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After the end of this semester, they will face the second year of high school, and soon the third year of high school will follow. Judging from the rounding theory that comes out of the mouth of Li Yihua, the head of the Chinese department, they are already about equal to the graduation class.

The constant nagging can be turned into reality, and the pressure of the graduating class seeping out from the third grade of senior high school at least four floors away, is drawn into countless threads in front of them, and they begin to communicate with each other. Everyone's future trajectory is connected to form an invisible net.

The cultivation of students' crisis awareness in key schools like this one is never accomplished overnight. Just halfway through the first semester of senior high school, the tense pace of senior high school began to speed up the rhythm of other grades from the first semester.

The grade leader and teacher of political science spoke earnestly on the podium, "Students, if you don't accumulate steps, you can go a thousand miles. Knowledge depends on accumulation, not just by hugging Buddha's feet!"

The students below have already gone crazy in the enslavement of science and materialization. They were counting on this liberal arts class with limited brains to rest and recuperate. To understand how to accumulate political knowledge, should I recite the textbooks every day or chase the seniors to do the practice papers every day?

This kind of boredom day after day and the pressure of the college entrance examination hanging over their heads all the time pushed them to stagger forward.For most students, they are adults in their spare time when they are not studying. In the age of pure learning when they open their eyes to study and close their eyes to take exams, the pressure and pain brought about by study and the college entrance examination have surpassed all other aspects of life.

Three years of high school are short, and the joys and sorrows of life are so important, all tied to the flimsy paper report card.

The education system calls for reforms to reduce the burden every year, but it has never been able to get rid of the pressure of the college entrance examination policy in a real sense.

Li Yihua will draw a big cake for everyone in every class meeting, describing the bright life of Nati after three years of hard study and finally the leader of high school, as if the college entrance examination is a catastrophe rolling in the sky, and everyone will become immortal after passing it .

They are like a group of donkeys dragging heavy burdens, under the whipping of the carrots hanging in front of their eyes and the whip behind them, they clenched their teeth and circled the same stone mill endlessly.

They are miserable, but there is nothing they can do.

Of course, they cannot foresee the future just yet.After a long time, when they all entered the society and really embarked on their own life paths, when they looked back again, they suddenly realized that the seemingly stressful high school years were actually the most precious time in their teenage years.

All the time is lived up to and wasted before you can pick up a certain section from your memory, pat the dust deposited on it, and lament that it is the best time.

Yu Jinle had an inexplicable birthday in May.

Why do you say it is inexplicable?It started from the fact that after the midterm exam, he wanted to be summoned by Li Yihua and went to the office to deal with the student files, and Yu Jinle saw his birthday on the page.

There are many children in the Yu family, and their parents are busy with the business of the store, and they are not very educated people, and they never take birthdays seriously—the kind of true love that doesn’t even have a bowl of noodles or eggs. Insignificant indifference.

But thinking about it differently, he was the only son in his family, and although his biological mother passed away early, she was a lady of the family in the true sense. The extravagance of the banquet is an emphasis on attitude. Once the habit is formed, it is not so easy to get rid of it. After his mother passed away, during the period before Shen Yunjia appeared, his father would take time to accompany him no matter how busy he was. He, the only son, eats and chats, summing up the shortcomings of the past like an old leader, and looking forward to the future.

So when he found out that Yu Jinle's birthday was still a day or two away, he approached him nervously and said, "What do you want me to eat?"

Yu Jinle had a black question mark on his face, "What do you want to eat?"

While thinking, "It's your birthday, don't tell you that just like my family, it's my family who has a meal and doesn't have the habit of inviting classmates?"

Yu Jinle didn't get his point, "Isn't my family eating enough for three meals a day? Is it a birthday or not?"

"No, isn't it your birthday? I think it's your birthday soon! It's May [-]th!"

Yu Jinle looked helpless, "Master, not everyone has a birthday like you, I don't have a birthday."

Of course, he had seen the so-called birthday party - before Zheng Manman went abroad, her birthday party was the most exaggerated one Yu Jinle had ever seen.Every year, her father set up more than [-] tables in the reserved hall of the restaurant, together with his business friends and Zheng Manman's own classmates and friends, he invited a full house of distinguished guests at once.

But at home, not to mention the impossibility of having a dinner party of this size, his parents don't even worry about when his birthday is.

Common people, even if they are running around for three meals, how can they have the energy to toss about these things?

"Wow, you have a rougher life than me!"

Yu Jinle rolled his eyes when he heard that.

But birthday is rough?That's a lot of rough people, his young master just didn't see him!

The three rivers of Yue, Lin and Xing follow the undulating and gentle continuous low hills, meandering thousands of miles across the entire ancient southeast land with a long history, nourishing a fertile soil and unique human feelings with painstaking efforts along the way, and finally meet each other. It will rush into the sea in Yucheng, a seaside city located on the southeast coast.

This small city has become one of the first batch of cities enjoying economic privileges due to its superior harbor conditions and unique geographical location. It has a long coastline, unique folk customs, and a thriving commercial kingdom. and fisheries with obvious regional characteristics.

Literature and art and tradition, commerce and business, are somewhat harmonious and somewhat abrupt.Some people say that this city is warm, while others say that this city is xenophobic. In an ancient small town, the contradictions between culture and emerging policies are everywhere.

The Yu family is the most representative family in this small town with a male lead outside and a woman lead inside.The male master works hard to make money outside, and the female master manages the family at home.They have the perseverance of local people who are constantly struggling for their lives, and they also have traditional feudalism that even ignores family planning policies like family planning.Some people say that women from other places marry from afar, which means that they are inseparable from the feudal remnant patriarchal system for life.

Of course, as an out-and-out local self-employed family, the Yu family inevitably portrayed all the above items in their bones.

It is precisely because of this reason that Yu Jinle has a younger brother and younger sister. Although this is nothing compared to the rural areas, but at the same age who are already Among the classmates who are restricted by the policy, his family is a veritable large population.

Father Yu came out of the countryside to work hard since he was a child, from a poor boy in the countryside to now he can be regarded as a successful family. It is a bit better than ordinary working families who have no power and power.

Although Yu's mother grew up in a good family and lived in the city, her generation was deeply affected by the Communist Party. Due to family status, she dropped out of junior high school and went to the countryside.

This kind of family must have great expectations for the eldest son who has always been high in school.

Father Yu's business is hard, Mother Yu sees it well, the education of her eldest son from childhood is to study hard to be an office worker, sit comfortably and make money, but don't be like his father in order to support the family In life, I get up and down in the morning and feel dirty, busy going out and going in and out, and I don’t even care about three meals.

Of course, their starting point is to be good for their own children - most parents think so.

Just like the parents of most Chinese people, they pin their expectations on a few children. Because of the resentment and resentment formed when they were hindered from studying when they were young, they formed an inexplicable yearning for literati and reading. This kind of longing prompted them to further embark on the habit of the first parents: let their children fulfill their childhood dreams for themselves.

However, due to their limited education and vision, they don't know much about educational methods, and they have to worry about the small business at home. There is really not much time to allocate to the family, so they can only rely on their own lack of knowledge and limited knowledge. Use your brain power to forcibly construct an education method, which is exactly the "strike education" method that many families believe in nowadays.

Due to the astonishing broadness and universality of this kind of "strike education", it exists in all kinds of families all the year round. The popularity leads to the secrecy of the disadvantages, so that they all take this kind of education as a matter of course. It is attributed to the "ideal way" of combining "self-effacement" and "motivation", which is even regarded as a dogma and passed down from generation to generation.

They would never have imagined that this kind of "strike education" and "stick education" have the same effect in that one hits children psychologically and the other hurts them physically.

Yu Jinle grew up in this kind of environment since she was a child, with strikes and denials following her everywhere, and she must always obey her parents' instructions——

If you are obedient and behave well, there is no praise, at most it is just a faint "don't be proud"; if you behave poorly, you will definitely be beaten and scolded.

If you are disobedient and get a good result, you will earn a sentence of "you will not have such luck next time"; if the result is not ideal, you will be ridiculed and completely denied.

"We love you so much, raised you up, and provided for you to study. We treat you so well, so you must follow our wishes."

Parents use "being nice to you" as a hostage to kidnap the child's immature morality.

Using "for your own good" and "I'm afraid you will be complacent" as excuses, I keep in mind to hold you down and step on you every minute, for fear that if I relax, it will become "boosting".

One's own children have to be humbled, there's a fucking word for it called "self-effacement."

Based on their level of cognition, at most they can only associate "strikes against education" with "stimulating blood" and "reflecting the dignity of parents", but they are far from understanding the importance of "teaching students in accordance with their aptitude".Everyone has different personalities, and they will show various reactions in the face of the same situation. Maybe there is someone who can adapt to the bloody stimulation brought about by this kind of persecution education, but this person is definitely not Yu Jinle.

As the eldest son, he is not good at words, has a deep temper, is good at hiding, is extremely resilient and stubborn, and would rather write down his feelings in a diary rather than confide in his heart.

He is well-behaved, easy-going, sensible, soft-hearted and will not reject people, and he lacks that explosive blood in his bones.If he is allowed to grow up for a few more years, this temperament may not be able to develop in a stable and reliable direction, but now his character is not yet perfect, and the three views are not yet complete. This kind of education is effective for such a person with thousands of knots and deep thoughts. body, will inevitably form a substantial pressure and inferiority complex.

Where there is comparison, there is inferiority complex, especially when this kind of comparison presents a continuous and endless trend, inferiority complex becomes a habit, and the habit is suppressed for a long time, and a wave of jealousy and malice will arise from the heart. Of course he knew that this was not good, but he couldn't control himself. He could only pretend to be calm and carefully hide his inferiority and malice in Wen Tu's temper.

Just like Yu's mother would often point to a certain window with a yellow halo lamp on the opposite side when he was about to go to bed after studying at night, and said, "Look, the child across the way is still reading, and you are neither smart nor hardworking. Can you learn well?"

So for quite a long time, Yu Jinle hated to death the child who "studied hard and stayed up all night" from the unknown family opposite, but couldn't help but blame himself when his grades were not satisfactory. That man's diligence is so poor.

Maliciousness and self-blame made his character even more distorted.

I want to say that he has a little low self-esteem and always feels that he is not good enough-this is really "sight like a torch".

Not only did he feel that he was not good enough, he also believed that he was born to be useless.

In this environment, he couldn't get into the circle of high school students, he couldn't get in with high-skilled families, and he couldn't get over several hurdles from wealthy families.

Rather than saying that he has self-knowledge, it is better to say that he retreated because of lack of confidence.

Only thinking about him is a special case.

This person not only belongs to the overlapping positions of those circles, but also seems to be substantially different from the people in those circles.

Yu Jinle knew the difference between the two worlds from the very beginning, and he was afraid that what happened to Fang Xiyuan would happen again. He knew that his mentality was wrong, but inferiority complex had already been deeply ingrained in his blood and carved into his bones. The flow of blood and the movement of the spinal cord flowed all over his body and bones.

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Note?: All the time has been let down and wasted before you can pick up a certain passage from your memory, pat the dust on it, and lament that it is the best time——Hou Hsiao-hsien