all things

Things didn't go well at the beginning, and while I was thinking about it, I wandered around and bought a boxed lunch at a street stall and then went home.

Sucking his nose, the tip of his nose was flushed red, "Go home and take some cold medicine." He thought.

Appetite is now a luxury additional option for him. In order to maintain the most basic energy of body functions, he can't eat any more, and he has to close his eyes and use his brain to order his body to compulsively execute the command of "eating".

Running for less than two hours after school is more exhausting than spending a whole day at school, but at the same time, many detailed problems have emerged, some of which are not due to his lack of consideration, but based on his understanding of basic social life. Unforeseen problems due to lack of knowledge.

For example, as before, he subconsciously only considered "needs" when thinking about problems, but he didn't know that with his original standard of living, this demand itself had surpassed the level of most people.

Another example is his contemptuous underestimation of "a person living alone in the city"...

He was so preoccupied that he didn't notice that the corridor light at the door of his house was on, and the key ring was clattering around his fingertips. He didn't stop until he opened the door and was blinded by the bright lights all over the room.

The smell of food was wafting in the room, and his slippers and a pair of women's leather shoes were neatly placed in the entrance. When he got closer, he could see figures floating in the living room——

Shen Yunjia was in the living room, with boxes open on the floor in twos and threes, neatly packed with all kinds of odds and ends, when he heard the sound and turned around, he was still holding a photo frame in his hand, inside which Bian Zhenhua's military uniform was neatly packed , the posture is as tall and straight as a pine, and the sword eyebrows and star eyes are in high spirits.

While trying to stare at the picture frame, my mind went blank.

"I'm home?"

Her hair was loosely tied back, and a few scattered strands fell from her temples. Just sitting there, she exuded a gentle smell. Her body, which is less than ninety days pregnant, has not yet shown her pregnancy, but her words and deeds It seems that I have a few more tender feelings of being a mother.

Looking away, I tried to stand by the entrance, but didn't make a sound.

She put the photo frame in her hand into the box, stood up slowly while supporting the armrest, "Have you eaten yet? There is food in the kitchen, let me heat it up for you?"

What is she doing back here?Are you packing your bags?

While thinking about it, his heart was in a mess and he was panicked, but he tried his best to restrain himself.

This made him look particularly stiff.

His mind is like a hard disk that has been formatted, empty.

"Small thoughts?"

Shen Yunjia was keenly aware that the silence at this moment lacked the sharp hatred of the past, but more surprises and doubts that were concealed. She didn't think much about it. After all, there will only be the two of them left in this family in the future, even if it is repaired. If we don't return to the old friendship, it would be good to have less hostility.

Three meals a day, asking for warmth, these are the "family norms" that she has been working hard to maintain since she was pregnant and even after Bian Zhenhua's accident—even when she thought about "not being disciplined", leaving early and returning late, and insisting on skipping classes. For a period of time, no matter whether he could bear it or not, the family would always prepare three meals a day, and winter clothes would not be forgotten when the seasons changed. If her physical condition did not allow it, she would stay with him late as before.

But once a person has a prejudice, he can no longer tolerate other things.Her series of actions were all included in the ranks of "scheming" by Bian Xiang, so all that fell on her side was embarrassment.

In view of this, Shen Yunjia thought that he was still blaming himself at the moment - she was the one who violated the contract for pregnancy, and she was guilty of this point, so she was always lacking confidence.

As before, she didn't get a response, but it seemed that she really restrained the monstrous hostility while thinking about it. The boy's eyes seemed to be mixed with various floating emotions, and she was straightforward and undisguised. She was stared at a little at a loss.

"I've eaten." This is the first sentence I have spoken to her since thinking about it.

She turned her head abruptly, fearing that it was her hallucination.

While trying to hastily look away, he put on his slippers and didn't look at her.

"I just arrived in the afternoon." She couldn't figure it out and thought about the current state, so she could only pick up a few words and say, "I met my brother in the provincial capital. My family is a little worried, so I will accompany you I watched him chat for a while, and then came back after resting for the night, and called your cell phone to tell you, but it didn't connect."

Where it didn't connect, it was obviously because she wanted to see that her call was "missed" on purpose; later, it was probably because of the shutdown, and it really didn't ring again.

He didn't want to hear her farewell at first, and thought it would be best to let go in such a tacit understanding. Until now, he thought she came back to collect things.

Until she said: "We have to find a place to move, the things in your own room, should I clean them up for you or you clean them up yourself?"

While thinking about it, his pupils shrank, and he blurted out, "What do you mean?"

Shen Yunjia thought that he didn't know about the return of the public housing, "This house is a dormitory for the work unit. It wasn't ours in the first place. Now that your father is no longer at the work unit, it must be returned!"

"I know that." He interrupted her, keeping his eyes fixed on her, "You mean, you didn't come to pack things?"

Shen Yunjia was confused, she was indeed "packing up", why "didn't come to pack up" again?

The young man didn't know how eager and eager he looked now, and it was precisely because of that irresistible solemnity that Shen Yunjia caught that flash of cognition in the blink of an eye, and she quickly laughed , "I'm packing up, we have to move."

The original nervousness dissipated immediately, and she seemed to remember something again, "Ah".

"I haven't asked you yet, do you want to stay in Tucheng to complete the rest of your high school courses, or go back to Quancheng?" She said, "If you want to go back to Quancheng, then we can go back too."

He didn't know what to say, she looked at him, and tried to guess, "I think, you should want to stay in the city?"

Shock is not enough to describe his state of mind while thinking about it. He half opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but his mind went blank, so he subconsciously closed his mouth, but he felt that he should express something when he closed it. When Zhang Yihe couldn't say why, he looked very stupid.

this woman...

He thought she was a smart woman who didn't show her sharpness, but he didn't expect that she would make such a choice at this time.

Obviously there is a better way out, but he chooses to stay.

Even if she has no regrets for the old man, but after the old man has been in for more than ten years, what hope can she have?

From his hesitation, she saw the question hidden deep in his heart, sat back with a smile, and lowered her head to caress her flat belly, "I am a person who walks all the way to the dark, and I can't turn back easily. , my family really ignored me this time."

She raised her eyes and thought, her smile undiminished, "Xiao Xiang, are you afraid? If not, our mothers and this little doll will be tied together from now on!"

The woman's gentle smile is like a spring full of overflowing eyes, glistening, and as soon as it emerges, it washes away the exhaustion of thinking over and over again, and it is also at this moment that he Suddenly enlightened, with an unprecedented harmony of mind.

A magical weapon called "Willing" will break through the hardships of going to thousands of mountains, give birth to the toughest shield of the human heart, and move forward against the wind in a single step.

All because of "I do".

She was even more remarkable than Bian Zhenhua and Bian Xiang had predicted.

He immediately exhaled the turbid air that had been suppressed in his heart for a long time, and the muscles and veins in his body seemed to be opened up in an instant, free and bright.

With Shen Yunjia here, there is one more person who can discuss with him, the state is completely different, like a train getting on the track, suddenly there is a direction, all the confusion is dispelled, and his plan is finally out of Tianfang Night tales and whimsical ideas have made a substantial leap.

Shen Yunjia has no objection to his plan to stay in the city, and she is not willing to leave Guangdong Province and go to a place thousands of miles away from Bian Zhenhua.

Bian Zhenhua had spent a lot of money in order to raise his relationship before, and the amount of money ordered by the court to recover had a gap, and the missing amount was still not enough.

One is a pregnant housewife, and the other is a minor under eighteen.

This debt is nothing short of overwhelming.

It took them two days to sort out the existing electrical furniture and some odds and ends at home, excluding some personal items, such as furniture and home appliances that can be sold second-hand, and newspaper waste was also packed and taken to the recycling shop to be weighed and sold. Yes, I will fill in as many debt pits as I can with the saved money. Shen Yunjia still has some leftover gold jewelry. Her idea is that at the moment when there is no income, at least she can keep it for living.

"Set it up first, and talk about other issues later."

This is their current common thinking.

But finding a house was still difficult.

It's not that there are no cheap houses. If you go to the old city in the west, or look for villages in the city, there are many cheap rented houses, but the problem is that you can't buy them.

Her thoughts were the same as she had thought before, she wanted to find them near Fuzhong, so that she could go to and from school conveniently.

"There are no cheap ones in that circle!" Bian wanted to say.

Shen Yunjia insisted, "I'll ask a few more agencies tomorrow."

They argued endlessly about the location, thinking that it would be okay to live far away, and just go out early every day, but Shen Yunjia resolutely opposed it on the grounds of safety and stressful high school work.

Convenience and money are really in a dilemma. Most of the entanglements in this world stem from poverty.

This kind of tight life is too unfamiliar to both of them. The pampered wife of the former secretary and the pampered second-generation young master never thought that there would be a day when they would hesitate and repeat for a few hundred dollars?

It was Saturday afternoon at the end of the first issue of the new semester's board newspaper work. Except for the make-up classes in the third year of senior high school, there were only sporadic students on other floors who also had to work overtime for school tasks.

Yu Jinle put away the tools and put them back one by one. After washing the watercolor paint dishes, he had to send back two large triangle rulers borrowed from the grade office.

There was no one in the corridor, the door of the office was open, and the people and things inside could be seen at a glance.The corner of his clothes was stained with chalk dust, and he hooked the triangle ruler with one hand, while lowering his head to pat the clothes. Just as he reached the door of the office, he was blocked by a figure.

"Is there any work on the weekend?" It was Shen Yunjia who came.

The woman's gentle tone remained unchanged, and the warmth brought out by her smile remained undiminished. The gaffe that Yu Jia used to shed tears in tears had long since disappeared. Although she was obviously thinner, she looked in good spirits.

Yu Jinle stood up and greeted her, calling "Auntie" politely.

Shen Yunjia smiled, said goodbye and left without saying anything more.

Sister Chun was in the office, and he called out "teacher" when he entered the door.

In the office on the sixth floor, only the head teacher of Class [-] is a math teacher. After he entered, he went straight to the position of the head teacher of Class [-] and hung the ruler on the nail on the wall behind.

"Jin Le." Sister Chun called to stop him.

Sister Chun didn't sit in her seat, she also relaxed a lot during non-usual class time, just now in order to entertain Shen Yunjia, she specially set up a tea set in front of the reception table and made tea, the water in the electric kettle was gurgling Tumbling, white water vapor came out from the vent above the lid, Yu Jinle stood still in front of the table, she pointed to the chair and said, "Sit."

The memories of being called to the office a few times were not very good. Yu Jinle thought about the fact that Sister Chun had just met Shen Yunjia, and wondered in her heart if she was thinking of something else.

The boiling water that had just boiled poured into the teacup, and the heat immediately dissipated.

"I'm homesick, I've come to an end here."

Today's clouds are a bit thick, and the sky outside the window is heavy. He turned his face slightly, and heard the bustling traffic on the road downstairs, and Sister Chun's voice came over, "His parents just came here, so they gave me a reassurance. Looking at it and thinking that this week's state is not bad, I finally breathed a sigh of relief."

Yu Jinle didn't know what to respond, so he sat quietly.

She thought she was back, but for Jin Le, it was far from being able to breathe a sigh of relief like Sister Chun said.

Their relationship, after going through the peak during the winter vacation, suddenly fell to the bottom at this moment.

Not that there was a dispute between the two.

It's just an intuition, a tacit alienation.

Yu Jinle is reserved by nature. In the past, the two of them interacted with each other while trying to lead the rhythm. Yu Jinle only needs to be in charge of responding and cheering. But after returning this semester, thinking that the whole person has become depressed, and his temper has quieted down a lot. If nothing seems to have opened the distance between the two.

Yu Jinle is very sensitive to this kind of estrangement, almost aware of it from the communication with Bian Xiang on the first day of school.

Bian Zhenhua's trial and sentencing was on the news. The 15 and a half years of the sentence, while thinking about it, can be imagined, but Yu Jinle is still not sure if he is estranged now. ...

what did he see...

Yu Jinle's not very extroverted personality, lack of self-confidence, vacillation, coupled with doubts about his own sexual orientation during adolescence, determines that he is bound to hesitate when faced with thinking, almost thinking about moving forward ten years Only one small step was exchanged for his trembling small steps, but after taking too many small steps, he became inertial and couldn't stop, so he got carried away.

He still remembers the sentence that he rushed to think about under the impulsiveness, I miss you.

That was already the most desperate move in his life. As soon as the words came out of his mouth, he was so nervous that his ears roared and his head became hot, and he completely forgot the reaction he was thinking about. Looking back now, he deserved it for scaring people.

Sister Chun continued to talk freely.

"It's not easy for his family now. His relatives and friends are all out of town. Orphans and widows are helpless. You have a good relationship with him and try to help."

Yu Jinle gave a "hmm", thinking to himself that he wanted to help, but only if he didn't scare him away.

Then I heard Sister Chun sigh and say, "It's really not easy. His father is not here, and his stepmother is not in good health. Now he has to move, and it's hard to find a house."

Yu Jinle couldn't hold back, "A house?"

"Yes, their house is a public house, and they have to return it to the unit within a time limit, and they have to find a new house to rent."

Then Sister Chun lamented for a while that it was not easy for the mother and son of the Bian family to find a rented house, probably because they had just chatted with Shen Yunjia.

Sister Chun secretly pondered for a long time in the conversation with punctuation marks, and finally got home, walked downstairs, and saw someone who was the subject of the topic was squatting in the corner of the parking lot with his ass pouted. .