I was the first to catch up

When the door was closed, Guan Buyu resisted the thought of slamming the door heavily, that would not work, it would only intensify the conflict.

Although he resisted this impulse, what Guan Jian said just now still made Guan Buyu feel very uncomfortable.

He didn't even say anything, just said: I called your head teacher, it seems that it is difficult for you to get into the second one.

Just such a sentence, Guan Jian never finished his words, but it made Guan Buyu understand what he was going to say.

She never liked this, and she would rather not understand it herself.

Guan Buyu sat at the desk, which was in a mess, full of test papers and workbooks, she swept away the eraser, feeling extremely irritable, and when she was annoyed, she wanted to call Jiang Lingyu.

While waiting for the call to get through, Guan Buyu took a deep breath.She is determined not to bring her negative emotions to Jiang Lingyu. Although she was a little depressed during the mid-term, she has decided now—whether she will go abroad or not, she will definitely do her best for Jiang Lingyu in the college entrance examination. .

Let's talk about the rest later.

She let out a breath slowly, the phone over there was connected, and Jiang Lingyu's voice came to her ears, as if just doing this would make her feel better.

Guan Buyu smiled, adjusted his tone, and asked her what she was doing.

"I'm reviewing. The final exam is coming—but the college entrance examination is even closer."

Jiang Lingyu's words seemed to be a reminder that she should keep silent and focus on her studies. In other words, don't call her all the time.

But Guan Buyu didn't understand this meaning, she tried to say in a cheerful tone:

"Well! There are still a few weeks! You know, I have studied hard during this period, and maybe I can really be admitted to a good university in the future. After all, this is the only way I am worthy of you."

Guan Buyu was talking over there, but Jiang Lingyu fell silent.She listened silently to Guan Buyu's voice and said, getting into a good university and then finding a good job, although Mrs. Fang said that I don't think I'm going to make a lot of money at first glance, but one must have some ambition!

Then, she heard Guan Buyu's voice lowered and said, and then I can hold your hand in front of the proprietress and say, proprietress, please let me and Jiang Lingyu be together.

This is what Guan Buyu often said. Jiang Lingyu would lower his head and smile when he heard it in the past, but he couldn't help thinking about what Guan Buyu said.Imagine a future where Guan Buyu will really stand in front of Yu Xiaomin hand in hand with her, and the sun will be good that day, warming people's hearts.

But now, Jiang Lingyu seemed to never see such a scene again.She suddenly felt that Guan Buyu's thinking was too beautiful, but Guan Buyu who was able to imagine so freely seemed to have a characteristic that she had never had before.That quality means "strong," means brave.

But she is not such a person.

Emotions surged up, and Jiang Lingyu wanted to say something, but a cough came instead.

Guan Buyu hurriedly asked her what's the matter, Jiang Lingyu wanted to say she was fine, but she could hardly stop coughing, and her heart also felt bursts of severe pain.

"Need, do you need me to take care of you?"

"No—I might be more tired if you come here."

Jiang Lingyu forced out this sentence, but Guan Buyu was stunned by the sudden truth.

She was stunned for a long time, her heart was numb, but Jiang Lingyu was still coughing, so Guan Buyu could only whisper "Then you have a good rest", and then hung up the phone.

Guan Buyu sat there and turned the phone upside down.Jiang Lingyu's words mixed with her worries, tearing at her thoughts.She didn't know how long she sat there, but in the end, she decided to pick up her phone and book a plane ticket.

the last time.

she thinks.

The last time, I went to Ming'an just to make myself feel at ease.

Jiang Lingyu on the other end of the phone was still coughing after hanging up the phone, Wu Jingjing got off the bed and hurriedly got her a glass of water, Jiang Lingyu said thank you for taking it, and took the medicine.

"Jiang Lingyu, why don't you take a good rest and go to the hospital? You can ask for a few days off, the teacher will definitely understand."

Wu Jingjing said this worriedly, Jiang Lingyu shook her head, she forced a smile and said:

"It's okay, I used to do it a lot. It's easier to commit crimes when you're stressed."

Although he had never had an illness in this season before, Jiang Lingyu knew very well where the familiar pain and uncontrollable weakness came from.

But she was still prepared to survive by herself and not tell Yu Xiaomin.It will be fine after a while. After this month passes, after the holiday, her body will definitely get better.

At that time, the college entrance examination will be over, and perhaps the matter of Guan Buyu will be solved.

Jiang Lingyu has always thought so.

But the situation has not improved, and even worsened.Since Guan Buyu mentioned it to her, Jiang Lingyu has been paying attention to the opening of the store in Huanjiang, but Yu Xiaomin didn't mention it, so Jiang Lingyu suffers from insomnia every night and can't sleep at all.

When Wu Jingjing and the others were discussing whether they should go somewhere to play together during the summer vacation, Jiang Lingyu could only smile back, and she wanted to go home to help.

"Jiang Lingyu is really filial, your mother must be very happy to have you."

An Meng's brows and eyes softened. When she said that, Jiang Lingyu waved her hand, but couldn't say a word.

She wanted to say, no.

"Xiao Yu, there is a mistake in the store, and I need to advance some money. I may not be able to give you two thousand this month. But, don't worry, this is only the case this month."

Hanging up Yu Xiaomin's phone, Jiang Lingyu sat there, she said to the air, no, if my mother didn't have me, she would definitely be happier than she is now.

The invisible words turned into weights and weighed heavily on Jiang Lingyu's body. She felt that her legs had been buried three-thirds of the way, and she couldn't pull them out no matter what.She knew she shouldn't think so, and she couldn't think so, but she couldn't.

She has known for a long time that she has such an allergic constitution, overly sensitive, and anything can easily arouse her emotions, making her feel pained, but she can't cry out.

Because she knew she was asking for trouble.

deserve it.

The moment Jiang Lingyu fell down was in class.The teacher was still talking, when Jiang Lingyu's eyes blurred suddenly, the pencil made marks on the paper, she seemed to be falling from somewhere.

As soon as she fell, the classroom erupted.She saw many people's faces with surprised eyes, and she wanted to raise her hand to say that I was fine, but in the end, her eyes went dark and she couldn't remember anything.

When Jiang Lingyu woke up again, she was already lying on the hospital bed.She was a little dazed, unable to speak, as if she was dreaming.In the dream, she saw Yu Xiaomin.Yu Xiaomin was talking to the doctor, and the doctor's voice came to his ears, and he was saying:

"...There are many reasons...the physical burden is actually okay, mainly the psychological pressure...well, there is no way to recover quickly...it really has to be considered clear."

Jiang Lingyu couldn't open her eyes, so she closed them again and fell into a deep sleep.She woke up several times during the period, and Yu Xiaomin did rush over from Huanjiang. She didn't say anything, but just took care of her as usual.Yu Xiaomin didn't mention anything about the things in the store and the hard work of coming over to take care of her suddenly.

They couldn't afford to live in a single ward, and they lived in a room for four people.The family members of other patients often come here, and the surroundings are very noisy. Jiang Lingyu always wants to find opportunities to study, but she really can’t learn. Efforts are of no avail.

"Don't watch it. I'm so tired, don't force yourself."

Occasionally, when Yu Xiaomin found out, Yu Xiaomin would pretend to be stern and take her books away.Jiang Lingyu had no choice but to watch Yu Xiaomin teach her a lesson, and peeled the fruit by the way.

Yu Xiaomin obviously didn't sleep well either, her body was a little hunched and she looked much older.Jiang Lingyu didn't feel relaxed, but became even heavier.

With Yu Xiaomin by his side, Jiang Lingyu kept tense, trying not to release these depressions.Keren's capacity is limited, and those who can bear it no longer have their limits.

And the needle that popped the balloon came from a phone call.

"Student Jiang Lingyu, isn't it? That's it. We have already communicated with your mother about your situation. We think you must take a break from school for a while to take good care of your body. Don't worry, you performed very well at school. Well, the school will definitely let you go back to school at that time. But as for the credits, there will be a possibility of retaking..."

When Jiang Lingyu heard the word "rebuild", her body trembled suddenly.A lot flashed through her mind, she thought of Yu Xiaomin, four years of university turned into five years, maybe it would be longer, which meant that she had no way to graduate faster, find a job, and then support the aging Yu Xiaomin .

She was already a burden in her own right.The extra time turned her into a swamp again, dragging Yu Xiaomin down.The huge sense of guilt broke through the shackles in an instant, the balloon burst open, Jiang Lingyu hung up the phone, and big tears fell on the quilt.

All the people in the ward were discharged from the hospital that day. Although new patients would be admitted tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, it was extremely quiet today.The usual noise is her protective color, but now, those voices have all disappeared inappropriately.The ward was so quiet that only Jiang Lingyu's own crying could be heard, she thought to herself, just this moment, this moment.

She hoped that no one would approach her, not even Yu Xiaomin.

But everything that happens during this time often backfires.

She heard someone calling her, and when she looked up, Jiang Lingyu saw Guan Buyu's head popping out from the door, she saw Jiang Lingyu crying, so she approached quickly and asked her what's wrong.Jiang Lingyu looked at her, speechless.

"The proprietress said that you... How are you feeling now? It's not winter yet, why are you suddenly sick? Didn't you say that college is easier than high school?"

Guan Buyu looked at her distressedly and said, she touched Jiang Lingyu's head and said:

"Are you forcing yourself again? Why didn't you tell me?"

Jiang Lingyu shook her head, tears fell, Guan Buyu's eyes were so pure - obviously she was just worried, but Jiang Lingyu didn't want to look up at her.

She was afraid of being burned, but the silent voice could not be stopped:

"Don't worry, if we are sick, we will cooperate with the treatment and have a good rest. Didn't you say that if there are any difficulties that cannot be solved, it is because we haven't eaten enough. Let's eat well and sleep well. Don't think about so many things— — classes can resume soon.”

Why is she always so inexplicably optimistic?Yes, probably because she couldn't understand her pain at all.Jiang Lingyu pinched the quilt, trying to control her thoughts, but to no avail.She couldn't help herself to think - because Guan Buyu would never have to worry about such material issues, because she was stronger than herself.

Once again, self-loathing surged up, and Jiang Lingyu hated herself for thinking this way.She hated this Jiang Lingyu who hated Guan Guan's silence, even hated him.She hated herself, because she really shouldn't hate Guan Muyu.

She heard this self talking, and she tried her best to suppress her emotions, but anyone could hear her pain.

she says:

"Shut up."

Jiang Lingyu's opening remarks have always been like this.

But this time, what happened next was different.

"I--I may not be as good as you think. My mother, Yu Xiaomin, she is not an ordinary person. She is not, Fang Ranran is not, and neither are you. You all have strengths, as if you are alone Can live well. But I am not. Jiang Lingyu is a very ordinary and ordinary person. It is this disease that makes her special. I need to work several times more than ordinary people to get what I want Things, others see that I am always on the verge of collapse, as if I have to go up and help my conscience so as not to feel uneasy."

"This is me, Guan Buyu. I am not good at all, and I am not special at all. What do other people say? Others always say that you are not worthy of me. Only I know that I am not worthy of you. "

Jiang Lingyu was tired of hearing what countless people said.She kept retorting, no, no.She's just a fragile creature with a beautiful skin.But what's the use of having a good-looking skin?She couldn't even stop crying, her heart was already broken.

The opinions of others are also correct.Jiang Lingyu is indeed fragile and unable to support herself.She can't do it.

The more she talked, the more she cried, but Guan Buyu was stuck there, unable to take half a step forward.

At the end, she heard Jiang Lingyu saying:

"Guan Buyu, I'm so tired now. Let's not meet again for now, okay?"

These words sounded like begging to Guan Buyu's ears.

Jiang Lingyu was clearly in front of her, with tears streaming down his face, in great pain.Guan Buyu wanted to reach out to save her, but found what Jiang Lingyu said:

Please, let me go.

Turns out she was the culprit.