all things

High school life is colorful, but high school study is undoubtedly boring. Sometimes only a little bit of unique adjustment can set off a carnival of taste buds among this group of youthful and invincible teenagers.

During that period of time, starting from the island of Taiwan across the strait, there was an invincible wave of idol dramas, and all kinds of whimsical themes full of pink bubbles adapted from shoujo manga came together with lightning speed. The speed swept the young people in major cities in mainland China. Although the investment was small and the cost was small, the production was rough and the screenwriting was one-liner, but it was fresh, especially the countless exquisite and beautiful "beauties" and the ordinary "beauties". "Cinderella" pairing, let Huaichun girls dream.

The most "distressing" thing is that the female academic masters in the scorpion are also unavoidable-they even turned on the automatic search mode of the radar tentacles on the top of their heads, and efficiently searched for the "beautiful boys" who appeared around them.

When Yu Jinle received some inexplicable signals for the first time and looked around blankly, a figure flew towards him from behind, with such force that he staggered a few steps forward.

"Happy! Happy!" Lu Jing stuck it on like a dog's skin plaster and couldn't take it off. He didn't care that he was a head shorter than Yu Jinle, stretched his arms around his shoulders, and hung them on him. The long voice is as weak as a dead dog released from a walkman whose battery is almost exhausted, "I—come—la——"

"What are you doing!" Yu Jinle was so crushed that he almost couldn't catch his breath, pushing him towards the edge of the track, "Go in, the ball doesn't have eyes!"

In the physical education class on Thursday, class [-] and class [-] met together. It was rare that they were arranged by their respective physical education teachers on the track and field side this week. The people in the two classes were so happy. If the number of players is not enough, they can only play half of the game. The players who play football during the free time are divided into teams according to their shifts, occupying the whole court and having a sweaty inter-class match.

The sunny boys were sweating after chasing each other on the court, and Lu Jing, who was a waste of sports, didn't have that kind of hard work to solve the problems when he had free time, so he could only find a piece of land by himself to pull weeds in a daze, pretending to be stupid Leng.Young Master Lu has a lot of shit. When it's cold, he carries a hot water bottle. When it's hot, he has to bring a small fan. When it's half hot and not cool, he has to hold a small handkerchief and cover his nose to prevent sand, dust and dust. Huafen is completely different from the group of rough straight men, so it can be said to be very unique.

If Cheng Shuo was with him at ordinary times, Cheng Daxueba was not very passionate, but he was a master with a desperate posture and an amazing attitude. He never left his exercise papers. During free time like this kind of physical education class, he would accompany Lu Lu Jing Sha sat while brushing up the questions, even if Lu Jing annoyed him with being so rigid and moody, there was nothing he could do.It's a pity that even this big tree stump, which is not sentimental, was borrowed by the teacher of the chemistry group today. Young Master Lu was lonely and cold. Fortunately, there was Yu Jinle in the same room, and he stuck to it without saying a word.

The two of them, one willful and the other low-key and ordinary, it's quite surprising that they can become friends across floors and half of the grade. After all, Yu Jinle is a little transparent that even the classmates don't recognize well.

If you have to say the reason, it can probably only be attributed to the tacit sense of belonging based on the mutual sympathy between "the same kind". If there is nothing to do, the second class will run over and flirt with Yu Jinle.

They found a spot under the awning and sat down, crossing their legs as if meditating.Lu Jing shook off the handkerchief, and held the corner of the handkerchief as if an oiran was inviting guests. "Ouch!" he disliked the cotton wool sticking to his body, "This bad weather, my mother's handsome son is suffering to death!"

Yu Jinle tugged at his clothes, "Sit over here, and sit down on the other side."

He was still holding the sketchbook in his hand. He had been staying up late lately, and his night fire had accumulated a lot. He had a pimple in the middle of his forehead, which bulged out. His complexion is fair, and that point is particularly eye-catching, Lu Jing burst out laughing.

"You have opened your eyes! Hahahahahaha!"

He patted his thigh and laughed, and when he stretched out his cheap paw, he was about to poke the pimple, but Yu Jinle slapped it away unceremoniously, and leaned back to avoid the restless poisonous claw.

"Don't move, it hurts!"

Lu Jing approached him nervously, "Are you on fire~?" The tone at the end of the sentence almost showed a wavy line, "Why have you been so fast lately~"

Yu Jinle blocked his big face with a sketchbook, "I've been busy recently, and I've been staying up too late."

Lu Jing pushed away the sketchbook, and Yu Jinle stepped back. Their posture seemed to be pressed together from a distance, "Don't rush to explain~ Look at us, we are happy and happy, so we don't feel relieved." ? Why don’t you come to my house this weekend? I got a new film—”

He smiled ambiguously and gossiped, no matter how dull Yu Jinle was, he could hear what he was saying, so he slapped him with the sketchbook and said angrily, "Shut up!"

That annoyed, ashamed, and angry look made Lu Jing laugh hard. He swayed like a tumbler, wiped away the tears that didn't exist in the corners of his eyes and said, "You're still ashamed of me?" What? Are you funny? Come on, I really have a movie, not the ghost movie like last time, it’s serious—Wu Yanzu and Feng Delun’s..."

When it came to going to Lu Jing's house to watch a movie, Yu Jinle's expression became even more indescribable.

He still remembers what happened when he went to Lu's house for the first time, which made him unwilling to recall the embarrassing situation that was so embarrassing that he could explode on the spot for a long time after that.

He put his legs up, hugged his knees and buried his face in his arms, Lu Jing could only see his reddened ears.

"Okay, okay." Yu Tuo went online, and Lu Jing was afraid that he would ignore him if the trouble continued, so he quickly accepted it, "Seriously, think about it, what's going on now?"

After speaking, he stretched his neck and searched around the entire playground.In the past, he didn’t have to look for it at all. He looked at the court and just caught one. But now it seems that it’s not working anymore. Thinking that he doesn’t have nothing to do on the court like before. He has aimed back and forth for several times. There was no sign of a braised egg.

"No, someone else? They won't be skipping class again, right?" Lu Jing yelled, the squad leader Bian was on the "Wanted List" because of skipping class at the end of last semester.

Yu Jinle raised his head, rubbed his chin against his sleeves, and said in a muffled voice, "I didn't escape, I was called by Xiao Shuai."

Lu Jing touched his nose and said "oh", "Then tell me about you two?"

Yu Jinle glanced at him uninterestedly, then looked away.

As summer is approaching, the kapok exploded its pods, flying catkins all over the sky, covering the streets and alleys of the city, and even the land of this school is sparsely covered with white.

Girls full of fantasies call this summer flying snow. Yu Jinle has never seen real snow, but he especially remembers someone once said that he could fall out of human form in the snow-real snow must be loose and soft Soft, he thought.

"There's nothing to say." He lowered his head again, hugged his knees and closed his eyes, "It's probably still the same."

Like that?just how?

Lu Jing glared at him, "You made it clear!"

say clearly?He wanted to be able to explain clearly, but he couldn't explain this kind of thing clearly.

Yu Jinle's arm circled a hole above his knee, and he turned into an ostrich and buried himself in it.

--I like you too.

—but not now.

—— Be good, and I'll pretend I don't know anything, so we'll be like this, okay?

Whispering whispers and beating hearts converged into the youthful drumbeat of restless youth, but after the ups and downs, he was shocked by an emotion called "reason".

I also thought about approaching with a fiery head regardless, but what happens after I get close?

Yu Jinle is not confident that he will be able to live such a unique life well in the future. His own life is messed up enough, do he want to add another one?Thinking that he is different from him, he is born with nature, and thinking that he didn't have any signs of liking the same sex before - there is no doubt about this, no matter how many books he reads and how many excuses and reasons he finds out of it , they can't hide the deviantness of this small group of people.

In the third year of high school, there was a senior who was gentle, tall and thin. He usually liked to play volleyball with girls, pinched his orchid fingers when he talked, and would unconsciously twist his hips when he walked. Confidently draw a conclusion on him from his words and deeds - Yu Jinle feels that he is better than him in that he is not out of shape. 【Note】

He didn't know if that senior had heard those comments and ridicules that were not friendly at all, and he didn't have the boldness of Lu Jingfan's righteousness. He was full of enthusiasm, but he had deep doubts about himself and was always worried. Worried that this will lead to the future that I thought about, and put the two of them in the center of the vortex of public opinion...

In a word, he was terrified.

"Lu Jing, I probably won't be able to take that step in my life. I can't even take care of myself. How can I let him, an ordinary person, fall into these messy things?"

"Eh? No, I said you—" Lu Jing finally saw his problem, and said angrily, "What do you mean? Mess? What is a mess? What's the matter?! Are you looking down on me? !"

"No—" Yu Jinle hastily explained, "It's not you, it's me—"

"You?" Lu Jing snorted coldly. He has his persistence and beliefs, which is completely opposite to Yu Jinle's long-term timid temperament. "Do you really think that secret love is glorious? Do you really Do you think that waiting silently is great? If you don’t take the initiative to grab him firmly, do you think you can still have a place by his side in the future?”

"Why not?" Yu Jinle couldn't argue, "If we don't take this step, we will be friends and brothers forever. Lovers will break up, husband and wife will divorce, but friends and brothers can last forever, right?"

Lu Jing's eyes widened, and he was so angry that he wanted to poke him awake, "Are you still thinking that when he gets married, you will be the best man and call his wife your sister-in-law, and when his child is born, you will rush to meet him again?" A godson?"

Yu Jinle: "..." He really thought so.

Lu Jing was convinced, he took a few deep breaths, patiently broke the truth and spread it in front of Jin Le: "Look, even if he is married, do you really think his wife will let a man who has had a crush on her man for many years Have you been in and out of their house all year round? Do you have any misunderstandings about girls? Do you think they are fools?"

This person is stubborn, and Lu Jing felt that his temper that could explode at any time on Cheng Shuo's side was suppressed to a cold feeling here, "Just say that his ex-girlfriend is fine, that Weng Lin, the two of them were in love at that time How wonderful! In the end, it wasn't because he had been with a group of brothers for a long time and neglected her, which led to all the conflicts behind? Are you really being fooled by being someone else's wife? Can't you see what other people think about your man? "

"Huh?" Yu Jinle looked at him blankly, "Thinking about ignoring her?" Could it be that they broke up because Weng Lin was going abroad?Although I wanted to mention some differences in the two sides' ideas, the main problem is because she is going abroad, isn't it?

Lu Jing is not like Yu Jinle who always stays out of the group of people. He actually did well in the grades, but the young master has a temper and doesn't like to join in the fun, but even if he doesn't like to join in the crowd, There will always be a lot of news delivered to him through various channels.

"Women are the most sensitive to these things. Otherwise, why is that Lin Haiqiong insisting that it is your squad leader who always abandons you? The conflict between the two of them was actually buried from the beginning. Thinking about that temper, it is impossible." He is a person who revolves around a girl, his own world is wonderful, this kind of love of holding hands and kissing a small mouth is completely dispensable to him, that is, in his spare time when playing football It is used to pass the time! When he is happy, he can coax a few words, if he is not happy, he can turn around and go to his own business. Who is Weng Lin? As a young lady, she has never been wronged since she was a child. My grievances are all earned from the squad leader Bian."

Yu Jinle couldn't close his mouth when he heard it, and wanted to cup his fists and shout "Friends of Women".

"You can make trouble with a group of buddies who don't matter at all, do you really think that you can escape by standing there?" Lu Jing rolled his eyes, "Do you have any misunderstandings about your family's thinking? ? I don’t believe his wife won’t be able to see something that an outsider can see!”

In the past, Yu Jinle might have been able to grasp and resist the fact that he didn't have any thoughts, but now it doesn't work, thinking that he has cast a spell around him-like it, but it doesn't work.

Fear comes from the unknown, probably like him, he is also afraid of this unknown way forward, and hesitates to move forward.

Yu Jinle forcefully defended, "But the two men..."

Lu Jing almost laughed at him, "I'll ask you, what's the matter with the two men? Is there a problem? Their love between men and women is called love, but our two men are not called love? Then Cheng Shuo and I What is it? He cooks porridge for me every day, cooks soup, washes the dishes, and takes me to and from school. Not to mention, he works hard every day to show his face in various competitions in order to find a good way out for me in the future and let me live a good life, you know? You Do you think being a woman can do better than him? Do you think Weng Lin can do this for me?"

At the end, he didn't forget to sprinkle a handful of dog food, Yu Jinle's teeth were so sour.

"No!" Yu Jinle denied, he just didn't have confidence in his future, and didn't mean to deny anyone else.He once talked with Bian Xiang about the "future", especially remembering that Bian Xiang talked about it, and he had already planned his employment path in the next three to five years or even further, but what about him?He didn't even know what he wanted to do next.

"Don't deny it!" Lu Jing interrupted him unceremoniously, "You say you have low self-esteem, you have been denying yourself, but have you ever thought about how much of your low self-esteem is based on your sexual orientation? You I have always felt that this is wrong, and that is not good. If you want me to say, your pressure is self-inflicted. Who the hell is so capable of predicting the future, whether it is good or bad? You have a crush on someone, but you don’t have the courage to take this step , You said you were doing it for the good of each other, but it was just an excuse for your timidity!"

In the end, Lu Jing concluded domineeringly: "You are still not a man!"

Yu Jinle shrank his neck and said nothing, Lu Jing felt that he could really be pissed off by him, put his arms around his neck, and leaned over to meet his forehead, "Look, if I hesitated like you back then, what do you think? Can Cheng Shuo and I get together? How much better can I be than you? I have a bad temper and always go on the rampage regardless of things, but Cheng Shuo will always take care of it for me. When two people are together, this is what we want Is it a kind of complementarity? You think about it, as long as two people like each other, other things can always be solved."

He spoke sincerely, intending to persuade this stubborn bull who was so stubborn that he was about to run towards the south wall. While speaking, his hands were still resting on the soft flesh of the back of Jin Le's neck, pinching and pinching unconsciously, and Yu Jin Le fell into deep thought. If he didn't know it, he let him go, but the attitude of the two of them was full of ambiguity in the eyes of outsiders.

Thinking about walking out of the door of the equipment room with Xiao Shuai, they saw the two people whose faces were almost stuck together ten meters away, and their faces turned black.

Xiao Shuai held back his laughter and poked him with his elbow, "There's a fire in the backyard?"

Thinking that he would be so annoying to death, he took a step to the side to avoid his harassment, "Why haven't you left yet?"

A certain brazen man spread his hands, "If you can't catch up with your wife, just leave. Where should I go if I have this wife? It's too late, so I'm willing to leave?"

While thinking: "..." Did someone throw dog food just now?

"I've said it before!" Xiao Shuai put his hands in his pockets, leaning against the door frame to act as a door god, "A poor end is not necessarily an end, how do you know it's not another village with a bright future? When you think there is nothing you can do When you are in trouble, don’t turn defense into offense. Only by grasping the overall situation can you jump out of the constraints and achieve your goal. It’s true that a kid like you is easily confused. I understand your hesitation. You see, it’s been so many years Didn't your teacher's wife just figured it out?"

He didn't mention the identity of "teacher's wife" at all, but it was not difficult to guess who she was.

While thinking: "I can't see that you have a set of principles, why didn't you become a Chinese teacher in the first place?"

Xiao Shuai: "There are a lot of assignments for the main subjects, and this school can't just mess around, so where is the time to chase after your wife?"

Thinking about the blue veins on the forehead, pinching the bridge of the nose, I don't want to answer him at all.

He doesn't care about any constraints or confusion, but if he wants to, so what if he likes Yu Jinle, who is of the same sex?This is not a problem at all.

"Look at my current situation, what can I give him? I can't even afford to take him to a decent birthday meal, so how can I promise? Can't give him the best, let him suffer with me If you feel wronged, it’s better not to start.”

Xiao Shuai laughed, thinking that this little kid is still a little kid, and his thoughts are still stuck in the weird idea of ​​"If I love you, I will give you the whole world".

"Do you have any misunderstandings about this world, kid? It's not that he lacks arms and legs, and it's not that he can't take care of himself. Can he make you a Buddha statue?" At a young age, he had this idea of ​​"supporting a family" Xiao Shuai said that he was also very convinced. I really don't know whether to praise him for his responsibility or laugh at his old-fashioned ideas, "You have always been equal, and people who can get together are never one-way relationships. You can give him the world, and in turn he can give it to you, not just you, any couple in this world should be like this."

After this call, he felt that he could go to the radio station to start a late-night talk show, and the name of the column was "Midnight Marriage Emotions of Urban Men and Women".

"You have had girlfriends before, let me ask you, do you think you were in perfect condition when you had that little girlfriend? What did you give her? Oh, your family was quite rich back then, right? You give her the best birthday present? You take her to eat the most luxurious dinner? Have you ever thought about whether the things you can provide are your own things? If so, why would you What happened to fall into such a field by accident?"

Xiao Shuai's words were poisonous, he didn't shy away from the fact that Bian's family was defeated, he was completely at a loss for what he wanted to say, and found that he had no room to refute.

Xiao Shuai pointed forward and said bluntly, "Let me tell you, if he is really worth it, he won't alienate you or reject you because of your downfall; if he isn't worth it, then you don't need to waste your time." It’s above this, I see that you don’t have to take this path anyway, this path is not easy to walk, if you want to go to the end, you will encounter more problems in the future, such as the external environment, the families of both parties, That's not a problem of incompatibility or rightness that can be resolved, you should think about it for yourself."

Thinking carefully about what conclusions he could draw, he wondered, but he only knew that after a delay, that sleazy fellow Lu Jing was about to lie on top of Jin Le!

His face turned from black to white, and after saying hello to Xiao Shuai, he rolled up his sleeves and turned around to leave. He looked like a jealous husband coming to catch an adulterer. Yu Jinle slipped behind him by the back collar, Yu Jinle looked dazed without any precaution, Xiao Shuai leaned against the door frame and laughed so hard that he almost slipped up against the wall.

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[Note]: 乸 type, Cantonese, = sissy