definitely Prove my love for you with actions, please believe me!"

The candle was about to burn out, and the flickering candlelight flickered in the severe cold eyes. He closed his eyes and whispered softly "I, yes, wish..." His lips gently kissed Li Zinan's.

Yan Han was terrified, but he still slowly opened his body.When Li Zinan's fingers slipped into the cock, his body couldn't help trembling slightly; when his fingers lightly rubbed the sensitive contact point, he couldn't help but let out pleasure.Although Li Zinan's hotness made him panic, he still felt that he was more and more eager for Li Zinan's depth, he didn't want to let go of his fingers, he wanted more.Li Zinan still withdrew his fingers, he stood up his cold left leg, gently supported his right thigh with one hand, and pushed his own heat to the cold chrysanthemum with the other hand, slowly, slowly poking inside.Severe Cold kept taking deep breaths to cooperate. After the meticulous development before, the process of entering was not as painful as imagined, but the tears still couldn't stop.

Li Zinan didn't move, he leaned over to kiss Yan Han's tears, and whispered his love in Yan Han's ear, until Yan Han relaxed, he supported Yan Han's legs with both hands, and began to twitch slowly.Yan Han's left leg is sandwiching Li Zinan's waist, and his right leg is hanging limply. His body is dotted with hickey marks, and his fair skin becomes more pink and tender with Li Zinan's movements, which is extremely attractive, and Xiao Yanhan keeps spitting out honey. liquid.Li Zinan couldn't control the narrow and warm corridor in severe cold and the soft and shrinking inner wall. He speeded up and felt the twitching pleasure ecstatically.When Yan Han released it softly, Li Zinan could no longer suppress his passion and excitement, he roared and exploded in Yan Han's body like a volcanic eruptionⅰ

Yan Han fell into a deep sleep in a trance. Although Li Zinan still wanted it, he also knew that Yan Han's body could not be forced.After tidying up, he kissed the corner of Yan Han's mouth, whispered "Happy Birthday" in his ear, and held Yan Han in his arms quietly reminiscing about this beautiful emotion.

The burnt wax dripped on the intact birthday cake. Li Zinan didn't know whether he had fulfilled Yan Han's wish tonight, but he knew that he would work hard to fulfill Yan Han's annual wish in the future.More importantly, he wants to realize his own wishes.