I was the first to catch up

Guan Buyu didn't know how he got home.The world is very quiet, too quiet, completely dark, she can't get out no matter what.Even though she was already standing in front of the house, she didn't know whether to go in or not.She rushed to Ming'an quickly, and returned to Huanjiang late at night on the same day.

All the pay is like a joke.

However, even so, Guan Buyu didn't feel that Jiang Lingyu had done anything wrong.She didn't even cry, she was just in a daze, unable to think about anything.

She understood what Jiang Lingyu meant, she understood.But she still didn't know what to do with herself.She needs someone to guide herself at this moment, will that person be Fang Ranran?

Guan Buyu was about to lift his legs to leave the door of the house, but the door suddenly opened without any warning, Guan Jian stood in front of her, the cigarette in his hand was not lit, he said in a low voice:

"Auntie Yu has already told me. Is Jiang Lingyu feeling better?"

Guan Buyu nodded, then shook his head again.Guan Jian looked at her, silent.Then he turned and went into the house.

Guan Buyu subconsciously followed him into the room. The living room was dimly lit with no lights on. Guan Jian sighed a long time. He sat on the sofa and motioned for Guan Buyu to sit down too.

Perhaps it was because the current self was completely unable to be impulsive, and the fire source was extinguished, so Guan Buyu sat down listlessly, resting his forehead against the backpack in his arms.

She heard the sound of the lighter being turned on, and then the sound of it being closed. After a long time, Guan Jian spoke:

"You came back quickly this time."

Guan Buyu didn't speak.

"in argument."

This is the first time that Guan Buyu suddenly discovered that his father is not a dull person.She looked up at him, Guan Jian threw the cigarette on the table and said:

"People have their own lives, and you have your own."

He leaned back on the sofa and exhaled.

"Follow too closely, and some people will get out of breath and even start moving away from you."

Guan Buyu was stunned for a moment, she realized that Guan Jian was not talking about her own affairs, but his.

"...But, I didn't mean to."

Guan Buyu said in a low voice, something was scratching her heart, almost bleeding.

"No one did it on purpose."

These words made Guan Buyu's throat tighten, and she suddenly felt confused, extremely confused.A helpless sense of suffocation made her speak eagerly:

"But—but, Dad, why? Why did it become like this. Obviously——obviously neither Jiang Lingyu nor I want to do this."

Why do people inevitably have conflicts, misplaced understandings, and then quarrel-separate?

If possible, Guan Buyu really wanted to cut out her heart to show Jiang Lingyu, and then said, look, look.My heart is nothing but liking you.

So why are things the way they are?

"...Guan Silent."

Guan Jian sighed, his low voice sounded quietly in the living room, he said, look, life is like this.Life is, you will keep thinking: How did you develop to this point?Obviously it shouldn't be, where did it start wrong?

I often think so too.

Now I know that what we should consider is not why things have become like this, because things have come to this point, and time cannot go back.What we have to consider is how to fill this broken hole and make it look better—and make ourselves feel better.

For me, raising you well and giving you the best is my best compensation for my life.

Guan Jian's words gradually filled another hole in Guan Buyu's heart.Sometimes life is like that, opening a new seam while giving you a medicine that can heal an old wound.

Guan Buyu sniffed his nose, tears fell slowly, Guan Jian's words seemed to push her to start thinking, the gears turned, Guan Buyu said slowly:

"I think...I think Jiang Lingyu doesn't want to see me now. Once she sees me, she will have bad thoughts and become unhappy. I don't want this."

So, I want to leave.

Because of this, I will become very sad.When I think about Jiang Lingyu, when I think that I am one of the reasons for oppressing her, I feel sick to death.

"So, Dad."

Guan Buyu wiped away his tears, and said with a smile as if trying to pull himself together:

"I will work hard to study abroad."

After the college entrance examination in early June, the season transitioned to the summer of cicadas without mercy.Shrouded in a lazy atmosphere, Huanjiang gradually climbed to the end of June, and the city that had been dry for the entire June finally ushered in a gray and cloudy day today. The rain will not fall, and the pedestrians on the streets are gradually decreasing.

Yu Xiaomin stood at the door of Xiaomin's cafeteria. She put up the notice, pulled down the shutter door, and locked it again.After tidying up these things, she breathed a sigh of relief. The weather was the most stuffy at this time, and a thin layer of sweat was already forming on her forehead.Even so, she didn't want to leave, she stood there, staring at the rolling door in a daze.

Starting today, Xiao Min's cafeteria will be temporarily closed.

Jiang Lingyu's illness was the last push, pushing Yu Xiaomin to give up everything temporarily and think about what he could do.

However, until now, Yu Xiaomin didn't know if this was the beginning or the end.

She stood there in a daze, rubbing her sore shoulders habitually.She will go to the hospital to get medicine for Jiang Lingyu in a while, thinking of Jiang Lingyu, a trace of worry appeared in Yu Xiaomin's eyes.

Even though Jiang Lingyu behaved normally, she was still worried.Rather, that was why she was worried.

But it is like this a lot of times, when you are so close, the other party can’t hear you when you speak.It's like a transparent membrane.

Or rather, pretending not to hear.

"Yu Xiaomin."

When Yu Xiaomin turned around, he heard such a call.After a long, long time, a call made Yu Xiaomin speechless.

She looked up and saw Fang Ranran. She was carrying a messenger bag, standing there obediently, with her hair docile. Even in this weather, Fang Ranran could always tidy herself up.

But Yu Xiaomin took a step back in embarrassment. She stroked the bangs stuck to her forehead, trying to look away.

"Yu Xiaomin."

Fang Ranran is like this, if you don't answer her, she will keep barking until you answer her.Yu Xiaomin looked at her helplessly, and met Fang Ranran's gaze.

Fang Ranran looked up at the signboard of Xiao Min's canteen, then continued to look at her, and asked:

"Will it open again?"

Yu Xiaomin shook his head, not denying it.

"I do not know."

This is the truth.

But Fang Ranran nodded as if confirming something, and didn't know if she was satisfied with the answer.Yu Xiaomin didn't understand why she came to him at this time, but Fang Ranran was so smart, she would always answer Yu Xiaomin's questions in the next second.

"I was admitted to a foreign university at the end of last year."

Fang Ranran stood there straight, sounding a bit like asking for credit, but Yu Xiaomin just blinked, wondering if he still had the qualifications to praise her.

"So, I'll fly over there in a few days and start preparing for school."

Fang Ranran paused for a moment, and she looked at Yu Xiaomin, this busy and seemingly strong adult.Everyone said that she was strong, could not get drunk, and could carry everything by herself.But now, she stood there, so vulnerable that a gust of wind could blow her down.

No one could see it, only Fang Ranran could.

As long as there is himself in those eyes, Yu Xiaomin will be full of flaws.

This is the most secretive secret in Mr. Fang's heart.

Therefore, Fang Ranran spoke again.As expected of Fang Ranran, only she can say these words calmly and extremely seriously:

"Yu Xiaomin, tell the truth. If you put aside everything - age, gender, and your past. Just look at me, tell the truth, do you like me?"

Yu Xiaomin still didn't answer. She looked away and looked at the gray sky in the distance. It seemed that a drop of rain had fallen on the back of her hand.

She suddenly smiled like this, and answered as if she didn't hear Fang Ranran's question:

"My child, it's going to rain soon. If you don't have an umbrella, you should go home early."

Fang Ranran, who had been calm all this time, almost rushed forward when she heard it - but she still held back her breath forcefully.The disappointment she had tasted countless times completely chilled her heart this time.She also smiled, and said to herself: Sure enough, it still doesn't work.

Now she is still not qualified.

Fang Ranran walked briskly, but the rain fell after she left, splashing on Xiao Min's body. Yu Xiaomin stood for a while, and then finally got into his car as if he had come to his senses.

The rain drenched her clothes, and Yu Xiaomin was a little cold. She hugged herself, her teeth chattering.

It was only now that she belatedly admitted:

"……Is not this nonsensical."

How could Yu Xiaomin not like Fang Ranran.

Even, she wouldn't say it like Fang Ranran.She smiled, leaned on the seat, stared at the heavy rain outside the window, and said softly:

"Children, we adults don't usually say like. We use the word love."

Of course she knew - she loved Fang Ranran.

After this rainy day in late June, a lot has changed.For example, the Xiaomin cafeteria near No. [-] Middle School, which had been open for many years, was temporarily closed. Although the customers felt a little sorry, they went to other newly opened shops instead.

Some people said that the vicious Huanjiang dog seemed to be haunting again, but she stopped fighting, always wore a pair of headphones, and sat on the same bus from day to night.

And Mr. Fang, the god of learning in No. [-] Middle School, became one of the few foreign students in Huanjiang, and was admitted to a prestigious overseas school.From then on, every time No. [-] Middle School welcomes new students, they will say this: "Do you know that Fang Ranran from our school—"

For Xiao Min, there is still a small change in life.That was the two bags of food that were sent by strangers every Sunday. After that rainy day, they were only delivered once for the last time.

It was different that time, because there was an extra note on the receipt, and the note was only four words: eat well.

After that, whether it was the two bags of food or Fang Ranran who called Jiang Dingming famous, everything was in Xiao Min's world and there was no news.

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