Wrong birth

If... if there is a chance to say this word, then I hope that you have never met me in this life.

...Sincerely, seal it with a kiss, love Su Xiao forever"

"Sir, let's buy a bunch of flowers. The batch that just arrived is so fresh." A young boy stepped out of the shop a few steps and stopped Geng Yao. He presumably saw Geng Yao dressed like a money jar. , or the kind that is especially easy to talk about.Unexpectedly, when Geng Yao really turned around and stood in front of him, the young boy was stunned by the gentle and menacing aura about him, he no longer dared to approach him, and was speechless for a long time.

The owner of the store saw his son slammed at the door suddenly, and hurried out to entertain the guests. "Young man, would you like to take a look at the flowers that have just arrived at our house, including carnations, gladiolus, orchids, roses, baby's breath, roses..."

"Is there a white rose?" Geng Yao interrupted him.

The boss was stunned for a moment, "Ah? White... White roses, yes, yes... But young man, are you going to visit patients? It's not easy to use white flowers to see patients. How about I tie a bouquet of red roses for you, pink roses?" There are also."

"No, I want white roses."

Seeing that Ning Shu didn't like flowers, he would scatter them in the river, and would rather not see them.In fact, this is not always the case. When Ning Shu sees the flowers he loves, the flowers are about to die, and they flow with the water, because he can never keep them.But Su Xiao had a lung infection and was very sensitive to air, so he couldn't touch flowers at all. Both of them were flower lovers. For Su Xiao, Ning Shu didn't like flowers because he was going to see her.Only the white rose, Ning Shu saw that Su Xiao would be angry if he lost it, and he would not do anything to make her angry.So he went to the Old Summer Palace and sat there looking at the moon all night. Even if his heart ached unbearably, the pain was unbearable, and he raised his head, he would not cry too badly.So he doesn't miss this person, he forgets the past, starts again, and becomes a happy Ning Shujian.

When Geng Yao walked into the ward, he didn't see anyone at a glance. He was in a hurry, and suddenly a string of colored ribbons sprayed out from behind the door with a "bang", and someone struggled to get out from behind the cracked door, shouting happily :"Happy birthday!"

Geng Yao was stunned, looking at Ning Shujian dressed in a suit and leather shoes, it could be seen that he had specially asked someone to dress him up, which was very... pretty.Seeing that Ning Shu got out, he closed the door, jumped up to Geng Yao, put his arms around Geng Yao's waist, and kissed him hard without saying a word.

"Ah Yao, happy birthday..." When we parted, Ning Shujian dyed tenderness in his brows and eyes, and his long eyelashes swept across Geng Yao's line of sight, leaving a colorful meteor shower in the sky. He gently kissed Geng Yao's forehead , "You haven't come to see me for a long time, I miss you so much, I want to be angry with you, but I love you so much, I can't see you enough every time I see you, and I can't bear to waste a minute and a second with you I'm angry with you. You come to see me when you are free, and you have to remember to miss me."

Geng Yao felt astringent in his heart, so astringent that he became a spring in his heart.Ning Shujian is a person who is very good at talking about love. He is still the talented liberal arts student back then. He can use very gorgeous rhetoric and sweet and cloying sentences to make his lover happy, and like now, every word he utters They are all plain and simple, but put together to make you feel overflowing with love.But Ning Shujian never lied about love, his sweet words were only told to two people.

"Thank you, Ning Shujian. I miss you every minute and every second every day, and I miss you now. But, baby, you... come down first, my waist..." Geng Yao held the Seeing Ning Shu, he supported his waist with one hand, and slowly put the person down.

When Ning Shu saw the ground, he walked behind him and took off his clothes. "What's the matter, are you injured? Let me see... Hiss—it's all blue, what did you hit, and it still hurts, ask the doctor to show you?"

Geng Yao pulled him from behind to the front and wrapped him in his arms. "It's okay, there's no need to call a doctor. I'll go back and get some oil to rub it on. I came from the trail at the back door of the hospital. After walking for a while, people were crowded and I bumped into a stone sculpture. It's okay. By the way, I brought you flowers... Where are my flowers?"

Just after entering the door, Ning Shu saw a series of shocking behaviors. The bouquet that Geng Yao was holding firmly in his hand flew out and fell to the ground.

Ning Shujian: "..."

Geng Yao: "..."

Seeing that Ning Shu picked up the flowers, a series of movements were very simple, but Geng Yao was terrified watching it, afraid that he would be heartbroken.If he knew that Ning Shujian had put so much thought into celebrating his birthday, he would never have bought this bouquet of white roses.But Ning Shujian just tidied up the flowers and put them on the table. "Thank you, A Yao." He spoke softly, even with a gentle light in his eyes, "I am very happy that you can think of me."

Geng Yao felt very uncomfortable.Time seems to be very well-behaved, step by step according to the law, but in fact, it escapes faster than anyone else.Ning Shu saw that it had been five years since she was admitted to the hospital, and before she knew it, five years flew by.In the past five years, Geng Yao worked day and night to improve himself to a level that Xiao Yinjun was satisfied with, and began to slowly take over the company from his mother. He gradually stopped being as close to Ning Shujian as before, and later on he rarely went to see Ning Shu. Seeing him, Ning Shu saw that his life was hanging in the hospital. He spent countless money in it, and no matter what, he would not let him die.In the past five years, Ning Shujian's youthful vigor has been tempered. He lost his job and lived by Geng Yao. Geng Yao didn't allow him to die, but Ning Shujian didn't dare to die. He just lay on the hospital bed every day, Looking forward to Geng Yao's coming to see him, his whole life became a humble appearance that life would be worse than death.

Ning Shu saw Geng Yao standing and looking at him, with red eye circles, and tears rolling around his eyes a few times, and he hurried over to comfort him. "What's the matter, A Yao, don't cry, why did I bully you? I'm sorry for trampling on the flowers you gave me, I like the gift you gave me very much, and I like it even if I trample on it, don't be sad."

The dark clouds outside the window burst into purple lightning, as if it was close at hand and within reach.A strange light shone in the white ward. Geng Yao smelled the pungent smell of disinfectant and heard the noise outside the door. Someone said "I won't come tomorrow", someone shouted "He finally died", Some people cursed hysterically, "It's all your fault."He saw Ning Shujian's face, which had not seen the sun for a long time, was paler than paper, and there were new, old, and scarred pinholes on the back of his skinny hands.Those nightmares that haunted his mind day and night, torturing him and punishing him, appeared before his eyes at this moment regardless, he was so frightened that he wanted to yell, but a skinny hand emerged from a cloud of black mist He stretched out his fingers, pinched his throat tightly, and kept tightening, a gentle voice asked softly in his ear, "A Yao, are you satisfied that I have become what I am now?" ?”

"Do not--"

Geng Yao screamed suddenly, looked at the floor blankly, and then burst into tears, which really shocked Ning Shujian. "A Yao, what's wrong with you? Don't scare me, I'll go to the doctor, you stay here..."

At that moment, Ning Shu saw that it seemed that he had returned to a long, long time ago. Geng Yao pushed a small broken bicycle and followed behind him in a daze, stopped at the door of his house, was pulled down by him and sat on the concrete floor, listening A nonsensical lesson.He said "I'm not angry now", and the boy hugged him happily, and said in the clearest way, "I come to pick you up every day, I will definitely come to pick you up", that hug is what he has felt all his life The warmest hug, warm and soft, swelling and warm, like the sun, like winter light.

Geng Yao held him tightly in his arms, crying uncontrollably. "Don't go, see Ning Shu, don't leave... I dream of you every night, I dream that you leave completely, say you don't want me, don't want to see me again, every day I wake up, I see you I don't dare to see you until you are here... Ning Shujian, don't hate me, I love you, I have spent my whole life loving you, but I dare not, you lied to me, lied to me once, Just let me lose seven souls and eight souls, you don't even let me blame you, I see you again, what are you planning to lie to me!"

From the very beginning, he said, "I'm so bad, it's rare to be well." He was so bad that even those close to him suffered.Ever since he was born, his biological parents were unwilling to cherish him, so he never wanted to leave home too far, for fear of being alienated from his family. But when he met a Geng Yao, he surrendered the love of half his life and followed him. In Beijing, when I returned to my hometown, the house was already empty.His appearance is so beautiful that it is almost a disaster for the country. He has brought countless disasters to that family. He once fell in love with a girl. He was praised like a delicate flower. He hid his eternal life in the hands of a young man.His girl died, and he saw his bright young man kneeling and kowtowing to others.He stood at the ferry and tore his life in half. One half sank to the bottom of the river and gave it to the girl Su Xiao, and the other half threw it into the sky and gave it to the boy Geng Yao. He searched over and over again, but couldn't find "alive" in his life Two words, he said, I'm so bad, it's rare to be well, to meet such a good person, maybe it's because I was born wrong in this life.

"You are too tired, talking nonsense, sit down and rest for a while." Ning Shujian helped Geng Yao walk to the bed, Geng Yao started to pull a few steps, and then suddenly went crazy and saw Ning Shu Pulling towards the corner, after a while of dizziness, Ning Shu saw that the whole person was tightly bound to the corner.Geng Yaohong stared at him, like a beast driven to a dead end, his ten fingers grabbed Ning Shujian's shoulder, and his fingertips trembled uncontrollably.

"You always want to go, you know everything, but you still willingly accept my mother's sanctions against you, then what should I do, tell me what I should do? You have Su Xiao in your heart, but do you have any?" Me!!! Have you seen, I miss you for more than ten years, I am full of you, I only want you to live! Ning Shujian, do you understand! I don’t want anything, I just want you to live That's good! How many years you lied to me, how well you pretended, made me think I finally got you back, but how ruthless you are, how silent you are, how many years you spent, sending yourself away step by step To hell... what about me?" He tore open a heart, laying it out in a bloody mess, weeping in pain, or gouging out old wounds one after another. "What am I going to do, honey? I'm ultimately...not worth your time for me, are I?"

Every word and every word was whipping Ning Shujian, he bit his lower lip, suppressed the tears, couldn't help but raised his head to force back the tears, his tender eyes were red and refused to look at Geng Yao.Until the last sentence was spoken, Ning Shujian finally couldn't help it and sobbed loudly. He hugged Geng Yao and cried unscrupulously.

"No, no... A Yao, you are very nice, I love you, I loved you a long time ago, when you promised me to pick me up every day in the future, I gave you seven parts of my soul , I have you in my heart, I have always had you. I have loved two people in my life. Su Xiao is dead. She won’t let me miss her, but I have to love her. A Yao, but I love you forever, I I want to bring you to the next life, and meet you in the next life. Don’t say that you are not worth it. Don’t say such things. I can’t help it. A Yao, this world is too difficult, and it’s too difficult for us to be together. I love someone too difficult……"

A loud noise fell from the sky, and the wind roared and blew the leaves rustling. After a while, almost accompanied by the sound of thunder, the heavy rain poured down from the zenith without any prefix warning, one after another, without stopping at all mean.Geng Yao hugged the person in his arms so tightly and cried so hard, he buried his neck and shoulders, sobbing and said: "I would rather I don't love you, Ning Shujian, I don't love you anymore, let's not love each other , Can you survive? Let’s go back to the day when we met our mother, back to the day when you kissed me, back to the day when I first said I love you, back to the day when I promised to pick you up from now on, back to the day The day I talked to you at the age of 15, I will never meet you in my life. Ning Shujian, don’t give me seventy percent of your soul, don’t love me, don’t meet me in the next life, the next life, for a long time , safe and sound every year."

Ning Shujian suddenly felt hopeless, and a surge of fear spread through every cell in his body in an instant, rushing in his blood, and he cried hard, sobbing. "It can't be like this, A Yao, I haven't seen enough of you, I haven't said many words to you that I love you, I will meet you again in my next life, even if the world is full of collisions until my head is bloody, I will still meet you." To you. I've been wrong all my life, I can't see you all the time, I don't know if I can hold your hand, if I can kiss you, and no one asks me, should I smile softly, put this Make a face live the way it should be."

Geng Yao stuck in his throat and whimpered, tears kept falling from his eyes, and his hands were tightly hugged.

Ning Shu saw tears shed patter, and tightly clutched Geng Yao's lapel.He said: "A Yao, I will be a girl in my next life. I will find you, marry you, wash and cook for you, give birth to children for you, love you until I am a hundred years old, miss you every day, and thank you for everything I have. Friends show off you. I still look like you like, you have to remember to find me, remember to find me! You have to remember... In the next life, if you meet a girl who looks the same as me, it must be me. I gave you my soul, and I will love you for every lifetime..."

He couldn't speak anymore, his forehead pressed against his heart, choking so hard that he couldn't breathe.Geng Yao's face was pressed against his hair, tears were seeping from the corners of his eyes, he sobbed silently towards the dark sky outside the window, his eyes were empty and sad, and the breath in his throat blocked everything he wanted to say Words, he was sad and painful.Ning Shujian, I would rather not love you, I would rather not meet you, I would rather have an ordinary appearance, and I would not open my eyes one day, and there would be no trace of you in the world.But you can't see me, I can't keep you, why is our love so difficult, is it true that all love is like us, after half a lifetime of suffering, only to find that everything is wrong.

The rain became heavier, the wind howled and swept across the mountains and cliffs, there were no people at the end of the world, there was no spring and the earth, and there was no Xiazhi Remnant Bridge.There are ends of the earth in the world, you are at this end, and I am at the other end.I rushed to see you, just to see you, don't leave, don't forget that I'm on the way to see you, I'll pass right away, run past, don't forget, you have to remember to think of me, I'm coming soon, I See you soon.

The author has something to say:

It was supposed to be divided into chapters, but I didn’t know how to divide it after I finished writing it. grateful.

Then, because the ending seems to be a bit unfinished, I wrote a small side story. I originally wanted to put it in the next chapter, but after thinking about it, it is just my personal expectation for the ending of the story. Can it be included in this? A part of an article is actually a bit difficult for me to decide.So, in the end I decided to put it here.Here is the extra time:

——Fanwai·You are still you——

"Stop! Big thief, don't even think about escaping from my old lady's clutches!" Two black high-heeled shoes flew up high, throwing a perfect arc, one of them hit the running man's head accurately, and the man screamed strangely fall down.Another shoe flew further and landed in the arms of a man holding a stack of books.

The woman who threw the shoe rushed up and rode on the man who fell on the ground, took out the handcuffs and locked the man's hands with a click, and another plainclothes policeman ran over to escort the robber.By the way, he complained, "I said Ningning, you, a little girl, can't get married if you are so fierce in public."

The other party rolled his eyes at him. "It's their loss if they can't get married. It's their loss that the old lady is so beautiful and no one will marry her."

The little police officer agreed with this sentence and nodded, "Although you are fierce like a man reincarnated, but because you are so good-looking, if you really can't get married, I can barely accept you."

"Fuck you, ghosts care about you!"

The little police officer rolled away silently. At this time, a man came over holding a pile of books, holding a small black high-heeled shoe right on top of the books.The man's glasses almost slipped to the tip of his nose, and he handed forward a pile of books in his arms sullenly. "Miss, here are your shoes."

The female police officer smiled awkwardly, took the shoes back and put them on. "Sorry, I threw both shoes out in one go, didn't they hit you?"

Little Glasses shook his head in a panic. With this shake, the glasses slid down a little bit. He was holding the book in both hands, staring anxiously at the glasses, and almost got cross-eyed.

The female police officer held back her laughter and helped him push up his glasses, while a colleague behind him called her in the police car.She turned around and walked away, took two steps, then turned back and smiled at him, a gentle smile. "Goodbye, teacher, I always feel that we will meet again."

Little Glasses blushed, wondering how she knew she was teaching, when she lowered her head and saw the cover of the top book in the stack of books she was holding read "How to be a good teacher?".For a moment, he buried his head in shame and hurried forward, not daring to look at the police car behind him.The people in the police car couldn't help laughing softly when they saw him fleeing in a daze in the mirror.

It's okay, I will see you again, I will definitely see you again, because I have found it, and I will never forget it.

(Finish)